PS. 1437

Ten

For the next two days, the teacher didn't show up, and I didn't know what to do.

In this situation, it would be embarrassing to meet...

The kiss, which was originally a prank, turned into an uncontrollable kiss that almost got out of control.

I was thinking about how to face her in class tomorrow, what to do after class, will she ask me for dinner?Or do we just fade away silently?Alas, what is the situation?

As a result, on the day of class, I actually caught a cold for no reason.

In the morning, I felt a headache that was about to explode, as if I had been punched several times.

Reluctantly supporting his body, he poured a glass of water, took a hot shower in the bathroom, and fell asleep again in a daze as soon as he returned to the bed.

I don't know how long I slept, but in a trance, I saw my mother came back and put her hand on my forehead. I reached out and grabbed her hand, fearing that she would disappear if I let go.

"Hey, I'll get a towel and I'll be right back." She coaxed me.

I let go of my hand weakly, and watched her walk out of my room, my eyelids drooping again.

When I woke up, I saw my mother sitting next to me, smiled and picked up the towel on my forehead, rubbed it in the washbasin, and put it back on my forehead. A cool and comfortable feeling spread from my forehead.

"Is it better?" she asked me with a smile.

"Yeah." I nodded.

"Rest well and take care of your body." She looked at me and said.

"How are you?" I asked her.

"Very good, why not? You two are good and I am good." Mom's smile is still the same warm.

"That's good, I miss you so much." I said weakly.

"Three eight ghosts! I haven't disappeared anywhere, when did I become so nasty?" She tapped my forehead.

"I didn't..." I said innocently.

"Okay, sleep well." She said as she pulled the quilt for me.

"Don't run away." I struggled to finish this sentence before I fell asleep.

Between sleeping and waking, I felt that I was sweating a lot, and it was very cold and hot, and my clothes seemed to be wet and dry, dry and wet again.

"Girl, I'll help you change your wet clothes." Mom said when I didn't know how many times I got wet again.

I could only lie on the bed and let her help me put on new clothes.

Then fell asleep again.

It was already night when I woke up, maybe after a day of sleep, I suddenly felt refreshed.

I saw Ma still sitting on the edge of my bed.

"Hey! Girl, I'm leaving, you have to take care of yourselves." Mom said after watching me get up.

"Where are you going?" I asked suspiciously.

Mom just smiled, then stood up and walked out the door. I jumped out of bed quickly, but my head was dizzy, and I fell to the ground.

"Are you okay?" The teacher's voice suddenly rang in my ears.

I woke up suddenly and found that it was a dream.

I looked at the clothes on my body, and then at the teacher.

"I saw that your clothes are all soaked, so I changed them for you," said the teacher.

"Teacher... why are you here?" I asked.

"I've been calling you since the morning. I wanted to say that I wanted to have lunch with you at noon, but your phone didn't work after I called all morning. I asked Xiaojie for your home number, but you still didn't answer the call. I I was very nervous. Xiaojie told me that there is a spare key under the flowerpot at the door of your house. I came over at noon and saw that you had a fever. I helped you apply cold compresses with a towel and the fever subsided slightly. Then you slept and didn’t wake up, but I was sweating all the time, so I had to find new clothes for you to change into." The teacher explained.

"Then...you didn't go back to class?" I asked immediately.

"Yes, I'll go back to class first, and come back after class. It's past six o'clock now." The teacher said looking at the clock on the wall.

"Oh..." I nodded, thinking about my hazy dreams all day.

"Dream? What did you dream about?" The teacher asked, looking at the expression on my face.

"I dreamed about my mother." I sat up on the bed and said, looking at the ceiling.

"Well... Thank you for your hard work." The teacher said while holding my hand.

"What's the hard work?" I asked puzzled.

"Mom is not around, it is very hard, I know." The teacher can always easily see the strength I pretended to be.

"She said she was fine." My nose was sour as I spoke.

"Then are you more at ease?" The teacher sat down in front of me.

I nodded.

"That's good." After the teacher finished speaking, she hugged me gently and let my head rest on her shoulder.

I quietly let the teacher hold her, and felt that leaning on the teacher gave me a sense of security. I unconsciously reached out and hugged her back.

"Would you like to see a doctor?" After a long time, the teacher asked me.

"I hate going to the doctor." I looked up from her shoulder and looked at her.

"But you have a fever on and off," she said.

"No, just sleep for one night." I said as I stood up from the bed.

"Be careful." I swayed and almost fell, but the teacher quickly reached out to support me.

