dreamer

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At dawn, the early birds chirped.

It only rained half the night last night, and there was a hazy haze everywhere.

The windows were left open all night, the windowsills were covered with water stains, the curtains were half wet, and there was a puddle of rainwater on the floor, but no one bothered to clean it up now.

In the bedroom, the curtains were drawn opaquely, scattered clothes were scattered on the floor, and there were two people entangled and inseparable on the bed.

Wei Jiale's bed is very comfortable, Wei Jiale's pillow is very comfortable, and Wei Jiale's body is even more comfortable.

This was the first cognition in Ji Ziyang's mind after waking up.

And the second one is that he wants to do it again.

Wei Jiale is very obedient, even after being woken up by Ji Ziyang, he doesn't have the slightest temper, especially last night the two of them just finished something "excessive", which made Wei Jiale's brain still in an extremely chaotic state, like touching People who have encountered taboos know what is measured, but they cannot help being tempted to forget what is measured.

Ji Ziyang is probably more serious than him.

"Look."

Both of them were breathing unevenly, and their bodies were sweating profusely.

Forced by Ji Ziyang to lean against the head of the bed, Wei Jiale raised his eyes to look at his bamboo horse, then followed his gaze down, and saw the place where the two were stuck together.

"Look, look..." But Ji Ziyang seemed to be very interested in those two extremely hard things, while rubbing them quickly and forcefully with his palms, he stimulated him with words, "Mine, rub against you What about...is it comfortable?"

Wei Jiale was swallowed by endless shame, but he couldn't get rid of this bondage, so his eyes could only be moist.

"Jiale...Look, you're rubbing against me too..."

"We're doing this kind of thing... you and I... see?"

"You are mine, understand? Since I was a child...you belong to me alone..."

...like brainwashing.

Waves of itching hit, Wei Jiale couldn't help but lift his chin, letting the Fa Xiao who grew up with him drag him step by step into a bottomless abyss.

He is his, he and Ji Ziyang did this kind of thing, Ji Ziyang said he likes him, he is his.

Wei Jiale's mind was filled with these few words, and then he watched Ji Ziyang open the curtains, and jumped back on the bed with a dazzling light, hugging him was another breathless deep kiss .

Then Wei Jiale "succumbed", retracted into Ji Ziyang's arms, and hugged his waist tightly, like a well-behaved and pitiful little animal, finally found his own nest.

Ji Ziyang stroked Wei Jiale's hair contentedly, kissed him a few more times, and then patted him on the back, "Okay, I have to go to work."

But Wei Jiale acted as if he didn't hear, still hugging Ji Ziyang and remained motionless.

This made Ji Ziyang laugh out loud, "Be good, I'm going."

Then Wei Jiale huddled under the quilt by himself, watched as Ji Ziyang opened the closet, took out a pair of Wei Jiale's underwear and put them on as a matter of course, put on clothes one by one, and came over to touch his underwear before leaving head.

"What would you like to eat tonight?"

"It's all right."

"Then I'm leaving."

Wei Jiale shrank under the quilt, only showing those beautiful eyes to look at Ji Ziyang, but holding his hand tightly, making Ji Ziyang's heart throbbing again and again.

But no way...

Ji Ziyang swallowed his saliva, no, no, he is already an adult, he can't be "playful" and "willful" like a child, he also has to do business, anyway, the days will be long in the future, he has to stay rational.

"I am leaving."

Ji Ziyang withdrew his hand, turned and walked towards the bedroom door.

At this moment, a small voice came from behind, "Yangyang..."

The clear and pleasant voice line is like a kitten's paw, which tickles people's hearts.

Ji Ziyang clenched his fists, no, no, he couldn't turn his head, but he didn't need to turn his head to imagine Wei Jiale's cute appearance, so no, no, he had to leave quickly.

So Ji Ziyang quickly ran out without looking back.

Wei Jiale stared at the door of the bedroom for a while, then turned around and buried himself in the quilt, rubbing the soft pillow.

