hot fire

fourteen

Qi∣Xi is on duty today, do you have time to have dinner together tonight?

Early in the morning, after Qi arrived at the hospital, he sent a line to Jun Yoo.She knew that she had to find someone to talk to, or she would not be able to bear it sooner or later.

Jun Yoo∣Good!How to date?How are you guys?

Qi∣Let’s make an appointment at the restaurant last time, let’s meet and talk.

After the pass, Qi put his phone in his pocket and started his day's work.

It seems that only at work can she temporarily isolate Xi, Xiaorong, and their work in the same department.

"Is yesterday's report okay?" Xiaorong asked as soon as she saw Xi during the morning meeting.

"There is only an outpatient clinic in the afternoon, and I haven't seen it yet." After Xi finished speaking, she walked around Xiao Rong and sat down next to Emily.

Thinking of Qi's reaction last night, Xi couldn't relax no matter what, Xiao Rong's appearance was like a shock bomb suddenly thrown into their lives, blasting the sweetness on the surface, making those old and unprocessed past events impossible to hide , □□ naked in front of them.

Xiao Rong didn't seem to feel Xi's displeasure, and sat down in the empty seat next to Xi.

"After you read it, can we discuss it? There are some very rare problems in this case." Xiaorong continued to ask.

"Okay, I see." Xi answered briefly, opened the documents in her hand, and prepared to start the meeting.

"Senior sister, do you have any problems with psychologist Duan? You are so indifferent to her." On the way back to the office after the meeting, Emily asked beside Xi.

"I'm always like this when I'm working, right? You're overthinking." Xi said with a guilty conscience, then opened the door and walked into the next bathroom.

Why should I run away?Xi splashed water on her face with her hands. She had simulated many situations "if Xiaorong appeared". It's not that she didn't think that one day they would work in the same department, but she didn't expect that Xiaorong would use such a method Appearance—like an oncoming hurricane, it rushed straight into her life, her world.

Back in the office, Xi saw the notification light flashing on the phone.

Jun Yoo∣Your cat invited me to dinner tonight, what happened to you two?

Xi sighed weakly, she could understand Qi's feeling of looking for Jun Yoo, if it was her, she would also need an outlet.

Xi | Let her tell you.

Xi finally replied like this, and then started the day's work.

After an unknown amount of time, a knock on the door brought Xi's concentration back from the weighing report in front of her to reality.

"Please come in."

It was Xiaorong who pushed the door open.

"Is there something wrong?" Xi asked in a straight voice with no expression on her face.

"Of course, why did I come to you when I have nothing to do?" Xiaorong said while putting a copy of the test results in front of Xi.

Xi took a look and understood why Xiaorong was looking for her.

"Here?" Xi asked, pointing to a place in the report.

"Well, yes, because I found it strange to see the reports written by the interns, I asked them to show me the raw data of the answers to the cases..." Xiao Rong said standing beside Xi.

"Sit down, it's easier to talk while sitting." Xi motioned Xiaorong to pull up the chair and sit down.

"Well, what do you think?" Xiaorong sat down beside Xi.

"Then what do you think?" Xi asked back.

"You, it's still the same...I think..." Xiaorong shook her head with a smile, and then expressed her opinion.

"Then write it like this." Xi said after listening.

"Okay, I see." Xiaorong nodded.

"Then I will trouble you." Xi quickly looked at the rest of the report.

"Xi, do you really think so? Or do you have other ideas?" Xiao Rong suddenly stopped what she was doing and asked.

"What's wrong?" Xi obviously didn't understand Xiaorong's question.

"It's been like this in the past. In this situation, you never seem to say what you think. No one seems to know what you think." Xiaorong looked at Xi and said.

"It's good if the general direction is right. I will modify the other details myself. There is no need to spend time discussing it." Xi said, closing the file and handing it to Xiaorong.

"Then why don't you just say it and let me write it down? You can also save the time of revising." Xiao Rong looked at Xi and asked.

"Because no matter what, I still have to revise it. It's not something I wrote, so how can I not revise it?" Xi said, a little impatiently.

"So you choose not to say anything and keep all your thoughts in your heart? You have been like this before, you are very selfish, do you know that?" Xiao Rong's tone was slightly excited.

