I heard you don't know Mary Sue? [Transmigration Book]

Feng Wulin sat in the ward for nearly an hour, Feng Mo didn't wake up, his sleep quality was very poor in his previous life, let alone a nap, he might not even be able to fall asleep at night, but now after two months of adjustments, he I can try my best to fall asleep, as long as I don't have nightmares.

It's just that when there are people around, he is always nervous, so during the afternoon nap, the doctor will send Nurse Meier to be on duty in other wards.Feng Wulin was able to sit here for an hour without Feng Mo waking up, it could almost be said to be a miracle.But the boy can really calm down Feng Wulin, presumably his feelings towards Feng Wulin are not much different.

Yang Jin had been probing with Yan Liang in the dean's office for half an hour, and the content was nothing more than about the further cooperation between Feng's and Yan's, and finally a tie.Although both of them were a little unsatisfied, after all, they followed the gentleman's route, and it was very rare to meet an opponent, but the gentleman's style was not for show, so they decisively began to drink tea, waiting for their buddies or bosses to appear.

Speaking of which, Yan Liang and Feng Wulin can be regarded as bamboo horses, and the cooperation between Yan and Feng has been going on for more than 40 years, that is, it started from the previous generation.Even though they grew up together, Yan Liang is usually gentle and elegant, and his gestures are as elegant as an ancient nobleman. This kind of personality is naturally far from Feng Wulin's. Although the relationship between the two is good, they have very little common language. , The content of each conversation is most likely official business.

At this moment, Yan Liang smiled and waited for a full half an hour. The invited young master Feng didn't even see him. The schadenfreude was suppressed, and he went out to find President Feng.Sure enough, even the rumored "gentleman with a good temper" would have to suffer if he met his president. After all, not everyone has the capital to be so arrogant, but this time there was no appointment time, and the president didn't make it clear that he would come. That's why Yan Ershao probably laughed so stiffly just now because he thought of this. It's really rare that someone finally realized his helplessness that he usually suffers from.However, although Feng Shao was arrogant, he also had a degree, and naturally he would not do such things as breaking his promise.

When Yang Jin knocked on the door, Feng Mo woke up.His consciousness is not very clear yet, he just saw someone in front of him in a daze, he was startled, he instinctively stretched out his hand and rubbed his eyes, he propped up his body and sat up after seeing who it was, seeing Feng Wulin's expression was calm Staring at him intently, he just pursed his lips, brushed off the messy colorful hair on his head, yawned, and looked down at his hands carefully, not finding the existence of cyanosis, so he was vaguely relieved , rubbed his brows without saying a word.

Even after two months, he still couldn't help but wonder if he was still alive when he woke up. In his dreams, he would often have cyanosis all over his body in the late stage of a heart attack. His bruised skin was very dazzling, accompanied by Unrelieved pain.It has become a habit to check the color of your fingers every time you wake up.

Clean fingertips are proof that he is still alive and has come to another world.

Feng Wulin carefully observed the boy's movements, and slightly raised his eyebrows.Although Feng Mo couldn't see anything on his face, he could still feel the boy's tense body when he looked at his fingers and the subsequent relaxation. It seems that this boy still has some secrets that Yang Jin didn't even investigate. But it's okay to have a secret, as long as it's harmless.

"Young Master Feng, Second Young Master Yan is waiting for you in the dean's office." Yang Jin's voice came from the door.

"Understood. Let's go." Feng Wulin responded casually, but didn't leave immediately. He just picked up the water bottle and poured Feng Mo a glass of water. Watching him finish the drink one gulp, the paleness on his lips faded a little. After rubbing his head, he rang the bell to call the nurse.He didn't stand up until Nurse Mel appeared at the door.

"That book is for you. I'll go first...to see you tomorrow." The words were addressed to the boy, but they were obviously just a declaration, and they didn't mean to ask for his opinion, even when Feng Mo looked up , and only saw his back.

Nurse Meier stood at the door and watched the big male god Feng go away, the fascination in her eyes and the blush on her face hadn't faded away.

Feng Mo got out of bed and was about to wash up, but turned back and sat down again, staring at the book brought by the boy on the table for a while, pursing his bloodless lips tightly.

After a long time, he let go of the hand that was clenched with white knuckles, and stretched out to gently and slowly touch the beautifully bound book, then picked it up and looked at it closely, but did not open it, just put it on the pillow Then she went to wash her face with Nurse Meier's obviously crazy eyes.

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A pale face and strangely colored hair were clearly reflected in the bathroom mirror.

The boy stood barefoot on the wet ground, his toes slightly curled up, and one hand was pressed against the mirror, just covering the boy's eyes in the mirror.He paused, then withdrew his hand and pressed it on his eyes, then slowly squatted down and buried his head in his knees.

Cover it like this, so you can't see it, that's fine.

His face does not reveal any emotion, he can protect himself very well.But the eyes are not good enough, there are still emotions inside.

