Lord of the world GL

"Stop running, there is a lake ahead." Huangfu Jinyu held Li Sihan back and prevented her from going any further.

"Let go of me, let me go." Li Sihan desperately broke away from Huangfu Jinyu's hand, pushing her away from him.Li Sihan thought it was ridiculous, she never thought of giving up when the soldiers came to the city and lived a hard life for ten years, but now at the end, after Huangfu Jinyu decided to stay by her side forever, she was about to run away.

"Sihan, listen to me, I will always be with you, and I will never break my promise." Huangfu Jinyu ignored Li Sihan's push and pushed her into a tight hug, trying to calm her manic heart at the moment.

Huangfu Jinyu originally thought that her promise would reassure Li Sihan, but unexpectedly, she had a bigger reaction, she pushed Huangfu Jinyu away desperately, and cursed, "I don't want your charity, I don't want your pity! "

"Sihan, this is charity and pity. I really want to spend my whole life with you. It's true." Huangfu Jinyu said, trying to hug Li Sihan again, but this time Li Sihan didn't give her a chance, so many times His slap hit Huangfu Jinyu's shoulder, causing her to reel.

"Sihan, what's wrong with you?" Huangfu Jinyu asked anxiously.

"Go away, let me be alone, be quiet." Li Sihan roared, "Let's go!"

"Sihan!" Huangfu Jinyu listened to Li Sihan's roar that pierced his eardrums, and stood there, at a loss.Ten years have passed, and logically speaking, she should have matured a lot, but unexpectedly, she is still so naive and ignorant in terms of feelings.

"Please let me be quiet, please." Li Sihan choked up and said, the roar turned into begging, she said weakly, squatted down against the tree trunk, and buried her head in her arms. The weakness she showed in front of Huangfu Jinyu.

"Okay, okay, okay!" Huangfu Jinyu said, each voice getting weaker.She didn't go far, and after walking ten steps away, she also sat down against a tree, and looked up at Li Sihan who was not far away from time to time. Li Sihan's condition made her very worried, but she was helpless.

Unknowingly, Li Sihan and Huangfu Jinyu sat under the tree for a whole day. As night fell, Huangfu Jinyu suddenly got up and ran to Li Sihan.

"Sihan!" Huangfu Jinyu called out, she hadn't forgotten that Li Sihan's eyes were invisible at night for the past ten years.She knelt down in front of Li Sihan, and gently held her buried face, which was already covered with tears, "Sihan?" Huangfu Jinyu called out puzzledly, looking at the crystal tears, she felt a burst of emotion in her heart. It hurts, Li Sihan has been with her for ten years, and even blinded her, she should give her happiness, but until now, she still makes Li Sihan so sad.

"Brother Jinyu," Li Sihan raised her head and called out, she has never wanted to change the name she has been calling since she was a child, "I think I can leave you, I don't need you anymore." This is what Li Sihan said after calming down for a long time Difficult decision, although heart-wrenching, but it is a rational choice.

"Why? Your eyes...?" Li Sihan's words shocked Huangfu Jinyu.

"Yes, my eyes are half blind, but my heart is as clear as a mirror at the moment. Brother Jinyu, you decided to be with me because of my eyes and because of your guilt."

"I..." After a moment of silence, Huangfu Jinyu squeezed Li Sihan's hand and said solemnly, "Sihan, you have paid a lot for me, and I should repay you and repay you."

"And that's why I don't need you." Li Sihan took Huangfu Jinyu's hand away, "Brother Jinyu, we have lived alone in Huaicheng for ten years, ten years is not short, what should happen will happen sooner rather than later." Yes. In the past ten years, you have taken good care of me, but what you have always loved me is not love, right?"

"I……"

"Brother Jinyu, over the years, the only one you love in your heart is Ouyang Yuling, right?"

The word "Ouyang Yuling" gave Huangfu Jinyu a heavy blow in the heart. After a long silence, she said, "Sihan, I'm sorry." She can love Li Sihan as her own sister, and she can even sacrifice her life for Li Sihan , but she just couldn't give Li Sihan the love she wanted, and she couldn't explain why her heart couldn't accept Li Sihan.In the past, she felt pity for Li Sihan, but now, she feels guilty towards Li Sihan, but no matter what, it's not true love.

"Brother Jinyu, you don't need to say sorry to me. There is nothing wrong with loving someone. Just as I have loved you deeply for so many years, I can understand that you have always loved Ouyang Yuling deeply." Huangfu Jinyu listened quietly ,no answer.

