Stop loss

After the end of the final exam, the third-year students of Wenlin Middle School were forced to return to school to make up for two weeks of classes, and they didn't really have a holiday until the [-]th day of the lunar calendar.On Chen Qiye's last day at school, besides participating in the cleaning of the classroom, he also had to move the personal belongings in the dormitory from the original room to the third year building. Arriving at Nanyang Street, pushing open the door on the second floor, Chen Wang was sitting at the dining table writing some documents by hand, his concentration was somewhat similar to that of Chen Xiye who was brushing the questions.

"You're done!" Chen Wang snapped his fingers after putting down the pen, very satisfied with what he had written.Seeing that Chen Qiye was back, he still hooked his fingers to greet him, "Hey, the top student is back, come and see how my article is doing, is it sensational enough?"

Chen Qiye and Chen Wang looked at each other, and after taking the manuscript paper, they stared at each other for a long time before slowly falling on Chen Wang's own wound.I saw that Chen Wang used Chen Yue as No.1 to write thousands of words about her tragic experience from childhood to adulthood. She was deaf, dumb and disabled so that she could only earn a living by working at the lowest level. For my son to read.

Fortunately, my son is up-to-date, with excellent grades, and will be admitted to university soon. However, the cost of four years of university will definitely make the family even worse. Unless the demolition funds and houses on Nanyang Street can be distributed, the embarrassment of the mother and son can be alleviated... …

Chen Wang didn't come out of nothing, Chen Xiye and his mother had indeed lived a life of poverty for more than ten years, anyone who reads this article will be moved by Chen Yue's beauty and simplicity, and sympathize with the mother and son's experience.

But Chen Qiye was surprised as if he knew a story about someone else, and asked in puzzlement, "Why did you write that?"

"In order to win people's hearts, put more pressure on the street office." Chen Wang sighed, feeling that Chen Qiye was still too young to understand his good intentions.Instead of wasting time with those government workers, it is better to write some inflammatory articles, and then copy hundreds of copies and distribute them to neighbors in the neighborhood, so as to seize the high ground of public opinion.

Chen Wang was fed up with the street office staff's kicking, and was ready to fight with them. Anyway, Chen Yue's mother and son were miserable enough, except for this small house, he had nothing to lose, and he was not afraid of wearing shoes with bare feet.

But Chen Qiye has self-respect, and never confides these difficulties to anyone, let alone write them out with embellishments.Chen Wang doesn't have this kind of psychological burden. On the contrary, he doesn't even shy away from the absence and inaction of his father's role. By belittling himself, he highlights Chen Yue's motherhood and the difficulty of pulling Chen Qiye over the years.

Not only that, Chen Wang also accused himself of fraudulent marriage.Chen Qiye was never afraid to use "irresponsible" to describe Chen Wang, but Chen Yue had been honest with Chen Qiye very early on. She knew Chen Wang's sexual orientation from the very beginning, and it was she who insisted on keeping the two of them together. Chen Xiye is dispensable to Chen Wang, but a gift to her.

Chen Qiye thought that Chen Wang had come to his senses, and this article was his confession to a certain extent, so he didn't hate him that much, and persuaded him, "You don't have to do this."

The expression on Chen Wang's face was a bit exciting for a while: "Why, is it possible... You think I found out my conscience and realized that I owed you mother and son, so I feel guilty?"

The corner of Chen Wang's mouth curled up into a smile, and his immoral and composed appearance made him exude a dangerous charm from the inside out: "Don't be funny, the people I have failed can be ranked from here to the sky. Under the door, if I really want the prodigal son to turn back, my confession books are piled up higher than yours. I help you just to get your demolition money. If others don’t think it’s miserable enough, I can even make up a terminal illness.”

Chen Qiye silently stared at the manuscript paper in his hand.

If he had the backbone, he would definitely tear up those few sheets of paper without hesitation, but when he looked sideways at the old newspapers used to cover the peeling walls, one of the financial sections had the headline "Economic Basis Determines superstructure".

Chen Qiye turned his head and returned the manuscript paper to Chen Wang.Chen Wang kept improving, paced slowly back and forth in the side space with a cigarette in his mouth, pinched the manuscript paper with the other hand and read it repeatedly, thinking about how to revise it to win sympathy and attention, while Chen Xiye tidied up the manuscript without saying a word. The books and luggage I brought back from school, I cleaned the room and went to the balcony to collect the clothes.

