as yesterday

This Saturday, Liu Hao and Liu Yuan also went to the second sister's house together.

Speaking of making dumplings, I started rolling the dough in the afternoon, and it took a long time to prepare a dinner.

Liu Yu's house is quite big, with four bedrooms. During this time, Xiao Yang was on a business trip, so she simply took Liu Ci over.

Today Liu Yuan and Liu Hao both live here, it's as lively as when they were kids.

When Shen Yougan and Jin Jia opened the door and came in, Liu Hao was wrapping up a basket, and when he saw Shen Yougan holding a drink, he yelled brother.

Liu Ci was also sitting at the dining table making dumplings, the latest hit drama was playing on the TV, and Shen Yougan's eldest daughter was playing with Liu Yu's daughter on a tablet.

Liu Yuan stared at the dumpling skin solemnly.

"Come here?"

Liu Yu, who was wearing an apron, came out, her hair was tied back, and she had a plain face, which looked somewhat similar to Liu Ci.

Shen Youqian put the drinks on the table and said to Liu Ci, "Look at the row I bought."

Six-pack of Fanta.

Liu Ci took a look, "I'm interested, is she okay?"

She asked Lian Xiaoli, Liu Ci still had a hard time letting go of this person after so many years, mind, jealousy, helplessness, hatred... In the end, it was just an old friend.

"I've been transferred to another hospital, and I've searched for several places."

Shen You came back after cleaning his hands, pulled a chair and sat beside Liu Ci, "I feel like Xiaoli's dad, dad has gotten rich again."

Liu Ci hummed, she made dumplings very skillfully, with a spoon and a spoon, the dumpling skin was pleated and pleated after being folded in half, very beautiful.

Liu Hao's buns were not bad, but compared to Liu Ci Pianfei's speed, it was still a little bit worse. Liu Yuan couldn't do it at all, and made buns.

"She still can't remember anything?"

Liu Ci said that her voice was very soft, and she was also thin. The air conditioner was on in the room, and the hot air made the atmosphere warm, but it made her sweater even more empty, and the butterfly bone could be poked out by bending her body a little.

"Yes," Shen Youqian sighed, "Looking at me is the same as looking at strangers."

Thinking of Lian Xiaoli, Shen Youqian still felt sorry, such an excellent person ended up like this in the end.

It was supposed to be radiant, but for the rest of his life, he didn't know anything in the ward.

"Her dad will take good care of her."

Liu Ci lowered his head and stirred the stuffing in the pot. There are several kinds of stuffing, this winter solstice is very grand.

"Well, uncle, uncle also found two or two nurses for her."

Shen Youqian was also making dumplings. He was quick with his hands and feet, and the dumplings he made were round and not broken, which made Liu Yuan's eyes widen.

"That's very good."

Liu Ci's voice didn't sound salty or weak. She was originally thin and thin, and she looked even sicker after being seriously injured during this time.

No one dared to talk too much in front of her, nor did they dare to go too far, for fear that she would be overwhelmed.

A while ago, Liu Yu went to live with Liu Ci for a period of time, and took very good care of her, so thoughtful that Liu Ci had to say that she was okay with her sister.

"I won't be overwhelmed."

That day was one afternoon, Liu Yutiao took a few days off and was going to pick up her daughter from school in the afternoon.

After He Yu left, Liu Ci moved into the set he bought. It was cold and cold. Later, he bought a lot of furniture, but it was inevitably deserted.

He Yu's rabbit and cat are both raised by Liu Ci. The cat has long been bigger than the rabbit. It is lazy and likes to sit on the sofa every day.

"Sister, I'm still stewing that pear soup, you watch it, don't let it run out, and the clothes in the washing machine haven't dried yet..."

Liu Yuxu babbled a lot, was carrying her bag and was still flipping through things for fear that she would go to the bank to do something later and forget about it, and was pulled back when she passed by Liu Ci.

"Don't be so tense all day long."

Liu Ci sat at the desk and looked at the computer. She worked as usual. After waking up from a coma, she was restrained and observed in the hospital for a period of time before returning home. She lost a lot of weight and looked like a paper doll.

