What should I do if my junior brother becomes a bad old man?

Ren Zhen supported Gu Xun down the mountain, and the two had nowhere to go, so they had to go back to the previous inn.

Although the shop owner is not a bandit, he does have some connection with the bandits on the mountain.He saw that these two people were weird, and he went to the door to look around in the morning, and when he saw them going in the direction of Bikong Mountain, he felt a little bit concerned.Seeing the two of them coming back at this time, I was surprised and nervous at the same time, so I hurriedly stepped forward to entertain them.

Gu Xunzhi knew that the shop owner was weird, so he still smiled at him and said:

"We went home today and found that the house was in a mess. We couldn't clean it up for a while, so we had to come back to bother."

The owner also laughed:

"We just eat this bowl of rice, so it's nothing to bother you. It's really an honor for the shop that the two distinguished guests are willing to stay for a few more days."

It was tacit on both sides, the owner seemed attentive, and after preparing meals for them, he even asked if he wanted to tidy up another room.Gu Xunzhi just wanted to agree, but Ren Sha first refused:

"No, we just need to live in the same room."

Gu Xunzhi didn't understand senior brother's obsession to live with him no matter where he was. Speaking of which, when he first slept with senior brother, he was always nervous and shy. After getting used to it, even if his senior brother appeared in front of him wearing only a tunic, he could continue to talk about other topics with his senior brother without changing his face.It's just that there are some whimsical thoughts in his heart, sometimes he still can't suppress them.Whenever he looked at his brother's face and lost his mind, Gu Xunzhi always sighed in his heart and said to himself helplessly:

"You..."

The shopkeeper left after delivering the necessary things to them, not daring to stop at all.Gu Xunzhi sat on the edge of the bed, pulled Ren Zhen over to sit down, leaned on his shoulder and talked to him:

"Brother, have you ever seen a demon before?"

"I've seen a lot of them. They were everywhere in the troubled times. Although it's not the troubled times now, there are such monsters born so close to the capital, I'm afraid it won't be far from the chaos."

Gu Xunzhi has read some books on this topic, but he has no real feeling about it. Hearing what Ren Zhen said, he flinched a little:

"Wouldn't that be... that people will be ruined?"

Hearing what he said, Ren Zhen turned her head to look at him:

"What should I say? Your heart is so soft, you are really not suitable for a practitioner."

The senior brother's eyes were gentle, and there was no praise or criticism in the evaluation, but Gu Xunzhi became anxious:

"I will work hard and won't let senior brother waste his time in vain."

He turned his face away, not wanting his senior brother to see his expression.He also knew that he was not suitable to be a practitioner, and he knew it when he was 15 years old.He also doesn't like to be a practitioner. He cultivates his body and mind every day, without love, without resentment or anger.

People in the world call practitioners gods, and they always hope that they can act chivalrously and save the suffering.However, Gu Xunzhi knew that all of this has nothing to do with practitioners: chivalry is what chivalrous men do, and it is the wish of Buddhists to save suffering and disaster. And they are practitioners who have earned the title of gods in vain, because they can live a few more years, what? Can't help, no one can help.

But he is just so useless, he has been a diner in the palace for so many years, and now he is out of the palace, and he has to rely on his senior brother to live.He has not been able to stand upright in his life, he cannot be a practitioner, and he cannot be anything else.

Although Ren Zhen has always been a little dull, she could see that her junior was depressed at this moment, she reached out to stroke his hair, and whispered softly:

"Even if you can't be a practitioner, it doesn't matter, I just want you to live."

Gu Xunzhi's eye circles were a little red, and he raised his eyes to look at his senior brother:

"If you don't practice, how can you continue to live?"

This is a key question, the most difficult to answer.Ren Sha can live for tens of millions of years without practicing, but the life of ordinary people is only a hundred years.Many emperors and generals are willing to pay any price in order to live forever, but very few of them succeed.There may be tens of thousands of ways to temporarily prolong life, but now Gu Xunzhi has come to the end of the life of ordinary people, if he really wants to live forever, he can only practice one way, but judging from Gu Xunzhi's current state of mind... Impossible to succeed.

To succeed in cultivation, one must cut off the mortal relationship. All the desires of ordinary people are obstacles to practice, and even the desire for longevity itself can become an obstacle.There used to be some monks who became monks halfway, eager for quick success, and even killed their wives to prove the Tao.However, the act of killing his wife is too much. The moment he did this, it was equivalent to cutting off his path of cultivation.As for Gu Xunzhi... as long as his longing for Ren Sha still exists in his heart, it is doomed that his practice will not have any effect.

Both Ren Sha and Gu Xunzhi knew this.

Normally, Gu Xunzhi always avoids this question on purpose.He has always been very cooperative whenever the senior brother tried his best to find a new way to prolong his life for him.But at this time, when he knew that the world was going to be chaotic and monsters were about to appear, he suddenly felt that he couldn't hold on anymore.

