Dedicated to Luhe

Lu He laughed at me: "What do you know?"

"I understand everything." Of course I know what the man is thinking.

In fact, it is not uncommon or shameful to have this kind of thought. It is human instinct. Men and women are the same. We are not sexually frigid, of course we have desires, and people have desires for the people they like. Is it normal?

"Know everything?" Lu He said softly, "That's great."

His words seemed a little out of his head, or rather, my thinking couldn't keep up with him, and I didn't understand what he was talking about.

Why do you say "nice"?

I don't understand, but some questions can't be asked.

The two of us sat drinking together, chatting with each other.

The topic went back to our first meeting, Lu He said: "Actually, I have a secret."

Everyone has secrets, and so do I.

But I can't answer like that, it would be too boring.

"Is it convenient to say it?" I tried, "It's okay not to say it, after all, if you say it easily, it's not a secret."

"If you are willing to keep this secret with me from now on, then I can tell you."

Lu He's words surprised me, I really didn't expect him to say that.

Does he do this to others besides me?

At least the rest of our company shouldn't.

After getting along with each other for this period of time, I can actually see that Lu He is a very measured person and has a certain distance from everyone. Some people are close to some, and some are far away. Some people are standing at a safe distance beyond the "yellow line". My words... I think it should be the one who is a little closer to him.

Maybe it's a bit self-conscious to say that, but that's the message Lu He conveyed to me.

As much as I think about it, that's his problem, not mine.

I took a sip of the wine, thought it over and said, "Actually, it's up to you, not me, to tell me this secret."

Lu He looked at me, and I smiled at him, probably not very good-looking, after all, it is impossible for a person with insomnia to smile well.

"Before we tell others our secrets, we will make a preliminary assessment, whether the other party is worth our mouth, and whether we will regret it after we tell it." I said, "Actually, when you mentioned to me that you have a secret You already knew what you wanted to do when you were here, and no matter how I answered you, you had your own plans, otherwise you wouldn't have mentioned it to me at all, right?"

Lu He stared at me for a while, then smiled and said, "Actually, you're quite smart."

"There are a lot of these useless little cleverness," I said, "but I really have to use my brain to make money."

We lightly clinked glasses, and we drank the uncooled beer into our stomachs in one gulp this night.

I hiccupped and made Lu He laugh.

When we were together, Lu He laughed quite a lot, but it’s true, we met most of the time at the company, and I also had a sad face all day when I went to work, and I went to work happily People are estimated to be real fighters.

"I lied." Lu He said.

"what?"

"You are really my savior."

I looked at him in surprise.

"Some unpleasant things happened to me that morning, and I suddenly felt that life seemed boring." When Lu He said these words, he looked at the moonlit river outside the window. The window came out of the room, and every word was like raindrops, hitting the river and melting into the water, "I haven't studied the various ways of human death, but when I passed that bridge, I suddenly remembered that I can't swim. , maybe you can give it a try."

"...you scared me." I said.

"At that time, I bent down to look under the bridge, and the glasses fell first." Lu He said calmly, "There was a 'pop', I couldn't see clearly, but I heard it clearly. I thought at the time, if I fell, I should It's louder than that, and the splash is bigger."

I didn't know what to say, and the hand holding the can subconsciously exerted force.

I didn't even notice when the beer was spilled, and neither did I when it stained the blanket.

I only heard Lu He say: "I was brewing at that time, just like dark clouds brewing a rain, and I was brewing a death, but before it was brewed, you appeared, and you said to me, 'It's better to die than to live '."

Lu He was laughing again, very lightly, with a nice voice.

However, listening to him finish these words in such a late night, no matter what kind of laughter it made me feel even colder.

"Lu He..." I took a sip of the wine and rubbed my hand with the beer, my heart was beating fast and I felt uncomfortable, "No matter what happens, it's better to live."

"Well, you're right." Lu He said, "Actually, there was only one time in all these years when I really wanted to die. When I think about that moment afterwards, I'm very glad that you stopped me."

He said: "I shouldn't think my life is too long. On the contrary, I should live as long as possible."

I nod beside him.

"After all, life is made up of countless possibilities, and no one knows who we will meet in the next second." Lu He paused, looking down at the tab of the soda can on his little finger, like a non-luminous cheap ring, "I escaped that catastrophe, look at me, how comfortable I am now."