Within 2 minutes, there was a sound of footsteps coming from far and near, and something weighed heavily on Wei Jiale's body.

Wei Jiale turned around with difficulty, saw Ji Ziyang riding on him, swished off his shirt and threw it on the ground, and then began to undo his belt again.

"Yangyang?"

"I'm asking for leave," Ji Ziyang looked over calmly, "I won't be going today."

Wei Jiale pursed his lips into a smile, and rolled with his bamboo horse again.

As a result, the leave was requested for three days. If Xu Fei hadn't called and scolded Ji Ziyang, Ji Ziyang would probably still be tired of Wei Jiale and unable to get up.

Later, when Ji Ziyang took Wei Jiale and Xu Fei to eat together, Xu Fei asked them both casually, "What happened a few days ago, I was sick and I didn't go to work, what are you all busy with?"

Ji Ziyang and Wei Jiale each looked away absently, as if they had recalled some ulterior picture in their minds.

Xu Fei looked at Ji Ziyang, then at Wei Jiale, then pondered for a moment in silence in the face of this confusion, and suddenly said "ah", showing a small expression that I understood.

"That's not enough to get bored like this. There is a limit to everything, so don't delay work."

Before leaving, Xu Fei told Ji Ziyang so.

Ji Ziyang sighed, how could he not know that there should be a degree in everything, but Xu Fei, a workaholic, might not be able to understand this feeling for a while.

It was an indescribable feeling that lingered between his Wei Jiale and tied them tightly together.Apart from repeating the two things of kissing and hugging, they didn't think about anything at all. They just wanted to stick to each other all the time, and they couldn't be separated even if they died.

Ji Ziyang felt that he might lose control again, just like when he was a child, it was a desire that had never been rekindled when he was with Wei Xi before.

He knew from a young age that the two of them were abnormal, especially when the two of them got together, they would only become more and more abnormal together.

It's very strange, even though he didn't know that Wei Xi wasn't Wei Jiale at all before, yet he maintained a fairly good self-control when facing him.

Ji Ziyang still remembers the morning when he took Wei Xi back to the old house for the first time, the person in front of him was obviously the person he loved since he was a child, and he could touch him if he had a chance, and he just had to move forward You can kiss him with your body, but you hesitate when you look into those eyes.

But now it is different.

After Wei Jiale woke up from a deep sleep again, Ji Ziyang felt that a certain part of himself seemed to wake up again, constantly eroding his self-control.

He didn't even need to confirm Wei Jiale's eyes in front of him, he could feel that he belonged to him.

It was an aura that only Ji Ziyang could feel, and it belonged to Wei Jiale alone. It was something that Ji Ziyang was so crazy about that he couldn't let go even if he died.

He really loves Wei Jiale so much that he even wants to merge with Wei Jiale and engrave him in his bones so that he won't worry about finding him anymore.

Ji Ziyang felt that he was going crazy. He used to think that he was going crazy because he couldn't get Wei Jiale, but he didn't expect that after getting Wei Jiale, he would become even more crazy than before, and even almost broke.

He was really afraid that he would lose him again.

When a person is immersed in happiness, it is inevitable that he will be a little worried about gains and losses.

All Ji Ziyang's dreams that he had had when he didn't meet Wei Jiale again have all come true.

He took him back to the small town in his hometown, pushed aside the grass by the river, grabbed a firefly and held it in his palm, and then asked Wei Jiale to look in through the gap between his fingertips; he took him to the place before This time, Wei Jiale smiled sweetly, and carefully kissed him when no one was paying attention.

They went to the playground together, they walked through the streets and alleys together to taste every authentic snack, they added a lot of strange collections to the house together, he accompanied him to draw pictures, and he accompanied him to play football.

In the end, when Ji Ziyang stood on the grass under the setting sun and kissed Wei Jiale frantically, he felt that if the next second was the end of the world, he would have no regrets.

