I Love You the Most in the World [Entertainment Circle]

Lin Anlan and Cheng Yu came to see him the next day.

When Jiang Xu saw Cheng Yu, he turned his head away and said indifferently, "Go out."

Cheng Yu didn't want to see him either, so he said to Lin Anlan in a gentle voice, "I'll wait for you outside."

"Ah."

Cheng Yu left, and only Jiang Xu and Lin Anlan were left in the ward.

Jiang Xu sat on the bed, looked at him for a while, and then said, "I thought, I'll never see you again."

Lin Anlan chuckled, "Thinking too much, when do you miss me when you want to see me? Most of the time, as long as you want to see, you will see me, right?"

"If that's the case, why have we only met three or five times in half a year?"

"Otherwise, how many times do you want to see him? Thirty or fifty times? It's not necessary."

He looked at Jiang Xu with a calm expression, "Did you do it on purpose? Deliberately want to ask for death?"

"Isn't it possible?" Jiang Xu turned his head to look out the window, "I am like this now, what's the point of being alive."

"How are you doing now?" Lin Anlan asked him, "There are managers, assistants and fans. If you get hurt, other people around you can't worry about it. Your manager doesn't dare to let your fans know, for fear that they won't be able to bear it. , don't you care about that?"

"What about you? Are you worried?" Jiang Xu turned his head back.

"If I'm not worried, why am I standing here today? Do I have too much time and nowhere to go?" Lin Anlan said frankly.

Jiang Xu froze for a moment, unbelievable, "Are you worried about me?"

"I'm not worried about you, I'm worried about your life. If it's not you lying here today, but my fan, as long as I come, he will be fine, and I will go, because I am in awe of life, and I also cherish life .”

"But you don't cherish it. You still have great capital, but you still want to die. Do you think you are living too happily?"

"Am I happy?" Jiang Xu seemed to have heard some joke, "What can I be happy for? My parents don't want me, my friends abandon me, where is my happiness? If I am really happy, I will still feel that I am not happy. Is it necessary to live?!"

"I have never been happy, so I am tired of this world."

"Then you go to die." Lin Anlan said calmly, "If you really think that you are so unhappy and life is meaningless, then you go to die."

Jiang Xu couldn't believe it. He tried hard to see the expression on Lin Anlan's face, but he only saw the calmness on his face.

"After you die, I will help you preside over the funeral. You choose your own cemetery in advance, and I will help you put the ashes in it. You'd better write a will for your property, otherwise according to the law, it is estimated that it will be left to your father and Your mother, Cheng Feng probably won't want your inheritance, but your mother should be very willing, if you don't want to give it to her, write a will in advance."

Jiang Xu: "..."

Lin Anlan thought for a while, and then said, "Don't worry, I will visit your grave every Qingming Festival. Do you have anything else to say? I will try my best. After all, death is the most important thing."

Jiang Xu: "..."

Jiang Xu stared at him blankly for a long time, then smiled wryly, "Xiao Lan, you are more heartless than I thought."

"Didn't you want to die? I'll do what you want. I'll help you with your funeral, I'll help you with your inheritance, and I'll help you sweep your grave. Am I heartless? Besides me, is there anyone else who will help you with these things?" ? Oh, your assistant and agent may, but you don't care, you don't have them in your eyes, only you, only you have suffered."

"You are trapped in your own self-pity, you can't get out, and you don't want to get out. I tried hard to pull you out, but for so many years, I tried, I tried my best, but I couldn't pull it out. So I gave up , I don’t want to work hard to pull you anymore, if you want to be trapped there for the rest of your life, then what’s the use of trying harder for outsiders? It’s better to save some effort.”

"You clearly know that as long as you are willing, as long as you are willing now, I can come out." Jiang Xu said.

"But I don't want to." Lin Anlan said calmly, "I'm not a saint. I have emotions and desires. I don't want to sacrifice myself to save others. I just want to live my own life well."

"Even if I die, it doesn't matter, does it?"

"No." Lin Anlan looked at his fragile expression, her tone was always calm, "These are two different things, and they should not be discussed together. I don't want you to die, and you don't need to die. Your death and My love is independent of each other. It's just that you want to tie them together and kidnap my feelings. From this point of view, I am the victim, so why don't you ask yourself, even if you turn me into a victim, Don't you care too?"

