Dig a spoonful of heart meat

Tan Weifeng took one out of the pencil case and threw it over, then continued to turn his head to write and draw on the draft paper.

Zou Shao didn't know what to do with the pen, so he dug out all the books in the schoolbag and wrote the name of the class, and then opened them one by one to read today's introduction.

The introduction is extremely boring. It is nothing more than telling you that the number of times has been compiled by many generations. To learn it well requires not only hard work and perseverance, but also burning incense and worshiping Buddha.

Zou Shao put on a show for more than ten minutes, took out his earphones and opened the music list on his phone.

Suddenly, I came across an audio with the date as the title, which was calculated to be the day before the college entrance examination.

Zou Shao clicked on it, and suddenly remembered that this was the call record he recorded that day.

"you are outside?"

"The roommate is busy, so it's not convenient in the house."

Sitting next to Qin Weifeng, listening to the call records with the earphones, it gave people a confusing illusion, as if the voice in the earphones was very warm, but the person sitting next to him was unwilling to look up.

Wei Wei dialed back the progress bar, and a deep humming sound came from the earphones.

Zou Shao's heart moved.

Don't you want to know what the other party said after falling asleep?

The heartbeat is a little faster, more like a secret voyeuristic psychology, using technological cheating to explore the scenery that is hard to see.

The perpetrator has a clear conscience.

He turned the progress bar a little bit backwards, watching the wavy lines on the screen gradually flatten out from low to low, at this time the audio had passed for about an hour.

In other words, within half an hour after I fell asleep, the other party didn't stop.

The last words before the sound stopped abruptly were: Are you asleep?

It's as low as a singing voice, so light that it seems to come from the brain, colliding back and forth between neurons.

It wasn't until the waves became flat for a long time that Zou Shao recovered from what he said just now.

He has a very strange feeling.

Those words seem to be the end of all hardships. From the long journey to the relaxation of the whole body, there is a feeling of relief.

why?

He continued to scroll backwards, one hour, two hours, three hours...

It has always been flat and quiet, but the phone is not hung up, and there is no noise from going upstairs or entering the door.

But he had a very subtle premonition that the audio did not end here.

The pulse gradually became disordered, as if standing in front of a high stone gate, the scene inside was either magnificent or desolate.

He pushed open the door and walked in.

In the last few minutes before the end of the audio, a slight fluctuation finally appeared, and Zou Shao held his breath, waiting for the progress bar to automatically move backwards with the passage of time.

He said, "Are you asleep?"

Zou Shao subconsciously turned his head to look at the people beside him, as if there was a problem on the paper that could never be finished in his lifetime, and he never stopped for a moment.

About ten seconds passed.

"Zou Shao, you will never tell me, why did you break up with me?"

The voice is very flat, very light, very calm.

"Do you not understand why I always hold on to this matter? Do you think that I was broken up, so I can't get in the way, and I can't get over this hurdle, so I can't let it go?"

"At first it was kind of like that, but not now."

"Because I used to be very serious, I think I deserve your reason."

The words are very similar to the scene in the dream that day.

That's not just a dream.

Zou Shao's hands were slowly clenched under the table, but there was no sound for a long time.

"Recently, I am very tired from the final review. I often can't sleep at night. It may also be due to drinking too much coffee. When I am stressed, I want to go out for a walk, but in the end I still ride the bike very fast."

He changed his tone and didn't say anything else, as if he was casually talking about some trivial things in life with Zou Shao.

like a long time ago.

"Now I just don't want to sleep, so I went out for a walk, and I've arrived at the gate of Xinqing. You've been here before, and that's where Wu Pei was."

What is he doing?

It was already past four o'clock in the morning. He was under a lot of pressure and wandered around the school all night.

People should not wear too much in summer, but the wind and dew at night are very cold.

He was so tired, but if it wasn't for this recording, Zou Shao would never know.

Know nothing.

After the fine and dense distress like needle pricks, there was a fire for no reason.

Only when he is out of sight, he will not be as cold as a stranger; only when he is out of hearing, he will say these words like a normal friend; Will be lost, tired, entangled, resentful, have all the human nature that is not a sin.

But when Zou Shao saw him, talked to him, and looked at him, he always avoided it.

