dreamer

After Xu Fei sorted out the case at hand, he took off his glasses and rubbed his eyes, then got up and stretched his arms out of the window, exercising his muscles and bones.

His office is facing the inpatient building, and there is a green space for people to walk in the middle.

Xu Fei's eyes moved, and his eyes were concentrated in one place. He couldn't help lying down on the window sill and looking outside for a while, then turned and walked out of the office.

The time to arrive at the ward was just right, and the people inside had just arrived, and the door hadn't even had time to close.

Xu Fei didn't make a sound, just looked quietly in the ward, a person was squatting in front of another person in a wheelchair, and covered his legs with the blanket in his hand.

That man was called Ji Ziyang, he was a friend Xu Fei met a few years ago, he was considered half of his colleagues, if he insisted, he should be regarded as his junior.

Sitting in the wheelchair was a young man, with even breathing and lowered eyes, at first glance he looked like an ordinary person.It was only after a long time that I realized that this person seemed a little abnormal, as if he didn't respond to everything around him, his downcast eyes were empty and devoid of desire, and his whole body was as quiet as if he had died.

His name is Wei Xi, he is Xu Fei's patient, and he has a complicated relationship with Ji Ziyang. The most appropriate way to say it is that he is someone Ji Ziyang likes.

Ji Ziyang noticed Xu Fei, turned his head and smiled at him, then squatted in front of Wei Xi, and said softly to him, "Jia Le, Xu Fei is here."

The person in the wheelchair remained motionless in the wheelchair, and did not respond to Ji Ziyang's words.

Xu Fei pursed his lips and sighed silently in his heart.

However, Ji Ziyang seemed to be used to this, he only touched the man's face lightly, with a gentle smile on his face.

How long has passed, Xu Fei counted the days in his heart, probably more than two months.

The man Ji Ziyang called Jia Le is here, but not here.

More than two months ago, the master personality of this body completely disappeared in a desperate morning.

Because he fell in love with his sub-personality, and after the sub-personality disappeared, he chose to follow him.

Xu Fei had witnessed everything that happened, he once thought that Ji Ziyang would collapse, at least he would not be able to recover in a short time.

But his good friend was surprisingly calm. He just sat there all night facing the unconscious guy on the hospital bed, and then the next morning, with his eyes swollen, he began to discuss the aftermath with Xu Fei.

From then on, Ji Ziyang called this person Wei Jiale, even though everyone called him Wei Xi, Ji Ziyang still stubbornly called him Jiale.

That was Wei Xi's past name.

How to define a person's life and death?

Wei Jiale's body functions are perfect, and his vital signs are normal as defined in the textbook.After being in a coma for three full days, he opened his eyes, but he could no longer recognize what was in front of him.

Just like a computer with all programs deleted, the body in front of him is just like an empty shell, and there is no soul to speak of inside.

Xu Fei thinks this phenomenon is very abnormal. You say this person is crazy, but he is not, because his main personality and secondary personality have disappeared. Can a person without personality be called crazy?

He might be crazy, he might stay in a spiritual world that only belongs to him, or he might become a walking dead. In short, the only certainty is that this person will never "wake up" again.

In this regard, Ji Ziyang has never expressed any opinions. After facing the "separation of life and death", he has no time to think about anything.

"You don't want me anymore, right? In fact, you haven't wanted me since a long time ago, right? But it doesn't matter, no matter what you become, I will never leave you again. I will stay with you, okay? I will always be with you..."

A long time ago, Xu Fei leaned outside the door, silently listening to the few words coming from inside.

Only then did he understand that Wei Jiale is still "alive", perhaps the only motivation that can support Ji Ziyang to continue to live rationally.

Even if Ji Ziyang doesn't say anything, even if Ji Ziyang behaves normally, Xu Fei can tell that a certain part of Ji Ziyang has disappeared along with the disappearing personality.

Ji Ziyang stayed by Wei Jiale's side every day, and at first he almost never left.

The New Year's Eve was also spent in the hospital. Wei Jiale's mother made dumplings, and the two spent New Year's Eve together guarding Wei Jiale.

In fact, it didn't go so smoothly at first.

After Wei Jiale's mother learned what had happened to her son, she almost fainted from crying, showing the emotions and reactions that humans should have to the fullest.

She once lost control and attributed everything to Ji Ziyang. After waking up, she grabbed Ji Ziyang's collar like crazy and accused him hoarsely, "It's you! If it wasn't for you! Wei Xi is fine! It's all You! It's all you...what sin did I do...why..."

For a while, Wei Jiale's mother refused to let Ji Ziyang approach her son.

It was a very difficult time for everyone, whether it was Ji Ziyang or Wei Jiale's mother.They all did something wrong, they can all be called the culprits, but they all love Wei Jiale, there is no doubt about it.

