[Shanshan is here] Please give me more advice for the rest of my life

I kept my eyes open until four in the morning that night.

Obviously his body was extremely tired and sleepy, but he couldn't fall asleep no matter what.

I closed my eyes and tried hard to no avail, so I stopped pushing myself and opened my eyes to look at the dark ceiling.

In fact, I rarely suffer from insomnia. Of course, this does not mean that my sleep quality is so good that I never fall asleep, so to be precise, I seldom waste time on insomnia.

When the college entrance examination was approaching, I felt too much pressure. When I couldn’t sleep all night, I usually got up and read a book, and I didn’t care about 21, [-], and I would do whatever I picked up.

I often forget the time when I am doing it. The lights can be on until midnight, and twice it is even all night. My mother, who is more concerned about my studies than I am, is so scared that she almost finds me psychologically. doctor.

Later, when I started working, I replaced my homework writing with reports and summaries.

At least, compared to the tossing and turning of brewing drowsiness, the wild thoughts that hurt the spring and autumn are much more comfortable in life.

I have never been a person who is unwilling to do useless work.

Since time and effort have been spent, it is natural to maximize the return on investment.

Even if I can't sleep, I can't wait to use this time to do something useful.

However, I turned my head slightly to look at Xiao Wu who was sleeping next to me, and couldn't help but smile wryly, thinking that today's situation seems to be beyond my control.

The last bedside lamp has been turned off a long time ago, and the room covered by thick curtains is dark. In fact, let alone his face, I may not be able to judge his exact position. I am facing that direction After a long pause, he subconsciously looked away.

Mr. Xiao, who can't figure it out, slept soundly. He almost fell asleep soon after he got on the bed. It was obviously me who was crying tired just now, but he fell asleep faster than me. Through a thin layer of pajamas, he was very He naturally hugged me in his arms.

I didn't move, I didn't move, I just felt that the night was too quiet, I could almost hear his steady breathing and heartbeat mixed together, and I couldn't tell whether it was mine or his.

I suddenly thought of You Chenghao.

Frankly speaking, I haven't thought of him for a long time. Of course, this does not mean that I am such a tolerant person. After the scar is healed, I can forget the pain, and I can let go of my heart and repay the grievance with virtue. To put it bluntly, I am not forgiving. You Chenghao just wanted to write off the past.

I know that I don't know any pure white and flawless little white flowers. In the relationship between You Chenghao and me, I don't have to blindly put myself in the position of an innocent victim who is deeply affectionate but was brutally hurt by a scumbag.

I will be with You Chenghao to some extent because of my mother's pressure, but I am the one who makes the final decision, no one can nod my head, I know this well.

At an age of bewilderment, parents' insinuations, and a wealthy family is not a person to be hated. Anyway, there is no one I like, so what if I try?Just bow to reality.

I am by no means a person who does not dare to admit my selfishness, and I can even admit that the reason why I was with You Chenghao was not pure, so when that incident happened, many people probably felt that I did it on my own.

However, for me, although this is not a pure and beautiful love, it is not so unbearable. It is good that I do not love him that much, but it is not completely emotionless.

I never used him as a cash machine to ask him to buy things for me all day long, or to take advantage of him financially, what's more, I was secretly looking for better candidates while eating from the bowl.

On the contrary, I will try my best to do what a girlfriend should do, give her care, and give her gifts. Until we get into trouble, all I have is to live a good life with him.

It is probably similar to the marriage ordered by the parents in the feudal society, because it is suitable, plus a little bit of emotion and touch, just to seek a stable life.

It's not like leaving with one vote, of course it's not noble, but it's not so unbearable that it's so unreasonable that thousands of people will cast aside it.

So later, when I inexplicably carried the 1000 million debt, it was absolutely false to say that I was not sad and hopeless, but now that time has passed, and I really said it was hate, but it is not enough. After all, I have never loved so deeply, so why bother You have to hold on to the past and never let go.

As for today, why did he suddenly think of such an old thing? I'm afraid the Mr. Xiao beside him must have contributed a lot.

Probably because I moved a bit, Xiao Wu's sleep was also a little unsteady, and when he dimly grabbed his long arm, he hooked me a little tighter, which was a very intimate sleeping position.

I froze for a moment, then smiled helplessly, let myself unload all the strength in my body, and closed my eyes.