"Brother Jinyu, I love you. I am willing to do everything for you. I don't need your repayment or compensation. Ten years is a long time. It is enough for me to see a person and a relationship clearly, and let me understand What is true love. Brother Jinyu, I love you, I want you to be happy, so I don't want to bind you. I have selfishly occupied you for ten years, it's time to give you back your freedom, you go, find Ouyang Yuling."

"No, I can't do this." Huangfu Jinyu said decisively, very excited, "You have paid so much for me, if I still abandon you, then am I, Huangfu Jinyu, still human?"

"This is not abandonment, this is giving freedom to both parties and making each other perfect." Li Sihan said, surprisingly calm, she continued, "You go and find Ouyang Yuling, she has been thinking about you for so many years, until now , she still loves you deeply."

"she……"

"She's the one who needs you."

Huangfu Jinyu was stunned, and it took a long time to come back to his senses, and said, "She's gone far away."

"Based on the relationship between the two of you, are you still afraid that you won't find her?" Li Sihan said, although she couldn't see, she could feel the panic of the person in front of her at the moment. After ten years of separation, how should she continue her relationship? .

It was getting dark, Huangfu Jinyu carried Li Sihan back to Muhan Palace, put Li Sihan who fell asleep lying on her back gently on the bed, and carefully covered her with the quilt.

Li Sihan in her sleep is quiet and sweet, with slender eyelashes and fair skin. It seems that ten years have not left traces on her face, but she can find that the still radiant woman in front of her has actually changed, and the years are still left in her heart. traces of a relationship.

Li Sihan, the heartless and pungent lady in the past, has long since become sensitive. She is happy because of Huangfu Jinyu's joy, and worried because of Huangfu Jinyu's worry. She can always keenly capture all Huangfu Jinyu's emotions. Then it was projected into her heart involuntarily, and she couldn't remember whether it was Huangfu Jinyu's feeling or her own.She also became fragile, so fragile that she was afraid of Huangfu Jinyu's frown, afraid of her turning around, she was afraid that she would lose Huangfu Jinyu again in the blink of an eye when she woke up in the morning, life and death ten years ago was completely frightened. It's her time, she is too fragile to withstand Huangfu Jinyu's slightest mistake.But she has also become strong, she can be strong enough to accept the fact that she is blind at night, she can be strong enough not to cry or regret, just because she doesn't want that person to feel more guilty, she can be strong enough to be willing to cover up for Huangfu Jinyu To keep out the wind and rain, she used to need others to take care of her.Brother Jinyu, can I take care of you next?

Huangfu Jinyu stretched out his hand to gently stroke her cheek, but when his hand touched her eyes, Huangfu Jinyu quickly withdrew her hand as if being pricked by a needle. She still dare not face these beautiful but lifeless eyes , she murmured: "Sihan, if you never knew me, your life would not be like this. You will have a husband who loves you, lovely children, and a happy family..."

Noticing that the person on the bed frowned, Huangfu Jinyu smiled slightly and said, "Why are you sleeping so restlessly!" She thought she was woken up by herself, and felt a little nervous, but seeing Li Sihan just turned around, Then she breathed a sigh of relief, got up and covered her with the quilt, and made sure that Li Sihan was still asleep, so she sat back in her original position with peace of mind. She sighed and continued: "You once asked me why I couldn't fall in love with you. You, I have asked myself the same question. People are not plants, how can you be ruthless, and you are so kind to me, even if my heart is a stone, it should be melted. However, I still can’t love you, I can’t give you anything Promise. In my heart, you are a confidant and a younger sister. I cherish you, but...it's not that I don't like you. In fact, I was deeply attracted to you as early as the first time I saw you. I have everything I desire, your smile and your eyes are the great warmth in my heart, your laughter is my greatest joy in the deep palace, I once told myself, I will take good care of you. However, due to my status , I know that this kind of relationship is not tolerated in the world, and maybe you will not be willing, so I can only treat you as my younger sister, give you the best care, the best happiness, and even take my share of what I can't enjoy Happiness is also given to you. But things backfired. Not only could I not give you the happiness I hoped for, but I also dragged you to bear my pain. Sihan, I can’t bear to reject you again and again, and hurt your heart again and again. , I don’t want to, but I can’t deceive myself. The first time I didn’t love you was because I couldn’t love, and my identity would make you irreversible; the reason I didn’t love you after that was because I didn’t want to love anymore, because I felt that I really loved you Being a younger sister is actually pretty good. Sihan, I’m sorry, you have paid too much for me. If there is an afterlife, if you still like me, I will love you desperately, no matter what status I am, no matter if I am a boy It's a girl. Sihan, what I can do for you in this life is to find you a husband who treats you sincerely."

