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After the two had finished eating, the table was not cleared or cleaned, so Lin Feng dragged Jia Zhipeng to the sofa, raised his chin and looked down at Jia Zhipeng, as if he was waiting for Jia Zhipeng to confess.Every time Jia Zhipeng mentioned An Ping, he would look at Lin Feng with a guilty conscience, and said other things lightly.Although the existence of An Ping was a festival to Lin Feng, this matter was over after all, whether he accepted it or not, it was already like this, Lin Feng could only ignore it, but Lin Feng was startled when he heard other things.This man, Lin Feng's man, a simple and honest man with no heart at all, unexpectedly, unexpectedly, died just a little bit!Lin Feng's palms were sweating, and he reached out to touch Jia Zhipeng's face. Jia Zhipeng tilted his head and pressed his face and Lin Feng's hand tighter.

"My dad's illness hasn't been found out yet. Speaking of which, I shouldn't be in a hurry to come to you, but..." Jia Zhipeng's eyes were red, "You don't know how much I miss you, since that day..." I couldn't continue, Jia Zhipeng stopped to stabilize his emotions.

"Dapeng, Dapeng..." Lin Feng felt Jia Zhipeng's temperature with his palm, which was the normal body temperature of an ordinary person. Only at this moment did he realize how precious this temperature is. "I understand." Lin Feng said, his chest was so tight that he felt like he was about to suffocate.

"When my dad fainted, I missed you too, and I thought you would be able to help me if you were by my side." Jia Zhipeng took a deep breath and forced himself to stabilize his voice, "You don't know that my legs were so frightened that time. , but there is no way, I have to hold on to life and death, if I don’t hold on, there will be no one, and I can’t count on others.”

The feeling of tightness in his chest made Lin Feng want to yell and curse, but he didn't do anything, he just pulled Jia Zhipeng over and held him in his arms, "Fuck you..." In fact, Lin Feng didn't know what he wanted to say, so he uttered a lot. in one breath.

"I want to call you, I want to go crazy, but I can't... I can't!" Jia Zhipeng followed Lin Feng's strength and buried himself in Lin Feng's arms, crying loudly.

Lin Feng held Jia Zhipeng tightly, making this person feel the warmth and solidity in his arms. He understood why Jia Zhipeng couldn't make that phone call. He understood that the embrace at this moment was the only thing he could give Jia Zhipeng.

After crying for a long time, Jia Zhipeng began to say again: "You don't know, after going around the gate of hell, I was always panicking, as if I was floating in the air and didn't land on the ground, I couldn't tell what was awkward, it was just wrong, it was just uncomfortable! Also - miss you very much." Jia Zhipeng raised his head and looked at Lin Feng, "My parents were like that at the time, I couldn't tell them at all, but I told Anping, she said why I'm not stupid." Long sighed tone.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier?" Lin Feng wanted to lose his temper again, but Jia Zhipeng knew that Lin Feng didn't mean to blame him, and he would express his inarticulate emotions with anger.

"Looking at you, touching you, and kissing you, the feeling at that time suddenly became real, and my heart also settled down, and I felt that I was really alive." Jia Zhipeng was suddenly a little embarrassed, and smiled, "I thought about it again. I made you worry in vain, so I didn't tell you."

Lin Feng rubbed Jia Zhipeng's head vigorously a few times, making a mess of his hair. He figured out why he was suddenly in a good mood, "You mean you're sure you're still alive just by looking at me?" The corners of his mouth curled up triumphantly, damn it, Who said this idiot can't talk about love?I was blind before!

Jia Zhipeng felt much better, and sat up straight, "Well—well, when I saw you at the train station, I really wanted to touch you, but outside, I didn't dare, I was afraid that if you touched me, I would You can't control yourself."

"I said what happened to you that day. The fists were clenched, as if you were about to fight. You said that if I kissed you suddenly, what would you do?" Lin Feng felt that this hypothesis was very worth a try. feasibility.

"I don't know, it didn't mean that I could give you a punch just by biting you hard at that time." Jia Zhipeng looked at Lin Feng, his eyes rolled, "It's more likely to give you a punch."

"Haha..." Listening to Jia Zhipeng say this, Lin Feng is not only not angry, but also feels super good. This is why he didn't treat me as an outsider! "Are you feeling better?" Lin Feng embraced Jia Zhipeng and kissed him hard on the mouth, "Then tell me what happened today?"

"My dad said that there was a heart problem, and it was found out. He explained it in detail. Why did he do a 24-hour monitoring in the hospital? When it came to missing a heartbeat, I thought at the time that my dad was sick and I didn't even notice it. If I can stay with him at home, I just come to see you with all my heart, and I feel that I am not a thing, so I just..." Jia Zhipeng raised his hand and wiped his face to hide his embarrassment.

"Are you stupid?! If you didn't almost die, you wouldn't be able to do this, would you?" Lin Feng raised his hand and gave Jia Zhipeng a chestnut, "Don't think it's useless, your father's illness can be cured Huh?" Looking at Jia Zhipeng's expression now, Lin Feng guessed that the problem was not serious.