Wei Jiale has always been very obedient, especially when facing Ji Ziyang, that is an unusual kind of gentleness that can only be shown to Ji Ziyang.

Ji Ziyang's mother said before that it felt as if he was Ji Ziyang's favorite toy, no matter what Ji Ziyang did to him, he would let him play around and never say no.

And since he and Ji Ziyang did that kind of comforting thing, Wei Jiale not only became more obedient than before, even when he was acting like a baby, he didn't talk much.

Quiet, and silent again.

Ji Ziyang likes to hold Wei Jiale, so Wei Jiale can be held by him obediently, as long as he wants, as long as Ji Ziyang doesn't let go, he can stay like this for a whole day.

They lay quietly on the sofa, watching the light in the room gradually change from bright to dim.

Then if Ji Ziyang laid him down and began to work on his clothes, Wei Jiale would just quietly look at the ceiling and let Ji Ziyang do whatever he wanted to him.

Once when Wei Jiale looked in the mirror, he saw a mark that was about to bleed on his buttocks, and it was still a little blue around it, and it was a little painful to touch.

It was Ji Ziyang biting.

Wei Jiale touched the tooth mark and tilted his head, turned around, looking playfully at himself in the mirror.

It was a face that was slightly different from the memory; it hadn't changed, but it had completely lost its childishness and matured a lot.

At first, I couldn’t believe it. This feeling of losing ten years, sometimes I even feel tight in my chest when I think about it, and I feel panicked and helpless. My heart is empty, which makes people panic for no reason. .

How can I keep up with the pace of this world, how can I keep up with the footsteps of that person, how can I learn to be a 27-year-old adult after losing ten years of my life.

What exactly is he going to do so that he, who has been separated from him by ten years, will not...

He has seen it, although Ji Ziyang always feels the same as before when he is with him, but he can't see it. When he is outside, the man beside him is no longer that frivolous and ignorant boy.

It was an insurmountable distance between them.Wei Jiale lowered his gaze, and touched the tooth mark again.

He still remembered how painful it was. When Ji Ziyang bit him, his eye circles were red from the pain.

But he didn't struggle, it was strange, he felt that it gave him a kind of pleasure, a kind of pleasure that made him feel that Ji Ziyang seemed to really care about him.

He knows Ji Ziyang too well, the more he likes things, the more he doesn't know how to control his likes, and the strikes will be indiscriminate.Just like those toys in childhood, Ji Ziyang's favorite one is always the first one to be broken.

So be the same as yourself.

Wei Jiale looked at himself in the mirror in the bathroom by himself.

This shows that Ji Ziyang really cares about him, right?

It's just one time, and it's hard to say whether Wei Jiale said no.

There, Ji Ziyang couldn't take it anymore, and it turned out that he was still rubbing Wei Jiale's buttocks as before, squeezing between his legs, rubbing the heat of the two of them together.

But this time, the desire can no longer be satisfied.

Ji Ziyang looked at Wei Jiale's distracted and fascinated eyes, his waist sank, he pressed his own heat against Wei Jiale's back, and then squeezed in slowly and forcefully.

In an instant, Wei Jiale's whole body trembled, and he grabbed the sheet under him tightly.

In fact, if Ji Ziyang insisted on doing that, it might have happened that time, because Wei Jiale would not refuse him, he would never say no to him.

But then Ji Ziyang still stopped, only went in a little, then hurriedly backed out, then quickly hugged Wei Jiale into his arms, kept touching his head and kissing his eyes, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, does it hurt? I was wrong, I was wrong, I don't want it, I don't want it..."

Wei Jiale cried.

At first, Ji Ziyang thought it was because of his mishandling, but he couldn't hold it back for a while and made Wei Jiale cry.

But then he tried a few more times and made all the preparations that should be done, but every time when the last moment came, Wei Jiale would cry.

