There is a kind of love that goes without saying Ⅱ

In the afternoon, the sunset glow was crimson, and I moved to the roof of the rooftop.Looking into the distance, the high-rise buildings, the signboards in different languages, and the endless stream below are all so strange.I felt depressed and blocked.

It turns out that people are really small...

"Tujiang, it's dangerous up there, come down." The familiar voice in my memory seemed to sound behind me, I turned around, but there was no one behind.

The wind blew past my ears and whizzed by.I suddenly thought, what kind of feeling does a person feel when he dies?I am so tired living, too tired, will it be easier if I die?But every time I have this thought, I hesitate and even fear death. Is it because of human cowardice?

I spread my arms, and the wind filled my clothes and swelled them.The roof door behind me was opened, and the sound of progressive footsteps stopped not far from me.I turned my head and looked at Yan Nuoxianqi with a gloomy face.

He stared at me with icy eyes, and his tone was slightly sarcastic, "You didn't ask me to come here to watch you commit suicide, did you? Tu Jiang."

I smiled and shook my head. Although my smile was a little pale, it was the only time in a long time that I didn't have any emotion in my smile.

"Don't worry, I wouldn't choose to jump off a building if I wanted to commit suicide...and you probably don't want me to die, do you?"

Yan Nuoxianqi glanced at me coldly, then smiled again, "You are really smart, you can think clearly of what I told you this morning so quickly."

"You said it so clearly, if I can't hear it, am I a fool?" It's just that I am afraid that sometimes I will be clever and be mistaken by my cleverness.Hope that's not the case, or I'd lose all.

"So what's your choice?" He chuckled, his eyes changed.

I breathed a sigh of relief silently, and said lightly, "I...choose to stay in the good times obediently."

Yan Nuoxianqi smiled, and said, "Tu Jiang, you should have done this long ago."

Heh...it should have been like this long ago?Where can I make a choice early?Otherwise, I wouldn't be in the situation I am today.

I looked at the sky and stretched out my hand, trying to grab something invisible, but couldn't find anything.After all, I've come to a dead end, and it's time to go back the same way.

"Yan Nuoxianqi, he should be very lucky to have a brother like you in good times." I turned my back to him, and my mind was empty.The sound fluttered with the wind, drifted into the distance, and dissipated.

Yan Nuoxianqi frowned slightly, and pursed his lips, "Are you mocking me?"

I turned around and smiled shallowly, "No, I'm telling a joke, just like you told me before."

Yan Nuoxianqi was not angry, but laughed even more intensely.Appreciation flashed in his eyes, followed by a bit of regret.

He walked to the edge of the steps, fixed his eyes on me, and said, "Tujiang, I can suddenly discover the shining points in you... It's a pity that you can't show yourself."

I thought for a while, looked at him, and didn't answer.He stretched out his hand to me at this time, I hesitated, squatted down and held his hand, and jumped down the half-short steps.

He is different from Haojing in that his palms are warm and somewhat moist.I was about to withdraw my hand, but he held it tightly.I was puzzled, but his expression was indifferent.

"Take it and walk back."

It was incredible to hear him say that again.What is he planning?Or will you encounter something later?

I don't know what Yan Nuoxianqi is planning, but it doesn't matter anymore.

When he went downstairs, he seemed to care that I couldn't walk fast, so he slowed down.I find it strange, I don't understand why his attitude has changed, I really don't like to speculate on his thoughts, so...

Yan Nuoxianqi, don't make me hate you again, after all, you are Haojing's brother, the person Xia Qian likes.

My thoughts were fixed at the moment Yan Nuoxianqi pushed away from the ward.I saw Xia Qian. He was sitting in a wheelchair, his eyes were wrapped in bandages, his hands were on one side, and the smile was still faintly on his lips.His face was pale, his figure seemed to have become thinner, and he looked towards us when he heard the sound of the door.

He couldn't see, how could his eyes not see?

My voice was just in my throat, and I stopped making a sound, because I was frightened.Xia Qian's eyes are blind, isn't it true?

I turned my head stiffly to look at Yan Nuoxianqi, trying to find a trace of unnatural expression on his face, but there was none.

Xia Qian smiled, his smile was beautiful, and his voice was soft, "Xianqi, is Tujiang here?"

Yan Nuoxianqi came to Xia Qian, knelt down on one knee, lightly rubbed Xia Qian's hand, and answered.