"What does this have to do with selfishness? Also, this has always been my habit, the way I do things, and there is no need to explain to anyone. Since you know that I used to be like this, this matter does not seem to be discussed anymore Necessary." Xi looked at Xiaorong with a cold look and said.

Xiaorong was silent, then sighed, and picked up the information Xi handed her, "Sometimes, being restrained can hurt people, especially for those around you who care about you and love you." Before leaving, she said.

"But no matter what, it's still short of you, isn't it?" Xi said in a sarcastic tone behind her.

"After so many years, you still can't forgive me, can you?" Hearing Xi's words, Xiaorong turned to look at Xi.

"It's not important, and you don't need to care about it." After Xi finished speaking, her eyes returned to the previous report.

"But I care very much, I have always cared. Xi, I'm sorry." After Xiao Rong finished speaking, she opened the door and left Xi's office.

After Xiao Rong left, Xi gently rubbed her temples with both hands, the conversation with Xiao Rong actually made her so tired.

Why?Why is this happening?Why do I have to spend so much energy dealing with her?Shouldn't this be a normal interaction?Just like any other interaction with a therapist...what the hell is going on?Where is the problem?These questions have been circling in Xi's mind, making her restless all morning.

Xi∣Dine together at noon?

Near noon, Qi received Xi's line.

Qi looked at the text from Xi on the screen of her mobile phone. She wanted to see Xi, but at the same time she wanted to hide from Xi...

Kei∣Okay, see you then.

After a short period of conflicting emotions, she could not refuse Xi after all.

When Qi arrived at the rooftop as usual, Xi was already there waiting for her.

"Has it been a long time?" Qi put the lunch for two on the table and sat down beside Xi.

"Fortunately, there is no outpatient clinic in the morning. I wanted to get some air, so I came here early." Xi leaned her head on Qi and said.

"Well, let's eat." Qi said, taking out food from the bag.

"Little cat, don't you often not know what I'm thinking?" Xi asked when she took the lunch from Qi.

"Why do you ask this suddenly?" Qi was confused by Xi's question.

"Answer me." Xi stared at Qi seriously.

Qi couldn't help laughing.

"What are you laughing at? I'm asking you seriously." Xi was dissatisfied.

"Well... not often, it's because I don't know what Xi is thinking." Qi looked at Xi and answered honestly.

Qi could see that Xi was seriously thinking about the answer she gave.

"You answered me instead, why did you suddenly ask this?" Qi asked seriously.

"I'll answer you, but don't think about it, okay?" Xi looked at Qi with the same seriousness.

Qi nodded, but he also had a bottom line in his heart.

"Xiao Rong came to see me in the morning." Xi said, avoiding Qi's gaze.

Qi's movements stopped for a moment when he heard this sentence, but he recovered immediately.

"Well, then?" Qi tried to stay calm, but she could feel her heart beating so fast.

"She came to me to discuss the Hengjian report, you know, I usually don't express any opinions, and then she said that my "reservedness" hurts people a lot...and that I am a selfish person! "Xi ended with a self-deprecating laugh at the end.

"It hurts to be restrained... She probably wants to complain that you don't say anything, so people can't figure out what you're thinking." Qi said, biting his chopsticks.

"So, you think so too?" Xi looked at Qi and asked.

"Ah? Not anymore..." Qi found that he had subconsciously put himself into Xiaorong's role.

Xi didn't say much, just smiled thoughtfully at the side.

"Treacherous, it turns out that psychiatrists always talk about patients like this." Qi protested.

"I didn't try to trick you, I just asked the question I wanted to ask, who knew you would do everything so honestly..." Xi said innocently, blinking her eyes.

"Forget it, I can't say no to you, I'd better eat." Qi opened the bento angrily.

"Okay, let's eat." Xi also opened her own lunch next to Qi.

Qi remembered the date with Jun Yoo at night.

Do you want to tell Xi? ...It's better to agree, alas, even if I don't say it, Jun Yoo will definitely tell Xi later, so why don't I tell her first.

After taking a breath, "Xi, I have a dinner with Jun Yoo tonight." Qi said.

"Well, I know, Jun Yoo passed the line to me." There was no emotion in Xi's words.

"Are you unhappy?" Qi asked cautiously.

"No. I know why you are looking for her. To be honest, you should go to her. Otherwise, if she finds out one day, I will inevitably be scolded by her." Xi shrugged indifferently.

"Xi..." Qi suddenly didn't know what to say.