So what if you work hard to survive?Don't you want to look at the situation of the demons in this world, but you can't do anything, you can only rely on your senior brother?

He looked at his brother's face, and his brother was also looking at him.Recently, senior brother always looks at him with a bit too gentle expression, which is far from the stern look in his memory.Why does senior brother always treat him so well?If this continues, he will no longer be able to control himself.

Gu Xunzhi had the idea of ​​self-abandonment in his heart, instead of listening to his senior brother to practice hard and surviving in troubled times, it would be better to be reckless.As for anything else, he couldn't care less.Gu Xunzhi has been cautious all his life, always acting according to the wishes of others, never crossing the threshold, even when he was the most rebellious teenager, he never dared to do anything earth-shattering, but just carried his master and senior brothers behind his back. Yoo escaped from the mountain.However, now that he is at the end of his life, he suddenly wants to rebel once.

He made up his mind, put his arms around his senior brother's neck, and put his lips on his senior brother's lips.

This kiss is different from the one given to him by his senior brother. Recently, his senior brother would occasionally kiss him, usually on his forehead, and he would leave as quickly as a touch of water. Before he could feel the temperature on his lips, he was already far away.This is a bit like the kiss of parents and elders to their children, maybe even more cold.But Gu Xunzhi understood his senior's temperament, and knew that this was probably the limit for him.

Gu Xunzhi knew that he didn't want such a kiss.

Without a teacher, he stretched out his tongue to pry Ren Xiao's teeth, and bit his lip frantically. Gu Xunzhi's movements were very urgent, without any rules, just desperately wanting to ask him for everything.

However, he was still timid after all, with his eyes tightly closed, not daring to open them to see his senior brother's expression, and also afraid to see his own appearance from his senior brother's eyes.Over the years, he has always been peaceful and graceful, paying attention to maintaining decency in every move, which is a habit and his way of protecting himself.He was afraid to see himself frantic, it would make him feel terrified, too ashamed, he couldn't take it.

However, there are some things that can be felt even if you close your eyes and don't look at them. The body wrapped in his arms became stiff under his movements. Gu Xunzhi felt that he seemed to be holding a white porcelain statue, smooth and smooth. , cold, solid, unable to speak or move.He exists only to receive worship, but he does not respond.

But Gu Xunzhi didn't care about this, he was easily satisfied, as long as the senior brother didn't push him away.

But things are always changing. In Gu Xunzhi's arms, Baici's body suddenly came alive, and his gentle lips opened automatically, allowing him to collect the body fluid in it, just like a god bestowing on a loyal worshiper. Under the nectar.When Gu Xunzhi kissed him, he suddenly realized something that he didn't know before—he is the source, the original, and he was born at the beginning of everything.

In this instant, Gu Xunzhi forgot about his old age, he realized that he was so small, and the years he had experienced were so short.He realized that the barrier between him and his senior brother had never been related to his appearance, nor even his identity as a practitioner. What really stood in the way between them was time.

He will always be a child in the eyes of his senior brother, even when he dies.Even if he continues to practice and reaches the limit possible with his decayed body, he will never see the world in the eyes of his senior brother.

There is a clear boundary between him and his senior brother, which is even more obvious than the boundary between a practitioner and a mortal.

This made him a little desperate. Despair exhausted his strength and made his kiss lose its original frenzy and become just a slight touch. But at this moment, Ren Zhen opened his arms to him.

The brother hugged him, the cool body temperature soothed his anxiety, the brother's gentleness was cold, but it was enough to comfort people, Gu Xunzhi's short breathing gradually became steady.

"Don't be afraid." Ren Sha said.

Gu Xunzhi wanted to say that he was not afraid, but he couldn't say it out loud.He was indeed afraid, he was afraid of many things, even he couldn't explain clearly.

Ren Xun put his hands on his back and patted him, touching his spine, he was so thin, the bones felt a little rough to the touch.

Seeing that Gu Xunzhi had calmed down, he let go of his arms, looked at him and said:

"I thought you were better, but I didn't expect that your body is still so weak, and you can only swing the sword once with all your strength. Fortunately, it will be the fifteenth day in two days, and when the moon is full, I will give you another spiritual energy." .”

Saying this at this time seems a bit unsightly.It's not that Ren Sha doesn't understand the style, it's just that what he thinks in his heart is always different from Gu Xunzhi.

In his opinion, other things can be put aside, only the body of the junior is the most important.

This time it was Gu Xunzhi's turn to become stiff.

He also knows that he lacks spiritual energy. It stands to reason that it would be good for him to infuse more spiritual energy, but the experience of losing spiritual energy last time was a bit too embarrassing and embarrassing, which made Gu Xunzhi frightened. Hearing what his senior brother said, his first reaction was He actually begged:

"Brother, I'm already healed, the matter of crossing the spiritual energy... let's forget it."

The author has something to say: first kiss! yeah!Although senior brother changed the subject again at the end...

But it doesn't matter, sooner or later he will face up to this problem.