dreamer

For Wei Xi, Ji Changsi is a ray of light in his life.

The days after amnesia are really hard.

Although Wei Xi has gone through the painful period and is no longer troubled by such things as amnesia, he has indeed been tortured by his own experience. He is not without feeling, he also has intentions.

He also thought that someone could talk to him and let him complain, but even a peaceful life has become a luxury, so how could anyone be willing to give him a hand?

After failing to commit suicide, Wei Xi fell into a more decadent and lost state. How can a person who can't even die continue to live in this world?

Wei Xi was sitting in the corner seat, with the same dull expression on his face, as if everything around him had nothing to do with him, he neither listened to the lecture nor cared about any troubles, and only the note was left in his mind. The two words, waste.

In fact, you are right, he is really like a waste.

Now that suicides have been discovered, how will they be treated next time?

Wei Xi made unreasonable guesses in her heart.

But the expected thing didn't happen, his impulsive behavior didn't seem to be leaked out, everything was as usual, no one looked at him differently from the past, of course, when he was bullied, he was as usual It's unbearable.

It's just that from then on, Wei Xi often found things in his desk that didn't belong to him.

They are all weird things, maybe a sticky note with a smiling face, maybe a creeper leaf, or maybe another small lollipop.

At first, Wei Xi was very puzzled by such things, but he was too embarrassed to ask who put them there.

He thought it might be someone's prank, the transparent wrapping paper held the red candy, which looked like the color of blood, and he was not stupid enough to believe in the existence of goodwill in such an environment.

So the red lollipop was thrown into the trash can.

Then the next day, he received a blue lollipop.

Wei Xi frowned, and still threw it into the trash can.

Then on the third day, it was a colored lollipop…

Wei Xi was really dumbfounded.

The originally confused eyes became even more puzzled. He really couldn't figure out who would do such a thing and why.

Just after Wei Xi threw that lollipop into the trash can again, the next day, he finally received a yellow sticky note with the handwriting still scribbled on it, this time asking him a question.

Why not eat it?

Wei Xi raised her head in a daze, slowly looked at the whole class one by one, and then lowered her head again.

He really couldn't think of anyone in this class who could do this to him.

Then, there was another red lollipop lying quietly on the table, with a yellow sticky note next to it, which said 'really delicious'.

There is also a strange yet familiar smiling face drawn in the lower right corner.

This time, instead of throwing the lollipop into the trash can, Wei Xi put it in her schoolbag and took it home.

After finishing her homework facing the desk lamp, Wei Xi rubbed her sore fingers.

It may only take an hour for others to do their homework, but if it were Wei Xi, it would take him twice as long. Maybe it's because he is a bit stupid.

Wei Xi took out the lollipop from her schoolbag, peeled off the wrapping paper, and stared at the light for a long time.

Red candy, it looks really pretty.

Put it under your nose and smell it, there is no special smell.

Carefully licked it with the tip of her tongue, then put it in her mouth.

Wei Xi lowered her eyes with a lollipop in her mouth.

Well, it's really delicious.

The sweet taste turned into a warm current flowing to my heart, but a line of sour tears flowed from my eyes.

This was the first time he felt a ray of kindness from this world.

And Wei Xi, who has rarely been treated kindly, really has no ability to resist such kindness.

From then on, Wei Xi began to slowly try to establish a connection with this stranger who had never met before in this way.

'Who are you? '

For such a question, the answer is that the mysterious little gift suddenly disappeared.

Many days passed, looking at the empty table, Wei Xi began to suspect that it was just some boring person making fun of him.

When the yellow sticky note appeared again, he didn't mention Wei Xi's question, but teased him inexplicably, 'the clouds are beautiful today'.

Repeatedly, every time Wei Xi's interest in him was aroused, this anonymous guy would disappear for a while.When Wei Xi's attention was about to divert, he would suddenly appear again.

Just like the dust under the light and shadow, they always surround you quietly, and you can't catch them with your hands. You can only see them when the light appears.

Wei Xi has a kind of attachment to this mysterious person, but she is never attached to his identity.

'I want to see you. '

'don't want. '

'why? '

'It would be looked down upon if people knew I was friends with a guy like you. '

Wei Xi answered very rudely, but Wei Xi didn't feel angry at all. He knew exactly where he stood, and he didn't want to cause trouble for others.