Yan Nuoxianqi's expression and movements are completely different from his image in my heart, maybe he will only become gentle when facing Xia Qian.

"Tu Jiang?"

Xia Qian's call made me recover from the bandages on his eyes.I calmed down, tried my best to control my voice and said, "Well, Xia Qian, long time no see."

Xia Qian was taken aback when he heard my voice, and then said, "Yeah, I haven't seen you for a year."

I don't know if it's his emotions, but I feel sad. It's been a year, and it's a cycle of four seasons.Some people, some things.Why is there only sadness left now?

"Tujiang, is it true that Xianqi said that he was going for a walk in the garden?" When he asked this, I was stunned.

Yan Nuoxianqi gave me a look, presumably to tell me to lie.It's just that he really can say, I'm going for a walk?

"Well, let's go for a walk."

"I'm still a little worried about you... It seems I'm worrying too much." Xia Qian said, warming my heart.

He probably cares about me, at least his arrival has given my world another color.

Xia Qian took Yan Nuo Xianqi's hand, and said in a questioning tone, "Xianqi, can you let me talk to Tu Jiang alone for a while?"

"Okay" Yan Nuoxian prayed, got up and walked to the door, and when he passed by me, he glanced at me with a warning look in his eyes.

He closed the door, and the ward was quiet, only the breathing of Xia Qian and I could be heard.I came in front of Xia Qian, I wanted to touch his wound with my hand, but I dropped it.

"Xia Qian, your eyes...how come..." I didn't want to finish my question, but Xia Qian knew what I wanted to ask.

"It's caused by a car accident, it's nothing serious, it's just that it's inconvenient to move later."

He said it so lightly, I don't know how he felt when he said it, but it hurt to hear it.The days when you can't see anything, when there is only darkness, are too hard.

Xia Qian, how did you endure it?

"When...when did this happen?"

"Not long ago." He replied, I should have guessed that he was like this, but this was not long ago, how long ago, why did God let such a good person like Xia Qian suffer this kind of crime.

Xia Qian smiled, and he said to me, "Tujiang, you won't be sad because I can't see you, will you?"

I nodded slightly, thinking that he couldn't see my movements, and my expression darkened.

"That's a little bit." No, but a lot.

"Actually...my injury was caused by Xianqi's subordinates. They were going to hit Xianqi, but I happened to be driving that car that day. They didn't recognize the person and crashed into the car. It was me, and the glass window was shattered." It seemed to be pierced into my eyes, so I couldn't see it. Fortunately, I was injured, not him." Xia Qian finished with a smile, and the last sentence made my heart tremble. How much does he love Yan Nuoxian? pray?

"You...don't you regret it?" I asked him, but I didn't respond, as if I blurted out the words.

Xia Qian looked at me and smiled, "Why do you regret it?"

When he asked me back, I didn't know what to say, but I felt that if I was blind, I might regret it a bit, after all, my eyes would lose their light forever.Didn't I do such a thing as sacrificing myself, as if I didn't have any regrets.

"Tu Jiang, I actually came today to talk to you about something. I want you to know the truth, and I hope you will be happy." Xia Qian's voice was soft and ethereal.

happiness?Does this thing belong to me?How can I have any happiness in this life.

"I know what you're going to say..."

Two different people want to say the same thing to me, and when I think about it, I really feel sad.

"You know?" Xia Qian was a little surprised, he probably didn't expect me to know the so-called truth.

This world is a combination of truth and falsehood. Who can tell what is true and what is false?And the truth that can't be true is also mixed with false appearances that can't be more false.I can see clearly, and because I see too clearly, I don't know how to deal with it.

"Ah."

"Then what are you going to do next?"

Xia Qian said this because he cared about me, but his words sounded a little ironic to me.

"Let's go with the flow..." Don't think too much, don't guess too much, it will be better that way.

Xia Qian was silent, he couldn't see my expression, but it made me feel that he could see me, and even read my heart.

"You...you can start over with Haojing, he actually cares about you very much."

I was stunned, is he trying to persuade me?Why did Xia Qian tell lies with Yan Nuoxianqi?Does Haojing care about me?Then why hasn't he come to see me since that day?

I began to feel uncomfortable, I stepped back slightly, and distanced myself from Xia Qian.In a daze, I realized that Xia Qian and I had no emotional resonance at all.

