after being terminally ill

When I was in high school, I used to come here with Yu Yunzhi and Song Zizhuo.

At that time, Yu Yunzhi and Song Zizhuo were together, talking all over the world, talking about everything.

Although he is youthful, he already has his own mature point of view in his speech.

This is the difference between the children of these wealthy families and ordinary people.

I should also belong to the children of ordinary people.

But because of my status as a follower, my knowledge has also been broadened a lot. I also have my own views on what Song Zizhuo and Yu Yunzhi talked about.

But I never talked about my own thoughts. I always just sat quietly and listened to the back-and-forth conversations and even debates between Song Zizhuo and Yu Yunzhi.

Until one day, Yu Yunzhi and Song Zizhuo were arguing endlessly over an issue, and neither could understand the other.

I was also secretly analyzing this question, and I vaguely had my own answer in my heart.

But I didn't say anything, just watched them argue and try to prove their point to each other.

Until Yu Yunzhi suddenly looked at me and asked me, "Which of us do you think is right?"

Seeing that both of them were staring at me with burning eyes, I froze on the spot, then glanced slightly in Yu Yunzhi's direction.

Yu Yunzhi's eyes were deep, and there was something hidden deep in his eyes that I couldn't understand.

Maybe it was because I was still young at the time, and after all, I couldn't restrain the urge to express myself in front of my sweetheart.

So after feeling Yu Yunzhi's gaze, my mind turned a lot, and finally I couldn't hold back, and expressed my true thoughts.

I rarely express my true inner thoughts in front of others, especially now that Yu Yunzhi is sitting in front of me, so I can't help feeling a little nervous.

But because I wanted to show my best side in front of Yu Yunzhi, I still tried my best to calm myself down, then slowed down my tone, and stated my thoughts as clearly as possible.

After I finished speaking, I felt a little nervous and looking forward to it, and I couldn't help but want to see Yu Yunzhi's reaction.

Yu Yunzhi still had a clear and cold expression on his face. He looked straight at me with complicated emotions in his eyes, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

Song Zizhuo didn't speak for a while, and there was silence between the three of them.

I feel a little embarrassed, I don't know if I said something wrong.

After a long while, it was Song Zizhuo who broke the silence. He patted me on the shoulder, raised his eyebrows and looked at me with a bit of surprise in his tone: "I didn't expect that, you usually look so inconspicuous, and there is still a lot of money left in your stomach." Quite a few."

There was always contempt in his tone towards me. I hated his frivolous attitude, so I didn't want to pay attention to him. I just twitched the corners of my mouth without emotion, and then observed Yu Yunzhi as secretly as possible, hoping that he would say something to me.

Yu Yunzhi stared at me for a long while, then a faint smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and his voice was soft and low: "Not bad."

Just these two words actually made my heart burst into ecstasy.

For a moment, only one sentence filled my mind: Yu Yunzhi recognized me...he recognized me!

Before I realized it, a big smile had appeared on my face, which was caused by the joy from the heart.

Song Zizhuo knocked me on the head, with his usual venomous tongue: "Hey, this is the first time I've seen you laugh like this - so happy after being praised a few times? Your dimples are like a kid, so ugly."

Only then did I realize that I had lost my composure unconsciously, showing such an exaggerated smile in front of Song Zizhuo and Yu Yunzhi.

So he quickly restrained his smile and resumed his upright posture.

It’s just that I’m still uneasy. At one moment, I’m afraid that Yu Yunzhi will see my feelings for him. At another moment, I feel that I’m too out of character to laugh so hard just now. I’m afraid that it will cause Yu Yunzhi’s disgust.

So I calmly looked at Yu Yunzhi from the corner of my eye to observe his expression.

At this moment, Song Zizhuo grabbed my face and pulled me mercilessly: "What, why didn't you smile all of a sudden?"

I couldn't understand his volatile temperament, just now he thought my smile was ugly, but now I restrained my smile as he wished, but he seemed dissatisfied again.

Enduring the pain on my face, I said to him perfunctorily: "The young master doesn't want to see me smile, so I won't smile."

My attention is still on Yu Yunzhi.

Yu Yunzhi sat not far from me.

He was holding the wine glass, sipping lightly, looking in the direction of me and Song Zizhuo, his face was frosty, his eyes were dark and gloomy, and he seemed displeased.

At this time Song Zizhuo was still teasing me, making fun of me, but I didn't have the heart to understand him, I just thought about Yu Yunzhi's expression, and carefully reflected, did my smile really make Yu Yunzhi feel uncomfortable?

Song Zizhuo played tricks on me for a while, seeing that my reaction was flat and obedient, he turned his head and smiled at Yu Yunzhi, and then said with a little pride, "Yunzhi, look, no matter how smart he is, he is just a dog I raised. No matter how much I bully him, he is still obediently listening to me."

Song Zizhuo's "no left ear goes in and out right ear, I can't hear it clearly, because my attention is all on Yu Yunzhi.

I clearly saw that the moment Song Zizhuo turned to Yu Yunzhi, Yu Yunzhi's originally cold expression suddenly softened.

Although he still looked expressionless, his eyes were no longer the coldness that was frozen for thousands of miles, but the softness that seemed to melt the ice and snow.

Instant bitterness in my mouth.

For Yu Yunzhi, Song Zizhuo and I are so different.

I will only get his cold face, but Song Zizhuo can make him show rare gentleness.

For a moment, a poisonous snake named jealousy entangled me, its fangs dug into my heart, and its venom spread all over my body.

I clearly know that I am jealous of Song Zizhuo, deeply jealous.

But at the same time, I also clearly know that this should not be done.

I shouldn't be jealous of Song Zizhuo, because the Song family is kind to me, because of my father's expectations, and because...Yu Yunzhi definitely doesn't want to see me so ugly.

***

I waited for a long time in the private room.

The decoration here is generally similar to that in high school, but there are many differences in the details.

After all, since Yu Yunzhi left, Song Zizhuo and I have never been here again. Now that such a long time has passed, it is normal for things to change.

But for some reason, there was still some inexplicable sadness in my heart.

Probably because, the past period of time can never go back.

I sat where I was used to, sighing silently.

It was quiet all around.

I raised my hand and looked at my watch. It was past eleven o'clock, and more than three hours had passed since the appointed time.

I guessed in my heart that Yu Yunzhi probably won't come.

Even though I thought this way, I still sat in the same position, looking at the direction of the door, with a little hope in my heart, always feeling as if the next moment, that strange and familiar figure would push the door and enter .

but.

The next moment, the next moment, there was silence in the private room.

As time passed, I grew numb and my hope faded.

When it was midnight, the waiter knocked on the door to enter, and told me embarrassedly that the restaurant was about to close.

I smiled at her, signaled I got it, and tipped her.

Seeing the amount of the tip, she slightly opened her eyes and looked at me, as if she didn't dare to accept it.

I chuckled: "Take it."

She accepted it hesitantly, and then stood in front of me, her cheeks flushed, her big eyes blinking constantly, as if she was hesitating whether to leave directly like this.

I looked at her cute appearance, and my depressed mood was relieved a little.

I picked up my coat and was about to talk to her when I suddenly heard a slight knock on the door of the private room, and a person pushed the door open and entered.

The man was tall and tall, wearing a black windbreaker, with a handsome face and a cold expression, revealing a sense of indifference to almost cold alienation.

It is Yu Yunzhi.