a quarter of his

Fate, amazing.

Lin Jingfan tried his best to control his expression, but his mind was completely blank right now.

"Doge" is Mai Xingze, and Mai Xingze is Ying Zhe's younger brother. There is too much fucking information.

Lin Jingfan didn't dare to look up, and quickly recalled the recent chat with "Doge".

"Doge" chatted with him about the gays in Building [-] of Mingde Building.

"Doge" discusses sunscreen with him.

"Doge" shared his ex with him.

"Doge" told him that he liked a straight man.

Straight man... Lin Jingfan never thought that he would be such an image in the eyes of others.

And what did he do?

He actually personally taught "Doge" how to induce the other party to lose the horse, and even suggested that if it couldn't work, he should bend the other party.

There was music on the radio, and someone on the side of the road was playing the Black Panthers' "No Place To Shame."

Lin Jingfan felt very ashamed right now, and even wished he could find a crack in the ground and sneak in.

The two were awkwardly silent for a long time.

Lin Jingfan tentatively asked, "Doge?"

Mai Xingze: "Boat?"

The two looked at each other, and looked away horribly.

"Damn!" Mai Xingze uttered an obscenity depressingly, and pulled the grass on the ground as if venting his anger.

Lin Jingfan couldn't help feeling funny again.

"So what?" Mai Xingze pulled the weeds for a while, and said awkwardly, "So now, you know everything."

Lin Jingfan was startled, and then thought that Mai Xingze confessed his love to him in blued by accident.

"Just..." Once Mai Xingze plucked up the courage to speak, he gave up, "You know what happened to me before, if you don't mind, just pretend I didn't..."

"Of course I don't mind," Lin Jingfan interrupted, "You were also a victim of that incident, actually..."

Lin Jingfan wanted to say that I actually knew your story before, but the explanation would inevitably involve Ying Zhe, so he had to give up.

"Then you", Mai Xingze rested his hands on his knees unnaturally, and turned to look at him, "What do you think?"

Lin Jingfan took a breath, Mai Xingze looked at him seriously, his chest heaved violently due to tension, "Senior brother, I like you, can I be with you?"

"I...", Lin Jingfan was also a little nervous by him, "I don't know, this is too sudden, I mean..."

Lin Jingfan didn't know what he wanted to say, in fact it was really too sudden, he only suspected that Mai Xingze was gay before, but he never thought that he actually liked him!

Do I like Junior Brother?Lin Jingfan asked himself.

It seems that there is no special feeling until he knows that he likes himself.

do i hate himLin Jingfan asked himself again.

That is even more impossible, Mai Xingze is really good to him, no matter what he wants to do, he will be the first to support him, and always silently accompany him.

Lin Jingfan has never been treated like this by the same sex since he was a child. In fact, this is the first time he has been chased by someone since he was a child.

Do you want to promise him?

He felt that he didn't have that kind of strong liking for his junior brother, but when he was with Ying Zhe at the beginning, he didn't have a strong liking for him either.

"You, will you get married in the future?" Lin Jingfan finally asked.

He was really scared by Ying Zhe, but Mai Xingze said indifferently:

"Get married if you want to, and don't get married if you don't want to. Anyway, I have come out to my family."

Lin Jingfan was shocked immediately, "You... are awesome, so how do they react?"

Mai Xingze shrugged and said, "There was no reaction. My mother was so angry that she suffered from high blood pressure. My father whipped me with a belt and asked me if the disease could be cured."

Lin Jingfan thought it was nothing, and Mai Xingze continued: "After a week, the two of them reluctantly accepted it, just asking me not to..."

"Don't want anything?" Lin Jingfan said.

"Don't...um", Mai Xingze touched his nose a little embarrassedly, "Don't be 0, my dad said he couldn't imagine me being..."

"Okay, don't talk any more."

At that moment, Lin Jingfan couldn't manage his expressions well anymore, thinking that no wonder this guy is so stupid, his parents' thinking is also very clear.

