as yesterday

He Yu and Lian Xiaoli went to Sifan, the door was open, but they went in and shouted a few times but no one was seen.

"Sister Sijun may have gone out."

He Yu burped, feeling overwhelmed after eating too much, took another piece of chewing gum from his pocket and stuffed it into his mouth.

He also handed one to Lian Xiaoli.

"Then come again next time."

Lian Xiaoli said.

He Yu walked on the road with his schoolbag on one shoulder.

There were no people on the road at this point. Although the shop was open on the outer street, the busiest time was after dinner.

She accompanied Lian Xiaoli to her family's clothing store, and found that Lian Xiaoli's mother was still ordering goods, and her father was also there. ? No keys?"

He Yu was a little sour, and felt that Lian Xiaoli's mother and aunt were gentle and considerate, unlike her mother Hong Lanwen, who had a loud voice, but unfortunately, she didn't have the momentum of a lion roaring in the east of the river. Instead, she wanted to worry about her daughter's hair.

"Bring it, accompany He Yu to find Si Fan's sister."

Lian Weisu snorted, and she glanced at He Yu who was looking around. The little girl was tall, her long hair was tied into a high ponytail, and she looked very energetic with thick eyebrows and big eyes. She smiled and said, "Auntie, are you busy?"

"Yeah, don't you want to order the goods? You came back so late today, where did you go?"

He Yu scratched his head, "Going to eat barbecue."

Lian Weisu shook his head, "Eat less."

He Yu said yes a few times, Lian Xiaoli said a few words before returning. On the way, He Yu pondered the way Lian Weisu looked at her, and always felt that this aunt didn't like her very much.

I can't tell what's wrong, it's just a very subtle feeling.

She has always been straightforward, "Is your mother unhappy with me?"

Lian Xiaoli was stunned by this question, she was a little embarrassed, her eyes drifted wildly, but her face was pulled by He Yu, and the face facing her was a face pretending to be angry: "Don't run away."

He Yu's hands are actually not hot, but I don't know why Lian Xiaoli's whole face is burned up. He may have thought about more things, causing even a little physical contact to come up like weeds and wilderness, easily letting her The temperature on the face rose again and again.

She knew it was wrong to think that way, and she also knew that that kind of memory was her shame, but once some things were opened, they could never be pressed back.

She lowered her eyes and said softly: "No, mom said you are skinny."

He Yu also felt Lian Xiaoli's temperature rising, and he moved his hand from pinching to caressing, and touched it, and said, "Why is your face so hot?"

Just walking under the streetlight, she saw Lian Xiaoli's flushed face, "Hey, why are you blushing?"

Lian Xiaoli glared at her, not vicious at all, but rather coquettish, He Yu snorted, "I don't like you, oh, you can't do this, you will be bullied if you are too thin-skinned, just like Liu Ci .”

Liu Ci is always involved in her speech.

Lian Xiaoli felt that the warmth of He Yu was still on her face, and her eyelashes were trembling, like a butterfly whose wings could not escape under the faint light of the street lamp, reflecting the charm that was out of place at this age, "Can you touch me next time?" Say hello."

He Yu thought this was a bit strange, "Why did I touch you, do you mind touching your face?"

She is a natural acquaintance, and there is nothing wrong with the closeness of many girls, such as pushing each other with Shao Qian and the others at school, occasionally braiding each other's hair, or pulling the other's hair out of the collar of the clothes , are all under the protection of gender reasons, measures that can be easily used by the same sex.

But it is different for some people, and Lian Xiaoli is one of them.

When she knew that the same sex could have more things, she was destroyed and reopened. At such a time when the night breeze was blowing, some kind of desire devoured her like a spark, and the chewing gum in her mouth lost its taste , she spat on the wrapping paper and threw it in the trash can aside.

He Yu pursed her mouth, holding her mouth even if she had no taste. She watched Lian Xiaoli's series of movements, and heard her say, "He Yu, I have something I want to tell you."

He Yu snorted, "Just talk about it if it's not a big deal, what if you want my help? But if you want to fall in love with Meng Tao, I won't give you any reference."

She likes to shake her head and shake her head when she speaks, which always gives people an unreliable feeling, but when she looks at people, her gaze is like a torch, but the person being watched feels that she is being watched and that she is unique.

Lian Xiaoli really wanted this kind of attention, the kind He Yu watched Liu Ci.

It seems that Liu Ci is her only one, the difference that is treated differently.

"That's not it."

Lian Xiaoli lifted the shoulder strap of her schoolbag up, and her school uniform outlined her girly lines, she looked more like a girl than He Yu next to her.

"Aren't you curious about my previous school?"

He Yu snorted, "I know, didn't you say that it's a girls' school."

"I'm not joking today."

Lian Xiaoli said so.

He Yu: "What, why am I listening..."

Her words stuck in her throat, she must have remembered it, and said, "It's true."

Shocked and curious, he leaned closer, "So you had a girlfriend in school before?"

Homosexuality is a taboo topic, but that doesn't mean many people don't know about it.

He Yu had already noticed some hidden emotions in the comics, and it's not that he didn't discuss it with Liu Ci, but usually there was nothing to follow, because Liu Ci pursed his lips, as if he was angry.

It's hard for her to say.

It's not that people of the same age haven't seen such signs, but everyone knows it's fun.

The future life is so long, how can I make it clear?

"No."

He Yu snorted, "Then you are born to like girls?"

They continued to walk forward, under the street lamps, the criss-crossed wires above their heads cast long and thin shadows on the ground, occasionally there were dogs barking, and it was empty.Whose child was still awake, and was scolded several times by the parents, whose TV was turned on too loudly, and the sound of the hit TV series came out, which was the background music of the hero and heroine saying goodbye affectionately.