So the best way to punish them is to take away their most precious things.

And Wei Jiale in that world will never encounter those cruel pains in this world again.

Mother Wei also couldn't put on a good face towards Ji Ziyang.

"I will take care of my son myself. It's none of your business here, and you don't need to worry about it in the future. Thank you."

But no matter how Mother Wei kept Ji Ziyang out, when she got up early the next morning and opened the door, she could still see Ji Ziyang waiting outside.

Later, Wei's mother's natal family came here, and after hearing about Wei Jiale, they came here before the end of the year.

Wei Jiale took his mother's surname because his father left them both when he was very young.

When the members of Wei's family came, they relieved a lot of pressure on Wei's mother. At any rate, there was someone to take care of Wei Jiale.

Then they began to persuade Wei's mother to take Wei Jiale back with them, and stop floating outside alone. Wei Jiale has become like this, so let's go home with them. After all, we are a family, and there is always someone together. take care of.

Mother Wei's heart was moved, and the idea of ​​going back to her hometown really welled up.

There is no way, their lives are already difficult for orphans and widows, but now that this is the case, their relatives are their only support.

But in the end Mother Wei decided to stay and have a look.

Xu Fei didn't know how Ji Ziyang persuaded Wei's mother. He only knew that when Ji Ziyang came out of the ward that day, his eyes were red, and Wei's mother seemed to have just finished crying.

The man has gold under his knees, and Wei's mother can't figure it out. What is this kid named Ji Ziyang thinking, and why does he do this for his son?

But looking at Wei Jiale on the hospital bed, and thinking about what she knew, if Wei Jiale could wake up one day, who would be the first person he would want to see?

The members of the Wei family left, and when they left, they even told them to come back if they couldn't, and come back anytime, the family misses you all.

Mother Wei wiped her tears secretly again.

But turning his head to look at Ji Ziyang who was standing in front of the wheelchair arranging Wei Jiale's scarf, he could only sigh helplessly.

Caring for someone who is no longer conscious is difficult.

The hospital has specialized nursing care, but as long as Ji Ziyang is around, he can do all the dirty work.

Mother Wei hurriedly stopped her at first, but after all, she was just a friend. It would be bad if your parents knew about it.

It doesn't matter to Ji Ziyang, if he was stopped this time, he should still do what he should do next time.

When he was free, Ji Ziyang would sit by the side and trim Wei Jiale's nails, help him wipe here and tidy up there, and make Wei Jiale clean and tidy every day.

Ji Ziyang said that Wei Jiale loves cleanliness the most, and he also likes beauty so much. If he can wake up, he definitely doesn't want to see himself looking casual.

Xu Fei couldn't help but remind Ji Ziyang, I know you feel uncomfortable, but objectively speaking, Wei Jiale's situation, I am afraid there is no hope...

"Then you won't be able to wake up," Ji Ziyang blew on Wei Jiale's nails, showing a satisfied expression, "I'll take care of him for the rest of his life."

Later, Ji Ziyang's mother also came, and her son didn't come home for the new year, so she had to see what happened.

Wei's mother and Ji Ziyang's mother also have a good relationship. The two old sisters haven't seen each other for so many years, and so many things happened in between, it's inevitable to be sad when they meet.

It's just that when he saw his son treating Wei Jiale like that, at first sight, he still murmured in his heart.

Ji Ziyang didn't explain anything to his mother, and Ji Ziyang's mother didn't ask much about what kind of son she gave birth to. She watched it for two days and understood everything in her heart.

Before leaving, Ji Ziyang's mother told him a lot, "I know you value friendship, but you can't forget to take care of your own affairs in a moment of excitement. Lele's situation is not a matter of a day or two. As long as you grow up, you choose the path yourself, we as parents will not interfere with you, but you have to plan for the future, think about all aspects, don't worry about the past and the future when your head is hot, if you want to be responsible, do it yourself You have to be able to take responsibility first.”

After hearing what his mother said, Ji Ziyang thought about it for a long time.

Soon after, with Xu Fei's efforts to win him over, Ji Ziyang came to work in their hospital.

He didn't put down his own stall over there. The hospital didn't allow this kind of situation, but Xu Fei kept hiding it for him all the time, so he turned a blind eye to it.

Ji Ziyang wants to make more money. Although Wei's family is not short of money, and Wei Jiale doesn't need him to support him, he still wants to make more money. His mother said that he is too one-sided in his thinking, and he will cooperate even if he doesn't plan to Whether you plan to return or not, once you make a plan, you think about everything that will happen a hundred years later.

Although it was hard work, but looking at Wei Jiale in front of him, he felt that there was nothing difficult.