He is him, and I am me, with different thinking and different views on love.

"Maybe Haojing really cares about me, but there are too many...misses between me and him." These misses are irreparable. The relationship between me and him.

Xia Qian sighed slightly, as if feeling sorry for me, with his sense of loss.

He said, "Tujiang, you just don't understand the way he loves you."

"If he loves me, he won't stop visiting me these few days." I said this sentence somehow, am I looking forward to a good scene?I still have expectations?

"Don't think about it too much. In fact, Haojing's health is not good. He has been recuperating at home these days, and he still has some mental illnesses. He can't convince himself to come to see you. I'm afraid he won't be able to control his emotions when he sees you. .”

When I heard it, I was stunned.Good scene, is he in poor health?It seems to be the case, that time he vomited blood.But I'm a little afraid that Xia Qian is lying to me?How can a good scene be so fragile?

No, probably not.

"What you said...is it true?" My voice trembled, and some memories kept coming to me like a tide.

"En." Xia Qian's response was as heavy as a lightning strike on me.

Fate slapped me and woke me up, but it made me lost again, endlessly.

"Tu Jiang, you... still like scenery, right?" Xia Qian asked me, and when he asked, I actually said something that went against my heart.

"Love... so what?" It gave me pain all over my body, leaving only despair.

Xia Qian could hear the sadness in the other party's words, and persuaded him, "Since you still have love, why not gamble again? Maybe he didn't mean to hurt you at the beginning, maybe he had some difficulties, but he didn't express it .”

My heart began to waver because of Xia Qian's words, and the thoughts that I had established before were shaken.Should I really give myself a chance?But can I give myself a chance to try?

Xia Qian held my hand, his palm was very warm, as warm as mine.

"But...he seems to have lost interest in me." My words that day were probably in a good mood, and I lied to him.

Xia Qian laughed when he heard it, "It seems that the two of you are not without love, but you are just not good at expressing your feelings."

"Why...you say that?" I asked him, feeling that Xia Qian could bring me hope.But Xia Qian betrayed me.

"You'll know, but it's up to you to find out."

I guessed that he would say that, Xia Qian is like this, it left me with doubts, but I understand his intention, he is showing me a clear way.So should I gamble?What if the ending is still another abyss?Can I still face everything calmly?

"That……"

"Xiaoqian should go back."

Before I could ask what I wanted to ask, Yan Nuoxianqi opened the door and came in to say this.

His cold eyes glanced at Xia Qian's right hand that I held together, and I pulled my hand back knowingly.I'm afraid that if my hands are slower, he will find a knife and chop off my hands.

He looked at Xia Qian with gentle eyes.I admire him for such a quick change of expression, I would definitely not be able to do it.

"Are you going back so soon? Can you let me talk to Tu Jiang for a while?" Xia Qian asked in a questioning tone again. I think he must have begged Yan Nuoxian for a long time to come to see me.

He stood in front of Xia Qian, his expression became a little cold because of Xia Qian's words, which reminded me of the appearance of Haojing inexplicably.

"Did you forget what you promised me?"

Yan Nuoxianqi's words made Xia Qian silent, he bit his lip lightly, as if he was thinking about something.

The ward became quiet all of a sudden, and the atmosphere became a little depressing.

"Tu Jiang, then I will leave with Xian Qi first, you have to take care of yourself." It was Xia Qian who finally spoke, with some hidden sadness at the corner of his mouth.

I nodded, then reacted, and said, "Well, I will."

Yan Nuoxianqi came over and pushed the wheelchair.When Xia Qian rubbed his elbow past me, he lightly bumped my leg.

I watched Yan Nuoxianqi push Xia Qian out of the ward, and then I picked up the small ball of paper on the ground with the word "Xia Ying" written on it.

I guess he wants me to make a call for him to ask about Xia Xing's current situation.

He still cares about his kids.And what has become of his family now...

Xia Qian is probably still at the peak of uncertainty, can he really abandon his family completely?I don't know Xia Qian's thoughts, but I hope he can live well.

I borrowed a mobile phone from the nurse who delivered dinner, but I don't know if the phone number that Xia Qian and his family used to have is still in use now.I hesitated for a while, and dialed the number, but found that it was an empty number.Could it be that Lan An moved with Xia Ying?

My doubts are not answered.