dreamer

Wei's mother folded the clothes on the bed and looked at Wei Xi who was lying on the window sill in a daze.

She stood up, walked behind Wei Xi, and said softly to him, "Don't stay here, you'll catch a cold."

But Wei Xi, who was staring out the window in a daze, sat there motionless as if she hadn't heard anything.

Mother Wei sighed, patted him on the shoulder, turned around and picked up the bag on the bed and went out.

Ji Ziyang leaned outside the ward and stared blankly. When he saw Wei's mother coming out, he reacted and rushed to meet her.

Mother Wei glanced at Ji Ziyang, her eyes were full of alienation.

To be honest, she hated herself for turning Wei Xi into what she is now, but she couldn't help herself not to vent her anger on the child in front of her.

It has been more than a week since we found out that Wei Xi was ill.Seeing that the end of the year was approaching, she never expected that the nightmare that had passed ten years would continue to this point.

Wei's mother sighed again, this year's [-]-year-old will probably spend it in the hospital.

Ji Ziyang also knew that some things were not done very well. After all, such a big incident happened, but they kept hiding it from her. It was unreasonable to say anything.

So he looked at Mother Wei, and hurriedly asked again, "Shall I take you back?"

Wei's mother glanced at him, and said lightly, "You should look at Wei Xi."

After finishing speaking, he left with a change of clothes and a lunch box.

Looking at Mother Wei's back, Ji Ziyang pursed his lips, and then walked into the ward.

Wei Xi was hospitalized again, not because of anything else, but because his mood was not normal, and it was convenient for them to help him here.

Strange isn't it?

He obviously hadn't told Wei Xi the truth of the matter, but found that Wei Xi became a little mentally disturbed after waking up the next day.

Should it be said that it is because they share a heart all the time, so there are certain aspects of induction?

When Wei Xi woke up from the dream, her face was full of indescribable helplessness and panic.

He suddenly got up from the bed and searched around the house. He checked every room. He didn't even bother to ask his mother when he saw him. He was just looking for something at a loss.

Finally, when Ji Ziyang couldn't bear to hold Wei Xi, Wei Xi turned around and supported Ji Ziyang's arm, and kept asking him, "Have you seen Ji Changsi? Have you seen him?"

There was a trace of sadness in Ji Ziyang's eyes, but he insisted on showing a peaceful face, "Wei Xi, what's wrong with you? Did you have a nightmare?"

"No... I didn't have a nightmare..." Wei Xi lowered her gaze, and slowly let go of Ji Ziyang, covering her chest and muttering to herself, her breathing became a little heavy, "I... here... I feel uncomfortable... I can't breathe..."

"Wei Xi?" Ji Ziyang frowned, quickly supported Wei Xi who had fallen to the ground, and looked at him with concern, "What's wrong with you?"

"...It's so uncomfortable...It's so uncomfortable..." Wei Xi tightly clenched the clothes in front of her chest, and suddenly raised her head to look at Ji Ziyang with difficulty, "It hurts so much! It's like being empty, it hurts so much!"

Ji Ziyang couldn't help but panic when he heard the words, "Go, I'll take you to the hospital!"

But after saying this, Wei Xi couldn't help but fell to the ground and cried loudly.

This scene shocked everyone, even Xu Fei did not expect such a situation.

No matter how Ji Ziyang comforted Wei Xi, or even helped him caress his chest, it didn't have any effect on alleviating the pain. Instead, it just made Wei Xi hold his hand tightly, crying even more unbearably.

"It hurts...so sad..."

Wei Xi was crying so sadly that even he couldn't explain what was wrong with him. He only knew that when he opened his eyes, he felt an unprecedented sadness. The sadness made him breathless, and the sadness made him just want to cry. .And the chest position is so painful, it hurts like a piece of flesh has been gouged out, the pain makes people want to die, as long as it doesn't hurt so much, it's okay to die like this immediately.

Wei Xi was rushed to the hospital, but after a series of examinations, there was nothing abnormal at all.

How could there be nothing abnormal?How could there be nothing abnormal?

Wei Xi couldn't help but pounded her chest, feeling as if she was about to die.

If there is nothing abnormal, why does the heart hurt so much?

Later, Wei Xi began to feel a little abnormal.

I can't say what's abnormal, it's just that there are too many inexplicable uneasiness than before.

He wanted to see Ji Changsi very much, and he felt that no one could calm him down except Ji Changsi.

He asked many times in a panic, "Where is Changsi? Where is Changsi? I want to see him!"

But whenever he asked Ji Ziyang that, Ji Ziyang just frowned, and then squeezed out a faint smile and told him, "He...he may be a little busy recently."

Whenever seeing such an expression on Ji Ziyang's face, Wei Xi's heart would be more filled with that kind of hopeless uneasiness.

It's impossible to think about it carefully, but why does he always feel that something happened when he didn't know, but he couldn't know about those things anyway.

So Wei Xi began to wait, he was waiting for when Ji Changsi would come to him.