Only when there is silence, in those silent nights.

When the moonlight shines through the gap between the curtains, it shines brightly.

Ji Ziyang held Wei Jiale's hand and pressed it to his face, only then did his eyes turn sour.

That's the only time he's vulnerable, but he doesn't want anyone to see it.

Ji Ziyang said before that he felt that the only thing he had done in his life was to like Wei Jiale.

Now that he finally found him, he should be quite content, right?

When the weather got a little warmer, Ji Ziyang would take Wei Jiale out to bask in the sun as soon as he was on vacation.

Wei's mother wanted to sell the old house in the small town. One day, there were people looking at the house, and the store couldn't get rid of people, so Ji Ziyang volunteered to make the trip, and brought Wei Jiale with her when she went.

"Can you do it, or forget it, what if something happens?"

Ji Ziyang helped Wei Jiale fasten his seat belt, and smiled relaxedly, "It's okay, it's only a half-day job, and I'll be back in the afternoon."

He thought it would be good to take Wei Jiale back for a walk, although he knew that Wei Jiale didn't know anything anymore, but he still wanted to do it.

Xu Fei and Wei Jiale's mother watched Ji Ziyang's car go away, and then let out a sigh of relief.

"Wei Xi...why did you change Wei Jiale's name? To defend the past?"

Mother Wei shook her head with a smile, "How can I think of so many things... I didn't start it, he started it himself."

"Own?"

Xu Fei looked at Mother Wei in surprise, and Mother Wei nodded appreciatively.

"He said it himself when he woke up from the hospital."

Many years ago, 16-year-old Wei Jiale opened his eyes from a coma. He could neither recognize his mother nor where he was.

He has lost his memory and can't even remember who he is.

But when someone asked him, "Do you still remember your name?"

Wei Jiale lowered his eyes, was stunned for a long time, and then slowly uttered a name.

"I...I am, Wei Xi."

Xu Fei thought about it, as if he suddenly figured out something, and then said to himself in shock, "He didn't disappear... We made a mistake, it's not amnesia... It's not amnesia at all..."

"He's alive! He's alive!"

But Wei's mother didn't understand what Xu Fei was talking about at all, she just watched Xu Fei running into the hospital building "rolling and crawling" like a madman.

After showing people around the house, Ji Ziyang pushed Wei Jiale around the town again.

The two went to the places they used to go when they were young, went to the school of the two, and finally came to the small river where they parted a long time ago.

Spring is cold.

Ji Ziyang was afraid that Wei Jiale would freeze, so he squatted in front of him and covered his hands, and said to him, "Jiale, do you remember? When I was 14 years old, I told you here, I want gone."

Wei Jiale's eyes were downcast, his eyes were empty, and there was no expression on his face.

"Do you still remember that you said before that we are two fish in this river, you can't leave me, and I can't leave you, now that I'm back, I won't leave you again, okay? ?”

As Ji Ziyang said, he gently stretched out his hand to rub Wei Jiale's face, and then leaned on Wei Jiale's lap like a child, humming a song softly.

It was a nursery rhyme that Wei Jiale taught Ji Ziyang when he was a child. For a long time, Ji Ziyang almost forgot how to sing it.

Later, when he was looking for Wei Jiale, this nursery rhyme accompanied Ji Ziyang through so many lonely days and nights.

He often hums this song when he is alone.

Just like now, Ji Ziyang lay on Wei Jiale's lap, humming that familiar tune softly.

He can even think of Wei Jiale when he was a child, with an immature childlike voice, he taught him to sing line by line, 'The black sky hangs down, and the bright stars follow, insects fly, insects fly, you are here miss who...

The stars in the sky shed tears, the roses on the ground withered, the cold wind blows, the cold wind blows, as long as you are with me...' ①The breeze brushed the ends of the two people's hair and wrinkled the originally calm river.

Wei Jiale sat quietly like that, the sun shone on his body, as if there was an extra layer of halo.

The melodious and fluttering tones are scattered in the wind over and over again.

Suddenly, the fingertips on the wheelchair moved, but the movement was too subtle, even if I saw it with my own eyes, I couldn't help wondering if I was wrong.

After all, there was still a deep silence on the face of the person named Wei Jiale.

Later, Ji Ziyang was about to take Wei Jiale back. Before leaving, he parked the car at the entrance of a small supermarket and went in to buy a few bottles of water.

There happened to be a few customers in the small supermarket, and Ji Ziyang waited in line for the checkout with mineral water. He only lost time for a while, and when he went out, the people in the car disappeared, and even the door was wide open.

Ji Ziyang was stunned, his head buzzed, and the water in his hand fell to the ground. He hurriedly grabbed the passers-by and asked if he saw where the people in his car had gone.

