like a sunny day

, the black fat man said: "Pull it back, put it here to block the way, you know?"

In the smell of vegetables suspected to be gutter oil, he swallowed his sweat and drool, switched shoulders, and pulled the car back.

That day, he started working on the construction site.

Food and lodging are included, but the food and lodging must be very crude.

But He Chengfeng was very satisfied, he felt that he was supporting his family anyway.Fuck living expenses and Gu Chengze's tuition.

At the beginning, he was very tired. He often couldn't hold the chopsticks steadily. He almost had to crawl on the bed, and fell asleep as soon as he lay down.He also wanted to think about that person before going to bed, but he couldn't resist the great fatigue and intense pain. He was tired and aching, and his sleep was always restless, and he twitched from time to time, which was the reaction of a certain injured part of his body.

The workers are basically strong men from all over the world with low education level. They often get together to talk about the fun of the adult world. When He Chengfeng comes over, he will tease him: "Come on, let me tell you, what is the taste of ecstasy?" .”

He Chengfeng always smiled knowingly, and occasionally cursed back, and occasionally was so tired that he didn't even have the energy to answer.

He is outgoing and cheerful, and knows how to read people's faces, so those people didn't have any malicious intentions. Seeing that he is young, he can help with his usual work.

Once it rained halfway through the work, and everyone was playing cards and drinking in the dormitory, and He Chengfeng just put his arms on his arms and didn't speak.A single worker asked, "Missing you, Xiaoqinger?"

Instead of denying it, he was a little happy: "How do you know?"

"Looking at you like that, you don't even roll your eyeballs, and you still have a smirk, don't you think about love, maybe you want to be fat?"

Fat Head is the nickname of their foreman.

When He Chengfeng was mentioned by him, he missed Gu Chengze even more.

He thought of his posture for homework, with his back straight, and his two shoulder blades were like hidden wings, which only he had touched; he thought of his posture of holding a pen, with the pulp of his thumb pressed against the middle of his index finger, which was cautious and rigorous. Gripping posture; he remembered the slow motion of his smile, first the corners of his mouth were drawn, then his crooked eyes, the little crescent-like eyes were full of smiles towards him; and the sound of him shrinking into his chest and shouting The sound of "Brother" seems to always penetrate his chest and reach his heart.

He Chengfeng pulled out a hand to hold his heart, and said silently: "I really miss him."

But what to do?

Not to mention that his mother disagreed, even he was thinking, is this right?incest?abnormal?Will it be considered mentally ill?

At that time, "homosexuality" was farther away than "well-off society". He even thought that this was harming Gu Chengze.

Here, people who have just started their lives and have time to worry are still struggling in a gloomy state of mind. The poker players over there are talking about Fengyue during the shuffle. He Chengfeng heard a person say: "If you want me to say that life is For me, I live my life as I like, and live it as happily as possible, otherwise, when I am 80 or [-] years old, I will kick my legs, ah, I will die, but it’s not worth it if I don’t live happily in this life!"

He Chengfeng is still at the age of some assertiveness but not very firm determination, he suddenly feels that he has opened up the two veins of Ren and Du, and a burst of fresh air flows into his body, his ears are clear and his head lightens: Yes!I also like Chengcheng, we can't hinder others, why should I live for what others think? !

Life is so short, why make yourself unhappy?

Gu Chengze, who was in the last sprint of the class, didn't know that his relationship with his brother had experienced a narrow escape in one afternoon.

He Chengfeng belongs to the person who wants to understand one thing and stick to it.He seems easy-going and affectionate, but in fact it is difficult for him to be interested in one person or one thing.

So for so many years, he has not empathized, and he has always only pretended to be Gu Chengze in his heart.

He built a hut in his heart, closed the door and locked it, and it is his commitment to give love a sincere heart.

After all, memories are different from dreams, and they can be controlled independently. He filtered out the insulting words from vicious people and contemptuous eyes he met during the period, and what he remembered were all small fragments about two people.Those straw-like pains and sufferings that once seemed to him to crush the camel, now looking back, they have turned into a time of peace and tranquility.

The person in his arms breathed evenly, and seemed to say "Brother", He Chengfeng said in his heart: "Never separate, never separate again."

Fanwaisan

He Chengfeng is on a business trip to City X.Wu Wenqiu's project lasted half a year and finally came to an end. The municipal department and the engineering team held a pressure test ceremony. The bronzing and fragrant invitation letter was delivered to the company a few days ago. Gu Chengze couldn't get away, so he sent He Chengfeng to go.

