Cannon Fodder: Forced Counterattack

After nightfall, Jing Fan carried Ao Ran to the bathing pool. The pool water was warm, and the steaming steam made the room hazy. After carefully washing Ao Ran's hair and body, Jing Fan carried Ao Ran out of the pool, and took the bath again. The towel wiped off the water spots for him bit by bit. The weather has been much warmer these days, but the mountains are so high that the temperature drops rapidly at night. On weekdays, it doesn't matter to Jing Fan, but Ao Ran can't bear the cold, so The stove is still lit in the house, and Jing Fan's slender, white and tender feet can be held in one hand. When he touched them that night, they were still round and smooth, and his fleshy fingers are extremely cute. Only a thin layer of leather is left in less than a month. With thin bones, blue blood vessels can be seen.

Jing Fan felt more and more sad, kissed his toes, and patiently helped him get dressed before putting him on the bed.

The soft quilt was just exposed to the sun today, and it was warm and extremely comfortable. Jing Fan sighed in his arms, "Can you say something, I know I was wrong."

Seeing that there was no response from the person, Jing Fan hugged him tighter again, "I shouldn't have treated you that way that day, I thought we would do this again when we got married, but you insisted on leaving me, I couldn't control myself, the one who sent you away Will the people who come here take you away? Will they never come back after leaving? Ao Ran, can you see me, I won’t force you, let’s take your time, shall we? You also give me a chance, Except for being a man, I am better than others, none of those women can match you, and no one else in this world can match you except me."

His voice was not high, it was low and deep as if he was thinking, with a little bit of grievance, he was a bit pitiful, but even though he showed weakness like this, the other person on the bed still ignored him, silent like a puppet.

"I just want to keep you, I just want to keep you by my side, I'm too lonely by myself, please don't be angry with me again... Please..."

The soft and shallow prayers gradually merged into the lonely night and slowly dissipated.

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Ao Ran still couldn't sleep, he felt obviously very tired all over, so tired that he didn't want to talk, eat, think, even move, and didn't want to see everything outside.

He voluntarily blocked all his senses, and just wanted to immerse himself in a world where he didn't think about anything and knew nothing, but his brain just couldn't control it, he lost the ability to think, and he still couldn't fall asleep.

uncomfortable.

Everywhere is uncomfortable.

Forget those who want to forget and those who don't want to remember, but it's still uncomfortable, no matter what.

He knew that his state was wrong, and wanted to bring himself back to his senses, but he couldn't, his thoughts were so vague that he couldn't find a place to stay, wandering around indiscriminately, and couldn't find his way home.

The empty body was numb and lingering, only vaguely feeling that someone would hold him, hug him, kiss him, feed him, wash him, and coax him to sleep.

The only way to get rid of the uncomfortable situation is to fall asleep.

"I knew I was wrong..."

A humble voice rang in my ears.

For so long, it seemed to be the first time he heard the voice of the outside world, and Ao Ran's heart trembled a little.

"OK……"

It became clearer and clearer, the soul that seemed to have drifted out found a way.

"I beg you……"

Ao Ran suddenly opened his eyes wide, floods of memories flooded his mind, he had a splitting headache, and there were many miscellaneous, messy fragments running around in his mind without any rules, and finally only fixed on the clearest and most vivid memories. The deep place, the feeling of being pierced in the horror and turbulent lust, the hardship of enduring with all his strength, is vivid in his memory, and he wants to curl himself up into the safest posture.

Thinking about it again, why did he think about it again, he suddenly began to miss the state of being dazed and not thinking about anything, being a puppet without a soul, although it was uncomfortable, but it could also make those difficult memories fly away with the soul, Don't make him remember.

The tall person next to him hugged him, affectionately, tenderly, and cautiously, Ao Ran raised his hand slightly, covered his mouth with his forearm, choked up silently, tears flowed down like broken beads at the corners of his eyes like crazy .

The arm was bitten, and the fishy-sweet taste filled the mouth. This depressive pain lasted for a long time, until the tears could no longer flow, until the heaving chest finally stabilized a little.

From the corner of the eye, I caught a glimpse of the man who looked sad even in his sleep, and my heart couldn't help trembling again.

It was dark night, the top of the bed was blackened, Ao Ran opened his eyes without blinking, and he remembered his last life, which was ordinary and ordinary, only because he was a little handsome, he could get more favors, and there was no other advantage .

He is a person who can afford to let it go, at the moment of life and death, the choice he made is his own choice, he never regrets, and he never thought about living another life, he only thought that after death, the smoke would disappear, leaving only a handful of loess, Ultimately lost in history.

After a new life, he had surprises and excitements, a new world and a new life. He also had expectations and fantasies, and he also wanted to seek a stability, a clear heart, and a chic life in the world.

I thought about making a few friends and chatting widely, even if I died for my confidant, I was still satisfied.

He thought that he and Jing Fan would become such confidants. He still remembered the peaceful years in Jingjia Mountain Villa, he taught him medical skills, serious and earnest, he practiced martial arts with him, and occasionally gave his best, but never hurt him. He, they drank together, looked at the moon together, chatted imaginatively, read his travel notes, complained about his innocence and stupidity when he was young, and listened to him talk about those magical and bizarre places on the mainland, and what are the strange things about them custom, he thought it would be the best life ever had.

But he never thought about it, but now he has come to this point, he doesn't know how the love between men should be, but he is afraid that it will be like this, powerless resistance, fearful bearing, can't escape, can't hide, there is no end.

In this world, his arrival is really just a tool to make up for mistakes?He tried his best to change everything, just wanting to let these flesh-and-blood people live well, his kindness and appeal were used, and what was left in the end was riddled with holes?

Affordable, put it down.

The path he chooses, he bears the consequences.

but--

The future is still in his own hands, and he will not be manipulated by anyone. Whether it is life or death, he wants to go his own way.