"I'm going to drink water." I said as I walked out of the room.

"Just tell me to drink water, I'll pour it for you." The teacher followed me as he said.

"I have to go to the bathroom." I was a little embarrassed.

"Oh, then you might have to do it yourself." She smiled, the first time I've seen her smile today.

I went into the toilet, saw the pajamas I wore to bed last night in the laundry basket, and suddenly felt shy.

The teacher changed my clothes for me, so... I was seen by the teacher?God!I feel embarrassed when I think about it, and it was too unexpected for me.

"You didn't pass out in there, did you?" the teacher knocked on the door and asked.

"No, I'm fine," I replied.

"That's good." She felt relieved.

"Why did you come here?" After a while of busy work, I asked her.

"Didn't I tell you?" She was probably referring to what she just told me.

"I'm asking, why did you suddenly find me again after two days of disappearance." I asked directly.

"I didn't disappear, and you didn't look for me, did you?" She asked me back.

"You said you thought about it, why would I go to you?" I asked her angrily.

"Well, it seems that's right." She nodded.

"So? Have you figured it out?" I asked with raised eyebrows.

She shook her head.

"Can we keep the status quo first?" She was silent for a moment, then looked at me.

I nod.There's nothing wrong with keeping the status quo, at least I'm not being judged out.

"I can't find you today, I'm very anxious." She looked at me and said.

"Sorry for worrying you." I sincerely apologize.

"You need to turn on your phone from now on, okay? Don't let me not find you." Her eyes were full of worry.

"Sorry, I forgot to charge it last night," I said.

"Fortunately, I have Xiaojie's phone number. I slipped into your house smoothly." She shook the key in her hand and said.

"Oh, I'm going to hide the keys in another place." I said this deliberately.

"Then hide it better, don't let me find it." She said as she handed me the key back.

"Just kidding, you keep it." I don't know why I said that.

"Would you like to give me the keys to your house?" she asked.

"Oh, it doesn't matter, I don't have much to take at home anyway." I shrugged.

"Okay, don't you be indifferent to me?" Her sudden seriousness startled me.

"Oh, sorry." I apologized hastily.

"Oh, why are you sorry again." She reached out and rubbed my head.

"I'm sick already, don't make it worse," I protested.

"Anyway, I've seen everything that should be seen or not, and it's all right." She said meaningfully.

I thought of her helping me change my clothes, and for a moment I didn't know how to respond.

"You're blushing, so cute." She teased me on purpose.

"You're annoying." I said as I walked back to my room, lay down on the bed and wrapped myself in the comforter.

"Okay, don't be shy." She followed me back to the room, trying to snatch the quilt from me.

"Don't grab my quilt." I pulled the quilt back with all my strength, and she lost her balance and fell onto the bed.

Our two faces were less than five centimeters apart, so close that we could even feel each other's breath.

My eyes met, and I remembered the kiss in the car that day.

My eyes fell on her lips, her lips, with an indescribable attraction, made me stare irresistibly.

"Don't worry me any more, okay?" she said, kissing my forehead.

"I'm sorry," I said.

"Do you want something to eat? You haven't eaten all day, right?" She got up from the bed.

"Not hungry..." I said honestly.

"No, I still need to eat some, you can sleep again, I'll cook and call you." She pushed me back to the bed and lay down, and pulled the quilt up.

"Are you going to cook something?" I looked at her and asked.

"Well, you wait here obediently." After she finished speaking, she kissed my forehead lightly, turned and walked out.

I watched her close the door and thought to myself, this must be a dream, right?If I can be so happy when I'm sick, I don't want to be healthy at all.

Not long after, I fell asleep again.

"Get up and eat something." After an unknown amount of time, the teacher woke me up.

I obediently got up from the bed and followed the teacher to the restaurant.

"Did you cook this?" I asked looking at the food on the table.

"That's right, the patient needs to eat lighter." She said as she put a bowl of porridge in front of me.

"I didn't expect you to cook." I said with a smile.

"Hey, anyway, I have children, and I was a housewife." She said angrily.

The two of us sat down at the table together, and she watched me eat the porridge and side dishes on the table.

"Is it delicious?" she asked.

I nodded.

"Eat more, it's easy to get hungry after eating porridge." She picked up some vegetables and put them in my bowl.

"You don't want to eat?" I looked at her and asked.

"I don't eat after nine o'clock at night," she said with a smile.

"No wonder you stay in such good shape," I said.

"That's right, it's very difficult for middle-aged women to maintain a good figure." She said with complaints.