"Yes, I'm going to have an operation and put some equipment on my heart. I have to ask for leave to go home. I said it's a minor operation, so don't worry, so I'm still worried." Jia Zhipeng wiped Lin Feng's clothes, the The place was flooded with Jia Zhipeng's tears just now, and there should be saliva and snot.

"Well, yes, we should go back and accompany you." Lin Feng felt relieved and asked tentatively, "Shall I accompany you back?" In fact, he knew that Jia Zhipeng would most likely not agree.

"No need, I've found out what's wrong, and I know how to cure it. I really want you to be by my side, but you really can't go." Jia Zhipeng smiled embarrassedly, "I can hold on if you don't go, you If I go, I won't be able to hold on."

"That's fine. If everything goes well, you don't have to call me. If you really have something to do, you must call me. When you really can't hold on, don't think about it. Let me accompany you!" Lin Feng He looked down at his wet clothes.

"En!" Jia Zhipeng responded.

"Okay, okay, it's okay!" Lin Feng patted Jia Zhipeng, and suddenly thought of something, "Hey, did you eat that day?"

"No, I forgot. I woke up hungry in the hospital in the early morning. I thought I was hungry because I was panicking. I wanted to wait until dawn, but I couldn't bear it. I was so hungry that my stomach twitched, so I came out of the hospital. I didn’t dare to go far, and looked for 24-hour convenience stores in the streets. Fengzi, you don’t know how much I missed you at that time, especially when An Ping couldn’t count on you at all, I thought you were very good, and you were very good to me !” Jia Zhipeng sighed, and continued, “You don’t know, in the early morning, there were almost no cars on the eight-lane road, and I was wandering in the middle of the road by myself—I didn’t know how many times I walked around the hospital. , I finally found a small open shop in a small alley. When I got a bowl of instant noodles, my hands were shaking. I didn’t know if it was cold or hungry. For a while, I just thought that it would be good to eat it in my stomach, and I would feel at ease when I was full, but I didn’t feel at ease when I put a bowl of noodles in my stomach, so I came to another bowl, but I couldn’t eat it until I finished this bowl , my stomach was full of panic, my heart was still empty and uncomfortable... The next day I went to the hospital with my dad for a whole day, and all the test results came out, but nothing was wrong. But I just feel that I haven't recovered yet My hands were shaking all the time, and I couldn't tell whether it was empty in my heart or my stomach, and I didn't know what to do." Lin Feng didn't say anything, and put one hand on Jia Zhipeng's back.

"The doctor said nothing was wrong, and my dad said nothing was wrong. I couldn't bear it any longer. I went to buy a plane ticket, but the flight to Shenyang didn't arrive until the next day. I couldn't wait any longer. I really couldn't bear to buy a plane ticket to Dalian. Dalian came back by train again."

"If you have anything to do, you must tell me, do you hear me?" Lin Feng said dirty words, and his heart ached, this idiot, why didn't he say so many things earlier?After carrying it alone for such a long time, I asked him and said it was all right.

"Understood. Am I particularly useless?" Jia Zhipeng looked at Lin Feng, his expression was not asking, but he was sure that he was very useless.

"When my mother left, if it wasn't for the help of a bunch of friends, I would be finished too. That would be stupid, it's normal! Don't think about it." Lin Feng patted Jia Zhipeng, remembered what happened just now, and asked, "Where is your father?" What's the matter with the disease? How did you find out?"

Jia Zhipeng looked at his knees, "My dad said that one day when he was walking on the road, his vision suddenly became dark and he was almost hit by a car, so he went to the hospital again. The doctor ordered him to be hospitalized and installed monitoring equipment. It came out that his heart skipped a beat."

"Huh?" Heart skipped a beat?Lin Feng didn't have any idea, it just felt quite scary.

"My dad said it's not a big deal. When it doesn't leak, everything is normal. But when it misses one or two beats, the brain will not supply enough oxygen, so the eyes will be dark. I heard from my dad that the operation is not too big." Jia Zhipeng added Put your hands on the wet part of Lin Feng's clothes.

Lin Feng nodded to show that he understood, and smiled when he saw Jia Zhipeng's hand, "Do my laundry today, are you listening?"

"Yeah!" Jia Zhipeng looked at Lin Feng and nodded seriously. The person who was too solemn made Lin Feng realize that he still had something to say. Jia Zhipeng hesitated for a moment before he spoke, "Actually, look at Gang San like that. I want to go back too." I went home to get divorced, and simply came out with my parents. But I really didn’t expect my father to be like this. I always thought that my father was like a mountain. I never thought that my father would fall down. Now I It’s impossible to come out, and I can’t do it no matter what, if I come out, the family will be ruined, just my dad’s heart now..."

"Needless to say, I understand! My mother is gone now. If she were here, I wouldn't dare to live with you like this." Lin Feng was taken aback when he heard what Jia Zhipeng said, and immediately understood what he was going to say What's the matter, you idiot, you still have to explain it to yourself right now, how can it be easy to come out if you don't tell me?