"Little cat, to be honest, I am also very annoyed by the current situation. I need some time to think and deal with it. I can't give you or anyone an answer. I just want to tell you that nothing has changed and will not Change." Xi's eyes were full of seriousness and firmness.

"Well, I see..." Qi nodded.

It's the same thing again - nothing has changed, what does "what" refer to?to me?to her?Or, Xi herself?A lot of questions appeared because of Xi's words, but Qi finally chose to remain silent—her safest card.

"Tell me, what's the matter with you?" Jun Yoo just put down his bag and opened the chair, before he sat down and asked.

"Xiao Rong is back." Qi tried to maintain a relaxed voice.

"What?!" Jun Yoo's hand holding the water glass stopped in the air.

"Well, she suddenly appeared at Xi's house the night before yesterday..." Qi continued.

"What?!" Jun Yoo was further surprised.

"Have you ever been to Xi's house?" Qi looked at Jun Yoo and asked.

"I have been there, but it was a long, long time ago, when they were still together, and they haven't been since then." Jun You said, his face was full of doubts, and he didn't understand why Qi asked.

"I didn't know until yesterday that there was another room in her house and it was the master bedroom..." Qi thought about the door that appeared behind the tapestry the day before yesterday, the door that sealed all of Xi's past.

"What do you mean? You mean...you and Xi have been sleeping in the guest room? It's the room opposite the toilet." Jun Yoo thought hard with the impression in his head.

"Hmm. I always thought there was only one room..." Kei said.

"That idiot Xia Yuxi..." Jun Yoo gritted his teeth.

"Then she told me why they broke up." Qi thought about what Xi told her outside last night.

"Oh...forget it, let's order first." Jun Yoo suddenly changed the topic, as if trying to ease the atmosphere.

But nothing can dispel Qi's preoccupation.

"Little cat, what on earth are you thinking? Maybe I should ask, what exactly do you want?" Jun Yoo looked at Qi and asked while waiting for the food to be served.

"I...don't know..." Qi said guiltily.

"Don't know? Haven't thought about it? Or don't dare to think about it?" It was rare for Jun Yoo to not have a hint of playfulness.

Qi was silent.

"Don't dare to think about it?" Jun Yoo boldly speculated.

Qi nodded.

"But, if you don't think about it now, if you don't fight for anything, Xi will be even more hesitant and don't know what to do." Jun Yoo propped his chin with his hand, looked at Qi and said.

"Why?" Qi didn't understand.

"I remember I told you that Xi has always felt inferior in her heart. I guess it's because she was rejected by her father and then abandoned by Xiaorong, so she didn't feel that she was good. I mean, in terms of feelings and intimacy She doesn't think she has any reason, position, or ability to keep someone... Do you understand what I want to say?" Jun Yoo paused to make sure that Qi had caught his meaning.

"But... I asked for it before, but she rejected it!" The past many years ago is still clear, and the pain of being pushed away by Xi, she can't bear it again.

"Did I tell you what happened after she rejected you?" Jun Yoo asked.

Qi nodded silently, and she also remembered the shock when she heard Jun Yoo say that Xi was crying because she left.

"The time you left was probably the first time after Xi broke up with Xiaorong, she felt that she longed for someone to be by her side, although she still refused to admit it, she was always an ostrich!" Jun You didn't forget to count Luo Xi.

"I know..." What came to Qi's mind was Xi's sentence "If you don't admit it, don't face it, it doesn't exist".

"But that time, you let her know, or should I say, she had to admit that what she didn't say still existed, and it had a much more impact than she imagined." Jun Yoo told Qi seriously.

"That's why she came to me on her own initiative..." Qi recalled the night she and Xi reunited.

"Well, the day after she brought you home, she sent me a message saying that she found you back. Even in just a few words, I can still feel how happy she is." Jun Yoo said While taking out her phone, she swipe and swipe until she finds the message from Xi.At this time, for the first time, she felt that Xi was right not to love Biography.

"Yes..." Qi looked at Xi's short words on the screen of Jun Yoo's phone.

"Although she still avoids defining your relationship and doesn't want to admit her possessiveness... Believe me, that guy is very possessive, but she always packs it up with indifference and indifference in front of people...But Many of her words, actions, and thoughts have already identified you as "her"...do you know what I'm talking about?" Jun You is indeed Xi's "close friend" and knows Xi's words and deeds very well.

