Reminiscing about my life in the mist

Today is New Year's Eve, so why don't men go down the mountain?Lu Jiang and Chengfeng took their apprentices back to their master's ancestral home to spend the New Year with their master.

It was rarely lively in previous years.

Huashan Jedi is a good place for pure cultivation, and most of Chunyang's disciples are cold and solemn. This year, life and death are the same.Watching Lu Jiang pretending to be good in front of the master, and bickering with Chengfeng.Seeing Li Chengfeng bullying his apprentice, he will coax him when he is finished.Seeing the master talking to Zhang Yuanshan with a smile, "Is Yuanshan Jiang'er's apprentice?" Zong Xun was a little dull, feeling that the whole picture was so vivid and unreal.

His chest was tight, he had to admit.This master who looked a few years older than him, and even had to take care of himself like a child, was really old.He suppressed the pain in his heart, drinking one cup after another with a smile on his face, but the bitter wine entered his throat, but he didn't know what it was that was paralyzing.

Lu Mingzhi didn't know whether he drank too much or let it go, a look of surprise appeared on his cold and delicate face all the year round, "Master Zeng is 58?"

The man squinted his eyes and nodded with a smile, "Yes, you are all this old, so Master Zeng is naturally old too."

Zong Xun suddenly became annoyed, but his clenched hand loosened the moment before he crushed the wine glass.With his powerless wry smile, who should he hate?Birth, old age, sickness and death in a person's life are nothing more than ordinary.

Warm dishes and wine, New Year's Eve conversations.How great it is for the whole family to get together lively and lively, even Zong Xun, who is usually cold and solemn, always has a slight smile on his face, how great it is.

Lu Jiang, who was drunk in Zhang Yuanshan's arms, flashed a sliver of clarity when he glanced at Zong Xun with his originally blurred drunken eyes, and turned back to his drunken state when Zhang Yuanshan turned around to support him, humming and insisting that Zhang Yuanshan hug him Then, he refused to take another step.

"Then Yuan Shan will take his leave first, and ask the ancestors, uncles, nephews to use it slowly."

"Then let's go to bed first." Li Chengfeng carried the little drunk cat into his arms, and Lu Mingzhi hummed twice and stopped moving.

Zong Xun helped the man sit still, and whispered in his ear, "Master, it's late at night, shall we go back to sleep too?"

Zong Xun coaxed him to sleep, and seeing his flushed face still smelled of alcohol, he bent down, Zong Xun's lips moved.In the end, he just covered the person with a quilt, got up and walked out.

"Oh, brother, you finally came out." Lu Jiang looked at Zong Xun and smiled lazily as if he had no bones.

Zong Xun didn't say anything, he closed the door carefully, and led Lu Jiang to talk a little further away.

"I don't have much to say," Lu Jiang smiled, "Yuanshan went to take a bath, and I sneaked out."

Zong Xun looked at Lu Jiang's half-dried hair, and reached out to touch it, "I'm not afraid of the wind at night."

Letting Zong Xun touch his head, Lu Jiang suddenly said, "Brother, you haven't done anything to Master yet?"

"What nonsense!" Zong Xun withdrew half of his hand and froze suddenly, and returned to normal in a flash.He stared at Lu Jiang for a while, with a half-smile, "You're not too young, why don't you find someone to settle down with?"

"Okay," Lu Jiang smiled, looking back at the sky on the moon, thinking about the expression of the people in the room if they came out of the shower and found that they were gone, it warmed their hearts.He withdrew his gaze and looked at Zong Xun, "What do you think of my apprentice?"

Zong Xun didn't speak, seeing that Lu Jiang wasn't joking, he paused, "That kid from Yuanshan is pretty good, he looks like he can control you. It's just...you two are men after all, he...would you like it? "

"Brother, this is why you have been with Master for so many years, but you haven't got him yet." Lu Jiang regained his energy and laughed, "I have a crush on it, so I can't run away."

"Yo, that's right, it's as if you've got it." Li Chengfeng suddenly appeared from the yard.

"Tsk tsk, that young apprentice of yours must be delicious, right?" Lu Jiang smirked.

The old hooligan put on a serious face, "I'm still young, I won't force him."

"Hahahaha, it's not that much! It's just a matter of one word to cure Tsundere." The person who said it had a wicked look on his face.

"What?" The listener leaned over with an attitude of listening attentively.

"Sleeping clothes."

"Hahahahaha this is a good idea! This is a good idea..."

"..." Zong Xun really didn't want his master to know that the little mud monkey he liked in his heart had already turned into an old hooligan, and his well-behaved little apprentice... was not a good thing either.

Zong Xun coughed and cleared his throat, "Cough...do you still have something to do? Go to sleep if you have nothing to do, don't disturb Master." After saying that, he turned and went back to the room.

