Dig a spoonful of heart meat

The stairs in the school are not very wide, and two or three people standing side by side can block the road.The homeroom teacher walked in the front, and Zou Shao followed behind.

His eyes fell on Tan Weifeng's neckline, and his mind wandered away.

I don't know if it was a conditioned reflex, but when I saw him, I felt that my ankle, which had recovered for more than a year, was still aching, and my breathing was not as smooth as before.

He doesn't feel well.

Just now Tan Weifeng felt something was wrong as soon as he walked by, but he couldn't say why, but now he suddenly realized it.

There was no familiar cold aroma on him.

The intuitive sense of smell can always easily bring back memories. For example, when we broke the boat and said that we like it, and when we wanted to touch it in the depths of love, there were strands of fragrance lingering on the tip of the tongue.

But the aroma is also the easiest to dissipate, no matter how bad it is, it will fade away.

Maybe the other party suddenly didn't like the smell, maybe it was neutralized by other fragrances in the dormitory, or maybe it was just troublesome.

Before Zou Shao could figure out why, several people had already walked to the teacher's office.The head teacher rummaged through the drawer for a while and said, "It seems that some sets of papers have been taken to the class today, I'll go get them now, please wait a moment."

This is not a group office, there are only two desks, the room is not big, and the two of them are left after the head teacher left, making it even more cramped.

Zou Shao stood at the door, looking at the back of Tan Weifeng standing in front of the desk.The other party seemed to be deliberately standing far away, deliberately avoiding looking at him or communicating with him.

His eyes lingered on the outline of the other party wrapped in cotton clothes, including the hair tips and fur collar, which were clearly outlined.

It's like taking a look, and missing a look.

The sound of the door being pushed open sounded.

"Here are the two sets of papers. You can take a look at them when you have time." The homeroom teacher handed the things in his hand to Tan Weifeng, "Hey, why are you two standing so far away? Didn't you know each other before?"

Qin said that the wind was silent.

Zou Shao pulled a tight smile from the corner of his mouth, and said, "I know you, I just said hello."

The homeroom teacher didn't notice these small details, and sorted out another bundle of papers from the table and handed them to Zou Shao, "That's all, don't go back too late, the road is slippery at night and be careful."

The three of them broke up after leaving the school, and the homeroom teacher took a car. Zou Shao and Qin Weifeng's homes were not far away, and they both had to pass a long distance along the way.

Whoever left first seemed too deliberate, so they walked one after the other.The moonlight reflected the white light on the snow, brighter than the yellow street lamps beside the road.

This situation is too familiar, it is a road that has been walked together countless times.

"Candied haws, big and sweet candied haws~"

Not far away, there was the sound of buying candied haws trolleys, and there were still a few unsold ones in the glass case, which were bright red and lovely.

It was suffocating.

It was as if the ears and nose had been submerged in salt water, and it was icy cold and tingling.

He sometimes wished that he could be a little more of a jerk, a little more unscrupulous, and fight for something he likes by any means, holding on tightly to ascension or descent.

At least it won't be like it is now, both of them are awkward and uncomfortable.

Qin Weifeng will turn at the next intersection, and he will go straight, the distance is less than 100 meters.

—Tell him something.

Once this thought popped up, I couldn't stop it anymore.No matter how determined a person is, if he hasn't seen someone he likes for two years, he won't be able to control himself rationally.

But what to say?Three or two greetings that I haven't seen in a long time?Or is it going around in the open and in the dark?

But he's leaving soon.

"...Fengshen." Zou Shao blurted out the words just before the other party turned the corner, but the other party stopped, but he didn't know what to say next.

Qin Weifeng turned around, waiting for Zou Shao to say the next sentence.

The small trolley selling candied haws came right in front of them, and Zou Shao could even recall the taste of rock sugar melting on the tip of their tongues.

My heart skipped a beat. "Have you had dinner tonight?"

