[Gintama] Mr. Songyang that day

--monster.

The little ghosts in the village would call her that with a smile when they threw a stone on her forehead.

When the parents of the little ghosts stabbed her in the body with a knife, the adults who looked horrified or disgusted would call her like this.

is this my nameshe thinks.

monster.

I can't understand why she has this name.

Surely no one will give her this name with love.

Spreading from under his body was the blood gurgling from the big hole in his chest. It was bright red, like a color that would bring warmth if covered by flying snow, but it was the opposite cold.

She lay on her back on the snowy ground, her bright red pupils reflected the pure white snowflakes that kept falling from the sky.

Clean without a trace of dull color.

It was obviously such a beautiful color, but it was as cold to the touch as the pool of blood under her body.

It was as cold as a knife stuck in her chest, and it was also like the eyes of humans staring at her.

monster.

She is a monster.

Because she is a monster that should not exist in this world.

So humans hate her, expel her, and kill her, all of which are taken for granted, there is no way to escape, there is no reason, and even the struggle is no longer meaningful.

——That's why spring is so far away, and the icy cold leaves her nowhere to hide.

Who said it?

Ah, probably something I heard from the children in the village when they were hiding and looking for food.

spring.

After winter passed, this cold and cruel snow would melt away, revealing the original color of the surface.

It's the color of spring.

It is hopeful, vibrant, fresh grass green.

If ever.

Just once, just once, a human will reach out to her.

Being able to hold her hand and lead her to touch such a color, even if she is a monster, can she... can she get rid of this monster's body and be loved by humans.

—Only once.

This heart was carefully but eagerly longing, and was repeatedly crushed into the scorched soil, and the pain of being split countless times tore her soul violently.

She suddenly understood that there had never been, and perhaps there would never be, a human being who could save the monster.

—Humans.

She has never been a human being, never understood, how can she be redeemed by a human being if she has the love of a human being.

She was born with the hatred, fear, and killing intent of human beings, but she can only bear the pain and stand persistently in the gap between life and death, repeating the same mistakes over and over again, until her soul is shattered into countless selves. Falling into the sea of ​​blood, he was dubbed "virtual" and turned into a dark blade that pounced on human beings themselves.

After all, she's just a monster.

It is an ugly monster that has no place in this world that should be eradicated by human courage, justice, and indomitable spirit.

Whether it is a hundred years or a thousand years, she will continue to step into this endless fight with human beings, and no one can break the cycle of fate.

No matter who you meet, whether you reach out to someone, save someone, give someone hope, struggle, or look forward to it, nothing can shake the coming ending.

After all, she is a heartless monster—

"Xu's immortal ability has indeed been disturbed!"

This is indeed exciting news for the Zhensen and Jianhui groups who have fought so far.

The country fell into trouble as if overnight, and before they had time to get out of the turbulent disputes of the regime, they had to take up their knives recklessly to fight against wave after wave of monster-like indestructible enemies.

To protect their country and the planet they live on!

With such determination and perseverance, the two major police organizations in Edo charged forward and stood in front of the culprit who created the chaos.

Shinsengumi leader Kondo subconsciously rubbed his dry eyes.

"...Hey, let me say fourteen, that's it, isn't there that kind of humanoid robot in Tianren Technology..."

"...Are you an idiot?"

The corner of Hijikata's mouth twitched, and he seemed to calmly stuff a cigarette into his mouth, but he couldn't hide the seriousness in his eyes.

Are there really two people in this world who are so similar?

The Xu who manipulated the Heavenly Dao, controlled Chunyu, and provoked the war in the universe, and the woman Yoshida Shoyo who stood beside the owner of Wanshiwu and always smiled quietly and gently——

When the boss of Master House joined the battle with the information crystallized from the alien star Alutana, Kondo and the others were still a little bit unaware.

"...that, let me say."

Kondo scratched the back of his head, really not knowing how to talk to this silver-haired man who was sitting in the ruins so silently.

"Sakata, your wife is... well?"

