Huanzhu's love life

The relationship between the queen and the imperial concubine partly applies to the following sentence: The understanding between rivals is, to a large extent, greater than that between lovers.It is applicable because they have indeed achieved "knowing themselves and the enemy"; part of it is because they are not rivals in love at all.What they wanted most, just happened to be staggered.

Another pair of "rivals in love" is in a completely different situation.Ziwei and Qing'er both knew about each other's existence, but they both thought that the other didn't know that they already knew about it.A rather awkward statement.Ziwei and Qing'er have never fought, so naturally they don't know much about each other.

This night, when Qing'er and Erkang were embracing and sleeping soundly in the scholar's mansion, Ziwei was dragged by the insomnia little swallow and lay side by side on the big kang on the first floor, counting the glass windows that were not too big or small. A few stars are framed.

Everyone else in Shufangzhai was already fast asleep.Where they were, there was nothing but darkness.

Both Ziwei and Xiaoyanzi had some unresolved worries today.

A few days ago, I died with the prince.

Ziwei can be regarded as his daughter. These days, even though she lives in the palace, she has received more care from Prince He and Fujin.

After leaving with the prince, Ziwei felt that she had lost some support.

Little Swallow is another matter.

At dusk, when Ziwei went to the Palace of Compassion and Peace, Little Yanzi went to the Palace of Compassion and Peace alone to greet the queen.Before she left, Nanny Rong hurriedly grabbed her and said a few words.

Nanny Rong only said, how could she be so willing to give lucky money to the servants for her children's family.

Little Yanzi felt strange at the time, there was nothing to be willing or reluctant to part with, what they Shufangzhai gave was not as good as the fraction of Yanxi Palace.

After thinking about it all the way, I finally understood the meaning of Nanny Rong.

It was still during the Chinese New Year, and the superiors gave her and Ziwei two small purses, each containing a gold and silver nude.She and Ziwei both liked it, and thought about how Mingyue, Caixia, Xiao Dengzi and Xiao Zhuozi had worked so hard for a year, why they shouldn't be given lucky money, so they closed the doors and shared these little things.

It's not an imperial gift, and it's not too much. It's right to reward the people in the house for their hard work for a year.

Mother Rong probably meant that Shufangzhai's walls were not tight enough, and things were leaked out.

Little Yanzi is the most taboo, in fact, it has never been that she can't go out at home.

Little Yanzi knows that there are no secrets in the palace, and even if there are secrets, everyone will tacitly hide them from the person with the highest authority. This is one of the strange things she can't understand.She learned how to learn from things, but she still didn't understand the reason.

She was planning to pester Fu Kang'an to ask him when he returned to Beijing.But I'm afraid that won't happen.

Little Swallow prevents secrets from being leaked in the palace, and protects herself even more. She once made an appointment with Ziwei and Jinsuo. If she dared not do it in front of others, she would not do it behind her; explain.

But Jin Suo did it, but Little Swallow and Ziwei didn't.

Little Yanzi helped to cover up the matter of Ziwei and Erkang, but the truth was still exposed.Fortunately, it was Fukang'an at the time.

As for the little swallow...

Ziwei lay on the warm kang with her eyes closed and rested, without moving her hands or feet, she just opened her mouth and asked Little Swallow, "Didn't you say earlier that what you are most taboo about is that something happened to your own house, and you only know about it when someone outside informs you?" , This time the things in our family were exposed, and it was expected. Why are you troubled?"

Little Yanzi spread her arms and said, "I'm too greedy, so I can't sleep because I blame myself."

Ziwei laughed at what she said, and said: "You know it yourself."

Little Yanzi had no choice but to laugh and said: "Speaking out will scare you to death." After saying this, she got up from the kang and said, "I'll go get something down, don't fall asleep."

Ziwei opened her left eye a little, saw that Little Swallow didn't turn on the lamp, and staggered up the stairs, but luckily she didn't fall.Ziwei got up too, and lit the lamp on the kang table, so that it would be brighter when she came back.

When Little Swallow came back, she was holding a half-sized box. It didn't look very delicate, but it looked solid.

Little Swallow opened the box on the kang table.

Ziwei poked her head to see that there was nothing else, just a few letters.After thinking about it again, I understood the whole story.He only murmured: "You are too courageous."

Little Yanzi laughed at herself and said, "Death is more than a crime."

Little Yanzi took out another letter casually, handed it to Ziwei and said, "Are you interested in taking a look?"

Ziwei scolded: "You dare to let others see this!"

Little Yanzi smiled and said, "If you don't look at it, it will be gone."