There was no delay at work, and no one else knew what happened to her.

Liu Ci raised her eyes to look at Liu Yu, her sweater was so big that her hands were tucked into the sleeves, and her fingers stuck out, holding Liu Yu's hand, and it was chilly.

Liu Yu snorted, and said helplessly, "Sister, you know that this matter is not up to you."

We can't lose you.

The Liu family was almost carried by Liu Ci with one hand, and after so many years of suffering, no one wanted Liu Ci to be overwhelmed.

"I know, but I want you to believe me."

Liu Ci's table was very clean, and she began to suffer from insomnia all night long, and that tiredness returned, as if she had returned to those days when she didn't meet He Yu again.

Sometimes at night, she often thinks, it would be better not to meet again, maybe there are not so many things.

But things have already happened, and there is no turning back.

No one knows which will come first, tomorrow or the accident, and it is not possible to talk about everything after it comes.

Say it again.

There is nothing left to say.

There were no traces of He Yu in this house, so she didn't feel safe, and there were traces of He Yu everywhere in that house, so she didn't feel safe either.

The great uneasiness haunted her all the time, pervasive, and tortured her to death.

But even Liu Ci was surprised that she wanted to live a good life.

If it were her before, it might have been over a long time ago.

"it is good."

Liu Yu responded, and repeated what he had said just now, and added that when he changed his shoes and went out, don't forget to turn off the fire.

Liu Ci nodded with a smile and said yes, watching the door close.

She was alone in the room.

The deserted place was scary, the wall clock was still working diligently, Liu Ci glanced at the calendar, it was No.80 three days without He Yu.

After finishing the day's work, I turned off the computer, and the pear soup cooled down after drying. Liu Ci took a sip, turned on the phone, and clicked on the photo album.

There is a special folder with a scanned copy, which was put in the safe when she and He Yu went for notarization of the will.

A key that can only be exchanged with a death certificate.

Liu Ci didn't care about the belongings in He Yu's safe, the most precious thing was the envelope that came with the will.

The handwritten words on the two A4 papers were notarized by each of them that day, so it is not clear what they put in each other.

He Yu's handwriting is not very good-looking. She has never been good at handwriting since she was a child, and she is so elegant that the teacher wants to beat her up.

There are also typos, and it has been a long time since I have written a long essay by hand, so it is inevitable that I will be unfamiliar.

This sentence was written by herself.

Dear Liu Ci, I don't know if you get this letter first or none of us will see it, and it will be automatically destroyed when it expires, anyway, I'm writing it here now.

I hope you never see it.

If I saw it, then something irreparable must have happened to me.Alas, how do you say it's such a movie, it shouldn't be.

Ever since I met you again, I have been thinking about whether I have a destiny with you.My mother always mentions the word fate, and it is also mentioned in those ancient costume movies. There is always a traction between people. You walked so fast at the beginning, but when you came back, you were caught off guard. I was taken aback.

Being able to be with you and getting ready to get married is something I never thought about.

Because I arranged you into the rest of my life early on, although it was a regular friend at that time.

The one that is better than the best is better.

It's just that I want to treat you well.

It’s weird (marks crossed out with a pen), I know that you like me very much, and I know that you love me, but I dare not love you too much, I let you leave me, you don’t want to, in fact, I don’t want to either .

But that would be safer.

I always feel that I will never get better. This feeling of having to heal the wounds brought about by my childhood is too painful. It is not possible to heal by taking medicine and counseling.

That disease has been with me for a long time, it will die when I die, and it will live when I live.

You have a lot of expectations for me, and I also have a lot of expectations for the future, but this is a ticking time bomb, I don't even know the full self, when will the me that others are afraid of come out and hurt you.

During this period of time, I thought about this over and over again, even at work. Everyone said let it be, so let it be.

I like you, I will marry you, just let me bear this kind of trouble by myself.

You are too thoughtful, I hope you walk briskly.

If I leave earlier than you one day, don't be sad for too long, of course you should be sad, at least I am your important person.

Don't overdo it, the future is still very long, help me survive.Of course, this is not kidnapping you, I have always respected you, ah... Even if I try my best to think about the rest of my life, you should be a little more optimistic at least.

