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He obviously didn't feel anything special, but he still chose to obey.

Although Wei Xi was a bit dull, he was not a fool.He could feel Ji Ziyang's kindness towards him, and he could also feel Ji Ziyang's concern for him. There were many details in the relationship between the two of them, which made Wei Xi feel that he must have been very close to Ji Ziyang in the past.

"It's like... a biological brother, even closer than a biological brother."

At that time, just in time for the weekend, Ji Ziyang took Wei Xi back to their hometown.

The green rice fields, the peaceful country roads, everything is so strange to Wei Xi.

He has never been back here, if Ji Ziyang didn't tell him, he would definitely not have any feelings about this place, he only thinks it is a small town with beautiful scenery.The school where I went to school in the old days, the small shop that I passed by every day after school, the streets and alleys where the two lived, and the Wangchuan River that runs through my hometown and has carried countless memories. Everything is very important to Wei Xi. I have never seen it before.

Wei Xi and Ji Ziyang stepped on the gravel on the shore and walked against the evening wind. It felt as if they had suddenly returned to the past. The same two people stood here facing the evening sun, and nothing had changed.

At this rare moment, Ji Ziyang didn't say much, but walked quietly beside Wei Xi, turning his head to watch him tenderly from time to time.

That kind of gaze made Wei Xi feel a little awkward and a little hot.

Later, Ji Ziyang also felt that his eyes were a little more obvious, because Wei Xi's face was slowly turning red.So he quickly licked his lips, trying to take out the cigarettes in his pocket.But the hand that had touched the cigarette box hesitated for a moment and then retracted. He knew Wei Xi didn't smoke, so he didn't want to make him feel disgusted.

"What was our past like?"

It was rare for Wei Xi, who had been silent all this time, to ask.

Ji Ziyang lowered his eyes and pondered for a while, then looked at the tranquil river and told Wei Xi, "It's like... like a real brother, even closer than a real brother."

Wei Xi didn't speak, as if waiting for him to continue.

"We have been together since we were young, and it seemed that no matter what happened, we would never be separated," Ji Ziyang said with a hint of sadness in his eyes, "We are the only ones we can rely on, I can't live without you, and you can't live without me , like..."

"Just like them."

In midsummer in my memory, there are buzzing cicadas everywhere.

Wei Jiale looked at the two small fish swimming back and forth in the shallow river and murmured to himself, "This is just Yangyang, this is just me, we swim in this river every day, In winter, they hide under the river, leaning against each other to keep warm, and in summer they will float to the surface of the river, no matter where they go, they will not be separated, right?"

Wei Jiale raised his head, and asked Ji Ziyang in a crisp, juvenile voice.

"Correct."

Then Wei Jiale smiled, that smile was so beautiful that Ji Ziyang would never forget it for the rest of his life.

Ji Ziyang choked up a bit.

How would you describe the two people back then?

What Ji Ziyang used to worry about the most was seeing Wei Jiale standing with others, the way he was talking and laughing brought him far more stimulation than seeing other children being picked up by their father.

Since meeting Wei Jiale, Wei Jiale has become everything to Ji Ziyang.He was very afraid that Wei Jiale's eyes would fall on others, he was afraid that he would not occupy the most important position in Wei Jiale's heart, so he tried his best to treat Wei Jiale well, and followed Wei Jiale every step of the way not leave.Go to school with him early in the morning, and wait for him to go home with him at the door of the class early after class, lest if he doesn't pay attention, Wei Jiale will stand with others in the next second.

He even brought two eggs and two boxes of milk with him every day, one for himself and one for Wei Jiale, in short, as long as he could think of it, there was nothing he couldn't do.

However, Wei Jiale has never let him down, no matter how many people are around, as long as he sees Ji Ziyang, he will hop to his side like a cute rabbit.He has never concealed his liking for Ji Ziyang. Everyone knows that Wei Jiale and Ji Ziyang have the best relationship. To Wei Jiale, no one can say a single word better than Ji Ziyang.

In front of the people is such a bright and lively young man, but in the back he is so docile.

Wei Jiale likes to act like a baby, especially to Ji Ziyang.On the rooftop in the afternoon, Wei Jiale was lying on Ji Ziyang's lap, looking at him from bottom to top, with a bright smile on his face.

That was the time when Ji Ziyang felt the most comfortable in his heart.

But slowly, Ji Ziyang found that he was not satisfied with Wei Jiale's attention to him. Not only was he not satisfied, but he wanted more while getting more attention from Wei Jiale.

Especially after entering middle school, Ji Ziyang slowly began to feel that Wei Jiale would scare him if he said a word to anyone.Sometimes he would feel angry because he was too worried about not getting Wei Jiale's attention. When seeing Wei Jiale talking and laughing with others, Ji Ziyang always felt like he was betrayed.

Even when he was playing football, he deliberately tripped over the boy who had put his arm around Wei Jiale's shoulder during exercises between classes.Seeing the boy lying on the ground holding his bleeding calf and screaming in pain, Ji Ziyang shook the sweat off his head and walked towards the teaching building without saying a word.

