[Comprehensive] Goat Song

The man just sat on the cold bench in winter. He didn't wear a scarf or gloves. He even only covered his head with a sand-colored overcoat over the thin shirt and vest.

He is so tall, but his body is so thin, so thin that it seems that the winter wind can kill him...or, he doesn't need others at all, Dazai Osamu alone can easily destroy himself.

Obviously in a lively, crowded street.But he looked lonely and out of place with his surroundings.If Zhongyuan Aiya leaves him.He will probably just sit here quietly and wait until everything is quiet and all the hustle and bustle fades away.

fraud.

Aiya Nakahara pursed her lips, and met the man's eyes with a sense of condemnation.She clearly knew that more than two-thirds of what Osamu Dazai showed at this moment was acting skills, but she still softened her heart.

Because, those iris-colored eyes are so empty...Empty, as if even the slightest glimmer of light is like a candle that is about to burn out.

"You big liar," the girl said, but opened her arms.She walked over, even though she was covered in pitch black, she still looked like a bright flame in this winter night, and this fire fell into Dazai Osamu's arms.Her head was pressed against the man's chest, which allowed her to easily hear the sound of the beating heart.

That is the roar of life.

"Well, I'm a liar." Osamu Dazai closed his dark eyes with only a glimmer of light.He even hooked the corners of his lips, putting a somewhat careless smile on his face.But feeling the heat in his arms that was extraordinarily warm in winter, the expression on the man's face gradually couldn't be maintained. "It's so warm, Aiya."

"It's not warm at all, Ji's body is as cold as ice." Saying this, Nakahara Aiya tightened her arms, and grabbed the windbreaker fabric on Dazai Osamu's back with her soft hands.

Osamu Dazai didn't speak, just smiled softly.The man hung his head, hiding all his expressions in the girl's fluffy short hair of the same color as him.

"It's snowing, Zhi."

Aiya Nakahara allowed Dazai Osamu to move, she obediently raised her head, looking at the gloomy and starless night sky.

"Well, because it's winter."

"I really have to go, dad is still waiting for me."

"…Oh, yes."

Osamu Dazai let go of his embrace silently, his smile was still so perfect, even his body and small movements showed a kind of ease.But when Zhongyuan Aiya raised her head to look over, she could only see those eyes that were constantly begging for help.

Why ask for help?Aiya Zhongyuan didn't want to understand this yet, but the girl at this moment seemed to be standing on the edge of a cliff.In front of her was Osamu Dazai who had fallen off the cliff.

This frail man seemed to have obtained strength somewhere, and this strength made Osamu Dazai stretch out one hand to hold the cliff tightly, so as not to fall down like a dead tree.But his eyes were still looking at the bottom of the cliff.

Why didn't it fall, why is this man still alive?

Aiya Zhongyuan raised this doubt in her heart that was not even a question.

Because in her eyes, she could clearly see many people standing on the edge of the cliff, they seemed to be calling Dazai Osamu's name, and they seemed to be just watching.

"Dazai-kun."

"Dazai."

Among them, a silent person was holding Osamu Dazai's outstretched hand, neither pulling it up nor yelling for him to climb up.The orange figure is so silent, but the tightly clasped hands are so tight.

So Aiya Nakahara also stretched out her hand and held the palm that the man hadn't put down.She grabbed Dazai Osamu, as if leading a child who was younger and weaker than her, and ran with him.

That is, this "child" is Osamu Dazai who once frightened many people in the society.

In the slowly falling snow, Nakahara Aiya dragged Dazai Osamu and turned the corner, where the orange-haired Nakahara Nakaya was leaning his head under the street lamp.

Zhong Yuanzhong also clicked his tongue irritably when he saw two people, one big and one small.Then he dropped the cigarette in his hand and stubbed it out with his foot.

"Eh? Wait a minute, Aiya, I don't want to get close to this pitch-black hat, I will be infected with the virus!" The sand-colored man shouted artificially, and made a movement that wanted to vomit. "Whoa, bad night."

"Huh?! Believe it or not, if you say one more word, this fist will appear on your face?"

"It's because you are so irritable that you can't grow tall, Chuya~"

"Very well, Aiya, come here, I will send him to the hospital now."

And Nakahara Aiya, who was stopped by Nakahara Nakaya's name, didn't speak, she even shook her head stubbornly, and used both hands to grab Dazai Osamu.Looking at that look, I really think that I won't give up until I drag him to Zhongye in the Central Plains.

"Do you want to be spanked, Aiya?"

"Then hit... I'm not afraid." Aiya Zhongyuan glanced at her father with her cobalt blue eyes, and there was grievance in those eyes.Zhongyuan Zhong, who should be most angry, can't laugh or cry.

"Hey! I haven't seen you for two years, and Chuya, you actually started domestic violence!"