Expectations are fruitless.Waiting for a long time, looking forward to it for a long time, and then ending up with nothing, it takes a long, long time to forget.Still can't forget.

"Do you think I will admit you if you do this?! Don't think about it! Even if I have a child, I can only have Ahan's child. I will never accept you until I die! Dreaming!..."

What the woman said was right, it's not about expecting and working hard to be recognized.

He cannot make the same mistake again.

But that teenager was very different.He made him feel calm and safe.

Seeing him, he will feel relaxed; watching him talk, he will occasionally have the urge to answer him; seeing his behavior similar to expressing concern, he will feel strange but warm.

Is that book a... gift?

Forget it.He said it was for him.

Don't count.Just "give".

The first and only gift in 18 years that wasn't a gift.

Feng Wulin would not know how unique that book was to the boy.In his opinion, he just gave something casually, and he might forget it when he turned around.But that was the first time Fengmo received a gift from someone he knew from his previous life to the present, and this person was not a stranger he had never met, and there was no pity in his eyes.

Before he died in the previous life, that kind girl also gave him a book, but Feng Mo knew she was different from him.The girl is indeed kind and warm enough, but she still doesn't know how to hide her emotions, or she doesn't hide her emotions well enough.She pity him, Fengmo knows.That kind of pity just came from her kindness, Feng Mo didn't think there was anything wrong with her, it was just about pity, he had received too much, too much to hold in his heart.

When he heard that the book was for him, he actually had the feeling of returning to his childhood in the previous life.The woman was overjoyed to receive a letter from the man named Han, and gave him a toy dog, worn out, but the first and only gift from her mother.It was only later that the toy dog ​​was crushed into several pieces, and he lost it ever since.

Later, all the beautiful dreams turned into nothingness, and the desire to work hard desperately and expect to be recognized took root in my heart and could never be pulled out.

Even if she said she would never want him, even if she died in front of him, even if he had made so much effort and was still not recognized, even if he died alone in the end, that wish still existed.

exist forever.

Is it really that difficult to treat him as a normal person?

After Feng Wulin appeared, he almost thought he was back in the past, the difference was that when the young man looked at him, he was calm.

That longing was revived again, and he was almost desperate.

What are you waiting for?

What else can you expect?

Everything is just self-righteousness, Feng Mo is not a normal person, everyone says you are sick.That boy, even if he doesn't care about these things, so what?

Emotions are not equal from the beginning.

Maybe Feng Wulin is just interested in making a friend in the most ordinary way.It is of course good to be friends, if it is not suitable, you can break up at any time.Isn't that the friendship between teenagers, it's normal.

But he can't.Fengmo can't do that kind of "normal", he can't understand it, he can't accept it, he doesn't know what his obsession means, he knows that kind of desire is "sick" in the eyes of others, but That has already become an obsession.

When that woman died in front of him, that obsession was extinguished.Because even close relatives can't accept it.

He couldn't look forward to another one.That kind of desire will continue to grow and become more and more luxuriant with Feng Wulin's approval and care, and then one day, Feng Wulin can no longer accompany him, the boy will have his own life, and he will eventually leave, so this A tree will wither in an instant, leaving no greenery behind.

Even if there is no heart disease, even if the original owner Feng Mo does not come back, he will die.

A tree needs sunlight to grow, without sunlight it will wither.But where it takes root it needs to be nourished.When it withers at the most prosperous time, the places that provide nutrients have no power to protect it, and the end is that they wither together.

Fengmo will die.

This is his world as a personality disorder patient, his only obsession.

Feng Mo never told anyone about these things, even when he was hypnotized by a psychiatrist.

Such a world and such an obsession are indeed "abnormal". Even if he doesn't understand the worldview of ordinary people, he still knows that his world is not accepted by others.People only think he is "sick" and "dark", and the person he regards as an obsession must be very unfortunate.

That woman must also think that she is very unlucky, to be haunted by a "monster" for so many years.

The whole body of the squatting boy was trembling slightly, his fingers clenched his trouser legs so hard that his knuckles protruded.Time seems to prolong infinitely in silence and oppression.

It wasn't until the nurse knocked on the door urgently that the boy forced himself to relax. Excessive force made his hands and feet numb. After resting for a while, he opened the door and walked out. The whole person had returned to his usual appearance, but Never looked in the mirror again.

That night, the nurse on duty watched him leaning on the bed, staring at the book in his hand, and asked him if he wanted to turn on the light. The boy just shook his head and sat like that all night because the curtains were not drawn. Looking out from the ward, you can see the very round moon in the sky, and the moonlight is much brighter than usual.

Feng Mo still didn't read that book, but put it back into the drawer after sitting there all night.

It's unique.Yes, unique to him.But it can't represent anything, it doesn't represent commitment, nor does it represent recognition, so it can't be sunk.

When a person is going to hell, he can't try to drag another person down because of the so-called obsession and nostalgia. That's too selfish and he can't do it.

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