May you live in peace

Yin Xi said it very easily, especially at the end, even the emotional ups and downs were not obvious.But Gao Shan was taken aback, she looked at Yin Xi's delicate face, and didn't know what to say.The shock in her eyes turned into pity, and she finally knew why her wishes were so cautious, so indifferent, even unfeeling.It turns out that everything is because of forgetting the childishness and mistakes of the past, living a good life, and guarding the memories of the past.

"Do you know why children survive?"

Gao Shan shook her head, in fact, she didn't want to know these things, but she also hoped that Xi could tell, maybe this was digging out her rotten and healed flesh again alive.However, when it heals again, there will be no sequelae.

"Because her mother gave her daughter what her father dreamed of in order to keep them alive. It's ridiculous how determined this man was to kill his first wife, and even wanted to He ruined his own flesh and blood, but when he finally knew that such a thing was in the hands of that child, he became complacent and played the role of a husband and father that everyone envied."

Yin Xi's mood has long since stabilized. For more than ten years, the affairs of the court have made her unwilling to act out of anger, so she has become taciturn, wearing a mask of hypocrisy to deal with everything.And this secret that even Yin Luo didn't fully know, she still told Gao Shan, not for comfort and sympathy, but just wanted to tell her everything about herself frankly, so that she could enter her own world.She occasionally stayed in a warm environment for a long time, and she was reluctant to leave the nostalgia and dependence that Gao Shan brought her.

Gao Shan only felt panicked in his heart. If he said that he had seen all the vicissitudes of the world, maybe it was just the various states of the world when passers-by walked or asked questions, and it had nothing to do with him at all. Even his own life and death, only he cared about it. There are no foreign things, which make myself miserable.

But Yin Xi is different, she has experienced depression, hypocrisy and perversion from the state of life she has always loved the most and the person she loves the most.Under the circumstances of great changes, this pampered child was pressed to accept the pain and reality that she should not have endured.At an age that should be naive, she has to bear calculations that are completely inappropriate for her age, and she needs to judge those flattering or right and wrong voices one by one. Every step forward, there may be an abyss behind, no The only way to retreat is to find a way out that only you know in the map of the overriding person.

She didn't even dare to trust people, she didn't know if this person was good or evil, or just used.Quietness and silence are her compulsory courses. Looking at the disputes in the imperial court, watching the covetousness of various countries, and looking at the man behind him who wants to destroy herself, what will a child under six years old grow into? appearance?Gao Shan suddenly felt that what she once thought was a sad life experience was really just a joke. All she needed to know was whether she would have food today, but what Xi wanted to worry about was whether she would be able to survive in the future, because she was not alone, she also had The person I want to protect.

"He's disgusting."

Gao Shan only muttered something, as if he was speaking to Yin Xi, and also as if he had said what he had always wanted to say.

Listening to her slightly naive answer and words, Yin Xi smiled, but did not refute.

"But that child may have to thank him. Without him, that child will always be a person who grew up in a greenhouse, living in his own fantasy dream all his life."

Gao Shan looked at Yin Xi's indifferent appearance, but he didn't like her talking about herself like this.

"But she's just a child, she shouldn't have to bear this."

Looking at this person's serious appearance, he laughed at her sudden stubbornness.

"This little kid is already a grown-up."

"So God will let someone replace those people and give her a childhood dream that she never had before."

Yin Xi opened her eyes slightly, looked at Gao Shan looking at herself with a warm expression, and kissed her with a smile.

"Yes, maybe God also took pity on her and gave her the most perfect other half."

Hearing this disguised compliment, Gao Shan was a little embarrassed, thinking that the two of them had been standing here for so long, fearing that Yin Xi would catch a cold, he took her hand and wanted to walk back.

"Go forward, let me try the feeling of looking at you from behind occasionally." The catkin in his hand loosened, Gao Shan looked at Yin Xi who was one step away from him, and saw her tilting her head slightly to look at him , nodded, turned around, and walked slowly.

