The world is very bitter, you are very sweet

Following Silin's words, the fine hairs on Xu Jingheng's body stood up bit by bit, and his back felt numb.

He stared blankly at the big tree beside the black wall, on which hung a dusty tile lamp, shining alone in the alley.It was originally used for lighting, but the light it emits now looks desolate and weird in Xu Jingheng's eyes.

"Xu Jingheng, separate yourself from Tang Geyu." Si Lin turned his face away, he didn't dare to say these words to Xu Jingheng, "I will treat you better than him..."

Xu Jingheng didn't seem to hear any sound or see anyone, but just stood there blankly, all he could see was a small stone pier at the entrance of the alley.

Tang Geyu used to like to stand beside that stone pier and smoke. Whether he was happy or unhappy, he liked to smoke next to that small stone pier, as if it was a small place for him.

At this time, there was no one beside the stone pier, let alone Tang Geyu.

Xu Jingheng was flustered, helpless, aggrieved and angry... and he missed Tang Geyu.

It was extremely cold in the alley that night, and the wind blowing seemed to carry glass shards, and when it touched someone's face, it only felt raw pain.

The yellow leaves on the tree drifted down slightly with the cold wind, Xu Jingheng finally compromised this night, "Okay."

He can't help it.

As long as there is still a little way, he will not choose to separate from Tang Geyu.

He actually compromised when he knew that Shen Zhu wanted to hide this matter.

Since she has already solved it, let's treat it as solved.

Xu Jingheng's heart was already in extreme pain, but his eyes were dry and he couldn't shed any tears.

This is also good, but also to keep him a little bit strong.

"I will break up with Tang Geyu."

Xu Jingheng finally agreed, but Si Lin was not at all happy, and his face was very calm, "Tang Geyu's mother will be back tomorrow."

Xu Jingheng nodded mechanically, "Oh..."

Silin said again: "You can let Tang Geyu come back to study, but you..."

"You have to follow me to transfer schools. I don't like this school very much."

Silin said this unnaturally. It's not that he doesn't like this school, but that he doesn't like Tang Geyu.

He felt in his heart that Xu Jingheng belonged to him, and it certainly made him feel uncomfortable to let him watch Tang Geyu occupying him every day.

And he didn't want Xu Jingheng to see Tang Geyu again.

Si Lin frowned slightly, "The sooner the better."

The expression on Xu Jingheng's face was very cold, and his breathing began to be heavy, "Okay."

He lowered his tense shoulders, took out his phone from his pocket, clicked on the top dialog box in QQ, pressed the phone button a few times, and held the phone screen in front of Si Lin to show him.

Silin stared at Xu Jingheng's phone for several seconds, but only stayed on the message "Ge Yu, let's break up" for less than two seconds, and spent the rest of the time staring at the note: "Dear Mr. Tang ".

Silin smiled wryly. He was mocking himself, but he was more jealous of Tang Geyu.

why?Why is this?Why does Xu Jingheng love Tang Geyu so much...

He couldn't figure it out, every time he thought of this question, he would get into it uncontrollably, and then felt uncomfortable for a long time.

But today, he didn't suffer as much as before. Xu Jingheng, who he had been waiting for for a long time, was finally coming to his side.

The moment Xu Jingheng said good words, even the biting cold wind was gentle.

That night Xu Jingheng deleted Tang Geyu's Q and address book according to Si Lin's request. Although he remembered all Tang Geyu's contact information very well, when he deleted Tang Geyu's number and QQ, he still felt pain in his heart.

He has no dear Mr. Tang anymore.

----

Tang Geyu didn't see that message until three days later.It was an early morning, the sun had not yet revealed its full view, and the wind mixed with tiny raindrops blew against his face and body with weak force.

Wearing a dusty brown thin coat and a safety helmet, he stood under the lighthouse in a daze, watching the screen of his mobile phone slowly besmeared with small raindrops, gently covering a line of words sent by him "Dear Heng Baby" live.

Tang Geyu held a pair of gray torn gloves in his hand. He picked up the gloves with a calm expression and wiped the screen of the phone, and the message appeared clearly before his eyes again.

"Geyu, let's break up."

separate?

Xu Jingheng wants to break up with him?

impossible……

Tang Geyu tilted his head slightly, feeling that he couldn't understand the meaning of that sentence.

He read every word over and over again, and then looked at the "disconnect" and "add friend" on it, and suddenly the corners of his mouth twitched.

He knew why Xu Jingheng said this all of a sudden, because he had been out for too long, and his family baby got angry, so he said something angry.

Xu Jingheng missed him, and wanted him to go back. If that was the case, he would definitely push Xu Jingheng on the bed and bully him after he went back, to let him know that such words should not be said.

Tang Geyu didn't call Xu Jingheng because he didn't want to see what he was afraid of actually happened.

