How much will you sell it to me?

9.

The driver had no choice but to call Anyang's parents.His parents agreed that An Yang would stay at school for another night, and they also said that An Yang would take me home to play when they had time.

An Yang hugged me and did not let go, and rubbed his face against my hair, "I want to live in a dormitory with Qiao Xi."

He seems to like me, but I don't know why.

After we were together, I asked him why he was so rare when I was a child. He said that I was a small one in vain, and I was not at all the same as the bunch of drooling kids around him—to put it bluntly, it was think I look good.

I said, I didn't expect you to be a face control since you were a child.

He replied solemnly: "No, Beibei, you were cute back then..."

He was kicked by me before he finished speaking, and seeing that I ignored him, he stuck to me with a stern face.

I couldn't tell if he was my partner or my son, but I kissed him and gave him a loving hug.

10.

An Yang insisted on sharing a dormitory with me, but I couldn't help it. He made an agreement with the auntie of the dormitory manager. The dormitory manager saw that he was good-looking, and gave him a lollipop.

An Yang peeled off the candy wrapper, stuffed the lollipop into my mouth, and asked me, "Is it sweet?"

Sweet.

The sugar is ordinary sugar, and the sweet one is An Yang.

I really felt that way at the time.

When I was five or six years old, I longed for Qiao Qingguo to hug me and pat me on the head every day when I came home. Even if he didn’t ask me how my day was, even if I didn’t care about whether I was full or not, I still wanted him to comfort me. Action tells me "I have daddy".

But Qiao Qingguo didn't.

I can't understand his hard work of working from dawn to dusk to make money, and he can't understand my desire to be loved and eager to be loved.

So they are in arrears with each other.

Fortunately, I met An Yang when I was eight years old.

Unfortunately, I met An Yang when I was eight years old.

11.

An Yang said, "I want to sleep with you."

Me: "Well."

In fact, it is not necessary for him to say so.There are people living in other bunks. Although I am not here now, I will come back on Monday.

After autumn, the weather fluctuates from hot to cold, An Yang is like a huge heater, when he sleeps at night, he holds me in his arms, it's not warm enough to describe... It's hot, it's really hot.

Waking up the next morning, we were both pissed off.An Yang was not affected at all, excitedly let me sit on the bed, and said that he would comb my hair.

He probably really thought of me as his doll—it's kind of weird for a boy to play with a doll.But I don't reject it, I am too eager to have someone by my side.

I may have fallen in love with An Yang since then.

I don't like to admit it.Because dolls can be thrown away, but people around them can't.

12.

An Yang is very kind to me.

On Saturdays and Sundays, the little idiots at my house circled around him again, but he ignored them all and just played with me.

The little fools followed him, and he followed me.

That scene was kind of funny.It's like an old hen with a group of chicks - An Yang is my own, and the ones behind are all picked up, and it's not me who picked them up, they are the ones who want to follow.

Two years later, An Yang entered the junior high school of our school and shuttled from the playground to the playground every day.We went to the cafeteria together for dinner, and before we left, his last words must have been: "You will wait for me tomorrow, you know?"

"Ah."

He won't leave unless I say a word.

Every day after school at noon, I waited for An Yang at the entrance of the teaching building. Elementary school closed 15 minutes earlier than junior high school. Occasionally, An Yang and his teachers would delay the class.I've never been impatient with waiting, I stood at the entrance of the teaching building, all I could think about was An Yang.

13.

My academic performance is very good, which is the main reason why the teacher tolerates me mixing with junior high school students.

But my head teacher still reminds me from time to time that she speaks cryptically, saying that junior high school is chaotic and there are many fights, so she tells me to be careful.

I knew she was actually talking about An Yang.I've never seen An Yang fight, so naturally I don't believe it, and I even hate this head teacher a little bit.

The first time I saw An Yang fighting was on the way to the junior high school building to copy papers.I was already in the sixth grade at that time, and I was still frightened when I saw An Yang's attack so ruthlessly.

An Yang's eyes were very fierce at that time, my hand shook, and the paper spilled all over the floor. When he raised his head, his eyes didn't change, he was still very fierce - looking at me very fiercely.

"Joe Xi?" When he saw it was me, all the ferocity on his face disappeared, and he froze in place, looking rather silly.

I backed away subconsciously, turned around and ran.

When I got back to the class and the teacher asked me the paper, I hesitated for a long time. She saw that something was wrong with me, and comforted me and said that it was okay, and let me go back to my seat for a while.

I'm afraid of An Yang.

Not because of his fight, but because of the look he gave me when he looked up.

So what if An Yang fights, even if he fights, in my eyes, he is still the little brother who protects me everywhere, loves me and pretends to be pitiful and obedient.

What I'm afraid of is the look in An Yang's eyes when he looks up. I'm afraid that he will look at me like that.