After Huangfu Jinyu finished speaking, she stood up and kissed Li Sihan's forehead lightly. It was a kiss that poured all her love, guilt, and gratitude into it. Tears slid across Huangfu Jinyu's face and fell on Li Sihan's face.

"You have a good rest, I'll go to accompany mother and concubine." Huangfu Jinyu said to the bed, and then tiptoed out.

When the sound of closing the door sounded, the man in the bed could no longer restrain his emotions, curled up and sobbed.

When they met for the first time, the young man playing in the pool, his warm smile easily captured her heart. That year, Huangfu Jinyu was ten years old and she was eight years old.

The young man's smile became an eternal imprint in her heart. Along the way, the young man became a high-spirited prince, commanding generals, until finally all the relatives turned into traitors.She respects her, loves her, and loves her dearly, how many times she feels pain for her frowning brows, how many times she feels distressed for her forced smiles, how much she wants to be with her, smooth her brows for her, and lighten everything for her Sadness, however, turned out to be counterproductive. She was very close to her, but she just couldn't get into her heart.I finally realized that if I missed it at the beginning, everything would be wrong afterwards.

"Brother Jinyu, if I knew your real identity from the beginning, would you like me without any scruples?"

In the silent room, there was no answer, tears had already wet the face, and only the signature obtained in the Marriage Temple many years ago was lingering in his mind.

deep love...

It was late at night, but in Yihe's palace, Queen Mother Longyi hadn't gone to bed yet. She seemed to expect that Huangfu Jinyu would come back tonight, just like ten years ago she expected that Huangfu Jinyu would escape from the dungeon and appear in her bedroom .

Not long after, the maid came in and reported: "Report to the Queen Mother, Doctor Wang has arrived." Huangfu Jinyu pretended to be the doctor Wang Yin, who was authorized by the Queen Mother and the Emperor to enter the palace at any time to treat the Queen Mother.

"Please!" Upon hearing this, the Empress Dowager Longyi hurriedly stood up from the bed and walked out quickly, regardless of her faltering steps.

"Mother Concubine!" Huangfu Jinyu called out after entering the inner room, walked forward a few steps quickly, and supported the Empress Dowager Longyi who was walking towards her.

"Yu'er!" Empress Dowager Longyi tightly grasped Huangfu Jinyu's hands. Huangfu Jinyu's sudden running out this morning and not returning for a day triggered the fear in her heart. She was afraid that Huangfu Jinyu would leave like last time, and then Not coming back.

Huangfu Jinyu helped the Queen Mother to the seat, and asked distressedly: "Mother Concubine, why don't you go to bed?" After saying that, he stretched out his hand to wrap the Queen Mother Longyi in his arms.

"Can't sleep!" The queen mother said lightly, leaning on Huangfu Jinyu's arms.

Huangfu Jinyu knew that the concubine mother was not unable to sleep, but was waiting for her specially. Feeling the concubine's emaciation and oldness in her arms, Huangfu Jinyu couldn't bear it. How could she tell the concubine mother that she wanted to leave?

"Mother, I will sleep with you!"

"Are you leaving?"

Facing his mother's earnest gaze, Huangfu Jinyu said earnestly, "No!"

Huangfu Jinyu helped the queen mother to bed and covered her with a quilt.

"Yu'er..." Empress Dowager Longyi suddenly grabbed Huangfu Jinyu's hand that put the bed curtain on her.

"Mother Concubine, don't worry, I won't leave. I will stay here with you!" Huangfu Jinyu gently put his hand under the quilt after receiving the confident look from the Queen Mother, and then gently lowered the curtain.

Huangfu Jinyu turned around and lay down on the rocking chair beside the bed. Her heart was shaking just like the rocking chair.She finally made a choice between Li Sihan and Ouyang Yuling, and now she still has to face the choice between Ouyang Yuling and her mother. Ten years ago, she didn't choose anyone. Ten years later, who should she choose?

"Yuer?"

"Mother, I am here!"

"Yuer?"

"I'm here! Concubine Mother."

"Yuer..."

"Mother..."

In the company of this night, none of them slept well, one was afraid of losing, and the other was afraid of being hurt.In the dead of night, Huangfu Jinyu would think, would it be better if she didn't show up today ten years later?But then she thought that if she didn't show up, Concubine Mu and Ling'er would live in guilt all the time, which she still didn't want.