"You are not a middle-aged woman, you are still very young." I looked at her and said.

"Little devil, your mouth is so sweet." She rubbed my hair habitually.

"Why are you looking for me all of a sudden today?" I stretched out my hand to brush my messy hair.

"I told you, I want to meet you for lunch." She replied.

"You usually don't come to me for lunch." I said my thoughts.

"When did you get so smart?" She asked me back.

"Because it's you, so be smart." I smiled.

"What? Are you afraid of being cheated by me?" She looked at me with her head on her hands.

"I'm afraid you won't see me." I said honestly.

"Afraid I won't see you? Why would I not see you?" Her eyes suddenly became serious.

"I don't know. I think everyone will disappear." I said with a shrug.

"Everyone will disappear...?" She repeated what I said.

"Yes. This seems to be my learned helplessness." I smiled helplessly.

I finished a bowl of porridge silently, and she wanted to help me fill another bowl, but I didn't want it.

"Is it because of that day?" She took the initiative to bring up that matter.

"Hmm." I nodded without evasion.

Then we stopped talking.

"You went racing that day, didn't you?" I remembered the harsh sound of the engine.

"Yeah." She nodded.

"Why? Did I do something wrong? I'm sorry." I looked at her profile and said.

"It's not that you did anything wrong, it's that I didn't manage myself well and let myself cross the line." When she said these words, she never looked at me.

"What's the boundary? What do you think of me? A very special student? What's the difference between a 'very special student' and an 'ordinary student'?" I asked a bunch of questions as if I was going all out.

She did not answer.

"I don't understand, you clearly know that I like you, why can you still treat me so unscrupulously? Why do you not want to keep a distance from me at all after rejecting me, or even distance? If 16 years old is really yours Reason, then please don’t let me have any more room to imagine, I am not as strong as you, I have not experienced so many life experiences like you, I can’t bear your chic ambiguity, if I am to you, You are really a special student, so please treat me as a student, what you have done to me has far surpassed a teacher's concern for a student." I used my illness as an excuse for all my emotions in one breath Speak up.

She looked at me and didn't speak.Does it say surprise?I can't tell.

"If you really don't want me to get close, and you can't keep a distance from me, then I will distance myself. Let's go back to the teacher-student relationship that we used to have dinner together occasionally!" I continued to express my decision .

She was still looking at me, hesitating to speak thoughtfully.

"Even after I graduate, I can still have dinner with you and tell you what happened to me... Please, don't treat me so well, it's like giving me expectations, and finally taking Let's go." I met her gaze.

She tried to reach out and ruffle my hair again, but this time I avoided it.

"Can you stop teasing me like a child? Maybe I'm still a child in your eyes, but what I just said is very serious...Thank you for taking care of me, I'm sleepy..." I stood Get up, collect the things on the table, and take the bowl into the kitchen.

"Let me do the washing." She followed me, and I obediently handed the bowl to her without looking at her.

For the rest, I wrapped them in plastic wrap and put them in the refrigerator, and she came out of the kitchen after washing the dishes.

"Then, good night, the door will lock itself, so I won't see you off." I was very sad for her reaction of not expressing anything, and I just hoped that I could leave her for a while.

We glanced at each other, I turned and walked into the room, closed the door, buried myself in the quilt, and listened to the movement outside the door, until I heard the sound of the door opening and closing again, tears fell down.

This time, she was really pushed away by me.

I hid in the quilt alone and shed tears silently. I like the teacher, I like it very much.But there is nothing he can do about the ambiguity and distance given by the teacher.

It turns out that being ambiguous really makes people feel wronged.

I don't know when, I fell asleep crying.

After an unknown amount of time, I heard the sound of the door being opened.

It's Xiaojie.I think.

I know that when he comes back, he will always secretly open the door of my room to see what I am doing, and if I fall asleep, he will quietly close the door again by himself.

I lay on the bed and pretended to be asleep.

"Are you still crying?" It was the teacher's voice.

I didn't answer.

"Don't cry, okay?" She lay down gently on the bed, hugging me sideways.

I still didn't answer, but the tears that had finally stopped began to be uncontrollable again.

"I've thought about it for a long time, because I can't be nice to you, so I can't ignore you, and I can't watch you walk away..." She said softly behind me.

I stopped crying.

"Let's take it easy, okay?" she said after a pause.

I froze in bed.

"What did you say?" I turned my head and looked at her with wide eyes.

"I said, let's take our time, shall we?" Her eyes were serious.

"So, so what do you mean?" I asked her uncertainly.

