Lord of the world GL

At night, when the guards of the General Military Mansion were changing their guards, when the guards were loosest, a man dressed as a servant came out of the room poking around, bypassing the guards, and ran to the gate of the General Military Mansion.

"Wait, why are you going?" The guard stopped the person who wanted to go out.

"Master asked me to buy medicine."

"Buy medicine? Let's go, hurry back!" The guard let the man out without saying a word.And after the man left the General Military Mansion, he ran desperately towards the city gate, and finally left the city before the city gate closed.

In the military mansion, Huangfu Jinyu's study, she was still writing. Li Sihan's wonderful hands rejuvenated and suppressed the toxins in her body in time. After a day's rest, she was fine.

Suddenly there was a voice from outside the door, "Report master, that man has already left the city."

"Okay, it's okay, let's go down." Huangfu Jinyu said to the door, and then left quickly after hearing the man's answer.

"Just let that dead eunuch go back like this. What if he goes back and complains to Ouyang Yuling?" Li Sihan, who was studying ink at the side, asked.

"I just want him to go back and sue. I want Ling'er to know my position." Huangfu Jinyu did not stop writing, but still wrote earnestly.

"Then what about your antidote? Don't you want the antidote?"

Antidote?When she drank that glass of wine, she didn't think about getting the antidote, but she couldn't say to Li Sihan, "Don't worry, she won't let me die, she will bring me the antidote of."

"Are you so sure?"

"I'm sure!" This time Huangfu Jinyu put down her pen and said to Li Sihan's eyes, but she wasn't sure, but she wanted to give Li Sihan some peace of mind as much as possible.

Even so, Li Sihan still had a faint uneasiness in his heart.Huangfu Jinyu always hides everything very well. This time, if it wasn't for Huangfu Jinyu's vomiting of blood, she would not have known that she had already been poisoned. At first, she wondered how Ouyang Yuling would feel at ease and let Huangfu Jinyu lead troops to attack Nanyang , she only thought that it was the fetters of feelings; at first, she wondered why Huangfu Jinyu suddenly got a cough and refused to see the doctor. She just thought it was because she was too tired and caught a cold.But it turned out that Huangfu Jinyu drank Ouyang Yuling's poisoned wine as early as that day when he set off for the expedition.This poison is chronic. Although it is not fatal, it is painful day and night. In the past two months, Huangfu Jinyu has endured it like this.She knew that Huangfu Jinyu didn't want her to worry, but she was not only worried, but also sad, and even more distressed, Jinyu, you are so stupid!

Li Sihan's nose was sore, such a foolish Jinyu was always thinking of others, but never thinking of herself, but Huangfu Jinyu's sincerity, who would be a pity?She, Li Sihan, really wants to cherish it, but Huangfu Jinyu has been cruelly denying her a chance.

Jinyu, my heart has been attached to you in this life, no matter how you draw a clear line with me and keep a distance, you will still push me away.Li Sihan murmured silently in his heart, noticing that Huangfu Jinyu was immersed in writing again, he couldn't help but ask, "Brother Jinyu, how long do you have to write that thing?"

"I don't know, I will write as much as I can think of. Although I am not the lord of the world, I also want to give the people of the world peace. Over the years, my Huangfu family has provoked too many wars." In Huangfu Jinyu's words How guilty, as if she owed it, she was eager to make up for it.

"Brother Jinyu, I can't blame you." Li Sihan comforted, she didn't like Huangfu Jinyu always taking all the faults and responsibilities on herself.However, Huangfu Jinyu did not answer, and the deep sense of guilt in her heart could not be resolved by Li Sihan's few words.

Seeing this, Li Sihan knew that what he said was useless, so he didn't say anything at all, leaned closer to Huangfu Jinyu, and carefully looked at what she was writing in her notebook, and sometimes stopped thinking about it. After a few words, she suddenly sighed with emotion and said, "Brother Jinyu, if you are the emperor, you must be a benevolent king." On the standpoint of the people.

"Renjun? Hehe!" These two words hurt Huangfu Jinyu, and she suddenly changed her face, showing a look of distress, leaning her head back, leaning on the back of the chair, her eyes only staring at the room. Liang, the hand holding the pen hangs down weakly.

Li Sihan was shocked when he saw this, he stared at Huangfu Jinyu with his mouth wide open, but couldn't ask why?

"I don't think I'm a benevolent monarch, so why have I really thought about the common people?"

"Aren't you..." Now Li Sihan was even more surprised. Huangfu Jinyu put down the competition for the master of the world for the sake of the stability of the people. Doesn't it mean that she is thinking about the people?

Aware of Li Sihan's surprise, Huangfu Jinyu added: "If my brother would not die in battle, if I hadn't fallen in love with Ouyang Yuling, who is hostile to my mother and concubine, I would definitely spare no casualties to go north and complete my world." However, my brothers died one by one and left me on the battlefield. I am afraid, I am afraid that one day, my fifth brother will die too. I am even more afraid that my mother and concubine and Yu Ling will eventually lose both. So..."

So Li Sihan understood that the common people have become a very good cover, and Huangfu Jinyu can't persuade Ouyang Yuling to let Nanyang go, nor can she persuade Concubine Longyi to give up the world, so she can only compromise and say that both parties can barely accept it. It is an excuse, and it is a very clever excuse to stop the war for the people of the world at this time!

