Chen Mufengchun

Did Cheng Yan do it on purpose?

he is.

When he saw the children for the first time, he was indeed a little surprised. The three children looked so much like Chen Shuyu. For a while, he thought of many possibilities in his mind. Chen Shuyu was married, or he was not married but had a relationship with someone. A woman gave birth to a child, so he asked that sentence through gritted teeth.But after a while, he calmed down and returned to his senses. He found that he was thinking a little too much.

Chen Shuyu was an honest child who couldn't be more honest. Back then, his father was seriously ill. Even though he knew that he was not his biological father and that the father had almost no warmth towards him, he still sold himself to his father to treat his illness.

As for Chen Shuyu's departure later, it was because his father was angry and sent to the hospital, and his mother intervened in the affairs of the two of them. I don't know what the mother said to him, but the honest child sneaked away without saying a word. He took nothing but his suit.

Cheng Yan still remembers the night when he came home from the hospital.

When I arrived at the hospital that day, my father woke up in the afternoon. The first thing he said after waking up was to separate him from Chen Shuyu. He didn't say yes, but he didn't say bad, just kept silent.

He really wanted to spend the rest of his life with Chen Shuyu.

When he first found out that he was gay, he also came into contact with some people in the circle, but he found that the life he wanted was different from the life of those people in the circle. Yes, he was a man, and he was also keen on sex, but What he likes is sex from one end to the other. He wants to find someone who can accompany him through his whole life from soul to body, from white hair to white hair, instead of falling asleep tonight and not knowing when he wakes up tomorrow. Who is the gun next to the pillow | friend.

But he has been disappointed, no one is what he thinks, some people like his body, some people like his money, but no one really likes him as a person, and he has not found that person.

Until he met Chen Shuyu, he felt as if he was in a daze. He had seen so many handsome and beautiful faces, but there was no one that made him think about it when he couldn't sleep, when he was eating, and later I even think about it while I'm working.He began to feel that he was so stupid before, and said to himself in his heart, "fuck soulmate, I just want to see this kid's face", and I want to chase him.

But as he knew more, he didn't feel that he was only looking at Chen Shuyu's face. He began to feel sorry for this child, began to admire this child, and gradually changed from the initial liking to the most solemn word in his heart—" like".

Cheng Yan wondered if he had encountered what happened to Chen Shuyu when he was 20 years old, would he have always had the unyielding spirit like Chen Shuyu, and would be able to resist with his shoulders even if the sky fell.So even if Chen Shuyu called him and agreed to his proposal, he didn't look down on Chen Shuyu at all. He only had a deeper and deeper love for Chen Shuyu derived from liking and admiration.

Although the idea given by his friend was bad, he finally let Chen Shuyu appear in his home.Although it was not very good at the beginning, he still made Chen Shuyu gradually fall in love with him.

Cheng Yan didn't care what constituted Chen Shuyu's liking for him. He thought that a person's life is so long, and one day Chen Shuyu's liking will change. As for what it will become, it depends on his efforts.

But that night, all his plans for the future became useless. Chen Shuyu left without taking anything, and Cheng Yan guessed that he didn't even have a dollar in his pocket.

After losing everything, the poor child managed to find the direction of life again. He was full of hope for the new life. He called himself a few nights ago and hesitated for a long time before softly asking, "When will you Come back", thinking that he was asleep, so he secretly said "I miss you so much".

Being so lonely, he finally found someone who he likes and likes himself among all living beings, and that night he knew that his efforts had finally been rewarded.

But on that night, it all disappeared.

The house is the same as before. On the balcony, the Chinese rose with bone buds bloomed a few days ago, and there is a burst of flower fragrance. On the sofa, SpongeBob SquarePants' pillows are placed there, and the kitchen utensils are placed in their original places. On the location, there is a post-it note on the door of the refrigerator that says "Remember to buy milk when it's gone."He looked around for Chen Shuyu in the house, and finally saw his key with SpongeBob SquarePants hanging on the coffee table.

Chen Shuyu left.

Who is to blame?

Mother?Father?Chen Shuyu?Or himself?

When he and the doctors sent his father to the hospital, he didn't think about Chen Shuyu, he was so timid, he must have been terrified, but he didn't turn his head, and didn't even look at him.

He knew that Chen Shuyu would be scared and cranky when he was at home, but he didn't call him a single call, only sent a text message at night.

He knew that his mother had gone to the house, and that his mother would persuade Chen Shuyu like he had persuaded him to let them separate for a while, but he still acquiesced in his mother's going.

He was struggling and in pain. He wanted his father, but he also wanted Chen Shuyu, so he hesitated to express his attitude to both parties. As a result, he not only broke his father's heart, but also lost Chen Shuyu.

He had always had a sense of superiority, thinking that he was the best among his peers, that he was better than others in every aspect, and that everyone else was an idiot, but at that time he realized that he was a complete idiot, and he I also found that the pain of losing Chen Shuyu was far greater than the pain of being forced to choose at first.

In the end, he could only admit that he was unlucky like an unlucky guy.

After Chen Shuyu left, his mother apologized to him very guilty, and encouraged him to find Chen Shuyu back after his father was discharged from the hospital.It's not that he hasn't looked for it. He searched in Chen Shuyu's hometown for a week, but there was no result. He went to his hometown again on the anniversary of Chen Shuyu's father's death, but Chen Shuyu didn't come back either.

China is so big, Chen Shuyu is easy to support like a small strong, he really doesn't know how to find him.

Later he gave up, and after a period of depression, he put all his energy on work, desperately a little scary.Because after getting used to the life of two people, he can no longer bear to live alone in that house that sounds like an echo, so he can only work hard, so that when he returns home, he can only take off his clothes and go to bed. I don't have the energy to think about other things.

