God, he always changes me

Hearing Lu Mei's question, Lu Chengcheng was a little confused, and said softly: "I don't know, I've never liked anyone, I don't know what kind of liking I have for him, it's just...just, my eyes are always on him , always love to look at him, always want to talk to him, I feel uncomfortable when others talk to him, even more uncomfortable when he smiles at others, I want to be with him all the time, when he talks to me, I always feel uncomfortable I want to kiss him, if he gets too close to me, I will get nervous, my heart beats loudly, I always think of him when I am in a daze, and I always think of him first when there is something new, I... I have never felt this way .”

Lu Mei sighed, it was clearly a sign of liking someone.

He asked: "Is he in your class? Does he know? Does he like you?"

"He should know." Lu Chengcheng's face had a kind of bewildered sweetness, "I kissed him last night."

Lu Mei's eyes widened: "What's his reaction?"

"He seems to be frightened, just like you are staring at me now." Lu Chengcheng gave Lu Mei a sad look, and Lu Mei hurriedly switched her expression back to normal mode, listening to what he said next.

"I... I was scared by myself too, I kissed me and then... I ran away." The more Lu Chengcheng said, the more he felt ashamed, and Lu Mei laughed out of shame.

He smiled and asked, "You ran away? After kissing someone else, you turned around and ran away?"

Lu Chengcheng nodded.

Ever since Chen Mingjie took in Lu Chengcheng, who was living on the street, during the winter vacation in the first year of junior high school, the relationship between the two of them has become much closer. Not only have they played together more times at school, but every time Lu Chengcheng had trouble with his family, he would go to Chen Mingjie. After staying at home for a period of time, after getting along for more than a year, Lu Chengcheng thinks that Chen Mingjie is really a good person, no wonder teachers and parents like him.

He loves to be clean. Although the house he lives in is not good, he always keeps the room clean. He even cleans the house of the elders. A student, he listens carefully in class, takes notes, and finishes his homework honestly, and never defaults; he is filial to his elders, and takes care of them in every possible way at a young age, but never complains; he loves small animals and encounters stray dogs on the road Stray cats will share some of their food with them, but in fact he doesn't eat much...

In short, the more Lu Chengcheng gets along with him, the better he feels, and his eyes always follow him involuntarily. He has a new haircut today and his eyebrows are exposed, which is really good-looking; Yes, he spoke seriously...

Gradually, he also felt that this was a bit abnormal, but he didn't think about it, until one day he dreamed about him, and he was very clear in the dream, his eyes, nose, and lips were so beautiful, and he just stood there Smiling at him, he couldn't help leaning towards him, getting closer...closer...

The alarm clock woke him up from his sleep, but he seemed to have fallen into a deeper dream. He looked at the ceiling in a daze, his body was wet, and there was only one name left in his mind——Chen Mingjie.

Since then, he has been avoiding him a little, no longer ran to his seat between classes and babbled about things that were not good, and he would not ask him to accompany him or bring him delicious food when he went to the canteen, He rarely went to the stadium, and hurried home after school to minimize his presence. Several times, Chen Mingjie called him and he pretended not to hear him, but his heart was beating like a drum at that time.

He always blushes when he thinks of that dream, and feels that he is such a beast. Chen Mingjie regards him as a buddy, but he thinks of him like this.

Until last night when he came out of the game hall, Chen Mingjie was standing at the door waiting for him. His heart skipped a beat and he turned around to run away, but Chen Mingjie didn't give him this chance. He came up and grabbed him and left. Lu Chengcheng didn't expect He looked thin, but he was strong, so he was dragged into a small alley.

"Let go of me, what are you doing?" He grumbled reluctantly, but his heart was about to jump out of his throat.

In the TV series, there are always some indescribable things happening in the dark and stormy nights, in the streets and alleys, young men and women.

"Lu Chengcheng, what's the matter with you these days?" Chen Mingjie asked him with a frown.

"What's wrong?" Lu Chengcheng pretended to be confused.

"You know what's wrong with you. Why do you pretend not to hear me when I call you so many times? Dodging me is like hiding from an enemy. Did I make you unhappy?"

Lu Chengcheng thought that I was afraid of making you unhappy, and if I wanted you to know my dirty thoughts, I'm afraid you would have to avoid me.He said stiffly: "No, you think too much, I'm a little busy studying recently."

Chen Mingjie sneered, Lu Chengcheng talked to him about studying?Give me a break.

Lu Chengcheng felt a little guilty, he straightened his clothes: "Is there anything else? I'm leaving."

With his appearance, Chen Mingjie was very angry. A good friend, he turned his face whenever he wanted to. The key is that he still doesn't know where he provoked Lu Chengcheng, and Lu Chengcheng suddenly ignored him.

