There is a kind of love that is insincere

When I woke up, I was already in the hospital with a needle inserted in the back of my hand and was infusing fluid.I think I must have scared Yu Yueshui back then, otherwise he would not have let me go so easily and sent me to the hospital.

Should I say that he is kind, or blame him, if it weren't for him, I wouldn't be like this, and I hate the hospital even more, I hate the smell of disinfectant here, I feel that my life will be shortened once I come in.

I lay silently for a while, and seeing no one came, I pulled off the needle tube and walked outside.I don't want to stay here, I want to get some fresh air, but when I get to the door, I hear arguing outside.

"Yu Yueshui, you are enough, if you pester Yuan Yi again, don't blame me for being rude to you." Zhuo Luoyin roared, as if forcibly suppressing the anger in her heart.

Yu Yueshui was silent at first, and then said, "I didn't expect him to be so fragile, and how kind are you to him, are you taking care of him?"

Zhuo Luo Yin said, "You don't need to say this, of course I will do it again!"

"Really? Then he has a gastric ulcer, why didn't you find out?" Yu Yueshui said lightly, with an uncertain tone, "Luo Yin, you hold on to him, it's just that you don't want him to betray you, in fact, you don't Like him!"

boom--

There was a sound of hitting the wall, and there was a moment of silence, I heard Zhuo Luoyin say, "If you don't know my feelings for him, don't talk nonsense."

"Am I talking nonsense? You know it yourself. If you still love him, then why are you doing things that hurt him? If you still love him, you won't let me take advantage of it!" Yu Yueshui raised her voice, Let me hear clearly, a trace of pain spread in my heart.

"Yu Yueshui! I put up with you again and again, do you really want us to turn against each other!"

As soon as Zhuo Luoyin said these words, there was an eternal silence, a deathly silence.

For a long time, for a long time, so long that I thought they had nothing to say, so long that I thought time had stopped.

I heard Yu Yueshui say, "Why do I want us to become like this, but I can't let go of him anymore, I... like him too."

That's the answer, the truth that's been bothering me so much, but I don't expect it to be, not at all.

I'd rather their conversations be jokes and gibberish than be real.

This truth, this fact, astonished me, and I did not want to believe it.

Yu Yueshui likes me, so what should Zhuo Luoyin do?How about me and Yu Yueshui?

My face turned pale, and at this moment, I hoped that all this was a dream, in which I could hear such absurd conversations.

"So, you want to tell me, are you going to snatch him from me?" Zhuo Luoyin asked him, but he didn't give him an answer, nor did he seem to give me an answer.

I raised my hand, trying to open the door, but I didn't.

I go out now, I don't know what kind of difficult situation I have to face, anyway, it is not a good way for me.

I feel like I still act as if nothing has been heard or happened, because the emotion in their mouths only brings me pain.

If they like me why both are hurting me?

Why do I have bruises all over my body?

His love, is it too superficial?

I clutched my stomach and felt sick again, but only for a moment.God made me understand some things again, but it also brought me more troubles.

I wish I could still be the carefree Bai Yuanyi before, and not suffer so many sad experiences like now.

In fact, what Lan Shining said was right, I was too naive, thinking that reality would at least give me a little bit of beauty, but in fact, it only gave me one abyss of despair after another.

I was played by reality, tossed by fate, and what I got was always a hundred times less than what I lost. In this way, how can I live with a normal heart, and how can I calmly look at the things around me.

Oh, reality, why don't you give me some blows, let me never recover from a setback, and never see the light of day?

I raised my smile, but weeping, curled up on the ground, my eyes were wrapped in warm tears, my heart was hurting, my stomach was hurting, my life was so miserable, who did I owe in my previous life?Who else owes me?

34 Four things are involved in everything, forever and everlasting knot (34)

That day, no one opened the door of the ward, and I didn't see Zhuo Luoyin and Yu Yueshui, they didn't look for me, and I didn't even want to see them.

I was discharged from the hospital the next day, and I insisted on doing so despite the doctor's persuasion.

I know that my body is not a serious illness, as long as I pay attention and rest well, but whether I can fully recover depends on how much Zhuo Luoyin and Yu Yueshui torture me.

I think I can escape them for a few days when I go home, but I forget that in the world of little people, only the lives of the dominated are left.

As soon as I woke up in the morning, I heard the hurried doorbell. I didn't want to open the door, but the sound kept ringing, and there was no way, so I got up and opened it.