"It's nothing," Mai Xingze said, "Anyway, I'm number 1."

Lin Jingfan looked at his relaxed attitude, and couldn't help being a little envious. Perhaps only a tolerant and democratic native family like theirs could raise a carefree big boy like Mai Xingze.

"So, senior brother, are you willing to be with me?" Lin Jingfan came back to his senses and saw Mai Xingze looking at him eagerly.

His expression was pitiful, sitting on the ground like a large golden retriever dog, Lin Jingfan's heart softened almost instantly.

"Yes, yes," Lin Jingfan exhaled, "I would like to be with you."

That's it, the relationship is cultivated from scratch, the junior and junior are very good.

And it's time for him to come out.

"Are you serious?" Mai Xingze's eyes lit up almost instantly.

"En", Lin Jingfan looked at him with a smile, and was thrown to the ground by a black shadow in the next second.

Lin Jingfan's first reaction was that there were people around here, but it's normal for straight men to fight sometimes.

Mai Xingze was so excited, he rubbed his face continuously, his face was flushed with excitement, it looked like he wanted to rush over and kiss him.

Lin Jingfan hurriedly pushed him away.

"Someone." His face was also a little red, and he straightened his clothes unnaturally, "Don't move your hands."

"Then it's okay to hold hands." Mai Xingze was like a large clingy pet, who would not stop rubbing around him.

Lin Jingfan looked around vigilantly, but there was no one he knew.

"Just hold it for a while," Mai Xingze said, "Secretly hold it, no one will find out."

"Okay," Lin Jingfan had no choice but to hang down the arm next to Mai Xingze, "But I still have to keep a low profile, I haven't planned to come out yet."

"Understood", the corners of Mai Xingze's lips curled up, and with a light touch, he grabbed Lin Jingfan's hanging hand.

Mai Xingze's hands were wide and warm, and at the moment when their palms met, what appeared in Lin Jingfan's mind was the image of him and Ying Zhe walking on the small playground holding hands.

He froze all over, until Mai Xingze's five fingers separated his five fingers, facing his palm, and then he slowly forced himself to relax.

The song on the radio was replaced by JJ Lin's "When You", and the brisk and sweet tunes were scattered between the hands of every couple.

Lin Jingfan and Mai Xingze leaned side by side on a tree, and the children's laughter sounded like silver bells in the sunlight. They sat for a long, long time until the sun went down before returning to school.

When they arrived at the dormitory, Mai Xingze still didn't want to be separated from him, and insisted on going to their dormitory for a while longer.

Lin Jingfan thought that some of the dormitory dogs should be back today, so he refused without even thinking about it.

"Then it's okay to kiss." Mai Xingze pulled him into the carport, his eyes rested on his lips ambiguously, Lin Jingfan suddenly felt a little flustered.

"People will see it," Lin Jingfan looked away unnaturally.

"No." Mai Xingze led him to lean against the wall in the corner, "Just give me a kiss, soon."

As he spoke, he pouted and moved closer, but just when Mai Xingze's lips were about to touch his, Lin Jingfan suddenly raised his hand subconsciously, and blocked his face with a palm.

"Next time." Lin Jingfan had a complicated look in his eyes, "This place is too dangerous."

"Okay", Mai Xingze was a little disappointed, but still nodded obediently.

Lin Jingfan couldn't bear it, but didn't know what to say, the two walked into the dormitory in silence, and then went back to the dormitory.

Zhou Xiang just came back today, and he is videoing with his girlfriend.

Lin Jingfan sat back on the chair with a heavy heart, obviously just got out of the order, but there was no feeling of joy in his heart, instead there was a heavy pressure.

He stared quietly for a while, thinking that today's programming task had not been completed, so he had no choice but to turn on the computer.

However, after writing two lines, he was so restless that he couldn't continue. He took out the earphones and put on a song to listen to.

Coincidentally, it turned out to be "Confession Balloon" again, and he cut to the next song.

"Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter" by Leslie Cheung.

Lin Jingfan opened Netease Cloud Music with a complicated mood, and what was playing was the playlist he had created, which contained songs belonging to him and Ying Zhe.

After the breakup, he never listened to the song again, so this playlist was just forgotten by him.

Then, on this day when he thought he had walked out, it suddenly reverberated in his mind.

Lin Jingfan closed the computer distractedly, and his eyes fell on the "C++ Object-Oriented Programming" on the second shelf of the bookshelf.

Inside was a heart made of paper, and he was still reluctant to throw it away.

After all, he has to admit that he still hasn't forgotten Ying Zhe, even though the time they broke up has been three times longer than when they were together.

That night, Lin Jingfan suffered from insomnia.

He tossed and turned for a long time, his heart seemed to be floating in the sky for a while, and it was so heavy that he couldn't breathe for a while.

Until it was almost dawn, he finally turned on his phone and clicked into the dialog box with "Doge".

- I'm sorry, Hoshizawa.I thought about it all night and felt that today's decision was too hasty.I don't want to lie to you, I still can't get over my ex.Even though it is impossible for us to be together again, but now, at this moment, I still only have him in my heart.I also thought that maybe entering the next relationship earlier can help me get out, but this is too unfair to you, you are really good, and you deserve to be better than me.So, let's pretend that what happened yesterday afternoon didn't happen, is that okay?

Lin Jingfan typed a long paragraph, and the moment he sent it, he finally breathed a sigh of relief, but he couldn't help feeling a little nervous.

He knew that his junior brother would be very disappointed after seeing it, and he thought that he always felt that others were scum when he watched TV, so he was also considered a scum once.

However, if he continues to be with his junior brother by deceiving himself and others, his conscience will be even more difficult.

That's it, anyway, the message has been sent, and it can't be withdrawn.

Lin Jingfan stuffed the phone under the pillow, and finally fell asleep from the deep drowsiness.

The next day he was woken up by vibrations under the pillow.

Mai Xingze sent more than a dozen messages in a row. Lin Jingfan turned on his phone and read the messages from beginning to end. The more he read, the more guilty he felt, and suddenly he hated himself for agreeing to Mai Xingze's confession yesterday.

"Doge": It's okay, I don't mind if you use me as a healing tool, I am willing to walk out with you.

"One Leaf Boat": This is unfair to you.

"Doge": There is nothing unfair, and I have not forgotten my ex. I may never forget him in this life, but the previous love and the current love can not conflict, can't they?

"One Leaf Boat": This is different, Xingzhe.

"Doge": It's the same, brother.I also once loved that person deeply. Could it be that just because I was cheated, the previous love doesn’t count?But I also know that it is impossible for me to be with him in this life. Is it because I can't forget him that I have to give up all the possibilities around me?

Lin Jingfan stopped talking, he admitted that some aspects of Mai Xingze were more transparent than what he saw.However, things like feelings, in the final analysis, still have to follow the inner choice.

"One Leaf Boat": I understand what you said, and I also know that one day I will come out, but not now.

"One Leaf Boat": I'm sorry Xingze, I've already made my decision.

There was no message from the other side for a long time, Lin Jingfan quietly looked at the screen, thinking that this matter was handled really badly.

He put down his phone, got out of bed and washed his face.

When I came back, I saw that blued had another new message.

"Doge": Then can I continue to stay in the kite club?

"Doge": Brother, can we still be friends?

Lin Jingfan looked at the phone, and for some reason, his nose felt a little sour.

"One Leaf Boat": Of course.

"Doge": Then we can recruit new people together in "Hundred Regiment Wars"?

"One Leaf Boat": Of course.

"Doge": You promised me to be an official, you won't forget it.

Lin Jingfan was sad and moved at the same time, he let out a breath of white air, and typed slowly:

-Of course I remember, how about making you the vice president?

The author has something to say: woo woo woo, I like junior brother~

Brother is going offline soon~