It stands to reason that after sitting down for a meal, taking a group photo, shaking hands, exchanging business cards and "praising" each other, it is time to withdraw from the company, but He Chengfeng actually stayed for a day and a half!

This weekend, Gu Chengze was alone at home. Since he bought Louwang, the new home was extremely spacious, and the lack of a person's voice added a lot of silence.He never realized that in a space, to be more precise, a home, the loss of a speaker would actually cause such a huge psychological gap.

Originally, he was not the kind of person who could talk to himself. When two people get along, basically He Chengfeng is talking there, and he is saying three sentences and answering one sentence, or the sound is made by He Chengfeng.

When He Chengfeng was reading professional books, he liked to play pure music combining violin and drum beats, and he classified the music into categories, calling it "the sound of shaking legs".When taking a bath, there must be clattering and humming that doesn't make a tune; besides, when he cooks, even if he boils a pot of water in the kitchen, he can still pop out a series of theoretical knowledge that he jotted down from the book.

Gu Chengze once said casually: "It turns out that brother is such a lively person."

When He Chengfeng heard it, he rushed over dissatisfied: "You think I'm noisy?"

Not too much, not at all.My ears are meant to hear your voice.Of course he didn't answer that way, he used his arm to open his brother's chin: "It's noisy, it's like raising a swarm of bees."

He Chengfeng didn't care, pinched the other side of his chin, and then bit his mouth: "Let your words be different from what you mean."

At this moment, Gu Chengze was sitting on the sofa drinking tea and remembered the conversation not long ago. He put down the tablet pensively, and was still upset after thinking about it. He cursed in his heart: "Damn, I miss you so much!"

The sharpie was so hungry that it licked the calf of its owner who suffered from lovesickness flatteringly. Gu Chengze pushed it away and got up to open the can for it.He said as he walked, "Your father has been away from home for almost two days, and you can still eat without landing a full meal, wake up, play and eat when you are tired."

Sharpei just tilted his head and kept staring at the dog food in Gu Chengze's hand, as if he was going to throw his master down.

In fact, they were still talking on the phone and video last night, and He Chengfeng forced three points to wake up and say goodnight to Gu Chengze.Gu Chengze could tell from his expression that he had been bullied a lot. How could a man of his brother's rank be able to get away with this official entertainment?Gu Chengze blamed himself while feeling distressed: You can't send him there!

Gu Chengze has a strange habit, he likes to clean up when he is in a bad mood.

Originally, He Chengfeng said that the plane in the morning would fly directly to City Y, and it would arrive in the evening.As a result, the plane was late and has been late, and it is said that it will take off in the evening.Gu Chengze didn't know what was wrong, he just felt uncomfortable anyway.He thought, shouldn't it be because the plane was late?

This can't be, he is not such an emotional and vexatious person.

He turned off the computer and resolutely cleaned up the house.

Their family has a special room for souvenirs. Gu Chengze even brought over the old-fashioned recliner that the two of them used to lie on together, and once experienced the "negative distance" on it. Gu Chengze could only hold He Chengfeng's shoulders tightly, his legs hung on the armrests, and with He Chengfeng's movements, the reclining chair shook; seeing the person on him enter quickly and forcefully, his heart fluttered.

Gu Chengze thought to himself: The quality is really good.He threw the rag on the chair, threw the unthinkable picture, and started to tidy up the desk.He Chengfeng would occasionally come here to review professional knowledge. There was an open book on the table, and seven or eight giant catalog books were stacked on one side, like walking on stilts, looking precarious.

Gu Chengze put his books back to his place.Just as he returned to the bottom of the book, he found something inside.He didn't even want to open it. When it was placed upright, the thing slid down and fell to the ground with a "snap". It was a small notebook not as big as a palm, and the year written in the center of the cover was a few years ago.

Gu Chengze squatted down and saw the opened page. The paper was not clean, but the handwriting was neat. It could be seen that the person who wrote it was cautious and pious, and every stroke was in place and powerful.

It was He Chengfeng's handwriting.

Gu Chengze picked it up to read, and there were a few lines written on it:

"I thought about dying for the first time. After my mother's reexamination, after the doctor said that I would not live long. But I haven't seen Chengcheng again, I haven't told him yet, and I have never regretted it."

