Records of the King of Xin'an County

"Zi Xian." Li Hui had already heard the footsteps of his best friend, but he did not look back. He was still staring at the full moon outside the window in a daze. He is not only an emperor through the ages, but also a kind elder who loves his children and grandchildren. Whether I am imitating my grandfather, acting like a baby, pretending to be innocent or ignorant, it is all to make him happy. Sometimes, maybe I just pretend When I get used to it, I will even forget my original appearance..."

However, what should the original Xin'an County King Li Hui look like?Is it a person who was depressed and obsessed in the previous life?Or are you a cautious, pretentious person in this life?Or do you do your best to honor the filial children and grandchildren under the elders?Or are you a person who is unwilling to be trapped in a corner occasionally and yearns for freedom?

These seem to be him, but none of them seem to be him—it's like several broken clay figurines are remixed with water to form a complex and contradictory him.He actually had a lot of ideas he wanted to realize, but in the end he had to choose the most important one and give up the others.Perhaps, this is responsibility, this is responsibility, this is the reality of helplessness, and this is life with mixed flavors.

Regardless of reliving one life or a hundred, it is impossible for him to truly be free and at ease.The blood is destined to be like this, the identity is destined to be like this, and the fate is destined to be like this.Even if it is reversed a little, it is impossible to completely change it.The dream of freedom created by his grandfather this year is coming to an end, and he should not indulge himself anymore.

Wang Zixian listened quietly, almost exhausted his strength to find his calmness.But all calmness is just an illusion.At this moment, he has already realized the secret hidden deep in his heart that he has never wanted to pursue, and the turmoil is beyond words.

Maybe he should rush out the door, keep himself far away from the person in front of him, and keep an appropriate distance, so as to cool down the hot emotions that are rushing in his blood.However, he couldn't bear to look away, and couldn't bear to spend every moment, every moment with him.He was even more reluctant to leave him who was so sad alone here alone.

At this time, Li Hui didn't really need an explanation, only someone needed to listen quietly: "Earlier, my grandfather had been obsessed with our marriage. When my grandmother passed away, we hadn't been engaged yet, and I think it was his." One of the regrets. Sometimes I accompany him to offer incense to my grandmother, and I can vaguely hear him talking about our grandchildren. Right now he is seriously ill, in order to reassure him, we naturally can no longer act willfully."

"Since I wanted to make my grandfather happy, why not just pay for a marriage? After all, such a major event has always been decided by my parents, and I can't help myself. It's a pity that when it comes to marriage, you should fall behind me—— —”

After regaining his senses, Li Hui looked sideways, and Wang Zixian had already come to him holding the small portrait of the woman tightly, and said in a hoarse voice, "Although it is for the joy of the saint, you don't have to wrong yourself too much. From dozens of small portraits, choose someone you like a little bit. According to the etiquette system, you can not only have a county princess, but also have two children and several concubines. From then on, your The inner house is probably bustling." Probably no one knows, when he spoke, his heart seemed to be cut back and forth by a knife, full of blood and pieces of flesh, his lips turned white from the pain, and the blood on his face had almost faded , extremely pale.

Li Hui was silent for a while, then sighed: "There is nothing to choose. Just looking at the small portrait, how can you tell what kind of temperament a person is? Moreover, having a wife is enough. What does it matter to me if the back house is lively Good? I don't want to spend all day worrying about these inner affairs, listening to them criticizing and speculating on each other."

"Then just choose a gentle and beautiful woman with a suitable family background. To be able to know and accompany you, it is best to know some calligraphy and painting. I can judge with you in the future, and life will be interesting." Wang Zixian said again, his voice became deeper and deeper. , the emotion surging in the lowered eyes was almost crazy.The scroll in the palm of his hand has been deformed and torn by him, but he seems to be ignorant of it.

"You're right." Li Hui said indifferently, without any enthusiasm at all.He didn't look at these portraits carefully, so he flipped through them casually.After glancing at the few figures in the corner, such as the counties of origin, father and brother's place of origin, etc., it seems to be enough.The Yan family selected for him, not only the offshoot daughters of the top aristocratic families, but also the daughters of the second-class families, all of whom were worthy of the princess of the county in terms of status.Moreover, the positions of father and brother are generally lower, not after high officials and nobles.

Prince Pu's mansion really does not need a powerful concubine of the county, so as not to arouse unnecessary suspicion and endless troubles.Of course, if she was really a noble daughter of a family whose father and brother had a very high status, she would definitely look down on an idle county king like him.If they marry into a high-ranking family, they will definitely have a rich future in the future, and it will be more beneficial to the family.

"Jingzhao Wei's family is not as good as Jingzhao Du's, who can still get a little favor from his aunt; Qixian Wang's family is good, but that aunt-great-grandmother should look down on me, and will not give up in the end; Hedong Liu's family is a bit special, I heard The family education is very strict, and if the temperament is not gentle, you should be extremely cautious in your words and deeds. The daughter of the Qin family? It should be a side branch. My uncle and grandpa have a lot of prejudice against grandpa, so maybe they won't agree easily..."

Wang Zixian sat beside him silently, watching him closely, but still didn't dare to show the emotions in his heart.Listening to these words, he seemed to feel that he was suffering.Clearly he didn't want to hear even half a word, he didn't want to listen, but he still couldn't bear to leave.Even if Li Hui had no affection for the future princess of the county, but just obeyed his parents' orders to marry, he couldn't feel a little bit relieved.

Because, he was doomed to be impossible to get him.Whoever got him, got his affections or whatever, he couldn't take it.Even just thinking about it is heartbreaking.