'All right. '

'Give up like this? '

'I don't want to get you into trouble. '

'You guys are really boring. '

Having said that, I received another purple lollipop the next day.

Wei Xi held a creeper leaf and lay on the window sill. The green leaves and the sweet and greasy taste in her mouth made her heart soft.

If the mysterious man doesn't want him to know who he is, then he just doesn't want to know.

It is enough to be like this now, and he is already very satisfied knowing that there is still one person in this world who is willing to talk to him.

With this understanding, even being bullied won't feel hard to bear.

It doesn't matter if you are excluded or used as an object to vent your anger on, even if there are many painful places, there will always be a place in my heart that emits faint light and heat.

But later no one dared to bully him with violence.

The classmate who often took the lead in bullying Wei Xi was blocked in the toilet and beat him up severely. When the teacher found out, his face was already covered in blood.Later, that classmate was sent to the hospital and had four stitches on his head. When he returned to school and saw Wei Xi, his eyes were full of timidity.

Those who are soft are afraid of those who are hard, those who are hard are afraid of those who are stunned, and those who are stunned are afraid of death.

Who wants to have the same knowledge as a desperate lunatic?

Even though the school uniform was covered on the head when he was beaten, the student who was beaten insisted that Wei Xi was the one who did it.Although Wei Xi repeatedly denied it, and everyone couldn't believe that Wei Xi, who had always been so cowardly, would do such a thing for a while, but the one who took the blame in the end was Wei Xi.

For such a result, Wei Xi didn't feel too indignant. ·

Because he knew who was beating someone, and if someone had to bear the consequences, in order to protect that person, he was willing to put the blame on himself.

Wei Xi won't be bullied anymore. Although the cold violence will never end, at least no one dares to touch him anymore. It sounds like a blessing in disguise.

But not long after, the guy who did this kind of thing for Wei Xi was going to transfer school.

It seemed that he was very worried that Wei Xi would continue to do stupid things after he left, so he specifically instructed him.

'You can even die, can't you live a good life? '

Only then did Wei Xi know that the person who saved him was also this mysterious person.

"So, you haven't seen Ji Changsi until now?"

Ji Ziyang asked puzzled.

"How could it be?" Wei Xi smiled lightly, "He would come to see me all the time, although he didn't stay for a long time every time."

Ji Ziyang frowned slightly, "When did you meet him?"

"…forget."

"forget?"

"Well..." Wei Xi paused, raised her eyes and asked in confusion, "What's wrong?"

Ji Ziyang waved his hand, "No, it's nothing, I just think the matter between you two...it's weird, why didn't he see you?"

"Be shy, don't think he has a bad temper, but in fact Changsi is very shy."

Wei Xi lowered her eyes and smiled slightly, then tilted her head and continued lying on the window sill in a daze.

"So that's why you like him?"

Wei Xi looked at the clouds in the sky and didn't answer him.

Seeing that Wei Xi didn't seem to want to continue talking, Ji Ziyang also fell silent.

It was not easy to learn so many things intermittently from Wei Xi's mouth.If it wasn't because these things were about Ji Changsi, maybe Wei Xi wouldn't want to talk to him so much at all.

Ji Ziyang thought for a while, then asked Wei Xi, "Which school are you from?"

"high school?"

"kindness."

"Nanzhong."

Ji Ziyang nodded, held his lips and bit them, and got up to bid farewell as if he had decided on something.

"I was looking for you today, but it turned out like this... Forget it, you should rest at home and talk about it later."

After finishing speaking, Ji Ziyang left in a hurry like the wind.

Wei Xi turned her head to look at the empty entrance, and sighed indifferently.

He didn't tell Ji Ziyang that he had actually met Ji Changsi when he transferred schools.

It's not that he deliberately concealed it, it's just that he felt that there were too many trivial things between Ji Changsi and him, and there was nothing necessary to say.

Wei Xi walked to the sofa, lay down in the position that Ji Ziyang had just occupied, curled up with the pillow, and decided to have a good sleep.

Before falling asleep, he remembered the high school days, before Ji Changsi left.

At that time, Wei Xi, who learned that Ji Changsi was leaving, was confused and had a headache.

If Ji Changsi were to leave him, he didn't know if he could live a good life.

Although they had known each other not long ago, the appearance of the mysterious man was like a ray of light in the dark night, it was the only thing he could rely on.