But this waited for a long, long time, so long that he suddenly remembered the feeling when he broke contact with Ji Changsi, and the uneasiness in his heart became more and more intense.

Wei Xi was asked to stay in the hospital for observation, and this time, he was still under the care of his mother.

Whenever he was about to lose his hold, it was Ji Ziyang who appeared by his side.

When it was so painful that he couldn't breathe, or when he was too anxious to know what to do, it was Ji Ziyang who was always by his side and held his hand tightly.

While listening to Ji Ziyang's gentle voice, Wei Xi tried her best to breathe, and kept looking at him from the corner of her eye.

Why, did it become Ji Ziyang?

He remembered that he had said to Ji Changsi before that it was always you, the person who appeared in front of me when I was most desperate and helpless, always you.

But why, the person who appeared in front of him now turned into Ji Ziyang?

Wei Xi's situation improved slightly. After all, no matter how intense the inexplicable heartache was, it would not last long. Wei Xi, who knew nothing about what had happened before, was still within the controllable range.

It's just that this improvement is still accompanied by a subtlety.

Wei Xi fell from an extremely excited state to an extremely depressed state.

Every day, he would ask Ji Ziyang with his usual questioning expression, "Where is Changsi? Why didn't he come to me again? Have you seen him these days?"

Ji Ziyang paused every time, and then said softly, "I haven't seen him before."

Hearing this, Wei Xi nodded as if she understood clearly, and then returned to a state of silence, silently staring out of the window, languid all day, without saying a word.

Then the next day, when Ji Ziyang came to see him again, Wei Xi turned his head and looked at him with a questioning expression as soon as he entered the door, "Where is Changsi? Why didn't he come to me again? You these days Ever met him?"

Ji Ziyang was stunned.

Every day when he came to see Wei Xi, he would ask the same question again and again.

Then after getting the same answer as every day, Wei Xi seemed to have fallen into another world, no matter who appeared in front of him at that time, he would not have any reaction.

In order for Wei Xi to pass the boring time in the hospital, Wei Xi's mother specially brought him a set of things needed for painting.

Wei Xi looked at her mother and whispered, "Thank you."

Wei Xi's mother smiled and patted Wei Xi's head.

"How long are you going to wait?" Xu Fei stretched his arms and sighed, with no trace of sadness or joy in his tone, "Try to talk to him and let him know what kind of existence Ji Changsi is."

Ji Ziyang thought for a while, and his eyes became extremely complicated.

How should I tell Wei Xi the truth of the matter, and how should I tell him that even without Ji Changsi, you still have me.

Ji Ziyang walked into the ward and saw Wei Xi staring out the window in a daze.

"Wei Xi?"

He walked behind Wei Xi, gently pulled his arm to stand up, then led him to sit back on the hospital bed, "What are you looking at?"

Wei Xi was stunned for a while, then slowly raised her eyes to look at him, and whispered, "Outside the window."

Ji Ziyang pursed his lips. Although Wei Xi didn't like to talk to others, he never rejected Ji Ziyang, which made Ji Ziyang feel a little relieved.

"Why do you always look out the window?"

"...wait for someone."

"Wait someone?"

"kindness."

Wei Xi lowered her eyes and gave a soft grace, her face was as pure as an angel.

Ji Ziyang couldn't help his heart skip a beat, raised his hand, and gently stroked Wei Xi's face with his fingertips.

But in the next second, Wei Xi tilted his head slightly, and then lowered his head even lower.

Ji Ziyang's heart tightened, and he withdrew his hand. After a long silence, he hesitated to start a topic, "By the way, I saw a patient today. It's quite complicated. Let me tell you?"

Wei Xi nodded wordlessly, then looked up at Ji Ziyang, waiting for him to tell him a story.

"My patient was very young. He experienced some bad encounters when he was a child, and then those bad encounters had a deep impact on him. Slowly, he changed."

"...become a murderous maniac?"

"Ha, how is it possible."

Wei Xi narrowed her eyes, "...what is that?"

"...He suffered from a very troublesome disease. Some of the shadows he experienced in his youth gave him a new self, which is commonly known as a dual personality."

"Is... crazy? The kind of schizophrenia?"

"No, dual personality is not the same as schizophrenia. Schizophrenia sees hallucinations, while dual personality is like the birth of a new soul inside a person."

"...so two souls living together in one body?"

"Well, that's what it means."

"Won't there be trouble?"

"Theoretically, they are unaware of each other's existence, but in case of anything, my patient, his main personality and sub-personality met, and... became friends."

Wei Xi looked at Ji Ziyang hesitantly, "How is that possible? Are you alone, with yourself, in front of the mirror?"

"No, their communication is spiritual. In the consciousness and mind, it is also accompanied by a little schizophrenia. Only some hallucinations appear, which helps them communicate with each other."

"...Then, do these two souls know about each other?"

"This is the trickiest part, because they don't realize it to each other, they don't realize what they are, and they don't realize what the other is." Ji Ziyang licked the corner of his lips, and looked at Wei Wei again. Xi said, "But then the sub-personality knew the truth of everything, and now only the main personality is left, but he is a very sensitive and fragile guy. Tell me, how should I tell him?"