He didn't want the phone he called to be off.

He was lying to himself, he didn't believe that Xu Jingheng wanted to break up with him, it was impossible.

Tang Geyu received the half-month salary, which was 12. After receiving it, he went back to the dormitory in the [-]-person room to take a shower, and that morning he went to the train station with a suitcase.

He wants to go back.

----

The sun hangs high, but not too harshly.When the yellowing leaves were blown all over the ground by the autumn wind, Tang Geyu returned to City H.

He didn't go to school, he went home first, opened the door and saw Wu Yu who he hadn't seen for a while.

But he had no time to be surprised.

Wu Yu was tidying up in the living room, and when he saw Tang Geyu coming back, a sad expression immediately appeared on his face, "Ge Yu?"

Wu Yu put down the rag in his hand and walked towards Tang Geyu, "Geyu, are you back?"

Tang Geyu stared at Wu Yu's obviously thinned face, feeling slightly sour in his heart, "When did you come back?"

"I've been back for two days." Wu Yu asked him, "Where have you been? Have you paid back the money over there in more than half a month?"

"Is it over?" Tang Geyu's eyes were full of doubts, "Is Tang Weiming owed the money there?"

"Yeah, how stupid you are, you don't remember paying back the money yourself."

"Pay back the money?"

He hasn't taken the money in his hand yet, when will he finish paying it back?

Tang Geyu walked into the house with his suitcase, and his first reaction was to look at the door of his room.

The door was closed.

"Oh, by the way," Wu Yu turned his head and glanced, "The boy who used to come to you often, is he called Xingxing? I saw him the day I came back. He pulled a suitcase and left. He wanted me to tell you , he changed schools."

"Transfer?" Tang Geyu froze in the hall, "He said he transferred?"

"Yes." Wu Yu said, "There is also a boy who came with him. That boy seems to be called Lin...Si Lin, he is quite polite."

Wu Yu curled her lips, "They were also driving a very foreign-looking car, and the two of them walked together, it seems that they both transferred schools."

Tang Geyu's curled fingers suddenly jumped, and his brain buzzed, which instantly shocked his ears.

Xu Jingheng transferred?

With Silin?

He couldn't figure it out, really couldn't figure it out, how could two people who had never spoken a word suddenly transfer schools together?

Tang Geyu walked to the door with dull eyes and a dull expression. After opening the door with some fear and entering, he found that the room was cleaner and tidy than before, and he opened the cabinet to see that there was not a single piece of Xu Jingheng's clothes inside. up.

His pupils dilated, why the cabinet that he thought was small before suddenly became wider, and none of the familiar clothes and the particularly handsome coat worn by Xu Jingheng were in it.

And his Xu Jingheng was not in this room either.

Tang Geyu started to have a sore nose, and he ran out of the door in an instant, running all the way to the school with strong unwillingness, and found two empty desks and chairs in the classroom.

Xu Jingheng and Si Lin were sitting there before.

Tang Geyu couldn't believe what happened today, he didn't believe that Xu Jingheng was gone, he didn't believe that Xu Jingheng wanted to break up with him.

They are obviously... fine.

When Tang Geyu returned home in a state of exhaustion, he found a white envelope under the alarm clock on the bedside table.

He anxiously ran over to open the envelope, and what he saw were lines of neatly written words.He knew those words were Xu Jingheng's at a glance, and he was as familiar with Xu Jingheng's handwriting as he was with Xu Jingheng's body.

However, he didn't dare to read the words on it.

Ge Yu, I don't know when you will come back, but when you come back, I have already transferred schools.

Actually, I've been hiding one thing from you before. Silin and I...we knew each other and got together when we were in S city.

I had a quarrel with him last year, and came to City H in a fit of anger, but now that he has come to me, I can't turn a blind eye to him, and I can't get closer to you because of my anger with him.

Ge Yu, I'm sorry, I'm going back to Silin.Thank you for being kind to me all the time, and I will repay you if I get the chance.

I am sorry.

Goodbye.

Tang Geyu knew every word in this letter, but he couldn't understand it when they were connected together to form a sentence.

He still couldn't believe the fact that Xu Jingheng had already left, but he really knew that Xu Jingheng had really left, had really left him, and gone to a place he didn't know.

After Tang Geyu raised his hand to wipe his dry, red but not wet eyes, he took out his mobile phone and sent a message to Xu Jingheng: Xu Jingheng.

As he feared, the message was not sent successfully, there was a red exclamation mark next to the message, and the message below showed: Failed to send, please add the other party as a friend first

laugh: okay

Failed to send, please add the other party as a friend first

Let's laugh: I'm back on Luoyu Street.

Failed to send, please add the other party as a friend first

Tang Geyu's back couldn't straighten up, his legs were also stiff, and black spots appeared in front of his eyes one after another.