Yin Xi did not catch up quickly, but quietly looked at Gao Shan's back.She walked very slowly, as if she was afraid that she would not be able to keep up.In fact, Takasugi's character is not impatient, but she is used to walking fast, which may be related to the reason why she practices martial arts. Sometimes, her subordinates have to trot to keep up with her pace.But whenever this person walks with her, she will slow down, and according to her own habits, slowly accompany her to the place she wants to go.Perhaps in the eyes of ordinary people, few people can see these small habits, and few people care about them.But she has always liked to observe people and details. For her sake, Gao Shan changed herself without asking for anything in return.It is also because of this that Yin Xi enjoys the stability and accommodating Gao Shan brought her, and wants to see this person's habits, try to be behind her, and pay attention to her feelings.

Today, after she talked with Jiao Tianao, she began to realize that many things were beyond her expectation and control.She asked Jiao Tianao about Gao Shan's situation, but even Jiao Tianao didn't know what happened to Gao Shan.But in his eyes, the momentary dodge made Yin Xi realize that Jiao Tianao was also starting to hide things from him.

She spent a whole day wandering around the palace, thinking about Jiao Tianao's words and the abnormal Gao Shan.The turmoil in the ruling and opposition parties, the prying eyes of her relatives, the hidden people and things, and the sudden pressure made her feel at a loss.She didn't want Yin Luo to be involved, her younger sister who lost her mother's favor before she was one year old, and her younger sister who lived under the eyes of his father, she didn't want Yin Luo to be wrapped up in this dark clay vat without a chance to breathe She only wanted Yin Luo to live happily and innocently.Even though she began to find out that her sister also understood something, she still didn't want Yin Luo to have anything to do with it.

She didn't know who to think of, maybe it was help, or maybe it was just that she suddenly felt a little emotional.She didn't know if there was anyone else who would face this world of disputes with her, and shoulder the fate of the so-called Hao country.So, she made a bet, stood at the gate of Yin Ran's palace, looked at the closed gate, and suddenly recalled the memories of the past 20 years. During those fumbling and unattended days, she was not without hesitation and worry, but Always suppress the idea of ​​wanting to give up and go to the present.And at this moment, she wanted to prove whether she was incompetent and cowardly?Behind the closed door, there is a person who means a lot to her, but she wants to see clearly, this time, who is God choosing.

Even Yin Xi wanted to laugh at herself, why would she act so childishly at this time.

However, it is undeniable that when Takasugi opened the door and appeared in front of her, she really wanted to cry.It wasn't because she was afraid, or because she was afraid of anything, she was not a tangled person, but she suddenly felt that she seemed to understand something.She has been controlled by others, but she still appears by her side. She is desperate for herself, to face things she doesn't want to face, to stand by her side hard, to resist all risks, and to keep her back To myself, I will tell myself that she loves me.If you have already told me everything, then what am I still worried about.Just, occasionally, I also want to slow down, watch your movements, and understand your habits.Even if you don't know whether you will be awake tomorrow, but you just want to face yourself and think about your own problems, what should I choose?

"Xi, I'm already so slow, Xi still hasn't caught up, it seems that I can only crawl back."

Gao Shan's voice interrupted Yin Xi's thoughts, watching the person in front bent over after finishing speaking, imitating the movements of a tortoise, and walking forward slowly.

Yin Xi narrowed his eyes, looked at her with a smile, and said to her.

"I want to see the son-in-law more, but I don't want the son-in-law to not understand my intentions, so I will go back first."

After finishing speaking, Yin Xi caught up with Gao Shan in a few steps, overtook her, and walked quickly to the palace.

Gao Shan didn't expect her to be like this, he just wanted to make her happy, and didn't want his Xi to be immersed in the past.Although she knew that Yin Xi was a strong person, excessive strength was what she didn't want to see.

He quickly chased after him and stopped Yin Xi.

"hope."

If there is no extra words, maybe Takasugi is like this, occasionally, he just wants to call his sweetheart's name, there is no reason.

Yin Xi looked at Gao Shan seriously, turned her around, and then gently pushed her.Gao Shan knew what she meant, and slowly, he continued to walk forward.

'Hey, I will leave my back only to you. '

Yin Xi looked at Gao Shan's straight back, with the slenderness of a woman, but the robustness of a soldier.

There was a smile on her lips, maybe she was thinking about something.Looking at the figure gradually covered by the night, the moonless sky suddenly covered the light in her eyes.

Gao Shan didn't look back, and Yin Xi didn't stop her, but just watched her expression gradually become flat.The next time the moonlight reappeared, Yin Xicai slowly followed Gao Shan's footsteps.

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