But Wei Jiale, who had witnessed everything, not only didn't blame him, but just followed him into the teaching building in fear, turned left and right all the way, and then carefully tugged at the hem of his clothes when he walked to a place where no one was around.Ji Ziyang didn't look at Wei Jiale with a cold face. He would never talk to Wei Jiale at this moment, because he knew that if he got angry, even if he ignored Wei Jiale, Wei Jiale would always follow silently behind him.It's not that Wei Jiale is not afraid that one day Wei Jiale may choose to turn around and leave, but he can't help himself wanting to do so, just like a test, naively using this method to prove that Wei Jiale cares about him and satisfy the part in his heart A weak sense of security.

So ignoring Wei Jiale is Ji Ziyang's punishment for Wei Jiale, and it is also Ji Ziyang's trial for Wei Jiale.

But Ji Ziyang never knew that although he was afraid of losing Wei Jiale, Wei Jiale was actually also afraid of losing him.Otherwise, why did he choose to ignore it when he knew that Ji Ziyang had done something wrong? Instead of caring about the classmate who fell and blaming Ji Ziyang for his mistakes, he just focused on the dissatisfaction in Ji Ziyang's heart, and only wanted to calm the anger in Ji Ziyang's heart.

Obviously both of them were wrong, but no one would care about such right or wrong.Maybe the two people at that time were not good people, they were selfish and indifferent in their bones, and they only cared about each other who had been with each other all the time.

Because they only have each other. For so many years, from the beginning to the end, they only see each other's figure in their eyes.

Later, when he returned home from school, Ji Ziyang still ignored Wei Jiale with a cold face, and just sat on the floor and started doing his homework on his knees.Standing at the door, Wei Jiale didn't bother him, but leaned against the door frame and looked at him quietly.After a while, the familiar heat and weight came from Ji Ziyang's back. He didn't need to turn his head to imagine what it would be like for Wei Jiale to close his eyes as his face was pressed against his back.

So the punishment was finally melted by such a temperature.

Just like that, one fell asleep with peace of mind leaning on the firm back, and the other was writing homework for the two on the low table. On a quiet and peaceful summer evening, the corners of the mouths of both of them were slightly upturned.

Ji Ziyang knew, and maybe Wei Jiale also knew, that the two of them were actually a little abnormal, and the way they interacted was actually a little abnormal.

But Ji Ziyang couldn't become normal, he even hoped to become more and more abnormal.

Because he likes that kind of Wei Jiale the most, leaning on his back meekly like now, it makes him feel that he is Wei Jiale who only belongs to him.

After losing Wei Jiale for many years, Ji Ziyang often dreamed that he had become a herring in the Wangchuan River, looking for another herring that should be snuggled with him, but no matter what There was no trace of it either.

"Later, because of my parents' relationship, I wanted to move to another place, and we had to separate. At that time, I agreed with you that you would wait for me here, and I would definitely come back to find you, right here," He looked at the place where the two were standing, then turned to face Wei Xi, "Now that I've found you, we can be together again, right?"

Wei Xi still looked at Ji Ziyang silently, as if trying hard to digest the information Ji Ziyang told him, but before he could react, his body fell into a warm embrace.

"I can not live without you."

Ji Ziyang seemed very excited, and the sudden emotion made him forget for a moment that the person in front of him no longer remembered him.He hugged Wei Xi tightly, just like when he was about to leave.

"I really can't live without you," Ji Ziyang whispered into Wei Xi's ear, "Jia Le..."

That tone sounded extremely gentle, as if a seven or eight-year-old child finally found a treasure that had been lost for many years.

But Wei Xi didn't have any feelings for Ji Ziyang like this, and he couldn't understand Ji Ziyang's complicated mood at all.He didn't even care about this strange and sudden hug, he just stood motionless, and waited until Ji Ziyang's mood gradually calmed down, then stretched out his finger to point a little farther away.

The breeze blows, and the sky is getting dark.

Ji Ziyang let go of Wei Xi, turned his head and looked in the direction Wei Xi was pointing at, and saw a glimmer of light flying slowly in the direction of the river.

Ji Ziyang smiled knowingly, he didn't ignore the rare light in Wei Xi's eyes, so he took Wei Xi's arm and walked towards the grass by the roadside, and there were indeed bits and pieces of light shining inside.

Then Wei Xi's eyes brightened even more.

"Catch one?"

Wei Xi stared blankly at the faint light and ignored him, and Ji Ziyang couldn't bear to interrupt the harmony at this moment.

So Wei Xi watched the fireflies quietly, and Ji Ziyang squatted aside and watched him quietly.

For a moment, Ji Ziyang even remembered the scene of him and Wei Jiale catching fireflies together in the summer when he was a child.At that time, the two of them were holding a net for catching butterflies, and they circled around indiscriminately towards the light dancing in the sky.Wei Jiale has always been rather stupid, always unable to catch, he has to rely on him to catch a few each time.Then the two of them brought the fireflies home, and sat in the yard of Wei Jiale's house the next evening, staring at the fireflies in the net together, watching them gradually become brighter and brighter against the backdrop of the sky.

Then Wei Jiale would stare at him in surprise with his beautiful and bright eyes, smiling and showing two cute little canine teeth.

But now Wei Xi just stared at the light in front of him dully, with silence in his eyes.

However, Ji Ziyang didn't care at all.

He just looked at Wei Xi very tenderly, feeling more and more fulfillment in his heart, which he had never felt for so many years after losing Wei Jiale.

As long as you come back, that's enough.

We can definitely be together again and never be apart.

Right, Carol.