So Zhong Yuanzhong really threw a punch.He clenched his knuckle hand tightly, and punched Osamu Dazai hard in the face with his phalanges.

"It's long overdue."

As he spoke, he glanced sideways at Osamu Dazai, and a relaxed smile appeared on one side of his mouth.This expression is not uncommon on Nakahara Nakaya, but he rarely uses this face to face Dazai Osamu.

The two diamonds collided with each other, and no one could do anything to the other, so the pair of partners never quarreled from the chief's office to the mission location, and then went back to report.

Osamu Dazai used and even played with Nakahara Chuya countless times, and Nakahara Nakahara beat this man into the medical room countless times and tried every means to prevent this guy from going to death.

But no matter what, Nakahara Chuya really believed in this damn guy, and Osamu Dazai believed in the other party as if he believed in himself, because he knew Nakahara Chuya as if he knew himself.

said the orange-haired man.

"Let's go, Aiya."

he said again.

"What are you doing standing there, follow me, Dazai."

Osamu Dazai is a coward, a coward who is afraid of even gentle cotton.

There is nothing in this world that Osamu Dazai cannot see through.At a very young age, he saw many things clearly, and after seeing clearly, he had greater despair.

He became bored with life, searched aimlessly and couldn't find a purpose to live on.So he kept trying to commit suicide, but at the time of suicide, why didn't he want someone to pick him up and tell him, "You give me to live."

He clearly knows the beauty of this world, and he also clearly understands that there are beautiful scenes everywhere.But when waking up in every dark dream, when he "shivered" thinking that I was going home, even he himself didn't know which one was the home he wanted to go back to.

Want to live, want to die, want to live, want to die...

Osamu Dazai is like a child standing in the dark world, crying loudly, trying to find the strength to live.But it didn't appear anywhere, no such existence appeared anywhere.There is no motivation for him to live, no reason to live, and no one is willing to bear the weight of Osamu Dazai's life.

Oda Sakunosuke gave him direction, gave him the strength to continue walking even if he was alone, and continue to wander like a stray dog ​​alone.Men don't feel unlucky, and never feel lucky, because everything will pass.When he was wandering and struggling in the world, he always remembered this sentence.

But the person who could bear the weight of a life did not appear anywhere.

And on this snowy night, under this street lamp.Osamu Dazai saw a small girl with iris-colored hair and blue eyes reaching out to him again.She is very similar to Zhongya Zhongyuan, whether it's the round eyes with the corners of the eyes slightly raised, or the temper that admits death and eight hundred cows can't be dragged back.This girl is disobedient and clumsy, but looking at it like this, he suddenly felt... Ah, so she also looks a bit like me.

It turned out to be here.

Osamu Dazai followed Aiya Nakahara's tender palm upwards, and then he saw Chuya Nakahara frowning impatiently.The other party had an irritable face, but he quietly held Aiya Zhongyuan's other hand, and did not drag her away.

It turns out that someone has already taken my life on my back.

It turns out that I can survive.

There was a sense of fear in his chest that made his soul tremble.While expecting that one day he would lose this warmth... while stretching out his slightly trembling hand.

Then, for the first time, he took the initiative to hold Aiya Nakahara's hand.

"gone."

"Well, let's go to dinner, I'm hungry."

"What do you want to eat?... Aiya put on her coat properly, it almost fell off."

"I have no free hands."

"If Chuya treats you, let's go eat crab meat hot pot~."

"Is that delicious? Ah, I don't think I've ever eaten hot pot with my father?"

"It's so delicious that you have to make an appointment in advance, but it's probably not available now... Anyway, let's go eat~"

"Since you know you can't make an appointment now, don't mention it to me!!"

Noisy and helpless.This is the 11-year-old Xue Ye in Aiya Zhongyuan's memory.

The author has something to say:

This chapter was written a long time ago and was not posted until today www

At the same level as if I didn’t remove the side branches of the top advantage (this is what jojo’s wonderful metaphor) I guess I can’t express this change process well

At the beginning, Dazai looked at Aiya Zhongyuan as an appendage of Chuya Zhongyuan, and he stripped off all the parts that belonged to him in this child→Slowly, Aiya Zhongyuan became his Dogs (although he hates dogs very much) → Later, when Aiya Nakahara and Zhongyuan Zhong also appeared at the same time, he suddenly woke up as if he had woken up from a dream, and realized something, for example, this cub seemed to be his Kind of(what??) → And now, he clearly realizes that this child is also his cub www

My understanding of Shuanghei may be different from everyone else's, but in my heart, Jiu really has been pulling Dazai silently.He didn't want this damned, treacherous guy with extremely strong vitality to die so easily, and he felt that this guy really hated him to death, so forget it hahhh

But, I'm sorry, I really think that the pair of double blacks hate each other and hate each other, and it really doesn't delay the conversation (I got it for real.jpg)