Qin Weifeng stared at Zou Shao for a while, as if he was trying to gauge how much Zou Shao was thinking, until the cart of candied haws passed by.

"have eaten."

"Then do you want to..."

"What do you want to ask? You can make it clear directly." Tan Weifeng refused, his tone was a little stiff, even more chilling than this winter night.

Zou Shao suppressed the discomfort these words brought him, and took a few steps forward.His eyes followed the jacket from the other person's eyebrows, and slid down to the exposed hands that were already red from the cold.

Qin Weifeng was "too lazy" to spend time on small things. He didn't bother to wear gloves when going out, and he didn't want to put his hands in his pockets. When he went out, his fingers were often cold. Zou Shao used to use various excuses, He tricked people's hands into his pockets and held them.

"Zou Shao." Tan Weifeng stared into his eyes, and there seemed to be some imperceptible anger mixed with his words.

"We have already broken up. What do you want to ask now? Ask me why I just said that I didn't fall in love in high school?"

Qin Weifeng's tone was not slow in itself, and these few words came out even more smoothly, without any room for comment, as if they contained strong emotions in them.

Zou Shao didn't expect that Tan Weifeng was still a little excited about this matter. He wanted to imprison his restless body in his arms, but he could only hold his cold wrist tightly.

"……I know."

Know that you have broken up, know it every moment, no need to add fuel to the fire with reminders.

Qin Weifeng quickly restrained his expression, returned to normal, glanced down, then clenched his hands tightly, "Let go."

Zou Shao didn't insist anymore, and withdrew his hand decisively.

The warmth brought by the contact was instantly replaced by the low-temperature air, and the temperature difference was very uncomfortable. Qin Zhifeng shrunk his neckline subconsciously.

"I didn't want to ask you that." Zou Shao said.

——I just want to talk to you, but I can't hold back.

It's just that this sentence can't be said.

"I want to ask you...the question after that, is your answer true?"

——Have you fallen in love now?

Tan Weifeng looked down at the ground, as if he didn't really want to answer this question, but he was uncomfortable with Zou Shao's direct gaze, so he replied.

"it is true."

Zou Shao subconsciously breathed a sigh of relief, and he didn't even notice the subtle feeling.

I don't know what the reason is, after all, whether Tan Weifeng is in a relationship or not, it may have nothing to do with him.

"It's getting late, let's go back first, I won't see you off." Zou Shao glanced forward at the neighborhood where Tan Weifeng was about to turn.

He remembered that the other party would turn right after walking straight for 200 meters, cross a cross road, enter the door of the second unit and take the elevator upstairs.

He still remembered that there were street lights along the way.

Zou Shao stood on the spot and watched the other party turn around, but saw him turn back immediately.

"I probably won't go back to school for the next six months. I wish you success in the college entrance examination in advance."

Tan Weifeng's shadow stretched long under the street lamps, his tone of voice no longer showed the sharpness just now, but he still maintained a polite and unfamiliar distance, saying a polite and routine blessing.

But Zou Shao still felt happy.

It seems that all the [-]-day mobilization meetings, promotional slogans, and gifts from the lower grades did not have this sentence to score the weight.

He didn't speak, just smiled a little at the end of his eyes.It was supposed to have a hint of evil, but it was wrapped in a film of water turned from snow.

He watched Tan Weifeng's tall and straight back gradually blurred and became smaller, and then disappeared from sight after a turn.

I also hope that you can be happy every day.

Zou Shao thought to himself.

There was no one on the road, and Tan Weifeng seemed to have taken away the last trace of heat from the surroundings.

But the lights in the surrounding residential areas are on, and even if the street lights are off, you will not get lost.Under the light, there are countless candidates who are about to take the college entrance examination reviewing at their desks at their desks. The light in the window is connected into a line, making people sleepless.

Come on for the college entrance examination.

The future is expected.

The author has something to say:

Sorry for being late, I have a final exam tonight~

Pet the cuties, they'll be fine soon!