When he woke up, it was already broad daylight, and his surroundings were empty, and there was no trace of Xiao Wu.

I took the phone over and looked at the time. The last two numbers ticked from 59 to 00, and the number representing the hour happily changed from 8 to 9.

I propped my forehead with my hand, and couldn't help but think a little helplessly, insomnia was a mistake.

But why does it always feel like the alarm clock didn't go off?Or did it actually ring but I turned it off in a daze?

Now that being late was a certainty, I stopped struggling and just calmly washed up and changed my clothes.

Unexpectedly, when he walked out of the room and arrived at the dining room, he saw Young Master Xiao sitting at the dining table eating.

I really didn't expect to see him at home at this time, so I couldn't help reacting for a while, and thought to myself, don't oversleep like me.

Just thinking about how to say hello, Xiao Wu slightly raised his eyes and looked over, as if he looked me up and down, and then said, "Did you sleep well?"

I:"……"

I was the one who said that I was sleepy and had no energy to practice the piano, and I was the one who was insomnia. I said yes or no, and I couldn’t say no, so I could only play Tai Chi in a vague tone: "Why didn't Mr. Xiao go to work?"

Xiao Wu ignored my words and said in a positive tone, "You didn't sleep well."

I couldn't escape, and was about to confess, but I heard him say in a subtle tone: "Whose name did you call in your dream this morning?"

With a jump in my heart, I remembered You Chenghao who had been thinking about it for half the night last night, and I said goodbye to some nonsense that I thought about every day and dreamed at night, I couldn't wash it off even if I jumped into the Yellow River.

Probably because my expression was not too different from seeing a ghost, Xiao Wu gave a rare smile, raised his eyebrows slightly and said: "I slept very well last night."

I really didn't know how to answer the call, so I had to bury my head in the porridge.

I felt a little annoyed in my heart, what he said was true, at least before I fell asleep at four o'clock, I knew how well he slept, but what does this endless sentence mean?No matter how you look at it, it's a bit like showing superiority in front of an insomniac.

Xiao Wu had already finished his breakfast, changed his clothes, and seemed ready to go out. I sighed softly in my heart, and reluctantly put down the spoon in my hand, and turned around to get him a tie.

The unpredictable Mr. Xiao has an obvious advantage in height, and I wear thin-soled slippers that are common indoors, so I can only worry about wearing a tie for him right now.

When I was struggling a little, I felt a pair of hands gently supporting my waist. I was stunned for a moment, and I subconsciously looked at his face, and suddenly I bumped into a pair of deep eyes.

The strength of the palm clasped around the waist seemed to be a little stronger. I struggled a bit in pain, but before I could get flustered, my lips with a bit of coolness fell down.

It was by no means the cold and calm appearance of Xiao Wu that I was familiar with. He kissed fiercely and urgently, and the coolness just now was replaced by the scorching temperature in his breath, and it became scorching hot.

My heart was beating wildly, but I couldn't break free no matter what, so I had to bite down hard in desperation.

The strong smell of blood soon spread from the intertwined lips and teeth, Xiao Wu seemed to wake up a little, and moved away a little.

There is still a gash on his lips that I just bitten, and there are even tiny bloodshots coming out continuously. The tie is halfway tied, and his breathing is a little short. It seems that he is trying to restrain himself. The most embarrassing look I've ever seen.

My heart was in a mess, and I didn't know how to react for a long time, until I was gently pulled into my arms before I came back to my senses.

Xiao Wu seemed to chuckle lowly: "If I go to the company like this, I'm afraid you will become famous tomorrow."

It was only then that I belatedly remembered that the position of the hole I bitten was embarrassing.

Xiao Wu had already let go of me, looked at his half-tied tie, then at me, seemed to have paused, and then re-tied it himself: "I have notified Xiao Liu that you will go to school these few days. Let him pick you up after get off work."

I was in a trance, so I just nodded slightly.

Xiao Wu obviously had something to do, raised his wrist and glanced at his watch, before leaving, he suddenly said, "Mum Zhang's sister is hospitalized, and I granted her a few days off."

No wonder I didn't see her again this morning, I responded, "Is it serious?"

"It's not serious, it's just an appendicitis operation." He took out a tissue to wipe off the blood on his mouth, and walked towards the door, "However, I'm coming back for dinner tonight."