as yesterday

Lian Xiaoli found He Yu more and more amusing. Although she hadn't met Liu Ci and He Yu a few times, her mother had visited the house several times and knew the general situation of this alley. five.

The son of the barber shop at the intersection is a fat man, and he should also be a school.There is also the youngest son of Lao Liu Noodle Shop. It is said that he is in a high-level job.

The thin and small one repairs electrical appliances at home, and the tall one works as a salesperson in a store without coming back for ten days and half a month.

There is almost no change in Yanxinglong Lane, and there is not much population movement. Almost all the old residents have been there for many years.

Children are born here and grow up here.

Unlike the community Lian Xiaoli lived in before, there was not so much contact between neighbors there. Once the iron gate was locked, some neighbors rarely saw each other a few times a year, and they met downstairs, and they could not be called by name.

After only speaking a few words, she realized that He Yu was much easier to talk to than Liu Ci.

Under He Yu's frequent glances, Liu Ci opened the new textbook and read it seriously.

The new teacher in the new class on the stage was still talking, and Liu Ci had no distractions, as if immersed in his own world.

She had never imagined that she and He Yu would have such a day before. This was a sense of comfort that she had been accustomed to petting for many years. The comfort in interpersonal relationships made her rarely think that she would be separated from He Yu.

There are fixed houses in Yanxinglong Lane, fixed so-and-so and so-and-so, and it's not that there are no new residents moving in, but without their peers, the arrival of Lian Xiaoli gave Liu Ci a sense of instability, as if she had painstakingly managed it. The balance of many years will eventually be broken. If there is such a day, when that day comes, it is better for her to cut it off herself.

It's not cut off.

There is no reason for some feeling of not being able to deal with it, and it is like a premonition in the dark. When she first saw Lian Xiaoli, she felt a strange sense of crisis.

She thought in her heart, just separate, not so close.

But Liu Ci didn’t take into account that there are three streets and alleys between them, and the way home is just a few steps away, so when he released the new book and left the school, He was still complaining: “I’m so mad! How can we rank by grades! This is discrimination! It has caused a serious psychological shadow on the students, and it is cold violence!"

Lian Xiaoli, who was side by side, heard it, "I didn't expect that either."

He Yu sighed: "We are also destined."

This sentence made Lian Xiaoli laugh out his teeth. Liu Ci in her corner of the eye looked indifferent, looking at the scenery on the side of the road, as if I hadn't heard it.

She looked away, feeling more and more that Liu Ci was difficult to speak.

He Yu and Liu Ci went back together.

When going downhill, He Yu didn't even press the brakes, and deliberately turned the car's faucet. Liu Ci grabbed her by the hem of her T-shirt and gave her a "feed".

He Yu's aggrieved voice floated along the wind, and she said, "Liu Ci, you haven't said a few words to me today."

She looks very happy all day long, and the shelf life of this kind of grievance will not exceed a few hours. Maybe she can heal within a meal.

Liu Ci knew He Yu very well, so he didn't respond at this time.

And Lian Xiaoli, who was picked up by her family after school, answered perfunctorily when her mother learned about the new environment, thinking of new neighbors, new classmates, new deskmates, He Yu was very new to her, and she had never seen him before. past type.

Lian Xiaoli's previous school was not very good, it was smoky, and she was always isolated, but she didn't tell her parents.

Since she was a child, she didn't have many friends. They were all classmates who nodded and said hello, or the kind of classmates who pointed at her.

She hasn't been this relaxed in a long time.

The three of them returned home with their own concerns. School officially starts tomorrow, and the school uniforms have not been issued yet. It is still very hot at this time, and Chenggao is picking and picking. Only a set of long-sleeved ones will be issued, and they will have to wait until autumn to wear them.He Yu thought the school uniform was ugly, so he thought about going to a tailor shop to have it changed on the weekend.

Liu Ci didn't say anything along the way, and He Yu was also angry, thinking that I shouldn't talk to you either.

Sending people back also went up.

Liu Ci stood downstairs, watching He Yu climb up the stairs after locking the car, and stood there for several minutes.

Liu Yu poked his head out upstairs and called out, sister, you're back.

Liu Ci just went up.

He Yu carried his schoolbag on one shoulder and went upstairs angrily. When he got home, he closed the door louder. Before he could raise his head, he heard a roar——

"What's the matter, you have such a big temper, the door is broken and you fix it yourself?!"