"I've never regretted it." Looking at the last sentence, Gu Chengze felt his eyes heat up and his brain stopped functioning. After a while, he thought, "How can brother be so good! You still remember me when you have nothing!"

He seemed to be able to imagine that his brother stumbled and stumbled during those years alone. He kept losing and being consumed: the closest relatives, a stable life, self-esteem, and a sense of security... until the end, all he had was "" But I haven't seen Chengcheng again, and I haven't told him..." This thought.

And this is what his brother never told him!

He once thought about the life that He Chengfeng encountered, but those imaginable adversities were far less lethal than the first sentence at the beginning.Gu Chengze knows He Chengfeng too well, this person will never think of death, he loves life so much, and wants to live well.

If it wasn't that he couldn't hold on anymore, and it wasn't that it was so difficult to swallow his saliva, he might really want to hold on a little longer.

He also once consulted a psychiatrist. Regarding the reason why He Chengfeng "couldn't pass his mother's last words", the doctor bluntly said: "In addition to the last words that that gentleman heard, there must be some experiences that Mr. Gu didn't know about."

He thought slowly, he figured it out slowly, he had always done things purposefully and planned, he knew that he should accompany He Chengfeng to defeat the "inner demon".But he only found out today that it was not a "demon", but a "mind". He wanted to stand beside him majesticly for many years, thinking that he had enough ability to deal with the various eyes of the society, hoping to be strong and hopeful, so that The identity of a lover accompanies him to live together.

But Gu Chengze was fortunate that he had played it wrong at the beginning, thinking that accompanying him to get out of his demons was actually to accompany him to rebuild the confidence to live with him.

If at that time Gu Chengze was a piece of driftwood in the torrent to him, then later, He Chengfeng used that piece of driftwood to make a boat and used it as an oar, and he sent himself to Gu Chengze's shore.

Fortunately, I have been there every step of the way.Gu Chengze raised his head and exhaled, and turned another page, his name was written on it.

Gu Chengze, Gu Chengze...

Gu Chengze couldn't hold back his tears anymore. He sat on the floor, holding a small book in one hand, and wiped away his tears with the back of his hand. He scolded He Chengfeng: "Fool."

He knew that he couldn't feel it, let alone participate in He Chengfeng's life that was almost unbearable in the past.He felt uncomfortable when he thought about it. That person took care of his mother who needed to take care of her body by herself, and she was so tired that she lost consciousness in her hands and feet every day.

He didn't know how long he sat there, until He Chengfeng's voice came from the door, he was a little panicked, quickly stuffed the notebook, and deftly hid in the toilet.

He Chengfeng was packing his luggage in the bedroom, saying that it was a good idea to turn the flight wisely and decisively, and the turnaround was faster than the direct flight... The company sent a car to pick me up... What else did he say? Reddish eyes.

So when He Chengfeng saw him, he took a step back: "Hey, Mr. Gu! Who are you being bullied by?"

"No seriousness." Gu Chengze planned to change the subject, "Why, Wu Wenqiu recruited you as a staff member before the second phase of excavation?"

"No, otherwise I wouldn't have to delay another day." He Chengfeng took out a notebook from the luggage bag as he spoke, winked at Gu Chengze mysteriously, and then opened the notebook, "Dangdangdang! Look, I can't think of it." Bar?"

Gu Chengze looked at it, and it was a photo. His side face was under a thin light. From his forehead to his chin, there were smooth and cold lines, which looked like a statue. He Chengfeng, who was a few steps away, held up the camera to take pictures of him. With a bright smile, pet and love rush to her face.

"Wu Shaomin gave it to me. At that time, the two of us went to Wucai Bay, and he took a picture of us. This sneak shot is really beautiful, um...you look good."

Gu Chengze focused on "two pairs", he raised an eyebrow and asked, "Two pairs?"

"Ah, their uncles and nephews are together." He Chengfeng hugged Gu Chengze from behind.

Gu Chengze didn't speak, and clapped his hands on the wheat-colored palms: "We're together too."

He Chengfeng smiled, and kissed his earlobe: "Why, I haven't seen you for two days and changed to Qiong Yaofeng? Tell brother what happened."

Looking down, I saw four palms, the fair and slender one belonged to me, and the wheat-colored and strong one belonged to He Chengfeng. They held together, holding happiness and stability.Gu Chengze decided to keep his mouth shut, and only thought in his heart: "I will never leave this person's life."

Yes, the past cannot be traced, the river of time has flowed, and we have reached the shore of perch together, and we will never leave.