Pretending to be miserable

"Stop making trouble, get dressed quickly, I'm not responsible for catching a cold." He smiled helplessly, and patted Chi Zheng's forehead lightly.

The man shook his head and straightened up, "It's okay, I can take responsibility."

This conversation is inexplicably familiar, and Yan Chu thought for a long time before he recalled it. The same conversation was said on the day when the two kissed for the first time, and it seemed quite shameful that day...

Thinking back, Yan Chu's old face turned hot, he was so embarrassed that he didn't dare to look at Chi Zheng again, turned around and left.

It was already eight o'clock when we arrived at the beach, and the sea breeze carried a faint salty taste, and the warm yellow and bright sunshine above our heads shone on our bodies but there was no warmth, which is probably the case in winter.

Chi Zheng was wearing Yan Chu's thick padded jacket and followed behind him. The two sat down on the rocks on the shore, quietly watching the sand and stones on the shore washed by the sea, and neither of them spoke.

Before coming, Chi Zheng asked Yu Chengfeng to ask Ke Chen for help. Every time Yan Chu came to this place, he would just sit quietly for a day. He never said what he was thinking, and he never said anything lightly. with whom to share his feelings.

As for Chi Zheng's visit this time, all he can do is stay by his side without disturbing him.

Looking at the blue sea, Yan Chu always feels that everything is unrealistic now.

It was the first time someone accompanied him to this place, the first time someone had a tacit understanding with him so that he didn't need to say a word, and it was the first time someone made him truly determined to jump out of the past.

So many first times belonged to the person beside him, and the corners of his lips curled up unconsciously.

The sea breeze in winter always makes people prone to headaches, and Chi Zheng felt his head was a little heavy after sitting here for a while.He raised his eyes to look at the person beside him, and Yan Chu still maintained the original posture and looked forward, maybe he was looking at the sea, or maybe it was a place farther away.

Maybe he can't empathize with Yan Chu's mood at the moment, but at least the two of them are sitting side by side, breathing the same air and facing the same sea.

enough.

I don't know how long it took, Chi Zheng's legs became a little numb, so he changed his posture to sit.His hand accidentally touched Yan Chu's hand that was propped on the rock, and a coldness pierced straight into his heart.

Chi Zheng's face darkened, he raised his hand to unzip the padded jacket, and took advantage of the opportunity to wrap the man in the clothes.

The sudden warmth made Yan Chu's body stiff, and before his thoughts came back, he felt a gust of warm wind blowing towards his face, enveloping his whole body with a faint fragrance.

He was too familiar with this smell, it was from Chi Zheng, and every time the two of them got close, he could always smell a faint fragrance from that person.It smells like a certain men's perfume, but I can't be sure.

Yan Chu raised his eyes and saw Chi Zheng's profile.

The contour lines are clear and clear, and the facial features are exquisite and beautiful, but the brows are slightly frowned, looking cold and ruthless.

"Is it cold?" Yan Chu asked him.

The man lowered his eyes, and the sparkling sea seemed to be reflected in his eyes, "Holding you, it's not cold."

"Tch." Yan Chu couldn't help laughing, he simply leaned his head on Chi Zheng's shoulder, feeling more relaxed than ever.

He thought, maybe what Han Xuan said was right, and he would probably be able to return to normal in about half a year.

Thinking of this, he called that person's name, "Chi Zheng."

He always thought that Chi Zheng's name was nice, it sounded as cold and cool as himself, and he was also handsome.

"En." Chi Zheng snorted, with his chin slightly resting on the top of his head.

"I'll tell you a story when we eat later." Yan Chu lowered his head to see Chi Zheng holding his hand, and couldn't help fiddled with it a few times.

"Okay," he agreed.

It's just that Yan Chu's hand was still too cold, so cold that Chi Zheng felt chills in his heart, so he simply grabbed the man's cold hand, wrapped it in his palm, and rubbed it gently to keep him warm.

When they ate, they happened to avoid the peak time for everyone to eat, and they found a restaurant to order food at almost two o'clock.

To be honest, when Yu Chengfeng inquired from Ke Chen, Chi Zheng thought that Yan Chu would sit by the beach all day without even eating, so he was already prepared to go hungry, but thinking about it now It's kind of funny.

Seeing that his eyebrows and eyes seemed to be bent, Yan Chu couldn't help being curious, "What are you thinking about so happy?"

Chi Zheng raised his eyes to look at him, and said solemnly, "I'm happy to be able to spend your birthday with you."

Knowing that he was teasing him on purpose, Yan Chu still felt sweet and greasy in his heart, and the smile on the corner of his mouth could no longer be concealed.

For Chi Zheng, he has always been unable to control his emotions well, he can't control his liking, he can't control his jealousy, and even now he can't control his smile.

This is how many times Yan Chu felt that he had been eaten to death by Chi Zheng.

"What's the story you're telling?" It was rare for this person to take the initiative to ask him, and Yan Chu told him cheerfully.

In fact, the so-called story is nothing more than his vague memories of his childhood.He never mentioned it to anyone, but today he wanted to tell this person.

"There was a little boy who grew up in an orphanage. He has been an orphan since he can remember. He would have a dream every night. In the dream, he had a father and a mother, and they took him to the seaside of Binhai City Watch the sunrise and sunset."

When Yan Chu spoke, his tone was gentle, and the speed of his speech became slower, as if the story would be as complete as in a fairy tale.

But in fact, Chi Zheng knew that the stories told in this tone were just to cover up his sadness.

