One Thousand Dreams

I have liked Fang Qian for a long time.I've been thinking about him since he was in the third year of junior high school.But I didn't intend to become brothers with him at that time, I wanted to take it in one step and win it directly.

If I can't be a couple, I definitely don't want to be friends with this person, I think.

So I didn't have a lot of presence around him, I just looked at him hard when I had the opportunity to see him.We were not in the same school when he was in the first year of high school and my third year in junior high school. The time we could meet was on the basketball court. I caught him watching hard no matter whether he was on or off the court. I.

No one noticed my weirdness, it was just that I didn't play well.Because at that time we only played three games with Fang Qian and the others!

In the first year of high school, I was admitted to Fang Qian's school. I was thinking about how to get closer to him, but suddenly he appeared in front of me holding hands with their classmate.

I stopped playing for a while, and just started fighting with someone.

After playing for a while, I heard the news that Fang Qian broke up with his girlfriend.

At that time, I was on the court. I watched Fang Qian jumping on the court. Two little girls next to him were gossiping about him.Then heard the news.

Very happy news, but I was suddenly sad while smoking a cigarette.

There will be many such news in the future, and every time I hear this news, I can only curse secretly and stay away from him.

I always seem to move very slowly.

When I finally got the chance to let him know me officially, my dad was dead and I had no mom.

A relative wants to pick me up, but my family is not in this city.I said uncle and aunt, thank you, I can't go with you.

Then I stayed, and I was too embarrassed to take other people's relief money when I was 16 years old.So I dropped out of school, and our family was actually quite poor.

When I dropped out of school, I thought that sometimes it's not because I am slow, but because I dare not.

I dare not say hello to him.

I dare not ask his name in person.

Don't dare to say, I'm gay and I like you.

I was really timid at that time, but when I was so bold that I wanted to tell that person that we would be together forever, I realized that it wasn’t just about being brave.

The key is whether that person has a heart.The answer is that he doesn't care.

After I dropped out of school, I haven't seen him for a long, long time.Later, I saved a little money and spent a while in the society and felt that it was time to start again.I actually didn't want to have anything to do with him at the time, although I have always missed him in the years since I dropped out of school.

Once I heard news that he had opened a decoration company, which was quite big.When I saw him, he was walking into a 40-story building with a dozen men and women behind him.I looked at him like that, and suddenly had the urge to study, so I went to take the adult education exam.Work during the day and read at night.After I passed the exam, my work and rest began to be reversed. I went to work at night and read books and went to class during the day.Fang Qian asked me why I was like this, and I said at the time that I was motivated.I didn't tell him that I wanted to follow in his footsteps and get closer to him.Didn't tell him I had to earn money to support myself.

When I first went to the hotel, I didn't think much about it, and then I learned about the special service.A customer took a fancy to me and asked me how much it was. I wanted to slap him to death, but I held back my words and walked away with a smile.I thought it was over, but after drinking two cups, I felt something was wrong, my whole body was hot, and the fuck even drugged me!

The grandson also drank a lot, lying on the table drunk and looking at me.

I was uncomfortably hot, and I had no strength in my body. The man's paws were groping my body.I made up my mind to pick up the cup on the table and threw it to the ground. I picked up a piece and slid it up my arm. When I slid the skin off, I felt that the heat on my body was better.

The man stared at me with wide eyes.

I held up my arm to show him, the blood was dripping on the plate along my arm, and I smiled and said, "I'm not for sale, customer."

When I said I was going to resign, Brother Meng thought I was drinking too much.I did drink a little too much at the time, but I was absolutely telling the truth.Brother Meng praised me, persuaded me, and let me stay.

My heart was originally very determined.

But when I saw him, the buried things at the bottom of my heart were turned out. It turned out that I was still the same and had not let go.He walked past me in a black coat with a white shirt and a black gentleman's tie.My eyes locked on him and he moved his lips, and said to Brother Meng, then thank Brother Meng for the meal, and I will stay.