"You have always said that you know you are wrong, you will never do it again, that you like me, that I am your good friend, but now you put me on the grill again. What I said , you don’t care about me, you don’t believe me, you say you care, but what’s the result? Once I don’t like what you want, you will be unhappy, and you will try to make me unhappy, asking me to compromise, asking me to follow your Do it with your own thoughts, just this, you still say that you know you are wrong, you care about me, do you think it is credible? I don’t believe it.”

"I care about you. If I didn't care about you, how could I do this?" Jiang Xu shouted anxiously.

"You're not." Lin Anlan shook her head, "You only care about yourself, so when you need me, I should be by your side, it's not because you don't care about me, because from the beginning to the end, you never considered my mood. "

Lin Anlan sighed, and approached him, "How long have we been separated? It's not like I haven't seen you at all. You just want to do this and kidnap my feelings. If you follow your logic, Cheng Yu has probably committed suicide 16 times. Now, I have to bear the guilt that I did not kill Boren Boren but died because of me about 16 times, and then regret it in the memory of him for the rest of my life."

"You always like to compare with Cheng Yu. I never put you together with him before, because I don't want you to compare with him. I think it's not good for you. I'm afraid you care too much about him and envy him. But I If you don't put you together, but you secretly compare yourself with him, do you see the difference between you and him?"

"Cheng Yu has liked me for so long, and I avoided seeing him. He was frustrated and painful, but he never thought of committing suicide to make me feel guilty. Why? Because life is very important, because he can see other people who care about him besides me, and because He doesn't want me to suffer because of him. He is not much happier than you, but he lives very clearly, and he treats himself and his life well."

"You ask me why I can forgive him but not you, because he cares about me. He said he likes me, that is, he really likes me. For me, he can even endure you. He can be afraid of himself, but he still makes me lose his memory. If it were you, would you? Of course not, you wouldn’t want me to associate with him when I didn’t have amnesia, let alone amnesia?”

"Just like now, he obviously doesn't want to see you, but he will still come to see you. Because he cares about me, he respects my decision and my emotions. But, you don't care, so you can choose to commit suicide as a matter of course, or even Hope I feel guilty after you die."

"However, why should I feel guilty? As a friend, I didn't feel ashamed of you when I was alive. After you die, I will help you take care of the funeral. What should I feel guilty for, just because I didn't give up my love for you? But love itself It's a matter of two people, what qualifications do you have as the third person to ask me to give up?"

"So even if you die, I won't feel guilty. Maybe someone will kidnap me morally, but you don't care about other people kidnapping me morally, so I don't need to feel guilty about your leaving."

Jiang Xu looked at him with a fragile expression, unable to speak.

He always knew that Lin Anlan was rational, but he never thought that he would be so rational.

What else can he say?Even if he died, Lin Anlan would not care about him anymore.

"The Cheng family won't allow you to be with Cheng Yu," he said.

"That's not what you should care about."

"Of course I am concerned, because Cheng Yu's grandfather called me and said he wanted me to recognize my ancestors, Xiaolan, do you think I want to promise him?" Jiang Xu said intentionally.

"This is your business, it has nothing to do with me."

"How can it be irrelevant? At this time, he asked me to go back to recognize my ancestors. Why don't you know?"

"So?" Lin Anlan asked him.

"I don't need to go back, you break up, I don't ask us to go back to the past, but I also can't watch you really be with Cheng Yu!"

Lin Anlan laughed, and said, "Then you go back."

"Aren't you worried that my going back will affect his family's happiness?"

"I'm not worried, I'm sure he can work it out."

"How will he solve it?" Jiang Xu stared at him. "As long as you two are together, you will have no children, but I will have children. When the time comes, who do you think the Cheng family will choose?"

Lin Anlan looked at him, and for a moment seemed to see his mother.

He felt the reincarnation of fate for a moment, felt the sadness and ridiculousness.

"Your mother probably thought so at the time." He said, "She thought that since she had a child, Cheng Feng would give her a title, let her enter Cheng's house, and at worst, give her money, and now , You also thought of the child, you two are indeed mother and child."

Jiang Xu was stunned for a moment, and retorted excitedly, "No, we are different. I recognize my ancestors first and then have children. I am different from her!"

"It's the same." Lin Anlan said softly, "It's all the same."

"Cheng Yu's grandfather is willing to let you go back because Cheng Yu will not have a biological child, but you can have it, and it is the same by relying on the child. When your child is born, even if Cheng Yu will not have a biological child, you will not have a biological child." There will be an adopted son, you will compare your child with his child, and hope that your child is better than his child. If he is not as smart and sensible as Cheng Yu's child, you will be disappointed, unwilling, and complain about him. "

"Then, he'll grow up like you and become another version of you."