Wei Xi felt flustered for the first time, and he never felt scared when he was beaten up for the first time, but at this moment he was so scared that he couldn't breathe.He really didn't want the only person who could be called a friend to leave here, he didn't even know what he looked like, he didn't even know what his name was, let alone say thank you to him.

Wei Xi wandered around shifts by herself, dragging everyone she met and asking, "Is that you?"

Everyone avoided him like a fool, and even felt disgusted by his touch.But Wei Xi didn't care about that disgusted look, he just wanted to find that mysterious person.

But everything seemed to be in vain, Wei Xi stood in the corridor alone in a daze, full of sadness.

That's right, that person said that he didn't want to see him. If they were seen standing together, that person would be looked down upon.

So how did he find him?

At this moment, his fingertips were suddenly touched lightly, and a guy in a white school uniform shirt brushed past Wei Xi and gradually disappeared into the crowd.

Wei Xi froze for a moment, turned his head, and chased the figure all the way by feeling, through the long corridor, squeezed through the bustling crowd, and finally got lost when he reached the corner. Another chuckle was heard from above the stairs.

The figure flashed past, Wei Xi swallowed, and followed the ethereal figure up to the rooftop.

But there was nothing on the empty rooftop except for gusts of breeze.

Is that all in the end?

Just when Wei Xi was once again disappointed and didn't know what to do, someone blindfolded her from behind.

"Do not be afraid."

A soft voice rang in Wei Xi's ear.

The man held Wei Xi's waist with one hand and covered Wei Xi's eyes with the other, as if he knew what Wei Xi was thinking, and said to him gently, "Why are you so stupid."

Wei Xi was so nervous that he was dying, he carefully touched the hand covering his eyes, that hand was cold, with clear bones.

"Is...is that you?"

"kindness."

After getting an affirmative answer, Wei Xi finally breathed a sigh of relief.

The wind on the roof was very strong, messing up the corners of the two people's clothes and messing up the hair of the two people.

Their postures have not changed, the man has been tightly covering Wei Xi's eyes, and Wei Xi has not removed the hands attached to that hand.

"Tell me, what's your name?"

The person behind him smiled again, he hesitated for a moment, and whispered into Wei Xi's ear, "My name is Ji... My name is Ji Changsi."

So his name is Ji Changsi...

His surname is Ji...

When Wei Xi heard this name, she felt inexplicably sore. There was obviously no reason, but when she heard the surname, her heart ached and her eyes felt inexplicably sour.

Ji Changsi also felt the heat and humidity in his hands, so he tightened his arms around Wei Xi.

"Are you leaving me again?"

"again?"

Ji Changsi was puzzled by Wei Xi's question.

And Wei Xi didn't know why he used an extra word at this time. He just felt that his head was in a mess and his consciousness seemed a little unclear. Even the sentence just now didn't seem to be what he said. It was as if something was struggling to get out of his soul, he repelled this feeling, he didn't like it.

"Wei Xi?"

Suddenly, Ji Changsi's pleasant voice rang in his ears again, and this call dispelled the chaos in Wei Xi's mind like a clear stream.

There is nothing left to struggle with.

Wei Xi's eyes trembled, he held Ji Changsi's hand tightly, and pleaded in a low voice, "Can you not leave me? I, I can't live without you..."

After hearing this sentence, Ji Changsi put his head into Wei Xi's neck.

"Don't be afraid, I'm always here."

"...Otherwise, just sleep when you miss me," Ji Changsi's tone was still brisk, as if he wanted to find a way to comfort Wei Xi who was helpless at the moment, "...everything is there in the dream."

When Wei Xi woke up again, Ji Changsi was no longer there.

On the empty rooftop, everything seemed like a dream.

There is only a green creeper leaf tightly held in my hand.

Later, for a long time after Ji Changsi left, Wei Xi often had a whim, maybe the person who hadn't heard from him since then was really just a illusory dreamer.Even if the touch is so real that it is impossible to say that it is fake, even if the collected notes and leaves all show the existence of Ji Changsi, but he has never seen Ji Changsi, and everything seems a little unreal .

Fortunately, Ji Changsi has been writing to him since then, and he would come back from other cities to meet him. If not, Wei Xi might really think that he was to blame for meeting him.

Before falling asleep, Wei Xi smiled slightly.

The author has something to say:

...In fact, Ji Changsi is a creeper, right?

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