"But that day, my mother asked the little boy a word. She said: 'Baby, look, the sea is so beautiful, do you want to live in it with your parents?'" Yan Chu's lips were still hooked, but that smile was Already frozen there.

He continued: "Of course the little boy agreed. He remembered that the sky was very blue, the sea was also very blue, and the sea breeze was very comfortable, with a slight salty taste... He still remembered that the sea water that day was bitter. .”

"It was very bitter. It was so bitter that he didn't dare to try going into the sea again when he grew up."

The story ended here, Yan Chu didn't say anything, neither did Chi Zheng, and the two of them faced each other in silence.

After the waiter put all the dishes on the table, seeing the weird atmosphere between the two of them, he hesitated for a long time before saying "please take it easy" before turning around and leaving.

The two of them couldn't sit like this all the time, so it was Chi Zheng who spoke first: "Let's eat." As he spoke, he poured a cup of hot tea for Yan Chu and handed it to the man.

It was only when Yan Chu felt the heat on the back of his hand that he really came back to his senses. His eyes were red, and he smiled at Chi Zheng opposite him and took the hot tea, "Okay."

This matter has been hidden in his heart for more than 20 years. He doesn't understand every time he thinks about it. He always says that his parents are the people who love children the most in this world, but his parents want to take him to die together.

It would be fine if they really died together, but they regretted it at the last moment and threw him back to the shore, letting him watch his closest relatives being submerged in the cold and bitter sea.

Many times, Yan Chu feels that it is because he has endured too much pain that his peers cannot understand since he was a child that he has lived in the most realistic appearance now.

It's not that he doesn't hate, he just knows that hate is useless.

Living people always try their best to live well, but dead people should let him live in memory forever, and let his existence be fixed in the past.

"I live for myself." Yan Chu always remembered this sentence very clearly.

Telling a good story is just telling a story, and Yan Chu didn't let those things become a burden for him to get along with Chi Zheng.When the two of them ate, everything was normal. Picking food for each other was already smooth and natural, just like an old married couple.

But they knew each other well that the relationship between them was still in the green and ambiguous stage, they had enough space for each other, and they could show up when they needed each other.

It is the most comfortable state to get along with.

After eating, the two went to the beach to stay for a while, and Yan Chu no longer just stared at the sea in a daze like in the morning, he would occasionally talk to Chi Zheng, and the two of them leaned their heads together and cuddled each other .

Yan Chu spent the last time of his birthday on the plane.This year is no exception, but there are more people around me.

Chi Zheng handed him the phone, and said in a deep voice, "Write down your wishes."

"Ah?" Yan Chu didn't quite understand what he meant, he looked down at Chi Zheng's phone, the page stayed on the newly created blank sticky note, and the cursor waiting for input flickered one after another.

He was stunned for a long time and didn't move. It wasn't that he didn't give Chi Zheng face, but he simply didn't know what to write. After all, no one had asked him about his wish before.

Seeing that he didn't move for a long time now, Chi Zheng thought it was because he didn't want to, so he hurriedly added: "If you don't have one, you don't have to write it."

How could there be no wish?It's just that I don't know how to express it yet.

Yan Chu raised his eyes to look at Chi Zheng, the tangled and tense expression on his handsome and cool face was really a little contrary and cute, Yan Chu couldn't help but want to lean in and kiss him.

But it's impossible for Boss Yan to do such a thing in such a public place, and he can't afford to lose this person.

Seeing Chi Zheng lift his chin this way, Yan Chu lowered his head and typed a line quickly.When he was about to hand it back, a reminder of the itinerary popped up on the top of the phone, which seemed to have been scheduled long ago.

The content of the reminder is very brief: "Chai Ziqian, call."

Originally, Yan Chu didn't pay attention to it, but the name Chai Ziqian is really familiar...it seems to be the manager of Yiwen Company who helped him suppress Weibo's hot searches before?

Did Chi Zheng actually know him?

His mind was in a mess now, and he couldn't figure it out, so he simply returned the phone to Chi Zheng, pretending nothing happened.

Chi Zheng was not in a hurry to look at the content on the phone, but turned off the screen directly, stuffed the phone back into his pocket and did not take it out again until the plane landed at Yuancheng Airport.

It was already 23:50 when the two got off the plane, and it took another 5 minutes to walk out of the waiting hall.

At 23:55, Yan Chu and Chi Zheng stood at the gate of the airport.

It is not difficult to find the parking place for Yan Chu. When the two of them got into the car, the time on the phone showed December 12th/Sunday/6:23.

"Yan Chu." Chi Zheng called his name.

He turned his head, and found that the man had moved closer at some point, and at this moment, the tip of their noses just touched each other, and their breathing couldn't help but stagnate.

Yan Chu heard his heart beating faster and faster, he swallowed with difficulty, but his body involuntarily leaned to that side.

When the atmosphere is here, things like kissing are natural.Breathing intertwined, the lips gradually rubbed into a scalding temperature. In the dimly lit car, the two were distracted, as if they were in a contest, and neither of them had the intention to let go of the other first.

Regarding Chi Zheng's plunder, Yan Chu was not to be outdone at first, but he really couldn't hold on later.He raised his hand against the man's chest and pushed twice, giving himself a chance to breathe.

Seeing the person beside him panting heavily with a red face, Chi Zheng put his hand on Yan Chu's neck, and squeezed it lightly twice.

The squeeze was a little comfortable, Yan Chu couldn't help but snorted softly, but the sound fell in the man's ears, and the meaning was not so simple.

Chi Zheng's lips are red now, with a seductive luster, he curled the corners of his lips to look at Yan Chu, "Brother Yan, are you okay?"

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