"No!" Jiang Xu shouted, "I won't let him do this, I won't."

"You will, you can't control it, and once you walk into Cheng's house, your comparison will only become stronger. If you don't get it, you will want your child to get it."

Lin Anlan looked sadly at the person in front of her, "You hate your mother, but you and her are actually very similar. When she was young, she dreamed of marrying the Cheng family and becoming the wife of the Cheng family, so she I was secretly pregnant with you, and longed to rely on you to enter the Cheng family. And now, you also want to enter the Cheng family and become the young master of the Cheng family, so you want to recognize your ancestors and return to the clan, because you are willing to give to the Cheng family and Cheng Feng Leave your blood and become his son. The two of you are just going to the same goal by different routes."

Jiang Xu was stunned and didn't speak any more.

He seemed to be in disbelief that he had really turned into the look of his mother that he hated once.

"But you are luckier than her. The Cheng family may not allow you to fall in love freely and let you like the person you really like, but they will always arrange a good marriage for you. At that time, I hope you can love each other more Some, love your children more, don't let your children really grow up like you, jealous and unwilling, and trap themselves in unattainable resentment towards others."

Jiang Xu looked at him and murmured in a low voice: "No."

Lin Anlan didn't speak, he just felt full of powerlessness towards fate, Jiang Xu went around in a circle, but became another Jiang Liying, the mother he once loved and hated the most.

This dramatic overlap of fate left him with nothing but sorrow and pity for the people in front of him.

"Happiness to you," he said, "and happiness to your children."

Jiang Xu's eyes were full of confusion, pain, bewilderment, and reluctance to believe.

Lin Anlan turned and walked out. When he opened the door, he heard Jiang Xu calling him behind him, "Xiao Lan."

He turned his head and looked at his best friend from childhood to adulthood who was sitting pale on the hospital bed.

He seemed to see them playing together, studying together, standing on the highest peak of the mountain together, walking through the darkness under the moonlight together.

During the two most painful stages of his life, when his adoptive mother and adoptive father left one after another, only Jiang Xu, his good friend since childhood, was by his side.

It would be great if life could keep moving forward without stopping, and at every stop, the important people would not get off the bus and accompany me towards the end of life.

But life is doomed to be a train that stops and goes. When the train stops and arrives at the station, some people will get off and some people will get on the train.

He smiled at Jiang Xu, his smile was gentle and tolerant, and he said, "Thank you for being with me since I was a child, you are very good, and I am also very happy growing up with you, so live well, You can still have a lot of happiness, don't put your eyes on me, I have met a new person who walks with me, and you will also meet someone who is more suitable for you to walk with you."

"A friend is like this. He will accompany you through most of the long time in your life, but he will also meet his lover, form a new family with him, and have his own new happiness."

"This is not a relationship that cannot coexist. If I meet you in the future, I will still greet you and talk to you. I don't blame you. Jiang Xu, really, I forgive you. I don't blame you. gone."

Jiang Xu's eyes were blurred with tears, he looked at the person who was not far away from him, who smiled warmly and brilliantly, they had known each other since childhood, they had gone through spring, summer, autumn and winter together, through childhood, and over ten years .

They have seen each other at their most immature and saddest. They held hands and waved goodbye to each other when they walked to the youth's stop.

But he doesn't want to wave, he wants to stay by his side, he wants to stay by his side forever, but he doesn't need it anymore.

His tears kept streaming down, he lowered his head and hugged his knees.

Lin Anlan turned around, unable to bear to see him like this.

He heard Jiang Xu's voice coming from behind him, muffled, depressed, with a not-so-obvious crying voice, and said hoarsely, "I won't go back, I promised you, I won't go back See him, I won't go back."

"I lied to you. I just lied to you on purpose."

Lin Anlan looked back at him, only seeing his pitch-black hair and slightly trembling shoulders.

The late spring sunshine fell on him, enveloping his whole body in the light. After all, he was lucky that he did not make the same mistakes as his mother.

Lin Anlan replied with a smile, "That's good."

He turned and walked out the door, taking one last look at his former best friend before closing the door.

Those lights slowly extended behind him, as if he had finally grown his own wings.

Lin Anlan said softly, "Goodbye."

He closed the door and walked towards his lover.