"Brother," the old cat withdrew his wretched smile, and looked at Zong Xun seriously. "After all, my wife has been gone for so many years, and we don't often stay here. The only master is you."

Zong Xun turned around and didn't know whether to look at Lu Jiang or the yard, and didn't speak.

"Hey! Master, what should I call this master if he becomes a master's wife?" I don't know if he drank too much. Usually, even if Zong Xun knew his virtues, Li Chengfeng would still be counted in front of Zong Xun. To be honest, it turned out that I sang with the old cat today, and the whole person was out of tune.

Zong Xun glanced at him, and Li Chengfeng immediately shut up, but he couldn't help the muffled laughter in his throat.

"Brother, I'm going back to my room. My little apprentice is still waiting for me." Lu Jiang jumped out of the railing and jumped into the yard, clenched his fists at Zong Xun, "Come on!"

"..." Zong Xun watched Lu Jiang go back to the room quietly, and then went to see Li Chengfeng.

Li Chengfeng smiled mischievously, "Master, I'm going to rest too."

Zong Xun turned and went back to his room.

Before opening the door, he couldn't help but sighed.

"I've taken a fancy to it, and I'm sure I won't be able to escape."

Just thinking of the determination on Lu Jiang's face, Zong Xun would also think, at any time, he can also... so sure, in the master's heart, he is different, not just a disciple, a child.Instead, he appeared as a man.

Gathering and separation are commonplace.The Lantern Festival is over, and they are leaving too.

Seeing the man reluctantly saying goodbye to Lu Jiang and the others, Zong Xun couldn't help saying in a low voice, "If Master is really reluctant, he should let them stay and fulfill their filial piety."

The man just smiled and shook his head.Continue to wave to Lu Jiang and the others, those little heartless people ride fast horses and disappear after a while.

"Xun'er," the man withdrew his gaze and turned to Zong Xun, as if looking at him, and seemed to be lost in thought, "Everyone has their own way to go."

Zong Xun's heart tightened, he was afraid that the man would ask him "what is the road you want to go?" in the next sentence.That is what he can't say or describe, companionship.

But the man just said this, turned around and left, just like teaching them the truth when they were young.

After taking a nap, Zong Xun helped the man change his clothes.

"Master, should I go back today or stay for a few more days?" The mountain road is not easy to walk, and if I don't go back, I'm afraid I won't be able to reach it before dark.

"Xun'er," the man's eyes were dull, as if he hadn't woken up from a nap, and he seemed to be so dazed all the time.After a long pause, I remembered what I wanted to say, "Accompany me to Wanhua."

Zong Xun paused for a moment with the hands that straightened the creases on his shoulders, and quickly cleaned up the man again, "Then when shall we set off?"

"Let's go in a couple of days." The man followed the window and looked at the yard outside, "The flowers are all blooming."

Zong Xun followed the gaze of that person, and saw that the branches were full of red plum blossoms, and just the quiet fragrance exuded a sense of hustle and bustle.The flowers actually bloomed early, but these days are so busy that no one cares.As if infected by the man's 'slowness', Zong Xun watched for a long time before responding. "Okay, I'll go get ready."

Zong Xun knew why he went to Wanhua.The teacher's wife is Wan Hua's teacher.Zong Xun didn't know why he went to Wanhua.Obviously, he didn't ask much when the teacher left.

Zong Xun didn't remember clearly about his wife.After all, for the master, it is unforgettable, and Zong Xun may be the only one who remembers it unforgettable.

The spring in Chang'an is very cold, and the night is especially long.

The junior brother's body was twitching and shaking constantly, weeping and tearing, his whole body was hot and cold, and there was no color at all.The kind of hopeless temperature that no matter how many layers of thick quilts can't warm.Lu Jiang never forgot, Zong Xun never forgot, and Yu Man was even more unable to forget a nightmare.But the nightmare was just the beginning.Or in other words, the so-called encounter is probably an addiction, and now the dream is about to wake up, so the tension between reality and the dream has caused great pain.Therefore, we must separate the flesh and blood and tear the soul, and wake up everyone who is immersed in happiness in a silent and cruel way.

Zong Xun never dared to call Junior Brother again, and from then on he used Lu Jiang's name directly.During that time, Lu Jiang's kid who was so fond of laughing and fussing seemed to be stupid, and he didn't talk much anymore.Master was even more silent.Maybe at that time he was blaming himself, blaming himself for why he didn't send someone to Wanhua earlier, even if the result of sending Wanhua was unknown, it was much better than wasting a child's life here hopelessly .At that time, there was only one person who, as always, smiled gently, comforted everyone with consideration, and warmed this severely damaged home as much as he could.Many years have passed, even though the age has blurred the woman's face, Zong Xun still remembers it.When he saw the woman smiling quietly, he felt less afraid.Master will not remain depressed forever, that woman will lead him out.They all seemed to think so at the time.