No matter what kind of person An Yang is in his heart, I don't care, I like them all. What I'm afraid of is that he will push me away, and what I'm afraid of is alienation and indifference.

Later we reconciled, but I still remember that look for many years.

14.

This is the only time I didn't wait for An Yang after school at noon.

After finishing my meal quickly, I got up and wanted to go back to the dormitory. An Yang happened to be entering the cafeteria.

I sneaked to the cafeteria door like a thief, but An Yang still saw me.

"Josh!"

He called me, and I walked out of the cafeteria as if I didn't hear him.

In the end, I was blocked in a corner by An Yang. He asked me why I was running, with a very aggressive tone.

Seeing that I didn't answer, An Yang softened his hands supporting the wall. He leaned his head on my shoulder and asked me, "Qiao Xi, are you scared? Did I scare you?"

I said no.

He didn't believe me, so he said to me: "Don't hide from me, Qiao Xi, you can't hide from me."

I feel bad.

I can tell that An Yang is not pretending to be pitiful, he is really afraid of me, he is afraid that I will run away, afraid that I will not be found.He loves me like his own brother, leaving all his tenderness to me.

I hugged him back and patted him on the back: "Don't cry."

"I didn't cry." An Yang tilted her head and plunged into my neck.

"Then don't be coquettish."

"I haven't eaten yet, I'm hungry."

"Then go eat."

"You go with me."

"it is good."

An Yang is such a good person, he loves and cherishes me as much as his younger brother.

But I like him.

What a dirty thought.

15.

After I entered junior high school, An Yang restrained herself from fighting.In fact, An Yang doesn't have to worry about me at all, because I also "fight".I use all shady tricks, and all bad things are done in secret, and the people I tricked have no idea that I did it.I have means, but I am not open.

I was discovered by An Yang once, which scared me enough.Afraid that he would hate people like me, his face turned red all of a sudden, frightened.In the end, An Yang thought I was being careful and he found out that I was shy, so he pinched my face and said, "My Qiao Xi is so smart, but why is she so shy?"

An Yang is quite out of his mind sometimes.

I like him the most.

Kidding.

I like everything about him.

"But Qiao Xi," An Yang changed the subject, "If you are bullied, you should find me, you know?"

knew.knew.

You are the best for me.

"An Yang, you look like an old lady." I said.

An Yang patted my forehead, "I'm used to it."

Yes, you are used to it.

15.

An Yang's first girlfriend after high school was called Mu Nannan.

The girl's name is quite vulgar, but the person is really beautiful.

An Yang is very kind to her.

The thing I dreaded was finally here.The most powerless thing is that I still have to smile and say congratulations to An Yang.

If we had known each other since we were not eight or nine years old, I could just throw up my sleeves and leave without looking at the pictures that made me uncomfortable, not hearing those intimate words, or I could just tell An Yang that I like him and let him give I gave a completely negative answer, my heart was ashamed, and then I started a new life.

But I can't.I grew up with him, there is no reason for me to suddenly ignore him, and it is impossible to confess to him.

The memories of the past few years have taken root in my heart, and it hurts too much to pull them out, and I am not willing to part with them.

If I just had a crush on An Yang, I wouldn't be in such pain.But we have been together for five or six years, those memories, those loves, those tenderness given by An Yang, I can't let go of them all, I miss them all.

16.

When An Yang and Mu Nannan broke up, I persuaded them to make up.

An Yang was very disdainful of the group of people trying to persuade them to make peace, men and women were no exception, he replied "Fuck off" to all of them.

When I came to my place, An Yang asked me: "Are you serious?"

No.

I said "um".

"Josh, why don't you smile." He said suddenly, "I haven't seen you smile for a long time."

I twitched the corners of my mouth with a half-smile.

An Yang said: "I don't like Mu Nannan. She is a good girl, and I don't want to delay her. Qiao Xi, do you understand?"

I understand.

You are such a gentle and cold-blooded person.

17.

Later I ran into Mu Nannan in the library.

She said, "You are Qiao Xi, right? An Yang often tells me about you."

I didn't speak, just looked at her quietly.

"I..." She chuckled lightly, as if mocking herself, "Don't get me wrong, I didn't want you to say anything to An Yang, I've already given up. But I'm still a little curious, what am I... what An Yang said What kind of person?" She raised her head, her eyes sparkling.

She lied to people.She didn't give up at all, she still liked An Yang, but she knew that it was impossible for her.

I opened my mouth: "Very beautiful, very cute, girl...he said."

She froze for a moment, then laughed, "That's it."

I also lied to people.

An Yang never mentioned Mu Nannan in front of me at all, and occasionally mentioned things like "I'm going to find someone later" and "She's waiting for me at the basketball court".

An Yang is a cruel person.

As he said, Mu Nannan is a good girl, so I lied to her.I hope she can be happier and forget about the bastard An Yang.