After finishing speaking, he threw the letter in his hand into the brazier where the charcoal was burning, and the tongue of fire licked the letter away.

Subconsciously, Ziwei stretched out her hand to stop her.

Little Swallow stared into Ziwei's eyes and said, "This is something external to me. I can't take it away."

Ziwei lay back on the kang again, watching Little Yanzi send the remaining letters in the box into the brazier one by one, but she couldn't say anything.

Little Yanzi didn't go back to lie down with Ziwei until she burned all the letters.

Ziwei said: "He knows you are doing this, what will he think?"

Little Yanzi smiled and said, "I don't know him that well yet, so I can't imagine how he feels."

Ziwei asked: "Because of Nanny Rong's words, are you so suspicious?"

Little Yanzi said: "I couldn't sleep just now, I was just asking myself, if I were going to die right now, what would still be with me and wouldn't be lost."

Ziwei frowned and said, "What does it matter?"

Little Swallow smiled and said: "Of course it has something to do with it. I originally wanted to keep his letter, and it was also a thought when I went our separate ways in the future. But if I die, these letter papers won't be with me either. Leave. At that time, they are just like gold and silver, and they are all extraneous things that I can't take away. If I want to put you, me, him, and the people in Shufangzhai in danger for these extraneous things, I deserve to die."

Ziwei sighed: "What you said is also reasonable." Then she forced a smile: "Then have you figured out something that will not be lost when you die?"

Little Swallow said: "Memory is with you. Haha, don't believe this, because, you see, he has been gone for too long, and I almost can't remember his voice."

Ziwei said: "But even now, when I close my eyes, I can still hear Erkang's voice."

This is the first time Xiao Yanzi heard Ziwei mention Erkang after the day Erkang and Ziwei met.She didn't know if it meant recovery when a person could breathe normally and mention his ex's name.

Ziwei said: "I don't hate him at all in my heart. I don't even want to be angry. I have to let myself live a better life than him. Whether I live a good life or not, the standard is only in my heart. What is he capable of? Make my goal."

Little Yanzi nodded, then said again: "Then...do you regret the time you spent with him?"

Ziwei said: "It's great to be able to taste that kind of taste. I don't regret it."

Little Swallow smiled and said, "I think so too."

Ziwei also smiled and said: "I can't help myself. I can't help myself."

Little Yanzi stuck out her tongue and said: "If you say this, it will become sophistry. I'm afraid no one will believe your sincerity."

Ziwei said: "Not only others, even I at this moment don't believe that I have done such a thing." After finishing speaking, she laughed again: "Before that, I couldn't even imagine it."

Little Yanzi said: "But, no matter how you are now, if you meet the right person in the future, you will immediately remember that feeling again."

Ziwei said: "You are talking nonsense to comfort people. How many people will never meet one in a lifetime. When I meet this, it will be the end."

Little Yanzi smiled and said, "This is nonsense. If he is really that person, how could you recover so quickly after breaking up with him?"

Ziwei laughed after thinking about it, and said: "It seems that I don't love him enough."

Ziwei said again: "But this doesn't mean that I will fall in love with other people. You count our ages, I'm afraid we won't be able to wait until this year, so we will leave the cabinet."

Little Swallow corrected her: "You don't call 'leaving the court', you call 'marrying'."

Ziwei teased: "Only you can 'get out of the pavilion', we dare not snatch it."

Little Yanzi was taken aback for a moment, then smiled, and said, "That's right."

Ziwei asked: "I asked you what your plan was before, and you said that people don't like you. Now you know that people like you, how are you?"

Little Swallow said: "It's not very good."

Ziwei pushed her and said: "I heard the gossip from the Palace of Compassion and Ning, and I will definitely find a Fujin for the third son of Fu Heng's family who will not lose to the fifth elder brother."

Little Yanzi pursed her lips and said: "I just said, there are no secrets in the palace. This can reach the ears of a girl like you."

Ziwei said angrily: "Don't interrupt."

Little Yanzi could only ask: "When you were in the paddock, didn't you also say that our marriage is out of control?"

Ziwei said: "That's my despondent words of self-pity and self-pity. At that time, I was stunned by what happened to Erkang. Don't take it seriously. The cow doesn't drink water and presses its head forcefully. I don't even dare to hum. I was holding back all the time. Resentment, not only to Erkang, but also to myself."

Little Yanzi said: "You can't say that all the time. Even if you went to talk to your superiors, there would be no good results. Besides, he flinched first. If you rushed out and said it, it would be in vain."

Ziwei smiled bitterly and said, "Why don't I know. Don't talk about me, talk about you."

Little Yanzi smiled and said, "So there is me. I..."

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