Chen Qiye was very efficient in everything he did, and he was a good storager, but when he came to the balcony, he took the hangers slower and slower, and finally stood quietly in front of the window with two clean and tidy old cotton coats in his arms.

He pushed the window open, and the cold wind blowing into the balcony made him shiver, but instead of escaping, he poked his head out to look at the starry sky.Such a natural night scene is rare in Tanzhou, which is polluted by modern lights. He subconsciously took out his mobile phone and wanted to send Qin Ge a text message. The latest one in his inbox was sent by Chen Yue. She went to work part-time night shift again today. Not coming back to sleep.

Chen Qiye watched the small vertical bar bouncing up and down on the pixelated screen, but he still exited the letter writing interface.

Chen Wang walked slowly to the entrance of the balcony, leaned on the edge of the door with his shoulders slanted, took a puff of cigarettes and then asked Chen Qiye, "How are you and your little boyfriend?"

Chen Qiye turned his head to look at Chen Wang, wondering if this person would be so calm if he knew that the postcard had been delivered to Qin Siyuan's son.

It was difficult for Chen Qiye to explain the current situation, and he didn't want the matter to become complicated, so he said perfunctorily, "That's it."

Chen Wang nodded thoughtfully: "Remember to let him wear a condom when it's time to go to bed. Men don't have a good thing. The more they like you, the more they want to fuck you. No matter how happy you are with that little boyfriend, don't forget Protect yourself." He also looked at Chen Qiye and asked for confirmation, "You are the one below."

Chen Wang's face didn't change, while Chen Xiye blushed completely, wishing to gag the mouth of Chen Wang who didn't have a serious word.Chen Wang expressed his innocence, what he just said was a little rough, and that's the reason.

"I have to go." Chen Wang left simply, as if he came neatly, but this time he came back within 5 minutes, reaching out to ask Chen Qiye for a taxi fare.

Chen Qiye still doesn't know if Chen Wang has a job after coming to Tanzhou, and where he lives, so he carefully protects the wallet in his pocket.

Chen Wang shrugged: "Then I'll sleep in your mother's bed overnight."

Chen Wang himself didn't mind, but Chen Xiye did, he opened his arms to stop him and said, "Don't touch my mother's bed."

"Yo, it's going to be murderous." Chen Wang actually laughed again, and said with emotion, "It's different when you have a man."

Chen Wang's words were as frivolous and unappealing as ever, Chen Qiye was still not his opponent in terms of lip service, so he could only blurt out: "You are deliberately pushing everyone away, leaving you alone."

The smile on Chen Wang's face loosened a little, and his attitude towards life in the game world was challenged unsuspectingly.

"Come on with me all night," Chen Xiye added the last half of the sentence.Normally, Chen Wang would definitely pick up a joke with a yellow accent. He didn't say a word until he went to bed, lying flat and staring at the spire of the attic without feeling sleepy.

Although Chen Xiye and him slept on the same bed, they were each covered by a quilt, and their bodies did not touch each other very strangely.After turning off the lights, Chen Qiye also opened his eyes wide in the darkness, and the Hangzhou of his childhood appeared scene after scene before his eyes.It’s like a real-life movie. The long shot starts from the sunny green grass in the garden of the villa. After slowly moving closer to the interior, the light gets darker and darker, but every corner is clean, every inch of the floor and wall The color scheme and material of the watch are very clear, and it will not fade no matter how time sculpts it.

These images would occasionally appear in Chen Qiye's sleep.At the end of the long shot, he will gently push open the door of the attic of the villa, and the world in the gap glows with blurred light. The two teenagers stand and kneel one by one, and the standing little boy always has endless food in his pocket The candy, after peeling off the candy wrapper, delivered it to the mouth of the kneeling little boy, and fed them one by one.

That attic is like a utopia where there is no hunger.Chen Qiye's posture at that time may not have been kneeling in front of Qin Ge as if surrendering, and domination and control were not concepts that two five or six-year-old children could understand. There is a meaning attached to it that is no longer just memory itself.

So when Chen Qiye peeked through the crack of the door again, he unexpectedly saw a completely different scene: the childhood self was still kneeling so docilely, but Qin Ge suddenly ran away.

So he followed Qin Ge who was going to the living room to get a perfect match.He saw Qin Ge stop in front of the study on the second floor. What was happening inside made Qin Ge so frightened that he lost his strength and let go.

Chen Qiye's memory was broken at the moment when Shengqiao landed on the ground, and in the blink of an eye, it will be 12 years later.