A fruit seller on the side of the road saw that Ji Ziyang was very anxious, so he kindly pointed him out, "Just now you got out of the car and went there. It seems that you can't walk very well, and you almost fell."

After hearing this, Ji Ziyang didn't even have time to lock the car, and ran out as if he was dead.

The owner of the small supermarket chased him out and shouted at him, "Your car! I said your car, don't block my door!!!"

Ji Ziyang looked for the figure of that person like crazy.

He ran to the alley where the two lived together, and came to the big iron gate of the old house, but he still could not be found.

Ji Ziyang bit his lip, thought and thought, and suddenly ran out.

When he came to the small river that he visited not long ago, he finally saw that familiar figure, squatting by the river alone, gently stroking the cold river water with his hands, and whispering something in his mouth .

"...this one is you...this one is me..."

Ji Ziyang's lips trembled, his brows frowned and wrinkled, and his eyes suddenly felt hot and sour.

He walked slowly towards that figure step by step, obviously he had all kinds of emotions in his heart, but he didn't seem to dare to disturb that person, so he could only call him in a low voice, "Jia Le..."

The man not far away froze for a moment, then slowly turned his head and stood up, but his eyes were still full of endless confusion, and he just looked at Ji Ziyang thoughtfully, as if he couldn't recognize him at all for a while. who is it.

But just this one look into Ji Ziyang's eyes made Ji Ziyang's heart skip a beat.

He used to always feel that there was something wrong with Wei Xi, and if he insisted on talking about it, it might be those eyes that had no memory related to him, and he couldn't find anything about Wei Jiale in those eyes.

But I don't know why, Wei Jiale's eyes are still full of confusion at this time, but somehow Ji Ziyang sees the thing that has been dreaming for a long time at a glance.

He felt he finally saw him.

After passing through countless dreams and countless figures, he finally saw him again.

"Jiale," Ji Ziyang couldn't help calling out, "Jiale?"

The voice was too deep, mixed with a hint of tenderness, which made people feel a little sad.

Wei Jiale still looked at Ji Ziyang in such confusion, as if he couldn't believe it, and finally said a name carefully, "Yangyang?"

"..."

what did he call him

He called him Yangyang?

Ji Ziyang choked up for a moment, strode over directly, hugged Wei Jiale, and began to cry uncontrollably.

It's pretty useless, a big man, acting like a girl.

But there was no way, he couldn't bear it anymore.

"Yangyang...Yangyang..."

Wei Jiale was still chanting the name blankly, his eyes became more and more crystal clear, he looked at the distant clouds in the sky, after an unknown amount of time, he finally raised his hands slowly, and hugged Ji Ziyang back.

"Yangyang...? You... are you back?"

"...Well, I'm back."

"You came back to find me?"

"Well, I'm back to find you."

"Yangyang..."

Ji Ziyang let go of Wei Jiale, held his face in his hands, and wiped away the tears on his face with distress.

Wei Jiale looked at him, then lowered his eyes and asked in a low voice, "...do you want to go?"

Ji Ziyang shook his head repeatedly with red eyes, "No, I won't leave, I won't leave again."

"…real?"

"En, really," Ji Ziyang hugged Wei Jiale again, and said softly against his forehead, "I will never leave you again."

Then Wei Jiale laughed, even though his face was still full of tears, he still couldn't help showing a bright smile.It looked exactly like him when he was a child.

Then Ji Ziyang also laughed, even though he was crying like a child, he still couldn't help showing a warm smile.

It looked like a helpless child who had finally found a treasure that had been lost for a long time.

In the clear river, a herring kept swimming against the other herring. I don’t know how long it took. The dull little fish finally woke up and recognized its long-lost companion. They played happily Finally, they dived into the warm bottom of the river together.

The quiet and peaceful town, the riverside full of gravel, everything is still the same as in the past.

Even the two figures hugging each other by the river looked so familiar.

Once upon a time, when the sun was setting, two teenagers in white school uniform shirts stood by the river and embraced each other seriously for the first time when facing the upcoming parting.

And today, many years later, it is also by this clear river.

Ji Ziyang pressed Wei Jiale's forehead, they looked into each other's eyes, couldn't help laughing through tears, and then hugged each other tightly again.

They looked exactly the same as they did when they were young.

END

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Note ①: An excerpt from the song "Conger Fly", composed by Chen Guangrong and lyricized by Lin Xi, an episode of the 1998 movie version of "The Wind and Cloud Hegemony", sung by Ekin Cheng, this article refers to the pure children's voice version.

Then, wait until the episode is finished and then finish it.

Thank you to the little angels for your warm-hearted company all the time. It is definitely true love to be able to endure this. How should I repay you? Please let me make a price or more. Applause!