With a rough voice, He Yu smelled the smell of smoke in the room. A man in a vest was sitting at the table smoking.He Yu glanced at He Fengjun with disgust, saw her mother's back in the kitchen, turned her head and walked towards the kitchen.

"When will he come back?"

He Yu carried her schoolbag, walked up to her mother who was chopping vegetables, and asked a question.

"Back at three o'clock."

"You left work too early today."

"I changed with someone, and I will go tonight."

He Yu snorted, "He doesn't know how to cook by himself?"

Hong Lanwen lowered her head, her fingers were a bit thick and wrinkled, but she was able to cut vegetables very neatly. He Yu couldn't help complaining when she watched her cut half a radish into a thin pile and put it into the pot Sentence: "I'm bored to death."

Her mother tapped her forehead with the handle of a spatula, "Kids know what is annoying?"

With his schoolbag hanging on his arm, He Yu pouted and said, "Who isn't worried, the rhubarb downstairs also has it."

It's about the yellow dog downstairs, seven or eight years old, and it's not locked up, it walks in the alley all day long.

"Can people be the same as dogs?"

Hong Lanwen added salt to the pot, pointed to the rice cooker, "Is the rice ready?"

While watching, He Yu turned her back to her mother and said again: "If he beats you again, we should get a divorce."

It's been a long time since he heard her mother's voice. He Yu turned his head and saw that her mother was chopping onions again, and the sound of duk du du was like an answer.

Helpless grind.

He Yu closed the lid of the rice cooker with a bang, and walked into her room holding the shoulder strap of her schoolbag.

As she passed his father, she heard the man's rough voice——

"The wings are hard? Daddy doesn't cry?"

He Yu bit her lip, did not compromise, walked into her room, threw away her schoolbag, and fell on the bed with her head buried in the pillow, she wanted to cry, but couldn't cry.

The days when her father was away were always the happiest since she was a child. She didn't have to come back cautiously, and she didn't have to look at her face when eating. Even the air was fresh and there was no annoying smell of smoke.

At the most important time, you won't hear her mother crying bitterly.

That forbearable, unbearable sound because of the pain, which seemed to be crying but not crying, tormented her little by little at night.

Start with notes.

Sometimes it will be a little more intense, there is a scuffling sound, something falls on the floor, is it the alarm clock on the bedside table, or the photo frame containing the wedding photos?

The glass of that photo frame was broken long ago, leaving only a transparent piece of plastic paper, which was put on by her mother.

He Yu didn't understand. She had thought about this issue since she was a child, and even began to fear his father's return. She was afraid like her, but she still had to bear the violence of this man.

As the sky outside the window gradually darkened, Hong Lanwen knocked on the door, "He Yu, it's time to eat."

He Yu let out a cry.

She sat up and rubbed her hair irritably, and couldn't help but glanced out of the window. The opposite window didn't draw the curtains, but didn't turn on the light. Liu Ci should have gone to eat too.

She suddenly wanted to talk to Liu Ci.

But a few minutes ago she had vowed never to speak to Liu Ci again.He Yu took a deep breath, opened the door and went out. The man at the dinner table had just opened a beer and let out a yo.

He Yu pulled up the stool and sat down, the man reached out and touched her head, "Why are you so tall, you don't look like a girl at all."

He Yu slapped He Fengjun's hand off, and said irritably, "Don't touch my head."

"What's the matter, I still can't touch it? You are my seed, why don't you let me touch it?"

He Fengjun's skin is dark. He drove the train all the year round, as if he was angry, his brows were frowned, and it looked like he was not a good stubble.

He Yu felt the smell of sweat all over his body, and felt that his words were very ugly, "Fuck you, look in the mirror yourself."

When she frowned, she could actually see He Fengjun's shadow. He Fengjun stared at his daughter whom he hadn't seen for more than a month, took a sip from the beer bottle, and clicked his tongue, "It would be great if you were a handlebar."

He Yu: "You want to live by yourself? Why didn't you strangle me back then."

This sentence was too offensive, Hong Lanwen finally had a little reaction, "He Yu, don't make trouble."

He Yu had no appetite for the dishes on the table, "Who made you lose your mind?"

She shook the bowl and chopsticks, stood up and left.

With a bang, the door was closed, and the atmosphere of the couple inside the door was also very tense.