"I know." Qi has always known that she is important to Xi, but at such an "important moment", Xi's retreating attitude and ambiguous words made her affirmation begin to waver.

"I think Xiao Rong's appearance caught Xi by surprise, after all, she didn't think Xiao Rong would come back at all before." Jun You thought about how Xi would face such a situation.

"Then why did Xi give her that promise?" Qi raised his head, looked at Jun Yoo and asked.

"What promise?" Jun Yoo stopped in the air holding the knife and fork, looking at Qi suspiciously.

"Xi said that she promised Xiaorong that as long as Xiaorong wants to come back, she will always reserve a room for her..." Qi thought about the complicated look in Xi's eyes when he said this to her.

"That idiot Xia Yuxi... So that's what she insisted on making her promise..." Jun Yoo said through gritted teeth.

Instead, Qi looked at Jun Yoo with puzzled eyes.

"In fact, Xi is very contradictory. She doesn't believe in promises, but she desperately keeps the promises she made, even though no one cares now..."

"Xi cares." Qi interjected.

"Yes, only she cares. When we talked about this, she only said: 'I care', but who cares what she cares?" Jun Yoo continued.

"Maybe... Xiaorong will care now..." Qi remembered Xiaorong's astonishment when he saw her last night.

"But does she have the right to care? If she really cared, then she shouldn't have left Xi alone, shouldn't she?" Jun Yoo was slightly excited unconsciously.

Qi could only nod.

"Little cat, let me ask you, if it were you, would you leave Xi like this?" Jun Yoo asked a very sharp question.

Qi shook his head.

"Oh, to be honest," Jun Yoo sighed, "It's not that I can't understand that Xiaorong wants to give up this relationship because of family reasons. What I can't accept is that she made her own decision, and Xi is just the one who was "told" .”

"However, Xi also accepted..." Qi said, with a little complaint.

"What else can Xi do but accept? At that time, Xi loved Xiaorong too much. As long as Xiaorong wanted, she never refused, including separation." Jun You was still excited.

"So, they just broke up like this?" Qi asked.

"It can be said that...Xi is a stubborn guy, and so is Xiaorong. It seems that Xiaorong moved out of Xi's house the day after they broke up. As for when Xi will seal up that room, I don't know...Of course, What exactly did Xi say to Xiao Rong, except for the two of them, no one knows. I only found out today that Xi had made a promise to that idiot..." Jun You almost squeezed out the last few words from between his teeth .

"For Xi, it's everything...the past, the present, and the future." Qi said, picking up the food on his plate.

"Indeed." Jun Yoo nodded.

Qi was silent.

"Little cat, what are you thinking?" Jun Yoo looked at Qi's thoughtful expression and asked.

"I was wondering... Could it be that Xi still loves Xiaorong..." This question that has been lingering in Qi's mind can only be said in front of Jun You.

"This is a question that Xi needs to figure out, and she needs to figure it out very clearly. But in my opinion, she has no love for Xiaorong for a long time, and there are only a bunch of knots that have not been untied." Jun You said of himself the opinion of.

"There is no untied knot..." Qi repeated these words.

"They were all too young at the time, and now it seems that they can only be described as immature and rough when they deal with their feelings! But, at the moment when they are young, who would know?" Jun Yoo shrugged.

"Xi left herself in that moment, not in the present..." Qi seemed to understand something suddenly.

"It was indeed like this before I met you. Although I have never been able to figure out how you two started, but when Xi told me, "I picked up a kitten and brought it home", I was surprised, and at the same time silently I hope the kitten she picked up can bring her from the past to the present...Qi, you did it." Jun Yoo said while shaking Qi's hand.

"Do I have it? Many times, I can know that I am important from Xi's actions; but also many times, her many ambiguous words make me feel that I am always outside her heart." Qi remembered again The phrase "Nothing has changed, and nothing will change".

"Little cat, you're not out of her mind, it's just that she hasn't dealt with herself well..." Jun You said pointedly.

"How do you know?" Qi asked, she didn't understand why Jun Yoo said that.

"Hey... well, well, she asked me not to tell you, but... I think if you don't tell me, you don't know what will happen..."

"Xi wants you to tell me? What's the matter?"

"Xi wants to move." Jun Yoo said very simply.

"What do you mean?" Qi was surprised.