Suddenly, a voice came out from the bottom of my heart, and said temptingly: If you don't give it a try, how will you know if he has the same affection for you?If you don't fight hard, how will you know whether he will soften his heart for a moment and accept your affection?Even if you are doomed to share him with others, at least you can "share", right?Is it better than you leaving alone, while he stays in Chang'an to marry a wife and have children, without knowing anything about your affection?

shut up! !No nonsense! !I must not lose him!If you tell everything, you will never go back to the beginning!If he doesn't accept it, we can't even be friends! !Even if there is even the slightest possibility of losing him, I can't take the risk!Compared with losing him, I would rather... I would rather watch him get married...

The voice in my heart continued to sneer and said: After he got married, didn't you lose him?A few years later, compared with his wife and children, what is more important for you?He has become someone else's lord and someone else's father, how much attention can he devote to you?After a few more years of separation, he will be surrounded by wives, concubines and children, so what is your friendship that lasted only a year? !I'm afraid it will only be better than strangers! !

Shut up! !We are close friends, life-and-death friends, people who can entrust everything to each other—but all of this does not include the affection of pleasing each other.Moreover, a life-and-death friendship is different from ordinary friends, even if we are separated for a long time, the friendship will not fade...See you in a few years, we will not change!

Oh, really?Do you really believe what Mr. said?How could his so-called life-and-death friendship be compared with this irreplaceable affection? !In this world, you are alone with him. After losing him, how desperate should you be?Can you really accept it? !Let me out, let me try, you won't be disappointed...  

Seeing that his friend's expression was changing, and the corners of his mouth were bitten, Li Hui called out softly, "Zixian?" Thinking of the jokes between the two before, he only thought that he was a close friend, but he still couldn't accept the fact that he had "lost". He comforted her and said: "Finding someone you like as a wife is naturally better than someone like me who has to obey my parents' orders to get married. So, you don't have to worry, fate will arrive at any time."

No!I already have someone I like!At the moment of discovery, it was destined not to be spoken out, not to be made public!It is doomed that it will never be possible to get him as one wishes! !

Wang Zixian grieved in his heart, and could only force a smile: "Of course I'm not in a hurry. The matter of tribute has not been completed yet, and it doesn't matter if the matter of getting married can be delayed." He is already in enough pain now, if Li Hui takes the initiative to arrange marriage for him again , it is even more difficult to accept.Only by temporarily severing the idea of ​​friends can one avoid being hit directly to the heart when one is unprepared in the future.

Li Hui nodded and said: "If you get the first place in the exam, there must be many people who will catch sons-in-law at the bottom of the list. Then you will have to choose carefully." It can be regarded as a family of officials and eunuchs.There are such down-and-out sons almost everywhere in Chang'an City, and there is no advantage in discussing relatives right now.If it takes the first place in the middle class, that family background will be the icing on the cake. Naturally, countless families flock to get this rare good son-in-law.

However, when he thought of the scene where the crowd rushed to beg for a good son-in-law in the future, for some reason, he didn't feel happy at all.It seemed to be dragged down by his current depressed mood.

The two sat by the desk, one flipping through the portraits with little interest, and the other staring at each other silently. The atmosphere has never been so dull, almost making people breathless.The maid who wanted to bring in the supper hastily put down the food table, then bowed and retreated, not daring to look at them more, for fear of offending them.

After a long time, Li Huifang said: "It's better to just this daughter of the Du family. Maybe Yue Niang will be happier." The rest of the family are good, but he thinks it's better to marry a princess who can make relatives feel close.At least, the Crown Princess Du will take care of her more, and Princess Changning will get along with this sister-in-law easily.In the future, even if they stay away from Chang'an and return to Junzhou, they will still be able to exchange gifts from time to time, and will not easily break the current relationship with relatives.

Wang Zixian struggled to look away from his face: "Why don't I ask someone to check on this daughter of the Du family? In case there are any omissions. Her relatives should also be checked carefully, and it is best not to give it to you in the future. What trouble will it bring." If you must marry, then marry a woman who will not hurt A Hui—no, he still doesn't want him to marry a wife—but how can a majestic county king not marry a wife? !

"It should be so." Li Hui pushed the portraits aside, glanced at the already cold supper when he got up, and said in a low voice, "I'm a little tired, I'm going to bed first...Zixian, I will trouble you for the rest .”

"It doesn't have to be like this between you and me." Prince Xian replied, watching his back disappear outside the door, and picked up the portrait of Mrs. Du again - this is a girl who is about their age, looks gentle and elegant, There is even gentleness in the smile.It was just a portrait, and the jealousy in his heart surged out. He almost wanted to tear this person into pieces, or drive him away completely, so that he would never be able to appear in front of Li Hui.

Such a face should be ugly.Fortunately, A Hui has already left, otherwise he might know that there are such shameful thoughts hidden in his heart.Oh, yes, he has always been a gentleman, calm and dignified, how could he have such thoughts about his best friend?Any ordinary person would never have affection for a close friend of the same sex, and even want to completely dominate him, right?

In front of A Hui, he can only be the magnanimous Prince Langya forever—he must never be vicious and unscrupulous, let alone show his full affection and make him hate him!

Just when he was trying to convince himself, the voice in his heart sneered again: When you are in pain and he is enjoying the happiness of family, can you still be so restrained?Can you really watch him belong to someone else?Can you really accept the fact of losing him?What is a gentleman?What is being gentle?So what is it to be arrogant?All this is nothing compared to losing him! !

Wang Zixian stood up abruptly, almost overturning the desk in front of him.He hurried out and walked towards the bedroom on the right.However, after standing in front of the door for a while, he still didn't push the door to enter, and slept with his friends as usual, but left in a little embarrassment.