... It's weird, we're actually pretty much the same.

Just sell my house, I'm not here, you live here, you will feel sad when you think about it.

If my mother is still here at this time, or if I die earlier, my mother will ask you to take care of her. Alas, I certainly hope that I will take care of her personally. This old lady is not easy.

Don't hang yourself on my tree either, it's because I have the upper hand to be with you.But in a person's life, there is no need for anyone. If you always go to the alley, you should at least look around.

There will always be someone who loves you, someone who loves you more than me.

If I can only accompany you here on this road, I am really sorry, it is my negligence.

Just think that I... go to study early, don't say anything to give birth to the next life, at least in this life, I can live well.

And I hope you never see this sloppy thing.I always like to think about it. When you mentioned it, I thought it was very good, but now I feel a little apprehensive.

It is also a bit expensive to deposit money.

I'm sorry to tell you in person, but I'm very glad to know you, I'm very happy that we were together during these years of growing up, and I'm also very happy that you like me.

Flattered, I love you too.

……

When Liu Ci got it for the first time, she didn't open it on the spot. She went through the formalities calmly, stuffed the things into her bag, and hurried out.

When I took a taxi back, I was very anxious, and finally got off at the side of the road and walked on the side of the street by myself.

Then I popped into a cafe, ordered an Americano, opened the bag, and looked.

His eyes were sore, he held his breath, and he didn't even know the coffee was coming.

There was a dead silence all around.

I miss He Yu so much, I miss He Yu so much.

Tears fell from her eyes, and she knew clearly that she was outside again. She pressed the paper towel on her eyelids, took it away after it got wet, and continued to watch.

over and over again.

In fact, their letters were written in much the same way, and she also arranged for the next thing early.

This kind of pre-sorrow is not exclusive to Liu Ci, and so is He Yu.It's just that she only shows in certain aspects, cautious and confused, optimistic and negative, antonyms form shackles on her body, but they are treated as scarves and accepted with pleasure.

But after winter, the scarf will only make people feel heavy and hot.

He Yu didn't get past that hurdle at all, but she had already given Liu Ci the promise to face the future.She jumped up, but failed to jump into the opposite small window like she did when she was a teenager, she fell down.

After all, it is difficult for people to compete with the sky. Fire, coke, lake water, and drowning are all causes and effects.

If Shen Sijun hadn't been with Liu Wensheng, if Lian Xiaoli hadn't moved to Yanxinglong Lane, if Yang Chuo hadn't been trafficked, if Hong Lanwen hadn't married He Fengjun.

If Aunt Liu hadn't poured gasoline, if Lian Xiaoli hadn't been burned, if Liu Ci hadn't left, if He Yu was a boy.

If he hadn't gotten married that day, if Liu Ci had accompanied He Yu to the bathroom that day, if those children hadn't been by the lake.

There are many ifs, but there are no ifs.

Shen Sijun and Liu Wensheng secretly fell in love with each other, Lian Xiaoli came to a new prison to avoid rumors, Yang Chuo still helped a trafficker pretending to be a couple, Hong Lanwen still insisted on marrying He Fengjun who thought he was worthy of entrustment.

Aunt Liu lit a fire, Lian Xiaoli was burned, Liu Ci left, and He Yu was still a girl.

They got married on the first day of October, Liu Ci did not accompany the exhausted He Yu to the bathroom, but He Yu rushed down to save the child despite his lack of energy, maybe because he was already overtired, maybe because of cramps, maybe because of something else, he sank At the bottom of the lake.

She herself did not expect this to happen.

The fact is that people are always driven by fate, good or bad, there is no room for repentance, they can only passively accept.

The Sydney soup tasted just right, Liu Ci read it again, put down the phone, those words had long been engraved in her mind, but she couldn't help thinking about them.

I wrote so many stories, but I didn't write about you.

The person I love the most in this life, God is not willing to treat you kindly. In that fictional world, the fictional you, I want to rewrite.

The author has something to say: There are still two chapters [tomorrow], which will be updated on Thursday