"I said, I decided to try to ignore the 16-year-old, let's take it step by step, shall we?" The teacher's eyes were very gentle.

"Are you serious?" I still couldn't believe my ears.

"This is the first time I want to try, how about you (this is the first time I want to try, what do you think?)" She looked straight into my eyes, as if I was about to be seen through.

I looked at her and reached out to stroke her eyebrows gently.This is the first time, the first time I have looked at her so closely, so carefully, so boldly, so unscrupulously, tracing her outline with my fingertips.

"Tell me, what do you see?" she asked me with her eyes closed.

"I see... long eyelashes, a straight nose... your skin is so smooth, your cheeks are so smooth..." I slid my finger across her face, down to her chin.

"How does it feel?" She continued to ask with her eyes closed.

"Feeling... shortness of breath, rapid heartbeat..." I rested my fingers on her lips.

"Huh?" She felt my stopped fingers and raised her eyebrows slightly.

This time it was me who took the initiative, and slowly pressed my lips to hers.

It seems that there is an electrode on each other's lips. At the moment of contact, the emotion that has been suppressed for a long time but cannot be expressed directly is activated. It starts from a superficial start, and then explores with anticipation.

I felt her chuckle, and before I knew what was going on, she had taken control back from me.

I remember that day, I made a fake kiss in the car, but this kiss was full of serious and strong feelings. Those feelings that were once indescribable, when they found an outlet, they were freely and unrestrainedly displayed in the greedy and dissatisfied tongue. Entangled.

When the lips parted, we all gasped.

"I have a cold!" I didn't know what to say for a while.

"If you get infected, you will take care of me." She said with her forehead pressed against mine.

I laughed.Bury his head on her neck.

She tightened her hands a little, and I felt her hug me so tightly.

"Didn't you leave? I heard the door closing when you left." I raised my head and looked at her and asked.

"I was going to go, but I couldn't bring myself to actually ignore you, or watch you ignore me." She looked at me and said.

"Then why did you decide to ignore 16 again?" I asked, playing with her hair.

"Do I have a choice? You are really bad, you..." she complained dissatisfied.

"It's you who is bad...it feels like playing with my feelings." I counterattacked not to be outdone.

"I didn't want to play with your feelings, I just..." She was anxious to explain something.

I didn't wait for her to finish, and kissed her again.

She gave me a light thump, but finally took the lead again.

"Why does it always end up being kissed obediently every time?" I protested.

"No way, you are still a novice, practice slowly." She smiled rascally.

"So now, we're together?" I wanted to be more sure.

"It's already kissed like this, you still ask." She gave me a blank look.

"Oh..." I nodded.

"Okay, it's time for me to go back. It's too late to see Xiaojie." She let go of my hand and sat up on the bed.

"Well, I should probably tell him," I said.

"Then it's better to be seen after you finish speaking." She made a decision.

"Okay, I see." I walked out of the room with her.

Xiaojie just opened the door and came in.

"Teacher, you are here." Xiaojie greeted the teacher with a smile.

"Yes, your sister has a cold. Let me see how she is doing." The teacher said to him with a smile.

"Oh, sister, are you okay?" He looked at me and asked.

"It's better now," I said.

He was relieved.

"Okay, she'll leave it to you when you come back! I'm going back first." The teacher patted him on the shoulder.

"Okay, teacher, go slowly and drive carefully." We sent the teacher out together.

Not long after, I heard the sound of the teacher leaving the car.

Then I told Xiaojie what happened today.

"Wow! Sister, you really put up a fight today!" He said excitedly after hearing this.

"What are you excited about?" I asked him.

"I'm not only excited, I'm super happy! At least someone will take good care of you!" He took it for granted.

"Well, thank you." I really don't know what he was thinking.

"Okay, okay, you are a patient, go take a shower and go to sleep, remember to dry your hair." He drove me into the bathroom.

I took a shower, and this time I obediently dried my hair.

I looked at him who was concentrating in front of the computer, said good night to him, and went back to my room to sleep.

"Dear: Sleeptight, have a good dream. Love. (Dear: Sleep well, have a good dream. Love you.)" When I was about to fall asleep, the teacher sent me a text message.

"Youtoo, love. (You too, love you.)" I replied to the text message, holding the phone, and fell asleep with sweet happiness.

In this way, my teacher and I were considered "together", one month before my graduation.

That night, I slept very well.

From that day on, besides being her student, I also became her secret lover.

This is a teacher-student relationship that can get into big trouble if it is discovered!