He didn't say it hurts, he didn't say it couldn't be done, he was crying anyway, and he couldn't stop crying, he seemed to be very wronged, Ji Ziyang's heart was about to break when he was wronged.

Later, when he saw Wei Jiale sleeping in his arms, Ji Ziyang kissed his forehead, then stared at the ceiling in a daze.

Wei Jiale's hug is really tight, he seems to have to hug his waist like this every time to fall asleep, and he always hugs him very tightly.

What are you afraid of?

As Ji Ziyang thought about it, he recalled Wei Jiale's frowns and smiles bit by bit.

When I came back at night, as soon as I entered the door, I saw Wei Jiale sitting on the floor drawing. The moment he looked up and saw himself, his eyes lit up.

There smiled and hugged Wei Jiale who threw himself into his arms, and couldn't help rubbing his cheek.

Ji Ziyang suddenly realized that Wei Jiale was the happiest when he came back.Although Wei Jiale didn't say anything, he could feel the happiness from the heart in that gaze.

And every day when he left, he could see a kind of loneliness in Wei Jiale's eyes, it looked like Ji Ziyang would come back anytime after he left.

Before falling asleep, Ji Ziyang's last thought was that Wei Xile had a knot in his heart.

On this day, Ji Ziyang had no job and was bored at home with Wei Jiale.

There was an idol drama on TV, and there happened to be an affectionate confession in it.

Ji Ziyang saw that the line was quite good, so he repeated it to Wei Jiale's ear, which made Wei Jiale blush immediately, covering his mouth and smiling very sweetly.

And at the end, there's a line that says, "I'll never leave you."

As soon as Ji Ziyang finished rubbing his ears, Wei Jiale chuckled and blurted out, "You're a fool."

As soon as the words were finished, both of them were taken aback.

Ji Ziyang stared at Wei Jiale in a daze, as if surprised, but also stung.

Wei Jiale didn't know what to do for a while, so he quickly pretended to pick up an unknown instruction manual under the coffee table and read it, "The current TV series are not as good as they used to be...I'm going to the bathroom."

After finishing speaking, Wei Jiale walked away as if fleeing.

Standing alone in front of the mirror in the bathroom, he blamed himself for saying the wrong thing, while feeling a little stuffy in his chest, so he tried hard to take a deep breath.

After an unknown period of time, when Wei Jiale felt that his emotions had been suppressed, he opened the bathroom door.

As a result, when he opened the door, he saw Ji Ziyang waiting at the door, a little downcast, and a little worried in his eyes.

"Jiale..."

"what happened?"

As Wei Jiale walked out, he glanced at Ji Ziyang inexplicably.

Ji Ziyang followed him and hugged him, then whispered to him, "I'm sorry..."

"Sorry for what?" Wei Jiale turned around and looked at Ji Ziyang indifferently, "...you stole my chocolate?"

Ji Ziyang was silent for a long time, then smiled, "...ah, I'm sorry."

"Then... let's not take this as an example," Wei Jiale also smiled, and then said like a little angel, "Let me cook for you."

"…OK."

Ji Ziyang watched Wei Jiale walk into the kitchen as if nothing had happened, bit his lip and looked at the sunset outside the window.

That night, they failed again.

Why not?

Why not let him in?

Didn't you open your arms and rush towards him when you saw him coming back? Didn't you have to hug him tightly every day to fall asleep?

Why just refuse to accept him?

Ji Ziyang panicked a little.

He pressed on Wei Jiale's back, pressed his hand tightly, and kissed his back over and over again, "Jiale, don't you dislike me, don't you dislike me, I can't live without you, I really can't live without you..."

As he talked, his eye circles were a little red, but he kept begging like a dog who couldn't get any sympathy, "Jia Le, don't want me, you can't want me, you are mine..."

Wei Jiale was so choked up that he couldn't speak, he could only bury his head in the pillow, then clenched his fists and tensed his whole body, feeling a sharp pain from his waist.

Ji Ziyang bit him again, as if marking something he loved.