His mother was worried about him, and even his father was a little relieved. When he came home, he beat around the bush and said that he agreed with him that he liked men.

But he no longer has the idea of ​​finding another person, because with Chen Shuyu as a comparison, he has never met someone who makes him more tempted than Chen Shuyu, and love is something that cannot be settled.

So when he met Chen Shuyu, he was very excited. Perhaps the word "very" could no longer express his excitement. He was so excited that he was going crazy, and he couldn't remember what stability was.

He talked a lot with Chen Shuyu upstairs. He knew that Chen Shuyu came to Linyang after leaving Liaocheng, and then opened a restaurant. As for the process, Chen Shuyu just passed it vaguely, so he didn't know what Chen Shuyu had experienced in the past few years. what.

But Chen Shuyu didn't say anything, so he didn't ask, so the two of them chatted for almost an hour, and he was almost the one talking, saying that the pot of rose flowers that Chen Shuyu raised before was divided into two flower pots by him. On that day, I started to fight again; said that the pot of shameless mimosa grew taller, but it was still shameless, no matter how I touched it, it would not move; said that the owner of the private kitchen really turned the shop into a restaurant. Private cooking is no longer a restaurant that uses its name to attract customers, because the monster boss has been taken over by others, and he can't go out a few times throughout the year.

He talked a lot, so that Chen Shuyu was finally not cramped or embarrassed, as if he had returned to the time when two people were together, and then the children appeared, and Chen Shuyu was like a snail that just put its head out of its shell and was suddenly touched After a while, he retracted his head back into the shell.

It is a good thing to learn to calm down when encountering things.

Chen Shuyu is not very pleasing, he has a distrustful attitude towards anyone and everything, or in other words, he distrusts feelings and has cleanliness, especially love.It took almost a year for him to let Chen Shuyu let go of his guard against him, trust himself completely, and start to respond to himself.

So after he left him, it was difficult to find someone he trusted and liked immediately, and it had to be a woman, but in fact he didn't like women.Then these three children who look like him are [-]% Chen Shuyu's sister.

If the baby was his sister's it would be easy, he thought, and the kid he liked must still be single, he knew him too well.

After seeing the child, Chen Shuyu began to feel unnatural, as if she wanted to explain something but didn't want to say it.Chen Shuyu sneaked a few glances at him, he understood that look, and wanted him to go, because he didn't want to talk to him anymore, so if he knew how to advance and retreat, he should hurry up and leave.He looked amused, and dawdled for a while on purpose. Sure enough, Chen Shuyu was in a hurry, and wanted to drive him away with any lame reason.

After he stood up and saw Chen Shuyu secretly relieved, he suddenly had a bad idea, wanting to tease the little boy in front of him who made him toss and turn, and had been dreaming about him for several years.

He walked up to Chen Shuyu, and found that his body tensed up immediately. He whispered in his ear, "Chen Shuyu, I have been waiting for you all these years", then walked out of Chen Shuyu's shop in a good mood, and returned to the temporary residence hotel.

Leaning on the bedside of the hotel, Cheng Yan recalled how he behaved when he first met Chen Shuyu, and felt that he was a bit stupid, obviously he was almost forty, but when he met Chen Shuyu, he was still a bit rash, not at all like his usual appearance .But he thought about it again, the person he was rash and unsteady was Chen Shuyu, so what did it matter, anyway, Chen Shuyu had seen him no matter what he looked like.

The first time he and Chen Shuyu started was a bit bad, and the end was not clear, but fortunately God gave him another chance, this time he must be good, and chase Chen Shuyu back After thinking for a while, he found the phone , ready to call my secretary.

The little assistant who sent him home back then has been promoted to become his secretary.My father was old and in poor health, so after that incident, he handed over the family business to him, and the business in Liaocheng was run by him and his classmates before they graduated from university, and he couldn't let it go , so these years he can only run back and forth on both sides. The assistants around him have grown a lot with him, and his own ability is also good, so he gradually rose to the position of secretary.

The little secretary who had just rested for a day suddenly received a call from the boss, thinking that there was something important, she quickly picked it up and asked, "Brother Cheng, what's the matter?"

Cheng Yan said: "Rearrange my recent itinerary, and try to free up Saturdays and Sundays every week. Also, I will not take the nine o'clock bus tomorrow, but I will take the two o'clock bus instead."

The little secretary thought that there was something wrong with the boss's business, so he asked, "Is there something wrong with Jinxiu?"

He mainly helps the boss sort out the affairs in Liaocheng, but the boss also knows something about Jinxiu's business.Usually, the boss never rests. He stays in Liaocheng for more than [-] days every month, and then goes to Xiujin to deal with matters. By the way, it is considered a holiday to spend time with his parents. There is no such thing as Saturdays and Sundays with him. , Why do you suddenly have to free up the weekend?

"No, Jinxiu has nothing to do, it's my own private matter." Cheng Yan said.

"Oh, can I ask what it is?" the secretary asked curiously.The boss is nice and doesn't put on airs, so the two of them don't usually get along like they are superiors and subordinates, but like friends.

"Why are you so gossip," Cheng Yan said with a smile, he was a little embarrassed, "because your boss wants to chase after the boss lady."

The secretary's curiosity was satisfied. He looked through Cheng Yan's recent itinerary and found that some of them couldn't be pushed away, so he asked, "But what should I do if I can't push some of them?"

Cheng Yan said: "If you can't push it away, I will find you, Brother Li. Nothing is as important as me chasing my wife! I am not talking about you. You know about work and work all day long. No wonder you are single now. I really worry about you." After laughing at his secretary enough, Cheng Yan hung up the phone in a good mood.

The little secretary who was ridiculed: "..." Isn't it because he is single because he has a crazy boss who only knows about work!