Nine Prison Rings

That time, we were exhausted and exhausted.

Can's first time, he accepted my willful recklessness.His face became paler and paler, his whole body was drenched, and his expression was so dazed that he was about to faint.

On the bed sheet, drops of blood bloomed coquettishly and dazzlingly like poppies.

My recklessness and clumsiness hurt him.This sent me into a deep self-blame, feeling like a complete asshole.

I carried him into the bathroom and cleaned him.

Chan, didn't take my apology seriously, and repeatedly reassured me that he wasn't in great pain.What I feel the most is an indescribable joy.

Leaning in my arms, rubbing her little head back and forth, she looks like a coquettish and lazy kitten.

"Xiu, from now on, you are mine...you are in my body, and I am in your body, it's so good..."

Before going to sleep, he curled up in my arms, talking madly.

"Yes...you are mine and I am yours...just yours..."

I answer him.All kinds of tastes come together in my heart.

I've never been so close to happiness - so close that I can touch it just by stretching out my fingers.Can, the happiness you gave me is worth the sum of my time in the past 20 years.

I love him.

Like a madman, in love with him.

With him, I have the whole world; including a new, different world.

After that night, my relationship with Chan changed completely.

We get along in the way of lovers, even if we are separated, there are always frequent correspondence and phone calls.Every holiday, I will rush to the city where he lives for a short reunion.

Because of one person, I am attached to a city.

The letter of the fish is in the water, and the swan geese frequently pass it on; feelings, like tropical plants, grow wildly.

I happily thought that the whole life of Chan and I would be like this.

Until I passed the postgraduate entrance examination and received the opportunity to be recommended by the school as an exchange student.

At that time, there were only two places in this prestigious institution of higher learning, which was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for me; grasping this opportunity will have extraordinary significance for my entire life.

After the excitement, I couldn't help but hesitate: I want to study in the United States for four years.This means that Can and I will be separated for four full years.

Can, he didn't say anything, but I could see that he was depressed.

At that time, he had just finished the college entrance examination and had already received the university admission letter.

One night, my mother called us home for dinner.

From the moment I walked in the door, the eerie vibe made me think that the meal would not be an easy one.

As expected: at the dinner table, my mother exposed the secret relationship between me and Chan.

Sure enough: In this world, there is no impenetrable wall.

Perhaps the two people who love each other can't hide the emotion between their eyebrows.

"Luo Xiu, are you still shameless? According to your seniority, you are Can's little uncle! How dare you maintain that kind of dirty relationship with your own nephew? Where did your books go?!

We are serious people, your behavior is shameless, do you understand?How will you keep your head up in the future?How do you let people see you?Dressed beast!Besides, are all the women in the world dead?You want to be with a man! "

My mother, who has always been well-educated and reasonable, scolded me loudly in a rage.With this "guilty" criticism, I almost doubted that I could be pulled out and shot directly.

I don't speak, I don't want to contradict.

Because I know: this unethical feeling in the eyes of the world is wrong.Especially, we are two men.

But I really only have Chan in my heart.

I was ready to fight tonight, and knelt silently—tears streaming down my face:

"Mom...I'm sorry.....I'm sorry....I really like Chan....Only Chan...."

I don't know what else I can say other than to apologize.I reiterated my heart, hoping that they who have always spoiled me can understand and fulfill it.

Can, when she saw me kneeling on the ground, she also knelt down.

"Crack! Crack!..."

The angry mother slapped me twice in a hurry!

Since I can remember, this is the first time I have been beaten: it hurts!But, less than the pain in my heart.

Can, frightened, rushed over and held my face: tears glistened.

"You, if you continue to persist in your obsession, we will have no choice but to sever our relationship... You get out of this house! I would rather pretend that I never gave birth to you, never raised you, and I don't want to be ashamed of myself with you! "

The father, who remained silent, made up his mind to say these unfeeling words to the end.

I suddenly understood: I may no longer be his pride, I made him feel ashamed.

Can's eyes, the usual agility, disappeared...replaced by a dead volcano, without any brilliance.

He held my hand, which was so cold that I couldn't feel the flow of blood.

Mother, that piercing look—she was terrified of losing me, terrified.

Then, she made an unexpected move: facing Chan, she knelt down——

Chan, frightened by this sudden action, jumped up to help her up; but her mother refused to get up no matter what...

"What are you doing? Get up quickly, I can't afford it..."

Can's face was pale, and his voice trembled weakly along with his body.

But I have a premonition that the building will collapse...

"Xiaocan, why don't you let Luo Xiu go?! He is the hope of our couple! You can't just ruin him like this. Anyway, we are still good to you. It can't be called kindness, at least we have kindness to you. I have taken care of you. We are still relatives, I have never been sorry to you...you let go..."

My mother pleaded tearfully, and my emotions broke down so much that I began to worry that she might be insane.

Can, a person who is usually submissive and used to it, how could he deal with the current situation; he was so flustered that he was at a loss what to do.

"me......."

He gaped and looked at me in panic——I saw the daze, struggle, and helplessness inside...

All these embarrassments and difficulties should be borne by me; they should never be passed on to Chan.

He is so precious, so fragile; he is the treasure in my heart.Could it be that he is really required to make the cruelest decision?

For a moment, I felt ashamed...

I, helped up the trembling mother, and tried to remove the stains of tears on her face.

"I promise you: Chan and I parted—"

Saying this, my heart is like a thousand troops and horses stepping over: the pain of turning into mud...

Can, stare at me blankly: the soul is gone...

"Don't force Chan anymore, and don't make things difficult for him. I will do what I say. I will go through the formalities to leave the country immediately, so you can rest assured.

In this lifetime, we will never meet again—"

I am really a mature man.Mingming burst into tears, but smiled and spoke this ruthless declaration of breaking up fluently and clearly.

On Chan's face, there was a different kind of tenderness, faintly full of sadness...  

"Well. I promise you too. I will leave here soon and report to school. I...will never see him again..."

The mother's eyes danced with tears of joy, and she kept muttering: "That's good...that's good..."

Is this the end of life?

I can't feel the beating of my heart....

Can, walked in front of me: the poor little face greeted me, and I could feel his exhaled breath on my cheek.His lips were on my chin, rubbing against my chin like a kitten...

"Xiu, I really like the smell of you. It smells like mint tobacco. It looks like I have to learn to smoke in the future.

Maybe I can't keep you as a person, but I can always keep this taste..."

He whispered in my ear, like a dreamer.

I felt again: my heart was like blood and mud, showing no signs of life.

He bowed deeply to his parents: he left...

No goodbyes, no farewells.Well said, never see you again.

With tears in my eyes, I looked at his absolute back: like a dream, out of my sight, my life...

Just as amazing when it came, it was as dazzling as when it went...

How could I have thought: that thin, lonely and stubborn figure is the last thought he left me in this life?

I personally killed my love.Happy too, forsaken forever.

Can, report to the university as scheduled.Soon after, I went to the ocean.

Since then, years and years have passed, and we will never see each other again......

I failed him.He also failed God's kindness, so he could only eat the bitter fruit himself.

Empty and melancholy, there is no reason to meet.From now on, the soul will be broken for thousands of miles, every night in the Yueyang Tower......