He grabbed him and said coldly, "If you're a man, speak clearly."

Lu Chengcheng didn't look back: "There's nothing to say."

"...Is that so?" He clenched his sleeves tightly, a little hesitant to say, "Then you've lived and lived in our house for so long, so that's all?"

"You didn't want the money I gave you back then." Lu Chengcheng didn't expect him to say such a thing, and replied in a bad tone.

Chen Mingjie also felt that he had gone too far, but the words had already been said, and there was absolutely no reason to take them back, so he could only bite the bullet and continue: "The reason I didn't charge you at that time was because I regarded you as a friend, now that we are no longer friends , of course it’s different.”

Lu Chengcheng froze for a moment: "Aren't we friends anymore?"

Chen Mingjie pursed his lips, seemed a little aggrieved, and whispered: "You ignore me, don't you just don't want me as a friend?"

Standing under the faint street light was a young man with red lips and white teeth, still wearing a school uniform, Lu Chengcheng's heart trembled uncontrollably, his body reacted faster than his brain, he pulled him over, and pressed his lips against the other's soft surface.

The four eyes meet, why are his lips so soft?This was Lu Chengcheng's first reaction.

Oops!What did I do?Chen Mingjie is going to disgust me to death, right?This was Lu Chengcheng's second reaction.

With this realization, Lu Chengcheng let him go, turned around and ran away. Chen Mingjie must have been frightened stupid by him, but he didn't catch up to beat him.

After returning home, he tossed and turned on the bed until midnight, being happy and sad at the same time. He was happy because he kissed Chen Mingjie, and when he was sad, he also kissed Chen Mingjie.

It is said that at the moment of kissing, my heart seemed to be full of flowers. Lu Chengcheng felt that it was no exaggeration, he really felt that way at that time.What about after the kiss?How should he explain to Chen Mingjie?Would Chen Mingjie hate him and disgust him?He kissed a boy, did he become gay?How should he tell his parents, will his father beat him to death?

All kinds of messy thoughts were flying in his head, he didn't fall asleep until the middle of the night, and soon after he fell asleep, he was woken up by the nightmare. After finally staying up until dawn, he hurried to find Lu Mei, and didn't even have time to say hello.

"Brother, what should I do?" He lay on the table and asked hopelessly, "Can I still change it?"

Lu Mei asked: "Have you never had a crush on a girl?"

Lu Chengcheng shook his head, he really didn't.

Lu Mei asked again: "Do you want to change? Do you want to like that person?"

Lu Chengcheng shook his head again, he was very happy with Chen Mingjie, and also very happy to like Chen Mingjie.

Lu Meiyu said earnestly: "I don't know about sexuality and psychology. I only know that I have to follow my heart. If I like someone, I like it boldly. There is no need to hide it. Cherish it carefully. Maybe you won't be in the future." If you meet another person who makes your heart move so much, you may also meet someone better, but you have to experience these things bit by bit, understand?"

Lu Chengcheng nodded half-understood, then asked: "Then what if he doesn't like me?"

Lu Mei smiled lightly: "I once read a book, which said, 'It doesn't matter what kind of person you like, the important thing is that you must like a good person. It doesn't matter whether he likes you or not. No one can predict that we can’t stay together for the rest of our lives, but when we are together, we have to exchange the best of ourselves for the best of each other.’”

Use the best of yourself to exchange the best of each other.

Lu Chengcheng chewed this sentence repeatedly, and suddenly felt a little sad. He was willing, he was willing to give Chen Mingjie the best, even if he didn't get the same return.

Lu Chengcheng was stunned for a while, seemed to have figured it out, a little elated, and said to Lu Mei: "Brother, you are so kind."

Lu Mei smiled, but actually his heart was a little beating. He didn't know whether he was helping Lu Chengcheng or hurting Lu Chengcheng. It looked like he really liked that boy. If he tried to persuade him to go back to the so-called right way, he might It had the exact opposite effect, but encouraging him like this seemed to push him on the road of comradeship, and this road was obviously not smooth.

But what can I do then?If you like it, you like it. He can only teach him to follow his own heart. After he has tasted all these ups and downs, he will have his own judgment.

The two parted at the bus stop, and Lu Mei went back to school with a heavy heart. After returning, she found that there were several missed calls, all of which were from Jiang Zhe, so he hurriedly called back.

The phone rang and was connected. It seemed that Brother Jiang was waiting for him by the phone.

"Where did you go? Why didn't you answer the phone?" Jiang Che asked on the other end of the phone.

Lu Mei thought about it, and decided to hide the fact that she got so much money from Senior Brother Jiang in advance, and talk to him in detail when he came back, so she just said: "Chengcheng is here, I will accompany him out for a walk."