There's been a lot of gossip about me, I know.I don't know which bastard spread the word, but I know it has something to do with the kid from the Rong family.I just took his tip, and he said that I belonged to him, isn't this fucking looking for a beating?But I still didn't hit him.When I was a child, I was tyrannical in heart and tyrannical in behavior.Later, when I grew up, I was only tyrannical in my heart.Of course, although I said I wouldn't beat him up, sometimes I couldn't control it.That's when this guy insists on asking for a kiss, every time he sticks to my face as if desperate, at this time, I will punch him hard with all my strength.But the punch was obviously light, because he obviously didn't have a long memory.At that time, I really wanted to get a gun and tell him, come on, kiss once and shoot once.But how is this possible.I can only stand next to him in silence, try to keep him closed, and pray that he won't cause me any trouble.But then I really ran into trouble, of course, that was later.

After I was pulled into the room by Mu Gu, I didn't expect him to say that to me, and I didn't expect him to believe those rumors.

I don't know if it has something to do with my drunken gaffe. I was dragged into the house and drank a few more glasses of wine. When I came out, I saw him again. What did I do?About what I did, I can’t remember, I just think it was like a dream at that time.

I really didn't know he had a girlfriend.I do still have thoughts about him, otherwise I wouldn't impulsively run into his car and order him.I always thought that when I grew up, I was mature enough to be self-restraining, but I didn't expect that I leaked emotions that I shouldn't have that time, and he found out that he would use it as a ploy in the future.

I know he quit his hotel job after having a girlfriend.

One day Rong Guo went to that hotel to drink, and when he was drunk, he yelled to find me.There is no way, the hotel can only call me, and it is Brother Meng who calls me. I said that Brother Meng is out of my control.Brother Meng said that if you don't come to Xiaoyuan, I can't do this business. This is the young master of the Rong family, and we can't drag him out after knocking him out, so you can do him a favor, okay, Xiaoyuan?I opened my mouth, but I still didn't say the words of rejection.In the end, when I went, that kid stuck to me, and he insisted on following me when I went to the bathroom.This is the young master, I have to follow.In the end, when we got to the toilet, the kid was messed up again, and he pushed me against the wall and got up to him, and it was a mess.This kid is quite strong, but I pushed him away with all my strength, and when I was about to escape successfully, I heard him say, "Xiao Yuan, my mother is dead." I looked down, and the kid was crying .I closed my eyes, but after all, I still couldn't bear to push my lips away.But he just covered my lips, which was completely different from the roughness just now, and I condoned him to do so.

When I went out, I saw a man leaning against the wall and looking at me with a cigarette in his mouth. He frowned and looked at me in a daze.

I don't know if what happened later has anything to do with the traces of Rong Guo's rough kiss, but I think there should be.

Relying on my liking for him, this kid told me clearly that he was going to get married.

How can I bear it?When he is married, half or even more than half of his life will be distributed to his wife and even children.

And why should I suffer?He is not the emperor, so I have the right to choose.So I don't want this way of living.Even the lover can't embrace openly, and as a shameless mistress, she just waits to be discovered, showdown, and explained.

But this person, he is like a spoiled child, rejecting the strange eyes of the world and unwilling to let me go.

I could only hang out with him in an almost morbid way.

It's not that everyone didn't find out, but his wife found out.I guess he called the boss in the middle of the night to let his wife find something unusual.

His wife came to see me, what can I do?Just cry, cry heartbreakingly, and tell me do you know how much I love him.

I smoked a cigarette, nodded and said yes.

She yelled at me and said you don't know!

I smiled with a cigarette in my mouth and said, "Okay, I don't know."

She came to me every day or two, and sometimes she would call me a slut, and other words like that.A lot of times I just laugh about it.There was only one time when I was really angry. The night before, I met Fang Qian and took someone home to do it. Now I was pointed at the nose and scolded. What the hell should I do? !

I kicked the trash can next to me away, pointed at her and said, "Don't worry, I don't have the heart to rob you of a man, I will definitely leave, stay away from you, stay away from you!" "Damn it!" I cursed, kicked open the door and entered the room.

My words are not lying to her, I will definitely leave.

Because Fang Qian and I rarely have a moment of warmth.

On the day before leaving, I took the initiative to deliver a fruit plate to his box. He was holding a little boy and smiled provocatively when he saw me go in.

I put the fruit plate on the table without saying a word.

When I walked out of the box, I couldn't help but look back.

He also glanced at me, then quickly turned his head to the little boy in his arms and said, "Come on, baby, take a rest and give me another kiss."

I closed my eyes and thought, What a nightmare!

"Finish"