Perhaps, when I had this thought, fate began to play tricks on me again.

Just like when I read some novels, I thought that the protagonist would have such a beginning, but I didn't expect his final ending.

People can always see the path they chose at the beginning, and even forget the hardships and difficulties they will face in the future.

There were several men in suits standing at the door, and before I could ask them who they were looking for, one of them covered them with a handkerchief and passed out. Before I passed out, I guessed that I would face misery again.

The facts were as I thought, and when I woke up, I didn't know where I was, but I still knew the woman standing in front of me.She is Zhuo Luoyin's mother, Li Liyi, and she is also the one who completely pushed me into the abyss.

She looked at me like looking at a dog with contempt, Bai Yuanyi, do you know why I arrested you here?

I didn't make a sound. After all, what she did was so obvious that I could understand it without thinking too much.In fact, adults' thinking is simpler and clearer than ours.

"I always thought you were a smart person, but you just do stupid things, pester him, and make him fascinated by you. What are you so worried about! How did your parents raise you, to be so shameless!"

I think before she said this, she definitely didn't understand what happened between me and Zhuo Luoyin, if I really wanted to pester Zhuo Luoyin, I wouldn't make it like this, is it because I love the wrong person?Or are they just pushing disgusting things onto me?

I am willing to keep silent, but I can no longer accept this unwarranted infamy. To love someone is to bear so many sins, so who dares to talk about love, and what is the true meaning of love?

"You can't say that about me, let alone my parents." I contradicted her, but was punched by a man beside her.

The other party was probably Li Liyi's bodyguard, and the attack was so ruthless that I broke out in a cold sweat.

"You know what a lowly person you are, don't think I don't know that you still have a dirty relationship with that child from the Yu family, I don't care about your affairs, but if you hinder Luoyin's future, I won't be polite to you .”

I heard her say, I just want to laugh, could it be possible that I can ruin Zhuo Luo's future?If he doesn't ruin me, I'm fine!

I can't understand her, let alone her mother's heart, if she wants to manage Zhuo Luoyin well, what nonsense would he do?I'm the one who gets hurt in the end.

"Auntie, rather than telling me these things, you might as well talk to Zhuo Luoyin." As soon as I finished speaking, she slapped me across the face.

"You mean that Luo Yin is chasing you and won't let go! Can you be any more shameless!"

I said, "I'm telling the truth."

Snapped--

Another slap, a woman hits someone, that's all it takes, but I feel it hurts, and what is she, what right does she have to insult me.

I smiled and said, "Sure enough, what kind of mother there is, there is what kind of son."

In a fit of anger, she winked at the man next to her, and he beat me as soon as he came over, as if Li Liyi didn't tell him to stop, he would keep hitting me.

I was tied to a stool, and I couldn't avoid his fists, so I could only let the violence happen on me.

At this time, I thought, why didn't Zhuo Luoyin come to rescue me?If he still likes me, why did he let his mother do this to me?

It's ridiculous, I still look forward to Zhuo Luoyin's appearance, I still regard him as my god, but the most ridiculous thing is myself who has expectations for him.

He won't love me, he definitely won't love me, otherwise how could he be willing to let me suffer this crime.

I feel tears falling, but I don't know who I am feeling.

"Okay, don't beat him to death." Li Liyi seemed to have learned enough lessons, and calmed down a little.

She stared at me and said, "I just gave you a warning this time, to let you know your identity, if you continue to pester Luo Yin, I will make your life worse than death."

I smiled, but felt that I was laughing too softly, so I amplified my voice.

"Don't think that I will leave Zhuo Luoyin! I will pester him and make him dirty too! Let your most precious son have no bright path!"

Is this what I should say?

And what state of mind do I have when I say this?

Is it because I couldn't bear to be angry with her that I said it unintentionally?

However, I need to pay the price for what I said, so the moment I blurted out, there was regret.

Li Liyi's complexion changed drastically, she raised her finger at me, aroused hatred, "It seems that you don't cry when you see the coffin!"

"Xiao Qi!"

"Yes."

"Teach me a lesson, let him understand what a man should know!"

After she finished talking to the man at the side, she walked to the side and looked at me with even more disgust.

I still had a smile on my face and looked at the man in front of me. No matter how he treats me, I have already recognized the cruelty of reality.