The heartbeat of being afraid of asking for trouble, the worry of being afraid of dying without a disease, or just wanting to protect yourself from Zou Shao's deep gaze.

I don't want to try again, I don't want to touch again.

Why do this?

To himself?

He didn't turn around and go back, he was still talking, and Zou Shao couldn't remember how long it had been.Maybe ten seconds, maybe ten minutes.

"It's daylight," he said.

"can you see it?"

--can you see it?

The morning glow is so sincere that it surges to the horizon and ignites a fire.

The names carefully carved on the blood vessels are like an iron wall on the outside, but they are vulnerable inside and will only flee in a hurry.

can you see it?

Zou Shao took off the earphones and turned his head sideways.

Does he like himself.

Once, and now.

There is such a liking, far beyond my imagination.

I like it so much that I can't let it go, but I am restraining any distracting thoughts.

Perhaps Zou Shao's gaze was too blatant, Tan Weifeng casually glanced over here in surprise, but was instantly taken aback.

He seemed to have been looking this way for a long time, but he didn't make a sound.

The whites of the eyes are still slightly red.

"What are you doing?" Qin Weifeng was stared at with horror.

"I have something to ask you."

"I'm busy." Tan Weifeng withdrew his gaze and began to ignore him.

"Come out with me." Zou Shao grabbed Tan Weifeng's wrist and stood up, but his strength was so great that Tan Weifeng's body hung in the air and couldn't get up or down, and he was a little annoyed.

"Let me go." Tan Weifeng suppressed his volume and drank in a low voice, "I'm busy now, what do you have to say later."

Zou Shao didn't give in this time, and pulled the people out directly.Tan Weifeng lost his footing, and his calf hit the chair leg hard.

Turning out of the reading room is a winding staircase, which is full of western classical charm, and the lights are never turned on at ordinary times, which adds a little bit of gloomy privacy.

Zou Shao dragged him to the half-floor position, and surrounded the way he was trying to escape with his body without mercy, forming an impenetrable wall.

Just before Qin Weifeng tried to mock him, he covered his mouth with his hand, blocking all the heat of his strong resistance between his palms.

"Don't talk, listen to me first." Zou Shao whispered, his breath was a little unsteady.

"Do you want to know why I broke up with you two years ago?"

Qin Weifeng calmed down in an instant, as if he had been drained of strength suddenly, as if he had been shocked by Zou Shao's words and lost his ability to think.

Zou Shao suppressed the soreness in his heart and said, "I was injured during that time. Although it was not serious, it was...not a minor injury. I was in a state..."

Qin Weifeng suddenly flung his hand away.

"You're injured and not in good shape, so what?"

"So break up with me and explain this to me in two years?"

Zou Shao was suddenly speechless.

No matter how empathetic and reasonable excuses are, after being soaked by time, they are worthless.

Qin Weifeng is right, because of this, so what?

How could more than 700 days be written off with just one reason?

Qin Weifeng staggered away from Zou Shao and was about to leave.

Can't let him go.

This thought instantly occupied all his consciousness, so much so that he subconsciously blurted out what was in his mind.

"Do you still like me?"

Use an affirmative sentence.

Qin Weifeng stopped abruptly.

That statement is really silly and doesn't make sense.

But he found that he no longer had any reason to keep people by his side.There is only one sentence of liking, or being so contemptuous that it is not worth mentioning, but it is the only connection.

Zou Shao watched his back when he stopped, and only hoped that he could turn around.

He likes himself, and he likes him.

But the second half of the sentence, I am not worthy of saying it.

Even if he was really bad at the time.

If you don't put yourself in his shoes and experience his feelings at that time, you are not qualified to say that he has failed.

But he could say it.

"Yes, I like you." Tan Weifeng turned his head and said softly, "But there are times when I like you, and there are times when I can't think of you. I have always liked you, but gradually, I began to spend most of my time I can't even remember you."

"If things go on like this, as long as you don't appear in front of my eyes, I can do it all the time and I won't think of you. I like you, it's a fact, but you like me, you didn't make me believe it."

The author has something to say:

"It's already dawn."

Thanks to the little angel who irrigated the nutrient solution: WY~

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!