He clicked on the above to add a friend, but it didn't work. He clicked the request several times but it didn't pass.

【Voice call request failed】

【Video call request failed】

Hello, the number you dialed is an empty number.

Hello, the number you dialed is an empty number...

Tang Geyu was completely taken aback. He stared blankly at the few lines of words and the red exclamation mark on the screen, and felt that something was slowly draining from his body. His heart began to become lighter and weaker, and he couldn't even stand still. up.

He started to panic, but he didn't seem to know that he was panicking, he only knew that his mind was in a mess, and the hand holding the mobile phone began to tremble. The mobile phone in his hand seemed to be very heavy, and he couldn't hold it steadily.

He bent down, put his hands on his knees, gasped with his mouth open as if he couldn't breathe, cold sweat broke out on his forehead at some point, his whole body was so heavy that he couldn't even lift his eyelids, and he seemed to be floating lightly Can fly.

He didn't give up, so he just squatted on the ground, holding the phone in his hands, the phone was trembling in his hands, and it took him a long time to type out a line of words

Laugh: Xu Jingheng, you are too naughty

Failed to send, please add the other party as a friend first

Laugh: where have you been?I'm going to find you.

Failed to send, please add the other party as a friend first

Laugh: Why is the phone turned off? Didn’t I tell you that the phone must be charged? I will call you anytime.

Failed to send, please add the other party as a friend first

Tang Geyu looked at the screen full of messages that had not been sent successfully, and his heart felt like he was being pierced by many tiny needles.After he put the phone on the floor, he lay on the cold ground with his eyes wide open. Suddenly, he didn't even have the strength to take a deep breath, and his legs were limp on the floor.

He was lying like this, with a calm expression, but the sadness could not be hidden in his red eyes.

He kept looking out of the window, watching the light outside getting darker and darker, watching the yellow leaves float from the trees outside the black wall into the black wall, watching the transparent glass suddenly covered with a layer of small raindrops, He raised his hands to soften his sore and sore eyes, and then slowly closed them.

Tang Geyu slept on the floor all night, half asleep and half awake. The whole night was hot and cold, sweating all over the body, and curled up with cold again.

When he woke up again, he saw that the sky outside the window had turned a little pale. The rain stopped at some point, and the window was completely dry with no rain marks left.

Tang Geyu didn't open his eyes, and he couldn't open them, because he realized that he might have a fever again, and the uncomfortable and dizzy feeling in his body that he would have when the seasons change wantonly covered his whole body last night.

His body was weak, his hands and feet were weak, he had a splitting headache, he felt pain every time his heart beat, and he was sweating cold all over his body. From top to bottom, from the inside to the outside, there was nothing good about him. He seemed to be walking through the gates of hell at this moment.

It took Tang Geyu a lot of effort to open his heavy eyelids. His throat was so dry that it hurt. He wanted to drink a glass of water to moisturize him, but he couldn't sit up.

Frowning deeply, he picked up the phone, rolled his swollen throat, and typed a line with trembling hands:

Laugh: I seem to have a fever again, brother Xingxing, can you take me for an injection...

Failed to send, lightly add the other party as a friend first

Let’s laugh: Brother Xingxing, can you hug me, I won’t feel bad when you hug me

Failed to send, please add the other party as a friend first

"Geyu? I made you breakfast, remember to eat when you come out." After Wu Yu finished speaking outside the door, there was a sound of closing the door.

Wu Yu went out, Tang Geyu was the only one at home.

He was still lying on the floor, his eyelids were still drooping, and he could see the tip of his nose.He lifted his phone up and looked at it again, but there were still red exclamation marks all over the screen.

He felt that those things were more difficult to look at directly than the sun for a long time, so he closed his eyes again and lay flat on the ground motionless.

The sun came out at noon, and the temperature was slightly warmer, but Tang Geyu had a splitting headache.He was awakened by the pain in a daze again, before his mind cleared up, his hand had already raised the phone.

He pressed the phone, and the screen suddenly lit up, causing his eyes to squint twice.

He opened the dialogue box with Xu Jingheng, and began to type tremblingly:

Let’s laugh: okay, I really have a fever, my body is so hot, and my head hurts

Failed to send, please add the other party as a friend first

Laugh: I just had a dream. In the dream, a fairy said that my disease could not be cured by doctors, but could only be cured by good medicine. The name of that good medicine was Xu Jingheng.

Failed to send, please add the other party as a friend first

Smile: Where is the good medicine, I will look for it, and I will keep it by my side forever after I find it.

Failed to send, please add the other party as a friend first

Let's laugh: [Voice call request failed]

Smile: [Video call request failed]

Tang Geyu's eyes were moist, and he raised his hand to cover his eyes.

Xu Jingheng, please, come back.