"Sihan, I'm really hypocritical. I'm talking about a lot of reasons for the sake of the people in the world, but I know in my heart that I'm just using this reason to fulfill my selfishness. In front of Ouyang Yuling, I said it was for the sake of She does not have a solid foundation yet; in front of her mother and concubine, she said it was for the Nanyang Huangfu family; but in front of your father who is devoted to the people, she talked about benevolence and morality for the people. But no matter how high-sounding or eloquent I make up the truth I’m so righteous and confident, I know in my heart that I’m doing it for my own selfishness. I deceived them. Sihan, I never really thought about doing something for the people, but now I brazenly raise myself to the height of serving the country and the people, Sihan, I'm really hypocritical and disgusting..." Huangfu Jinyu said, patting her forehead in pain.

Li Sihan knew that Huangfu Jinyu was in pain. She had to find a way to balance the incompatible Concubine Longyi and Ouyang Yuling, and she also had to face the impact of Qingfeng's straightforward nature and hypocritical selfish reality.How could someone as proud as her accept such a hypocritical self?Not so hypocritical, how can she protect the person she wants to protect?So, she could only suffer in silence.

"Brother Jinyu, you are not selfish!" Li Sihan stepped forward, grabbed Huangfu Jinyu's forehead-patting hand, held it tightly in his palm, and wrapped it around Huangfu Jinyu's neck, saying, " If you are really selfish, you will not be sad about the death of your brothers, because in a sense, they are your subjects and have the obligation to sacrifice for you. If you are really selfish, you will not consider the concubine and Ouyang Yuling's feelings, there is no need to weave white lies. If you are really selfish, you can stand on your own and turn the world upside down. With your ability, the world will be you, and Ouyang Yuling will also surrender to you. You, and you didn’t, for the people of the world. Brother Jinyu, you are neither selfish nor hypocritical, it’s because there are many people you want to protect, and you have a great responsibility on your shoulders. Inconsistent. Your bitterness and pain come from your sense of responsibility. Everything you do is for the people you care about, the concubine, Jinheng, Ouyang Yuling and even the people in the world. Brother Jinyu, you will always be upright in my heart Kind and responsible person, I will always admire your feelings and wisdom." Li Sihan paused, and said sincerely: "Brother Jinyu, I want you to know that I don't say these things because you are my love. It’s because you are such a person.” After speaking, Li Sihan gave Huangfu Jinyu a tight hug, and this was a rare time for her to speak such a long word in front of Huangfu Jinyu calmly.

Listening to Li Sihan's peaceful words, feeling the warmth and the faint scent coming from behind her, Huangfu Jinyu's heart also calmed down a lot. She has been deeply mired in contradictions, but fortunately, Li Sihan has been holding her hand during the fall .Thinking of this, Huangfu Jinyu's heart warmed up, she leaned her head back and let her whole body close to Li Sihan's embrace, this was the first time she was so indulgent in front of Li Sihan, because she found the warmth she had been missing for a long time.However, after a short blissful indulgence, Huangfu Jinyu suddenly fell into a reverie, if only, if only Ouyang Yuling was the person behind him now, if only Ouyang Yuling could understand her like this.But if there is no if, she who once had the lofty ambition of "my life is up to me" has to succumb to God's arrangement for her fate. The person she loves the most is not by her side, but the person by her side is not the person she loves the most; The person who doesn't want to love understands her very well, but the person she loves the most doesn't understand her and doesn't want to understand her.The cruel reality also poured cold water on Huangfu Jinyu, making her cold from head to toe, from the heart to the outside.

She suddenly bounced away from Li Sihan's embrace, and sat upright uneasily.

"What's the matter?" Li Sihan asked inexplicably. The embarrassment and uneasiness on Huangfu Jinyu's face, and the regret and intolerance in her eyes made her heart skip a beat. Brother Jinyu, how long will I have to walk to get to your heart? ?They are very close to each other, but they are getting farther and farther away.Li Sihan moved his gaze out of the window and lost focus.

"As you said, my intentions are good, but I still can't avoid hurting people I don't want to hurt." Huangfu Jinyu said, Li Sihan knew that Huangfu Jinyu was using the topic just now to express her feelings for herself, Li Sihan did not respond, and continued to listen to her, "I have endured a lot, but I have also suffered a lot. The concubine mother devoted herself to me, but I still failed her and deceived her. I think she also understands my deception, otherwise , she won't be so angry. I really don't want to hurt her, I still betrayed her. I am sorry for her, so even if she beats me and wants to kill me, I will bear it willingly. "

Li Sihan knew the importance of Concubine Longyi in Huangfu Jinyu's heart, but Huangfu Jinyu would not hesitate to betray his mother and concubine for the sake of Ouyang Yuling, let alone himself as a friend.The shocking scars on Huangfu Jinyu's body and the thrilling night were all due to guilt towards his mother and concubine. Could the humility, obedience, and tolerance towards himself be due to guilt towards himself?Li Sihan was not stupid, she soon understood that Huangfu Jinyu's sudden words were to tell her that Ouyang Yuling had the only place in her heart.Of course, she can also feel the gratitude and guilt of Huangfu Jinyu contained in it, but this is not what Li Sihan pays attention to.

"I'm tired, I'm going back to my room to rest, you can write your own." Li Sihan said lightly, looking away.Running all the way was just to get close to Huangfu Jinyu's heart, but no matter how much she ran, that heart was always in a place she couldn't reach, and she was indeed tired.

Huangfu Jinyu looked at Li Sihan's lonely figure leaving, unable to utter a trace of comfort or retention, her heart ached as if being torn apart.It has been more than ten years, and it is impossible to say that there is no emotion, and it is not what she wants to be rejected and hurt again and again.But what can she do?Her heart is very small, so small that it can only accommodate one person, she has already given this position to Ouyang Yuling without reservation, and there is no room for Li Sihan.

But in the end he failed her!Huangfu Jinyu thought about it, but he lost the interest to continue writing, so he put down his pen and stood in front of the window, standing still until late at night.