It has been several months since the Fukuoka incident. When the Shinsengumi received the news, they only caught up with the battlefield where the shogunate was surrounded by Naraku Amaterasuin, Tokugawa's private army. After hastily repelling these difficult killers, they returned to In the garrison, Yamazaki, the investigator sent to monitor the Wanshiwu, ran back to report in a panic.

"I! I saw it!"

He took a big gulp of water before finishing his speech intermittently.

"Boss of Wanshiwu, a bloody man... That, that Gui, and, also, Naraku's, see the deputy leader of the group... They boarded the ship of the Ghost Squad."

He spoke incoherently, and it took Kondo a while to figure out what he meant.

"You mean... that Yoshida from Master House was seriously injured?"

"Yes!" Yamazaki nodded like a pounding garlic, and couldn't help taking a deep breath after calming down.

In such a tragic situation, even he, an unrelated person, couldn't help worrying about it.

What exactly happened to--

The silver-haired man raised his eyelids and glanced at Kondo, his eyes were lazy and unable to see any clues.

Kondo waited for a while and didn't see him speak. He thought he wasn't going to answer, so he smiled and planned to back away, when the other party's listless voice suddenly sounded.

"she's fine."

The owner of Wanshiwu, who is carefree on weekdays, seems to be troubled by his mind at the moment, and his sentences are so short that he can hardly hear his mood swings.

"Ah...that's it."

Kondo smiled awkwardly.He didn't know if this man had seen Xu before, and if he was at a loss because of it, and he didn't know what kind of truth was hidden behind it.

"Anyway... Sakata, you..."

Kondo tried to encourage each other, but was at a loss for words.

I witnessed it with my own eyes.

Cherish, love a person's happy eyes.It was hard to imagine the look in the eyes of this always frivolous and unserious man in front of him.

Fate seemed too cruel to this man and his loved ones.

In the end, Kondo could only squeeze out a dry reassurance.

"Don't push yourself too hard."

— Let's fight.

Jump braves are born to defeat the devil, for the hope of friendship and victory, let's fight as a matter of course!

Holding the knife in his hand, when it stabbed into the man's body, the blood that splashed out was dazzling bright red.

Just like the blood-stained body in the man's arms, the tightly closed eyes are full of shadows that cannot escape.

Aim the knife at the undead enemy and fight.

Take another step forward, move closer, and aim the knife point at the monster's heart.

Fight, fight, fight.

There is no need to be afraid or shaken, the nightmare carried by his teacher is just ahead of him. For the promise, or to protect everything that is cherished, let's rush forward as a qualified brave man.

Even if the people in the story are real, they have spent this long and painful 1000 years.

——The sound of the knife breaking struck Yinshi's almost stagnant thinking brain.

Then he was swept by a force and thrown to the ruined wall in the distance, hitting the rough ground heavily.

The steel bars protruding from the section of the dilapidated building pierced his waist from the side, and the pain and unshakable dizziness washed over his tense nerves.

The members of the Zhenxuan group and the Jianhui group are charging forward with all their strength, and they are repeatedly knocked down by false blows, and they have never flinched.

"No matter how many times you will be resurrected, today is the memorial day for you monster! So, let's go together, this is our last battle!"

The loud and clear voice of the leader of the Shinsengumi seems to be able to pierce the fog filled with gunpowder.

Yinshi moved his stiff legs with difficulty, struggling to get up from the ground.The blood gushing from the wound on his waist flowed all over the ground, and the loss of weight from the excessive blood loss made him almost unsteady, he took a step forward and raised his head.

The empty eye sockets were facing the direction where Yinshi was, and the oozing blood slipped over the corner of her smiling mouth and fell lightly.

"Are you afraid of me?"

Amidst the noisy fighting and terrified shouts around, Xu's exclamation was light and weightless, and Gintoki could barely distinguish her words as if she was talking to herself from the shape of her lips.

"I'm used to darkness like this, and I'm tired of the constant fear of human beings. Why do you always have to die in vain? Humans, why are you still fighting? Do you want to kill me this monster so much? "

monster.

——Yinshi stepped into the courtyard of the private school, and complained angrily to Songyang who was waiting for him at the door before entering the house.