*****

Tang Geyu had a fever for a very long time this time. He used to be able to sleep well by himself in at most three or four days, but this time he lay in bed for more than ten days before he could get out of bed.

For the past few days, he has been dreaming of Xu Jingheng day and night, as long as he closes his eyes, Xu Jingheng's face will appear in his mind.

Xu Jingheng in the dream knocked on his door, touched his forehead tenderly, wanted to take him to the hospital, and coaxed him to get well soon, the breakup was just a joke, when he recovered, Xu Jingheng We will definitely be together with him.

In the dream, they are still as sweet and warm as before, they love each other very much, and they are still in front of each other.

But when he opened his eyes, there was only a cold ceiling.Looking out of the window in a blink of an eye, there is another dead leaf on the ground.

Tang Geyu raised his hand and touched his face, feeling better, and finally felt that he was still alive.

He went into the kitchen and made a quick meal, opened the door and went out to ride a small electric donkey to Xu Jingheng's house.

Coming to this place that he hadn't visited for half a year, Tang Geyu felt that nothing had changed. If the door of Xu Jingheng's house was open, then the village would not have changed at all.

He parked the car in front of Xu Jingheng's house, even though he saw that the house was locked and locked, he still didn't give up, and walked over to knock on the door with some hopes and expectations, Xu Jingheng would definitely come out and open the door for him.

But when he knocked on the door for the fourth time, and still no one came out to open the door for him, his eyes dimmed, but he didn't give up completely, he walked around the side of the house in a panic, and walked to the window door of Xu Jingheng's room stick.

The transparent windows were already covered with a layer of dust, and the orange curtains were drawn inside, so he couldn't see into the room.

Tang Geyu reached out and patted on the window, and his voice was a bit strange, because his voice hadn't responded yet, "All right."

The surroundings are quiet and silent, not even the wind.

He continued to shoot, increasing the speed and intensity, "OK? Xu Jingxing?!"

What responded to him was still the quiet and somewhat icy air. The voice he wanted to hear never appeared, and the person he saw first never came out.

Tang Geyu was so disappointed that he raised his leg and kicked the wall, "Xu Jingheng? Where have you been? What do you mean by that sentence?"

Still, no one would respond to him.

He stretched out his fist and thumped the wall hard, roaring: "Do I agree to break up with you?! Are you a man? Can't you say something in person?"

"Xu Jingheng! Come out!"

"I don't want to break up!"

"Where are you unhappy, tell me, can I change it?"

"I don't care what happened to you before, but aren't we two together? Then continue to be together!"

"What do you think is wrong with me, I will change everything, don't want me!"

Tang Geyu called a few words, but the response was still quiet.

He calmed down for a while, then whispered to the window as if in compromise: "OK, I really like you, and I really love you. I don't want you to go with him as soon as Silin comes. I'm..."

The expression on Tang Geyu's face was very aggrieved, and the tone of his speech was like a child asking for candy, a little coquettish, "Brother Xingxing, I will listen to everything you say, and I admit I was wrong, I was wrong, I'm sorry... I won't I'm gone, I won't be separated from you, I will treat you well in front of you, shall we be together?"

When Tang Geyu said this, his voice was tinged with tears, "I was wrong, don't be unhappy, don't break up with me, don't leave me, let alone I can't find you, I can't see you!"

"Xu Jingheng! Come out quickly!!"

Tang Geyu couldn't control his emotions anymore, and started to kick the wall violently, "Why do you break up when you say goodbye alone! You want me to say something?!"

"You said I am worse than him, you just sent me away with a message, a letter, what the hell am I with you? Ah?!"

"Xu Jingheng! Come out!"

"What are you calling! Don't make a fuss here, this family has moved out for half a month!"

An old man next door to Xu Jingheng's house opened the window and yelled, "Are you insane?! You woke up me from my afternoon nap by yelling at an empty house for a long time."

Tang Geyu closed his mouth, but he clenched his jaw extremely tightly, and his cheeks kept agitating.

In fact, why doesn't he know that this place has already been deserted... However, there are so many things in the world that even if they know it has happened, it is irreversible, and some people have disappeared without a trace, but they still want to try Take a look and see if you can find anything.

Maybe... there is still a glimmer of hope?

Maybe Xu Jingheng is here waiting for him to apologize?

But when he knocked on the window again and again and got no response, and when a sentence of apology failed, he compromised.

He reluctantly and unwillingly compromised.

Xu Jingheng really left, and he left with someone he had never looked at.

After all, Tang Geyu accepted this fact, and he could only accept this fact.

Leaning his back against the wall, he slowly slid and squatted down. There was no emotion on his face, but his eyes were filled with holes.

In the fall of 2014, they separated.That winter was very snowy and the snow scene was very long, but the two boys who made an appointment to build a snowman together on the first snow day were not together.