It will deal the biggest blow to the insignificant people, make you laugh at yourself in a hesitation, and let others hurt you wantonly.

The man had no expression on his face and without hesitation, he beat me severely first, and when I thought he would not beat me, he whipped me with a whip hanging on the wall next to him.

The punishment he did to me did not make me afraid or submit, who would be afraid of this, so my mouth was still very hard, and I scolded Li Liyi, and then Li Liyi asked him to beat me harder, while I was being beaten Fighting, while expressing all the resentment I suffered in sharp words, satirizing Li Liyi.

For the first time, I felt comfortable, incomparably comfortable, and the price of being comfortable was more punches.

My face must have been beaten so badly by a man, and the clothes on my body were already stained crimson with blood, and the blood from the wound fell down on the floor along the skin, but I didn’t feel any pain, maybe I lost the pain from being beaten by him Feel.

My body has already collapsed, but my head is very clear.I raised my head with difficulty, licked my dry lips, and said, "Did you not eat, and you were beaten so lightly."

He was a little dazed when he heard it, and Li Liyi became even more angry when he saw me like this, and slammed the door and went out.

The man's face became heavy.I saw pity in his eyes, as if it was not directed at me, and then three or four people came in with black boxes in their hands.I didn't feel right, I was afraid.

I saw them open the box, and there was a strange blue liquid in it, emitting a strange smell, but the man looked at me lightly, moved his lips, but there was no sound.

Li Liyi is at the door, Gao Yan is beautiful, but with a ferocious smile, "Don't think I can't deal with you, when you are in pain later."

Her words are full of viciousness, and I am still not afraid of her, I just point to her, but when those people held me down and stuck the needle filled with liquid into my blood vessel, I was scared, scared.

I felt strange in my body, it was so painful, my head hurt so bad, and it was so cold, the liquid should be drugs, but she asked them to inject me with this stuff, isn't she afraid of killing me?

Perhaps, in the eyes of the rich, no one would care about the death of an ordinary person like me, but why did I suffer like this?

I glared at her because I hated her, I really wanted to take a picture of her like this and show it to Zhuo Luoyin, this is his mother, she is hurting the person you cared so much about.

Am I desperate?Probably, forget the taste of despair.

My body began to twitch continuously, and I felt more and more cold, and I was about to freeze to death. Where can I find a heater to warm me up for a while?

I bit my lip and bit my lip, only to feel a little warmth, wanting to get more, I bit my own flesh, let the blood enter my body, and relieve my chill.

I went to torture myself, in the world of sin and crime, into the dark abyss.

A long time ago, when I was about ten years old, I was looking forward to my own future. At that time, I thought my future should be beautiful, like a fairy tale, with my own happiness.

I think I will become the most ideal person in the future, but now it seems that I don't know what the future is.I forget that the future needs to be created bit by bit with my hands, instead of thinking that with a little expectation, the beauty in the dream can be turned into the beauty that the future should have.

I remembered one day when I was in the second year of junior high school, our class had a Chinese class, I fell asleep in class, and was kicked out of the classroom by the Chinese teacher yelling at me.

At that time, the angry face of the Chinese teacher still appeared in my mind, and the whole class also focused their attention on me. I became the focus, the focus of ridiculousness, and when I recalled these pasts, I couldn’t find a trace of them that belonged to me. under the traces.I have always been a lonely person, not very good at studying, and even less so in communication. In the end, my life is meaningless, but I still have hope in life, otherwise I should have committed suicide at least a thousand years ago million times.

In fact, I love to escape from myself, from life, and shrink myself in a closed box, so I feel that the world is so unfair to me.

So if I have the courage again, what will this world bring me?Maybe even sadder?

The sun is hot, but my body is cold.I curled up on the ground, hugged my knees tightly, and lay in the corner. I didn’t know that I had been here for a few days, let alone how many times I had been injected with drugs. crave.

People can lie with their mouths, but the body is different from the heart. I know fear, and I really want to escape from this place, but I don’t even have the chance to stand up. I am tortured like an animal.I don't think I'm as strong as I thought I was, I'm still afraid of the pain and waiting for the day when it's over.

Li Liyi hasn't come to this room since that day, probably because I disgusted her, maybe she wanted me to suffer, that's why she treated me like this, and I hoped to be saved by anyone, but no one came to save me.