Seeing Ji Ziyang's deep gaze, Wei Xi was stunned for a moment, and inexplicably tightened the corner of her clothes, "Why do you ask me, I...I don't know."

Ji Ziyang took a deep breath indiscriminately, "Did you know? In fact, each sub-personality is reflected based on the early experience of the main personality. As a patient, I had a very important...friend when I was young. They grew up together and were inseparable, but then..."

As Ji Ziyang was speaking, he suddenly felt soreness deep in his eye sockets, but he just sniffed and continued, "Later, that friend of his...had to leave him for some reason, and even broke up with him. contact, so he was very sad..."

Something that was tense broke with a "snap", Wei Xi's eyes fell, and she stared at the white sheet in front of her expressionlessly, without moving.

"Later, because some bad things happened to him, he lost his memory... After losing his memory, he was very helpless. Although he couldn't remember anything, what remained in his subconscious was about the friend who grew up with him. However, his figure has become a secondary personality, and he has been with him ever since..."

Wei Xi's lips were trembling slightly, but Ji Ziyang just looked at him quietly.

"But they can't go on like this forever, can they? Even if he has fallen in love with that sub-personality, they still can't be together," Ji Ziyang was silent for a while, and asked Wei Xi softly, "But now, that patient His friend has returned to him, you say, his friend, what should I do?"

Wei Xi just sat there with her head down for a long, long time.

Then, he slowly raised his head, his eyes were red, and there were unusual crystals inside, but he only showed a faint smile, "It's really... a complicated story."

Ji Ziyang also smiled, but the circles of his eyes were also a little red, "Ah, yes."

"It's very pitiful... You must think that your patient is a little too pitiful?"

"No, I just want to help him."

"...cough," Wei Xi cleared her throat and sniffed again, "but this question is too difficult, I...can't help you."

"But, his friend, really wants to help him."

"...Perhaps, even so, he doesn't need help at all?"

Wei Xi's lips trembled a little, and the sparkle in his eyes seemed to pour out at any moment, "Perhaps in fact, even so, he feels very good?"

Really good, isn't it.

Maybe in the eyes of others, he is very bad.What a miserable experience, he is really poor.

But it's not like that. Others think that way, but he doesn't think that way.

He may think that he is really good now, he is self-reliant, he is working hard to live, even though he is a little stupid, a little slow, many things are not as smooth as others, and he is not as glamorous as the hair boy who grew up with him in front of him. , but he has been struggling in this indifferent world very hard, and he has been walking hard.

He doesn't have nothing, he has a job and his own home. Although he is not close, he also has a mother. His mother is in good health, and he is also in good health. These are things to be happy about.

What's more, he still has someone he likes.

Yes, he likes that person, no matter what form that person appears in, that liking is real.

Even after going through so much pain, he can still have a feeling of liking someone. Such a thing is precious, isn't it?

And even in the darkest of days, he was not alone.

A mysterious guy reached out to him when he was most desperate, hugged his fragile body in the coldest moment, and brought him the hottest courage to live , that's all he got, isn't it?

So it seems that he is very lucky.

After all, not everyone can be helped in the most difficult time. After all, not all desperate people can be redeemed at the last moment. Compared with those who can no longer turn back, God actually takes good care of him yes, right?

Ji Changsi is his luck.

Thinking of this, Wei Xi got up and walked to the window, looking at the white clouds in the sky.

After an unknown amount of time, he suddenly asked softly, "Do you think that the sub-personality in the story will also like the main personality?"

The ward was so quiet that one could hear the quiet drop of a needle.

Ji Ziyang blinked his eyes hard, trying to take back the liquid that rose from his eye sockets.

He sniffed and said to Wei Xi calmly, "Ah, of course."

"Of course he likes him."

Wei Xi also sniffed, turned to look at Ji Ziyang, and smiled, "Really?"

Ji Ziyang also showed a smile, and just sat there looking at Wei Xi.

"Well, from the first day they met, he liked him."

"Really?"

"real."

Ji Ziyang nodded vigorously, even though the tears were falling drop by drop uncontrollably, he still didn't know it.

He remembered that he never had the opportunity to tell Wei Jiale that he liked him.

And Wei Xi never told Ji Changsi that he liked him.

The confession that has been buried deep in my heart from the beginning to the end, in this loss, no one party has ever been able to convey it to my sweetheart.

Even now, this intricate relationship, even now, still can't be sorted out.

But bear with it, there will always be a day when you can't bear it.

Even though the person he was facing was no longer the most suitable person to say that confession, Ji Ziyang still firmly said the simplest and most explainable confession.

"Ji Changsi, my favorite is Wei Xi."

Because Ji Ziyang's favorite is Wei Jiale.

Then Wei Xi smiled. His smile was so pretty, it was a kind of smile that made people understand instantly what they liked when they saw it.

Just smiling, he still couldn't help turning around and lying on the window sill, then buried his head in his arms, closed his eyes in despair, and burst into tears.