We all have a tacit understanding, try not to see each other at school, I study in the library, she is in the research room, when she wants to go home every day, I will first use the key she gave me, sneak into the black 911 and wait for her , and then leave school with her.

When I was in class, I was the same as other students. I went to the classroom early to occupy a seat, then left with the crowd after class, and waited in the car for her to settle the students who asked questions one by one.

I often feel that it is really exciting to be in school with her.

It's just that sometimes, I feel like I'm being taken care of by her, because she pays for it wherever I go, which makes me unhappy.

"You don't understand, I'm investing in advance! When I'm old and the money is gone, I'll rely on you." Every time I express my dissatisfaction, she always says this.

Or else it is "You owe me first, so that I can get you back if you run away."

I really want to say, she dotes on me.

"I feel like I'm a little boy who was adopted." I said this to her more than once.

"You? Boyle? You haven't reached Boyle yet, have you? Boyfriend still has a lot to do..." After she finished speaking, there would be a weird smile.

Of course I understand the meaning of that smile, but... the distance and progress between us are all controlled by her.

But I know very well that I'm not ready for that thing about grown-ups.

"Honey, the graduation ceremony is tomorrow." She said suddenly the day before graduation.

"And then? Do you still have to continue with the class?" I continued to revise my essay without even looking up.

"Say, should I pawn you off and let you stay for another year?" She asked me while correcting her homework.

"Are you kidding? I don't want to stay any longer." I was really taken aback by her words.

"Of course I'm joking, it's fun to tease you." She smiled triumphantly.

"Please, I'm serious! Even if you deliberately asked me to do more homework, I obediently did it." I said.

Although we are together, this will not benefit me in English.

On the contrary, she has much higher demands on me than other students.She is demanding me at the level of an English student.

"You are going abroad, so your English must not be sloppy." She always said that.

So my homework is always different from others, but I still do it obediently.

"Yes, you are quite obedient." A doting smile appeared on her face.

She dotes on me very much.

"So you absolutely absolutely must not be me." I stood up and handed the written essay to her.

"You are so cute, how can I be willing to pawn you?" She finished speaking and kissed my forehead.

"It's best, who knows if you will suddenly miss me, or hope to see me more at school and deliberately pawn me off." I said deliberately.

"It doesn't seem too bad, let me think about it." She finished correcting the last homework and started to pack her things.

"Oh, think about it, I don't believe my grades are so good, you can still be me." I said looking at the grade registration form that should be confidential.

"Okay, let's go, don't play anymore." She put the things back on the table one by one, picked up the bag and signaled me to go first.

We walked to the door one after the other, I reached out and pressed the horn lock, then turned to look at her.

"Naughty." She knew what I was doing.

I put my arms around her neck and she surrounded me with her arms around the door.

"Kiss me." I said with my lips on hers.

The two of us kissed against the door of the research room, and occasionally we could hear the footsteps of passers-by outside the corridor.

It wasn't until she had kissed enough that she let me go slowly.

"Wait for me in the research room after the graduation ceremony tomorrow. Let's have dinner with Xiaojie." After she walked out the door, she put a key in my hand.

"I don't want to go to graduation," I said after taking the keys.

"Why? You graduated. Be happy." She looked at me who didn't have a smile on her face and asked.

"If there is no reason, I don't want to participate." After I finished speaking, I walked towards the elevator.

I didn't look back until the elevator, but the sound of high heels behind me reassured me.

We got into the elevator one after the other, and got out of the elevator one after the other. She didn't hug me from behind until we left the sphere of influence of the monitor.

"It's because Mommy's gone, isn't it?" she said softly, hugging me.

I nodded.

I just let her hold her quietly like this, and let the tears flow silently.

"Mom told me that when she was young, she told herself not to be sick because she had to take care of us; when we grew up, she told herself to be healthy and watch us both graduate from college, get married and start a business, but I didn't even There is no way for her to see it after graduating from college." I tried my best not to cry.

"Hey, she must be able to see it now." She hugged me even tighter.

"It's different, she can see it, but I can't see her anymore." I said, turning to look at her.

She didn't speak, just hugged me and let me cry wantonly in her arms, just like the day my mother died.

Her arms always make me calm.

"You can't leave me, you can't leave me alone." I said sobbing in her arms.

"I promise you." She said softly through my hair.

Her words put me at ease.

In the end, I still didn't attend the graduation ceremony.

Just went to dinner with her and Xiaojie as a graduation celebration.

Two weeks later, after the final exam, I got my graduation certificate, and my college life officially came to an end.