I believe that Zhuo Luoyin knew that I was caught by his mother, but he didn't show up again, and Yu Yueshui didn't say he liked me, and didn't come to rescue me.They just treat me like a toy, play with it and throw it away.This is reality.

I opened my eyes dimly, looked out the window, stared at the blue sky, and groaned in my heart, it turns out that what is more terrible than death is waiting for torture to come.

squeak--

As soon as the door opened, I shrank back in fear. I thought it was those people, but it was the man who held the key to unlock the handcuffs.

"Can she let me go?" I asked him weakly, guessing he must understand who she is in my words.

He didn't say anything, put the check in the bag beside me, and then said to me, "This is from my wife, she wants you to leave Master Zhuo, if you don't agree, you will be locked up here forever, suffered this."

When I heard it, I trembled a little. People would be afraid, and I am also a human being, and I would also be afraid.

I think if I disagree, I will be tortured to the point of collapse by them, and in this way, my life will really come to an end.

I'm still alive.I still have nostalgia.I am also afraid of death.So I can't be brave, and I forget how to be brave.

When I was tortured by them with drugs, I tasted misery. Once the drug addiction came up, I was not even myself, praying to get that horrible thing again. In that way, I was really like a dog.

I nodded slightly in agreement.I have to get out of here if I want to go home.

He looked at me silently for a while, crouched down, and let go of the chains that bound my hands and feet, and that was all he did, keeping silent.

I was relieved, but felt even more desolate.I raised my head lightly and saw his appearance. He was not much older than me, but he was dressed in an old-fashioned way. He was obviously a young man. He was as gentle as jade, but it made people feel that he was very serious.

He got up, the wind blew his clothes and swayed in the air, but he had no expression, his eyes were as clear as water.

I leaned on the wall and stood up from the ground, but my steps were unsteady and I fell several times.

He stood aside, didn't extend a helping hand to me, and watched me walk out of the room silently.

I stopped speculating about him, and went downstairs step by step, feeling the burden on my body. After all, I haven't eaten for the past few days, and it's good enough to be alive.

When I went downstairs, I saw Li Liyi who was sitting on the sofa noblely, and I also saw Yu Yueshui with a dignified expression in the hall.

It turned out that he hadn't forgotten me, and it turned out that what he said was true.

I squeezed the check in my hand, felt a chill, and walked up the last flight of stairs.

Yu Yueshui saw me, walked towards me, and hugged me. His embrace made me feel inexplicably warm and long-lasting.

I think at this moment, I still love fish and water.

He hugged me tightly, didn't dislike the stench on my body, frowned, stared at the wound on my face, then turned his head, glanced at Li Liyi, as if suppressing his anger, and said, "Auntie, you didn't tell me , he has suffered this from you."

Li Liyi put down the teacup in her hand and smiled faintly, "I just taught him a little lesson."

Yu Yueshui didn't speak, but looked at her.

She just laughed, for a junior, she didn't believe that the other party would offend her.

Yu Yueshui looked at me, then suddenly said to Li Liyi, "Then I'll take my leave first."

He didn't stop, and pulled me out, but when he reached the door, Li Liyi suddenly stopped Yu Yueshui, "Take care of your people, don't let him seduce Luo Yin again."

He paused, didn't respond, and led me straight out of here.

The air outside made my breathing finally unobstructed. I think I escaped hell and can no longer be afraid.

But I didn't take a few steps, my foot was crooked, and I almost fell to the ground. Fortunately, Yu Yueshui supported me.

He looked at me with pain in his eyes, which made me feel dazed. I think he has feelings for me, right?

I have some doubts, but I am very tired, and I don't want to ask him, I just ask him to take me away as soon as possible.

He frowned, reached out to hug me, and walked to the side of the car. I also forgot to break free and became quiet.

In his arms, I will stay away from troubles, at least for now.

Bai Yuanyi.

I tilted my head, as if I heard a familiar voice, and vaguely saw a person standing by the window on the second floor, but it was too far away, and I couldn't see clearly.

I close my eyes and fall into darkness, so, is everything coming to an end?

Yu Yueshui sent me to the hospital and asked the doctor to treat my wounds, and then he asked them to give me a full body examination, but I refused to do it, for fear that they would know that I was addicted to drugs and send me to a drug rehabilitation center.

I know very well that once I enter rehab, my life will be filled with a very dishonorable stroke.