He Fengjun took a peanut, "This little girl looks like me."

Hong Lanwen didn't speak.

This marriage existed in name only when it was first started, and the relationship between husband and wife broke down, but it was only because of He Yu that this precarious peace was maintained.

After giving birth to He Yu, it's not that Hong Lanwen never conceived again, it's just that he was in poor health and couldn't keep it. He Fengjun wanted a son, and he had a deep-rooted idea of ​​passing on the family line, even if he had nothing to pass on. , Sometimes when I get angry, I become a perpetrator.

And Hong Lanwen was honest by nature, at the beginning he thought it would be fine to bear it, but later it became more and more repetitive.

But when He Yu grew up, the importance of a family is self-evident. Moreover, He Yu liked to draw since he was a child, so he needed more money.It's not that Hong Lanwen never thought about divorce, but He Fengjun disagreed.

A stalemate lasted for several years.

He Yuling is very smart, she has long noticed the atmosphere of her parents before, but this kind of child always doesn't count, and can't do anything, and it's quite naive to say it.

Divorce was a buzz word, she had seen it on TV.

It doesn't matter if the couple separates.

Who else did she think about with, no doubt, of course it was Hong Lanwen.

But she waited and waited until high school, but she still didn't leave.

She couldn't figure it out, so she rushed downstairs in a rage, unlocked the car, got on the car and ran out.

It happened to be getting late, and the sky and old buildings in the distance intertwined into a very pleasing scenery, but she was used to seeing it, and she didn't have the heart to appreciate it. The evening wind blew on her face, making her shiver from the heat. She stood up and rode, riding smoothly. Quickly, the wind poured in from her collar, and then out from the skirt, as if to comfort her sadness.

With tears in her eyes, the wheels of the bicycle rolled over the uneven stone road, passed through the narrow alleys densely covered with electric wires, and at dusk amidst the chirping of sparrows, she was sweating all over her body, and her bangs were wet with sweat, until her legs trembled , and finally got out of the car and dragged along endlessly.

She occasionally feels like a homeless person.

Hong Lanwen was a good mother, but what brought her was always timidity.

She hates inequality, in gender.

Liu Ci agrees with her on this point. They grew up in the voice of "why isn't it a boy", and it's not like they haven't played with boys. Yu is not particularly good, but Liu Ci is good, they are always better than boys, why do adults still say that?

But on the other hand, she thought, it would be nice if I were a man.

So that unappetizing father won't beat his mother anymore?

Can all mistakes be corrected, as long as I change gender.

As she walked, her rubber band broke, her ponytail fell loose, and the back of her head was dripping with sweat.

He Yu was a little hungry, she didn't bring any money, so she had to go back.

She pulled her bicycle across the small bridge, passed Wensheng's noodle shop, saw Liu Wensheng's eating, saw her passing by, and said hello.

He Yu smiled at the people in their family, it was not as bright as her mood at the moment.

She continued to walk forward, and in the evening wind, under the dark blue sky, she saw Liu Ci coming out of the next door to her house with a plate.

Lian Xiaoli's home.

Naturally, she also saw He Yu, and there were more than ten steps between them, which was a bit far away.

"Willow Ci!"

He Yu opened his mouth, but still called out.

Liu Ci shouted, "Where have you been?"

She walked towards He Yu, and He Yu came towards Liu Ci.

"I'm going for a ride."

"I heard about it."

They spoke together.

He Yu discovered that there were two pancakes on Liu Ci's plate, exuding the smell of green onion and meat, shining golden under the dim street lamp.

"Can I eat it?"

"It was meant to be given to you."

He Yu put the car aside, sat on the steps and started eating.

Liu Ci sat beside her, watching He Yu eating cakes with his hair down.

She stretched out her hand to pin the other person's hair behind her ear, and He Yu gave her a smirk.

"Liu Ci, you are so kind."

He Yu said in a hurry.

Liu Ci could see He Yu's sadness, "Don't be sad."

"I know," He Yu swallowed, "it's just hard to hold back."

She smiled and almost burst into a snot bubble, "This cake is delicious, didn't you make it?"

Liu Ci hummed.

He Yu took another bite, "You are so nice, if you can..."

Before she finished speaking, she swallowed the pancake again.

Liu Ci knew what she wanted to say.

She whispered in her heart, of course, always.

But he heard He Yu's voice——

"Let's be friends forever."