Chen Qiye gathered the corners of the quilt to wrap himself more tightly.He could guess what Qin Ge saw, but he couldn't ask Qin Ge face to face what exactly he saw.

He didn't know the stories in those postcards, he didn't know what the relationship between Chen Wang and Qin Siyuan was, and he didn't know how the innocent Mrs. Qin was doing...

What's even more ironic is that the person involved, Chen Wang, was lying beside him, while Chen Qiye was sad and didn't know anything.On the contrary, Chen Wang asked with interest: "Tell me about your little boyfriend, what's his name?"

It was impossible for Chen Qiye to tell the truth, but his silence whetted Chen Wang's appetite.

"I also sent him this kind of postcard when I was in Russia, and he never replied, and I didn't contact him by email, so we separated for six years."

Chen Wang paused for a moment, and said without any foreshadowing: "But it will be better once I return to China."

Chen Wang had the intention of exchanging one secret for another, but Chen Qiye wanted to know something else unsatisfied: "Why did you go to Russia?"

Chen Wang showed the smoothest smile of the whole night: "You forgot about me, I dance ballet. As long as there is a chance, which ballerina would not want to go to Russia for further studies, besides, it was the Mariinsky Theater who sent me the invitation letter, of course I go."

Chen Wang didn't mention it, but Chen Qiye really forgot that the unruly man next to him was engaged in elegant art, and even jumped to the head of the Hangzhou Theater at one point.

Chen Qiye didn't know Qin Siyuan well. He counted the time and thought that Qin Siyuan married Qi Miaomiao only after Chen Wang left for Russia. He wouldn't have been born, and that would be fine.

But when he thought that Qin Ge wouldn't exist, he couldn't bear it.

Chen Qiye asked naively: "Then...if you were given another chance, would you still leave him?"

Chen Wang didn't even think about it: "Of course!"

Chen Qiye turned around and stared at Chen Wang in the dark, eyes full of disbelief: "Don't you like that person?"

"That's Ma, Lin, Si, Ji, theater." Chen Wang deliberately slowed down and emphasized the name of the theater.Chen Qiye was puzzled, wondering if Chen Wang didn't love that person enough, or loved his career too much.

"You will understand in the future." Chen Wang was rarely so serious, and said, "You don't have to give up looking at the bigger world just to keep someone alone."

"...a bigger world?" Chen Qiye chewed on these words. To him, these words defined places other than Tanzhou and Hangzhou.

Chen Qiye also seldom moved to Chen Wang's side, and asked, "What does the outside world look like?"

"Go and see for yourself." Chen Wang said very lightly, without the slightest sign of regret, and he did not forget to give some more practical suggestions, "How is your little boyfriend's grades? If the gap is too big, I will treat him as a teacher/ Just use the stick as you please, don't do something stupid like enrolling in an ordinary school just to go to a university with him."

Chen Qiye: "..."

Chen Qiye patted himself on the forehead loudly, and couldn't continue chatting with Chen Wang again.Chen Wang didn't care about his little boyfriend any more, he stretched his waist and said to himself: "It seems that I won't be able to go back to Hangzhou for a while, after the Chinese New Year, I'll just find a job in Tanzhou Got it."

"You can start looking for it now." Chen Qiye was quite considerate, recommending the part-time job he was looking for to Chen Wang.The Chinese New Year is less than ten days away. People who came to work in Tanzhou from all over the world have all returned home one after another. Many foreign trade factories are experiencing labor shortages and need to recruit part-time jobs to fill the vacancies.

That kind of work on the assembly line does not require skills, and the daily salary ranges from [-] to [-]. Chen Qiye can work for more than ten days to make up for the travel expenses to attend Trinity's enrollment next semester.

After hearing this, Chen Wang snorted very much, saying that dancers from other theaters came out to teach alone, and their hourly salary was more than this amount, not to mention that he used to be the chief.

He has that cynical attitude again, and he is confident: "Being a teacher is really tiring, I'd better sell it, and I will definitely get more money than teaching."

Chen Qiye: "..."

Chen Xiye turned around speechlessly, and stopped talking to Chen Wang.Before going to bed, his phone turned on, Chen Qiye picked it up and opened the inbox, Qin Ge sent a text message asking him if he wanted to go out to play together during the winter vacation.

Chen Qiye stared at the text message without blinking, and slowly put it back to its original place after the screen went dark, so sad that he couldn't express himself, so he could only pretend that he had fallen asleep and didn't reply to the text message.