I refused to live and die, and I was very resistant. As long as they touched me, I would be terrified and screamed.

Yu Yueshui was beside me, seeing me so resistant, she was silent for a long time, but she no longer agreed with them to continue, and carried me back to the ward.

He bought me some bland meals and fed me.It's the first time he treats me so gently, which makes me very uncomfortable, but I don't reject it, that's all.

He hasn't talked to me since he came to the hospital from that place. He probably waits for me to ask him, but what can I ask him?

When I was full, I felt sleepy, but I was afraid of falling asleep, because in my dream, I didn't want to face the horrible experience.

At the time of the introduction, he had a call. He looked at the caller ID, then looked at me, and was about to go out to answer, but I grabbed my hand.

"Don't go." I was begging, showing weakness to him, and forgetting that he and I shouldn't have such abnormal words.

He stared at me, hung up the phone, and sat on the edge of the bed.

It was the first time that he and I were so quiet, many firsts happened today.

I whispered, "Thank you, Yu Yueshui."

He smiled and asked, "Thank me for what?"

I was silent, and felt that I shouldn't say this, after all, he had done so many bad things to me before.

How can I appreciate him, he hurt me too.

I shouldn't forgive him for what he did to me so easily, but he shouldn't hurt me in the future, right?

He held my hand and said softly, "Bai Yuanyi, don't you ask me why Zhuo Luoyin's mother let you go?"

"Why?" Since he wanted me to ask, I asked him.

He looked at me complicatedly, and said after a long time, "I told her that you are dating me, you won't have any thoughts about Zhuo Luoyin, and I will never let you get in touch with Zhuo Luoyin again."

I smiled, "That's a good speech, at least you saved my life."

He frowned and asked me, "Can't you hear something?"

I pretended not to understand, "Should I hear something?"

He stared at me, his cold face was difficult to maintain, "Bai Yuanyi, I like you."

He likes the other person, and this feeling is so strong that he cannot go against his own heart.

He originally thought that his feelings for the other party were just a momentary illusion, but when he learned that the other party was taken away by Li Liyi's men, his anxiety was indescribable.

He was afraid that the other party would be in danger.

He was afraid that he would save Zhuo Luoyin one step later than Zhuo Luoyin.

He was afraid that he would lose another chance.

I was taken aback for a moment, and then forced a smile, "Don't make fun of me, didn't you say you hated me before?"

He said, "I hated you before, but not now,"

I shook my head, squeezed my hands tightly, and said to him, "You don't like me, you just want to simply possess me and attract Zhuo Luoyin's attention."

He looked at me with clear eyes, "That's not the case." He understood his feelings from the bottom of his heart and didn't need to question them.

I said, "Yu Yueshui, do you know what you are going to say again? How could you say this to me after hurting me again? Don't you feel very..."

"It's ridiculous, isn't it? I think so too, but I can't control that I don't like you, what do you think I can do?" He laughed at himself, with a look of sadness that I had never seen before, which made me feel blocked.

I don't think I can give him an answer, just as he said he didn't know what to do, and I don't know what I can do to him.

I hung the curtain, pulled back my hand, and said in a very soft voice, "You should know that I am dirty. In fact, I am dirtier than you imagined. I have not only done it with Zhuo Luoyin, but also with other people." Men slept, I even..."

"Stop talking!" He interrupted me, his face darkened, probably angry because of my words.

I smiled at him, and said, "You used to say that I pretended to be innocent. It's true that I'm cheap in my bones. I didn't resist when I was raped by you, because I didn't want to reject you at all. In fact, as long as I am a man, anyone can touch me. , anyone can fuck me..."

He raised his hand and slapped me in the face. I closed my eyes and waited for him to hit me, but his hand didn't touch my face.

Cracks appeared in his cold eyes, "Bai Yuanyi, do you want to slander yourself like this?"

I said, "I'm telling the truth, believe it or not, if you want to like me, then you continue to like me, but I won't respond to you, and you don't think I can settle down, I, leave the man won't survive."

He frowned, stopped talking to me, and slammed the door out.

I heard the sound of closing the door hard, with a sad smile on my mouth, don't like me, don't like me, I can't accept your liking.

I'm afraid of being loved by him, and I don't want to love him again, let alone Yu Yueshui who hurt me so much, can I fall in love with him again?

There is Zhuo Luoyin between me and him, and Zhuo Luoyin, what should I do?