So, even though she didn't make it in the end, even though she still left, even though Master was still depressed.Zong Xun was also very grateful, this person was always there when everyone was unable to recover from the heavy blow.She is gentle and tolerant, even if she sighs at night, she still chooses to face everyone with a smile.Therefore, everyone can't blame her, and all they can remember is her good.

This is probably the wonder of memory.

But in fact, she is really not bad at all.At least not showing it.So Zong Xun could not say anything for the next 20 years.There was already a gap between them, and there was nothing wrong with the man the man loved.What qualifications does he have?

He witnessed their true love.From the love of his life when he met his wife, to the last time his wife left, his temperament changed drastically after being silent for more than half a year.Become loose and casual, like an urchin who is careless.What else can he say?

The most helpless thing is that there is no position at all.

Zong Xun was helpless.He can only try his best to do what he can, take care of his master, and teach Lu Jiang.Instead of everything she did to support the family when she was there.

In such days, the young Lu Jiang is also undergoing painful growth.Everyone has a lot of things to do, and no one has time to take care of him.Brother admires Master and understands him best.But I can only watch the master's silence, and I can always understand the heartache and worry, not to mention the experience.Later, watching the master's temperament change drastically, the senior brother obviously disagreed the most, but he still let him accompany him.Lu Jiang couldn't understand, but he didn't have a solution.

Time heals the pain, but it does not mean that what has passed does not exist.Lu Jiang gradually let go, he was still smiling lazily, sly and intelligent; the brother was still solemn and quiet, but considerate and gentle; the master was still reticent.No one will mention the two missing people in life.It seems like nothing has changed, but it seems to be different again.

Lu Jiang didn't know when he found out.But when he finally understood one day, Zong Xun looked at the master's eyes, the deep and strong emotions that were suppressed.He wants to leave, it doesn't matter whether he accepts it or not.Those are other people's feelings, even the closest relatives can't control them, so naturally it has nothing to do with him.He wanted to leave because he felt that maybe it would be better for these two people to be together.He didn't want to be trapped in a painful memory all the time.He's used to being casual, and it's time for him to live his own life.As for those two people who can't extricate themselves, let them go... how can you allow yourself to intervene in other people's own lives?

When Lu Jiang said he was going to leave, Zong Xun was terrified.The panic that came from the bottom of his heart was not because Lu Jiang finally couldn't bear it anymore and was about to leave.He cast his worried eyes on the man sitting on the grand master's chair.He also knew that this was wrong, he also watched Lu Jiang grow up, and loved him like a junior brother, and even because there was only this little junior brother left, he was willing to love him more in his heart.However, his heart couldn't help himself.At this time, as long as the man sitting in the high hall said no, even if he just frowned, Zong Xun would keep him even if Lu Jiang's leg was broken.There is no backing down.

Fortunately, that person came back after his mind-wandering, and he understood.He said "Okay" lightly, and there was no extra emotion.The man who regained his sanity seemed to be like this all the time. He ate when he was asked to eat, and washed and slept when he was asked to wash and sleep.I don't know how much more obedient I was when I was crazy and chaotic before, but I was always emotionless and numb.

Zong Xun has always looked at the man with admiration.

I watched it for a long time.

I don't know when, but I just saw it in my heart.She clearly knew she was wrong, she knew it was impossible, but she couldn't help falling in love with him.There is no way.

Zong Xun has always believed that his fault is not who he likes or what gender he is.On this point, their masters are open and open, and they don't hide it.Zong Xun just felt that when he discovered this emotion, the man already had a lover by his side.So he watched them kowtow to thank the gods, and agreed to bring a white head together, and his eyes were burned by the warm red in the room.He made the mistake of talking nonsense when he was young and ignorant after drinking, wishing that the woman would leave in exchange for him and that person's company.So much so that since then, every time he wakes up in the middle of the night, he feels chills.If he knew that this kind of accompanying Baishou would be exchanged with the life of his junior and brother, and the happiness of a man.Then he would rather not be held by those warm hands from the beginning to the end, "Be my apprentice." A person died alone.

But, where did you know so much earlier?

So Zong Xun is silent, he lives in the way of a man, cold and solemn.He took the man back to the Chunyang Palace where it is said that the man had been cultivating in the early years, and became a Taoist priest with household registration.He suppressed all the strong emotions and accompanied the man quietly and silently.Fulfilling the survival trajectory that a man should have if he has not met.

However, Zong Xun is not really a person who has no desires or desires.

His greatest desire is this person beside him, but he can't open his mouth.Looking at the man's lowered eyes, all desires were annihilated.He just wanted to stay by his side in silence, that was all he could do.