"Damn it! Ah Yin didn't give that brat a personality piercing!"

"How to say?"

Song Yang caught a glimpse of the blood stains on the corner of his clothes and was startled.

"Sincerely, you won't fight with anyone, will you?"

"That's not the case!"

Yinshi's cheeks were puffed up with anger, he retorted loudly, angrily telling what happened just now.

"On the way back, I met a kid with a brain problem. He actually told Ah Yin that eyeless puppy was a monster, and even threw stones at the puppy. Ah Yin was so angry that he almost couldn't help beating him up. , I just drove that little devil away, but the puppy was really hurt too badly..."

When he said this, his tone dropped instantly, and his expression was a little guilty and a little frustrated.

"If Ah Yin came back from the town earlier, maybe the puppy wouldn't die."

"It's not Yinshi's fault."

Song Yang gently stroked his natural curls, trying to cheer him up.

"Silver has done a good job."

At Yinshi's age, children's emotions come and go quickly, and they quickly recovered from the sadness, and continued to chant dissatisfiedly.

"What's the matter with this kind of kid? How did the adults in the family educate him to do evil without any burden by barking at a puppy like a blind monster? Although it's not like Ah Yin has never seen such an adult , What kind of monsters and ghosts, anyway, as long as you talk about things you don’t like in a scary way, it seems that you won’t feel guilty if you get hurt. I don’t understand it at all. Ah Yin is super angry when he thinks about it, he’s really super angry! Why? There will be such a person!"

After all, this silver-haired child was also called a "ghoul" once, and he fought with some rogue warriors clamoring for "exorcism" on the battlefield. Songyang knew that even if those warriors were Seeing that the so-called ghoul is a dirty kid who can still raise a knife and shout at him, he doesn't seem to have any compassion.

It seems that as long as the unacceptable existence in the world is defined as a "monster", the injury and killing can be described in a more glorious and majestic way, and even cruel things can be taken for granted.

"How can there be any monsters! This statement is disgusting. Is it a monster different from a human being? Ah Yin has never heard of this kind of truth, even if there is Ah Yin, he would not care about it. How scary are monsters? They are ugly or too many More than one hand? If you have never hurt anyone since you were born, why do you have to be expelled? Monsters may be the same as humans, and they will love someone. If you talk about expelling monsters, you are actually hurting Innocent, Ah Yin doesn't want to be such a heartless brave man."

Yinshi only cared about his thoughts, and didn't see Songyang's loving and sad eyes when he was looking at him quietly.

——If it is silver hour.

Standing silently in the lightless shadow behind this half of her body, Xu listened to her murmuring to herself as if crying.

"If it's Yinshi, even if you step over my corpse, you can definitely..."

save?

Or beheaded?

There seems to be no difference.

It doesn't matter whether it's called an evil spirit or it doesn't matter if it can't be integrated into human beings, this little ghost named Sakata Gintoki is just a ridiculous human being in essence, and has never empathized with monsters. It is necessary to try again to find the emptiness of salvation in human beings.

From the very beginning, monsters cannot be saved by humans.

The darkness in front of him has also been rooted in his heart since then, growing quietly along with the killing and plundering, until it completely engulfs the heart that yearns for human beings and longs to be loved.

She should have ended this pointless—

The strong fighting spirit around him suddenly seemed to be interrupted by something, and it was not far away, and was slowly pushed away like a tide.

Someone came up to her.

With the sound of scattered footsteps approaching here firmly and persistently, without a trace of killing intent, the breath is as soft as spring after the ice has melted.

The Alutana powder that filled the air kept suppressing the churning dragon vein energy in her body, perhaps because the atmosphere was too abnormal, Xu rarely felt confused.

She heard a silver-haired man call out a name in a panicked hoarse voice.

"Songyang!"

The visitor stopped in front of her.

The author has something to say: I want to understand Ah Yin's thoughts... In short...

I want to write about the truth that I didn’t make any mistakes at the beginning... Hey...

I want to comment (cry loudly) stand-alone is so lonely...