"It literally means, I want to move, to be with you." Jun You looked at Qi, not understanding what Qi didn't understand.

Qi's surprised expression grew even bigger.

"She asked me to look at a few houses, probably when you were on duty! I asked her why she didn't come with you, and she said she wanted to find a few houses she liked first, and then take you there... Kitty, you know What is she doing?" Jun Yoo looked at Qi and asked.

Qi first shook his head, then nodded half-understood.

"Little cat, you let Xi know that she has to deal with her past, but she didn't know what to do, so she simply chose to leave it there and leave with you... It's so funny!" Jun Yoo said with a smile.

"Well, it's really like what Xi would do." Qi couldn't help laughing softly.

"So, if Xiao Rong comes back a few months later, she should see an empty house..." Thinking of this, Jun Yoo laughed even bigger.

"Well, in this case, Xi doesn't seem to have broken her promise, and the room given to Xiao Rong will still be there... Maybe this is what Xi really thinks." Qi continued Jun You's words.

"That's right, Xi only promised to give Xiaorong a room, she didn't say that she would be there... In the end, Xi is the smartest!" After Jun You finished speaking, an expression of "I really convinced her" appeared on his face.

"However, Xiao Rong has appeared now." Qi brought the question back.

"Well, yes, Xi is destined to deal with this well." After Jun Yoo finished speaking, he smiled wickedly.

"Why do you think you're gloating?" Qi asked looking at Jun Yoo's expression.

"A little bit! Because of this, she will really take the relationship between her and you seriously! Kitten, you have to have confidence in yourself. Xi and Xiaorong ended when Xiaorong moved away from Xi's house , they are impossible." Jun Yoo said with certainty.

"Why are you so sure?" Qi still doesn't understand why Jun Yoo can be so sure about many things that she doesn't understand or is sure about.

"Because Xi's emotional cleanliness is very serious. In the past, I mean before Xiaorong, when Xi could be said to be a joker, she didn't turn back. The reason is because she thought: if we will separate, it must be two people One of them has changed his mind. Now that his heart has changed, it is impossible for the two of them to be "pure" anymore. She doesn't want that kind of impure feeling, do you understand? What's more, she and Xiaorong have been separated for so long. I believe that Xiao Rong must have had other lovers...Xi can't accept it." Jun You said what she knew about Xi.

"How should that explain to me? We have been separated before!" Qi thought of the gap between them in those years.

"Xi knows that you haven't been with anyone since you separated. After you came back, before you met again, she told me." Jun Yoo said directly.

"How does she know?!" Jun You's words startled Qi, she didn't expect Xi to say this to Jun You.

"Listen to what the classmate who went abroad with you said. Xi said that it seems that a male doctor in their department asked your classmate if you are good, and then your classmate told you that you have someone you like. During the years in the United States, you were very clean and self-respecting. ..." Jun You thought that Xi had once told her that Qi had a "good classmate", and would reveal some information about Qi intentionally or unintentionally.

"I think it's probably because Xi is next to her, so she said so much on purpose." Qi could fully predict what Emily was planning.

"Hahaha! You really have a good classmate!" Jun Yoo laughed.

"So, if I'm with other people, Xi won't accept me anymore?" Qi asked again.

"Based on the Xi I know, no. However, everything is just an 'if', the point is that you are together now!" Jun Yoo said the key point, it will be an "if", which means it cannot be confirmed.

"Together...?" This is something Qi has always resisted and avoided thinking about.

"You guys, it's real but not famous, don't doubt it." Jun Yoo said it quite naturally.

"Hey, this is the first time I feel that "name" is so important." Qi smiled helplessly.

"Little cat, don't think so much. I just ask you, do you want to leave Xi?" Jun Yoo asked while holding Qi's hand.

Qi shook his head firmly.

"Then, did Xi ever ask you to leave?" Jun Yoo continued to ask.

Qi remembered Xi's response when she asked Xi if she wanted her to leave.She still shook her head.

"That's right. If you quit now, what do you think Xi will think?" Jun Yoo asked a question that Qi had never thought about.

Qi thought for a while, "Xi will feel that I left her... and then feel that I really don't deserve happiness..."

"Yeah, that idiot will definitely think so...Little cat, I know it's too much to help Xi speak like this, but please, don't leave Xi..." Jun Yoo's grip on Qi slightly increased.

