I have a soft spot for eternal life

I don't know if it's because of the winter, but I'm getting more and more lethargic.Once I woke up feeling as if I had died.Maybe I won't wake up anytime soon.I said to him: "I love you so much, if I die, I will not close my eyes willingly. You might as well give me some sleeping pills, let me hold you in my dream and die."

He said: "Aren't you afraid that I will give myself some sleeping pills? Mo Chengtian, even if you die, you have to look at me with the last bit of consciousness. How did you survive for you?"

I'm not dead, I just lost him temporarily.