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I don’t know if everyone understands their behavior, so I’ll type a few more words, please skip it if you don’t want to see the cuties~

Let’s start with Zou Shao, what kind of character do you think he is?

I watched him act like a god for a few months, and felt that he was indifferent on the surface, and I was not afraid of anything, but he was not a classic "little gangster" character. Go for it, be non-self-righteous, and be empathetic.Although he is a bit slow in love, his emotional intelligence is generally not low.

Why did he like it in his heart but insisted on breaking up?

Family reasons, psychological state, and physical conditions are of course direct factors, but the essence is still an "unequal" relationship between two people. This is not simply a gap in universities, but that at the beginning, this relationship was unnatural.

Zou Shao grew up in a special family environment, lacking a sense of identity and love from his close relatives, so that he developed a strong sense of self-preservation and protection (for example, the two fights with the bar at the beginning, of course, are not just reckless or cool s reason).

So he doesn't like to drag his family affairs to Fengshen, and he also thinks that one day he can reach the same height as him with his own efforts.

He likes Tan Weifeng and wants to get an overall sense of protection in this relationship, but it is obvious that Tan Weifeng didn't think of this, and he didn't provide any "humanistic care", only "technical support".

Because their thinking patterns are different, such as the contradiction of "the difference in grades" is too large.

Zou Shao would think: no doubt, of course I will try my best to catch up with him.But what would he think if he didn't catch up?

Tan Weifeng would think: I can take him to study, if he can't learn it, he will continue to learn, if there is a problem, he will find a way to solve it, and if the fundamental problem is solved, there will be no such troubles.

You should also be able to feel that the way they get along is very restrained, polite, and not heart-to-heart, they just love each other passionately. This is not a normal CP interaction mode.

So when Zou Shao faced the situation of "not catching up", his first reaction must be to break up.

I don’t want the other party to spend time in the relationship, I don’t want to drag the other party, and I’m afraid that the other party doesn’t want to be dragged by me. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain.

Tan Weifeng is very different. Dear friends, you can imagine that you are the best student in high school, and then substitute what Tan Weifeng does.

Those who love, admire, admire, and those who chase rainbow farts can form a company, but they lack friends who have no mutual interests.Coupled with strict family education and long-term business trips of his parents, he has a cold temper, cold from the inside out, low emotional intelligence, and no empathy.

But what he has done to Zou Shao has been as benevolent as he can. Perhaps one can imagine how many earthquakes can be caused by the male god with the best grades coming out publicly?How can an abstinent person who doesn't eat hard and soft men and women say "please give me a little more time" with shame?

Qin Weifeng's living environment made him seem like he was put in a shell, and there were too many standard configurations of "others expect" and "should be".He will also subconsciously try his best to do one thing best, absolute extreme perfectionism, thinking about problems tends to be rational, and skips all unimportant details.

Because of this, he likes Zou Shao, not on the surface, but more like his soul.Zou Shao is optimistic and funny, caring about people, making him feel comfortable like a friend, and for the first time he felt the feeling of being truly cared for, Zou Shao has become his ideal way of life.

After being "broken up" in this way, the analysis of the reason was fruitless, and he couldn't face looking for it. The straight-line and rational way of thinking made him feel that the problem had no solution, and he couldn't notice his own problem.Then he turned to self-deception, forcibly ended the relationship, and even transferred part of his confusion and anger to Zou Shao.The formed self-protection mechanism automatically blocks the past things.

So, separation is inevitable, but if you like each other, you will never make mistakes all the time and no one will speak up to make it up. There is always a chance to solve the misunderstanding. Breaking up is not a big problem. The problem lies in the running-in of personality.The time of separation happens to be the best opportunity to test their feelings and hearts. At the same time, they will also realize their own problems during the mutual influence and growth together.

Once you realize it, it's really easy to do.

I'm done, sleepy sleepy, good night! !