"Oh, you don't need to tell me that, I never thought about leaving Xi, but sometimes, reality really makes me powerless..." Qi said a little discouraged.

"Give Xi some more time! She won't do nothing." Jun Yoo said as if begging.

Qi nodded, "Yes, I know."

"If Xi doesn't go home tonight, isn't it just you and Xiaorong left?" Jun You seemed to suddenly remember.

"Yeah..." Qi said, she had been thinking about it all day.

"No matter what she says, don't believe it before talking to Xi... Although I don't think she should say anything nonsense, it's just that after they broke up, Xi changed. She definitely doesn't know Xi now, so... ..."

"Jun Yoo, I know, you don't have to worry about me." Qi interrupted Jun Yoo.

Jun Yoo looked at Qi with complicated eyes.

"Emily always said that in this relationship, I have always been the weak and humble one, but in fact, I know that Xi has never asked me to do anything, just like you said, she feels that she is not qualified, so she never What do you want from me... But, maybe she doesn't even feel it, she has paid a lot for me, and the only thing I can give her is to stay by her side, that's all." When Qi said this, his eyes, Full of tenderness.

"Little cat, thank you. Thank you for taking care of Xi for me." Jun Yoo said from the bottom of his heart.

"Perhaps, our dependence on each other is deeper than we thought!" Finally, Qi said.

Both of them were silent at the same time.

"Okay," Jun Yoo said first, "It's getting late, should we go back?"

"Well, I want to go back to the hospital to see Xi." Qi said, looking at his watch.

They left the restaurant together.

"Okay, then drive carefully." After Jun Yoo finished speaking, he reached out and stopped a taxi.

"Well, see you next time." Qi waved goodbye to Jun Yoo.

After saying goodbye to Jun Yoo, Qi drove Xi's car back to the hospital.

He parked the car skillfully, took the elevator, and arrived at the door of the duty room smoothly.

Just when she raised her hand to knock on the door, the door opened, and Xi was surprised for a second when she saw Qi, "Wait for me." After hastily dropping these words, she quickly walked towards the ward.

Qi walked into the duty room, and there was Xi's laptop on the table. Qi sat down in front of the table, gently touching the keyboard with his fingers, thinking of Xi's usual busy appearance beside her.Will we continue to have such an ordinary and happy life for two?Why did Xiaorong come back?What is Xi's feeling for her now?Do you still have feelings?Will it be me who will be eliminated in the end?How will Xi treat Xiao Rong who suddenly appeared?How will she deal with me who is called a kitten by her?

These unanswerable questions came to Qi's mind one after another, she couldn't help supporting her head with her hands, and sighed softly.

"Little cat, why are you here?" Xi's voice suddenly appeared from behind, and her chin naturally rested on Qi's shoulder.

"I want to see you, so I'm here." Qi looked at Xi and replied honestly.

"You..." like scolding a misbehaving cat softly, "you're running around so late." Xi scolded, but her voice was full of tenderness.

"I'll go home after a while, okay? Just now." Qi recalled Xi just rushing out the door in a hurry.

"It's okay," Xi replied, reaching out to pull another chair to sit down, "The patient has an emergency, and the situation is still under control. It's not my patient."

"Thank you." Qi felt distressed.

"Isn't that the way you are on duty?" Xi rested her head on Qi's shoulder.

"Come on, we have a holiday the day after tomorrow." Qi gently followed Xi's hair.

"Well, but you are on duty..." Xi said in a complaining tone.

"Yeah...you remember it all?" Qi asked, but she was so sweet that Xi actually wrote down her shift schedule.

"Well, it's about the same. We won't have a vacation together again in a month's time, and the two-day weekend doesn't count." Xi said after thinking for a while.

"Xi likes to go on vacation together?" Qi looked at Xi and asked.

"Well, you can sleep leisurely until you wake up naturally, and you won't be full of people when you go out." Xi said with her eyes closed on Qi's shoulder.

They just cuddled each other quietly, feeling each other's existence.

After a while, Qi spoke first. "Okay, it's getting late, I should go."

"Um... kitty, I'm sorry." Xi said suddenly.

Qi looked at Xi suspiciously, and after a few seconds, she understood.

"It's okay, I know." Qi stepped forward and hugged Xi into his arms.

"Well, drive carefully." Xi kissed Qi's lips lightly.