Lian Xiaoli felt that she was stepping on a tightrope, and she was betting.

In the past, she lived a muddled and lonely life. Some people may never have friends for a lifetime, and they grow up in isolation and invisible discrimination all their lives.

If you are too tall, you will be discriminated against, if you are too short, you will be discriminated against, fat or thin, beautiful or ugly.

It is better to be ordinary than to be ordinary, and not to be targeted because it is too prominent, just like the apple that the poisonous snake looks at is definitely not the most ordinary one.

She existed as a glamorous apple in the invisible discrimination, and was targeted by poisonous snakes, corroded from the inside out, and she was also infected with poison.

It sounds too lonely in writing.

Fermented by jealousy and desire, it evolves again and again, turning into a somewhat vicious possessive desire.

"I do not know."

She lowered her head, and the hand holding the shoulder strap of the schoolbag seemed to use a lot of strength. He Yu looked at her, looked at the top of her hair, it wasn't Liu Ci's special two curls, the fringe was fluffy under the light His little head was still trembling a little.

"Oh, I'm sad so don't talk about it," He Yu could feel the low pressure, she thought Lian Xiaoli had been injured before.

"I'm going to talk."

Lian Xiaoli raised his eyes, his eyes were full of water, which almost shocked He Yu who was still smiling.

He Yu lowered her head resentfully, "I think you are very sad."

Lian Xiaoli had known for a long time that He Yu had an amazing sensitivity in getting along with people, but it was an intuition.

It reflected the slowness on the other hand, such as Liu Ci's attitude towards her.

"So you want to listen?"

Lian Xiaoli stopped, and she looked up at He Yu. He Yu's schoolbag was hanging on her arm, and she looked very light.

This person is just pretending, and when he goes back, he basically reads comics and draws villains.

He Yu smiled, "Of course you want to tell me, I will listen."

Lian Xiaoli shook his head, "This is a secret, I only tell you."

Some girls are like this, a bit of hidden thoughts are like a net woven with silk, surrendering to the locked target.

The word "only" brings the distance closer easily.

He Yu wowed, "Then am I qualified?"

She was actually quite happy, being recognized was a happy thing in the first place.

Lian Xiaoli reached out and took her arm, as if the two were snuggling together, she stood on tiptoe and whispered a word in He Yu's ear.

It took He Yu a long time to react, "Then..."

She was also speechless, because that sentence was so shocking that she could hardly connect with Lian Xiaoli: "Is that teacher... a woman too?"

In an instant, she almost turned into Shen Youqian.

Lian Xiaoli nodded.

There was no expression on her face, and she held He Yu's arm with the intention of leaning closer. She knew that He Yu would not refuse at this time, so she rubbed against him.

"This is too..."

"Your mother knows too?"

Lian Xiaoli nodded: "I know."

He Yu didn't know what to say.

Her understanding of the word rape still rests on the superficial difference between genders, and she has never thought about same-sex relationships, let alone women.

Lian Xiaoli looks very quiet, her beauty is undoubted, but it is also easy to arouse the jealousy of her peers.

The jealousy of peers is too difficult for He Yu to understand, because she is quite likable, she has a boyish temperament, but also a girl's squeamishness, mixed together to become sassy, ​​plus she is also straightforward, everyone All treat her well.

Because she is beautiful, being jealous and being ignored is too far away from her, and she also feels that she has nothing to do with being beautiful.

"Ah...don't, don't be sad. Anyway, I don't go to girls' schools now, and teachers are not like this. Look at our class fairy, a very aggressive auntie, with a knife mouth and a bean curd heart. She punished me for standing in a class and ended up dying in 10 minutes. Call me back."

The comfort she said didn't hit the point at all, and she still stuttered, her mind went blank.

Fortunately, Lian Xiaoli didn't need her to comfort her. Several months passed and she couldn't forget it, but it wasn't the initial state of collapse.

I don't want to die either.

Because she found the kind of redemption she wanted.

She wants to graft the flowers that others have carefully cultivated.

"He Yu."

She took He Yu's hand.

He Yu hummed dryly, and Lian Xiaoli suddenly felt that He Yu was so cute, so he put his arms around He Yu's waist, and took a sharp breath of He Yu's scent.

He Yu's school uniform was washed by herself, adding two spoonfuls of washing powder every time, resulting in a strong smell, and Shao Qian said that she was wearing perfume.

"Whose perfume smells like saponin, so what kind of perfume should I buy?"

He Yu said so.

Non-pungent daisy smell.

He Yu was a little at a loss, but luckily her hand was hanging, otherwise she really didn't know where to put it.

"Oh, don't be sad. Although it's useless for me to say that, it's over. If you like women, it's a big deal. I'll show you what is suitable for you. The female version of Meng Tao? It's a bit difficult, I don't know you What kind of..."

She seems to have a particular fondness for matchmaking.

"Do you have one like this?"

Lian Xiaoli's voice was a bit muffled, and He Yu said, "Don't make fun of me, rabbits don't even eat grass beside their nests."

"you caught me."

Lian Xiaoli said with a smile in his voice, "Then do you think I'm disgusting?"

He Yu snorted, "Don't talk nonsense, is there such a thing as high or low?"

She was smiling again.

Lian Xiaoli let go of his hand and said, "This is a secret."

He Yu nodded, "I'm keeping my mouth shut."

"Don't talk to Liu Ci."

He Yu: "I know."

She still wanted to say something, but Lian Xiaoli suddenly stood on tiptoe and kissed her.

With a kiss on the cheek, He Yu froze.

"What are you doing!"

Lian Xiaoli has gone through several movies, and he turned around and said, "Test me to see if I have feelings for you."

He Yu covered his face, "Anyway, I don't feel it."

Lian Xiaoli stuck out his tongue at her and said duplicity: "Me too."