Back in Xi's car, Qi sat in the driver's seat, recalling Xi's "I'm sorry", a warm feeling flowed through his heart.In fact, it's not that Xi doesn't care about my feelings, it's just that she doesn't know whether she should care, or how to care... I just hope that we still have time.

Qi took several deep breaths at the door of the house before finally mustering up the courage to open the door and face the person she didn't know how to face.

As soon as she entered the door, Xiaorong just came out from the kitchen holding a cup.

"Hi, hello." Xiao Rong took the initiative to say hello.

"Hello." Qi responded with a stiff smile.

"My name is Duan Xiaorong, what should I call you?" Xiaorong introduced herself.

"Kaiqi, Luo Kaiqi." Qi was confused by Xiaorong's actions, she didn't know what Xiaorong wanted to do.

"Have you been with Xi for a long time?" Xiao Rong seemed to want to find out something.

"You should ask Xi about this." Qi replied, because she really didn't know whether she and Xi were "together".

"Well, Xi is very protective of you! I can feel it." Xiao Rong said with a smile.

"Oh?" Qi didn't care much about Xiaorong's words.

"I've been with Xi for a while, and I know her well. Xi really cares about you." Xiaorong's eyes fell outside the window at the other end, as if she was thinking about something.

"If you really knew Xi, how could you have the heart to abandon her?" Qi turned his eyes to the window Xiaorong was staring at.

Qi felt that Xiaorong turned her head to look at her, she turned her head, Xiaorong looked at her with remorse and sadness in her eyes, perhaps mixed with a little envy and jealousy towards her.

"Alas," Xiao Rong sighed after a long time, "We were all too young at the time, and we thought we had seriously thought about how to deal with it. Looking back now, it was nothing but impulsiveness forced by reality."

"Is it you, or you?" Qi stared at Xiaorong and continued to ask.

Qi's question hit the nail on the head, so direct that Xiaorong couldn't escape, "It's me." Finally she said.

Qi didn't speak.

"There is a sentence in Fujii's "Return" that says: "I love you so much that I am willing to go to hell for you, and I only hope that you can go to heaven because of it." This is from a case report written by an intern Yes, Xi also said similar things when we broke up..." Xiaorong said, squinting her eyes and looking at the crystal lamp hanging from the ceiling of the living room.

Qi still didn't say a word, waiting for Xiaorong to continue.

"She said at that time: 'If destroying my world can make your happiness, then I am willing to let it go.'"

"So you ruined her world...then, have you found happiness?" Qi found that he couldn't suppress his disapproval no matter what.

"You know, in that book, what did the girl who the protagonist fell in love with messily say back?"

Qi shook his head.

"Later, the girl told the protagonist: I gave up on you, and I threw myself into hell, and when I really understood this, you were already in heaven." Xiaorong looked at Qi and said.

"How do you know Xi is in heaven? Do you really understand Xi's pain?" Qi tried hard to keep her voice neutral, but she could still feel her anger.

"Maybe she's not here now, but one day, I believe she will be." After Xiaorong finished speaking, she looked at Qi with a smile on her face.

Qi didn't understand that smile.

"So, you regret it?" Qi asked.

"Many times, it's not the loss that makes us understand how precious what we once had, but time... Xi's good thing is that the longer we are apart, the more we can understand. At the beginning, I will deliberately ask myself not to think about it, and focus on the person in front of me. In the end, it seemed to become a kind of memory that can calm my heart in the dead of night." Xiaorong said these words in a tone full of reluctance and attachment, which made Qi's heart tremble.

"I have no right to regret it. I chose to leave her at the beginning, and I know her temper and personality well, but..." Xiaorong stopped suddenly when she said this.

Qi turned to look at Xiaorong, and silently indicated with her eyes that she was waiting for Xiaorong's next words.

"It's nothing, it's getting late, go to bed early." After Xiaorong finished speaking, she stood up from the sofa and went back to the room with the cup.

Qi stared at Xiaorong's door for a long time, thinking about what Xiaorong said, she really resembles Xi, with that kind of incomprehensible temperament... Maybe, because of this, she understands Xi, and Xi also understands Xi. Understand her... what about me?

In the end, it was Xi who sent her a text message to say good night to her, which brought her back to her senses. She got up from the sofa, went into the room to prepare things, took a shower, brushed her teeth, and sat on the bed.