Reminiscing about my life in the mist

On an extremely ordinary afternoon, Zong Xun served the man with refreshments.

"Master, aren't you going back to Chunyang?" Zong Xun refilled the tea bowl with some tea, adding less each time so that it wouldn't be hot.

The man swallowed the pastry, took a sip from the tea bowl Zong Xun handed over, and replied vaguely, "Yes."

"Then is there anywhere Master wants to go? Or is he planning to stay in Chang'an?" Zong Xun watched the man's pale tongue twirling around the corner of his lips, licking away the crumbs of the pastry, and quickly lowered his head, holding the man's cool Hand, wipe him finger by finger with a towel.The back of the man's hand is also smooth, the tiger's mouth and the knuckles of the index finger have sword calluses left by holding the sword in the early years, but it is also very faint.The man's fingers were slender and strong, as white as jade, and each one was straight and delicate. He held it coolly in his palm, and Zong Xun wiped it seriously.

"Xun'er," the man swallowed the tea lukewarmly after holding his mouth for a while, "I won't be returning to Chunyang, and I don't have anywhere else I want to go. That's it."

"En?" Zong Xun looked up at the man.

"Xun'er, I don't have much time." As he spoke, he actually smiled, "I don't care about desires, just stay here."

"What's going on, Master?" Zong Xun squeezed the man's fingers, his smile froze.

The man's eyes turned to him, but he was calm and clear, "I'm getting older, and there will be such a day. My wish is fulfilled, and there is nothing to regret."

"Master." Zong Xun lowered his head and clutched the man's fingers, unable to see the expression on his face clearly.

Seeing his depression, the man joked, "Could it be that Xun'er is still afraid of being alone?"

"Afraid of... a... person?" Zong Xun repeated in a low voice.

"What?" The man didn't hear clearly, and leaned over the coffee table, wanting to hear what Zong Xun said.

"Do you want me to live alone?" Zong Xun finally raised his head, the gloom on his face was unprecedented.

"Xun'er?" The man was stunned.

However, before he had time to return to his position, Zong Xun grabbed him and kissed "It's absolutely impossible." The man was dragged to Zong Xun by his collar, and before he could react, he was held down and sat on his lap .During the period, the lips were entangled, closely connected and never separated.Zong Xun's tongue invaded forcefully, entangled the man's dull and soft tongue, relentlessly biting the man's light-colored lips, sucking and biting, playing with the man's thin lips, which made the man's thin lips red, swollen and hot. The face with indifferent brows is extremely coquettish.

Zong Xun loosened the restraint between his lips and teeth, and the man slumped powerlessly in Zong Xun's arms, as if he had lost his ability to think. "Xun..." I wanted to say something but couldn't continue for a long time.He didn't know what was going on, and he didn't know what to say.He never thought that his most trusted 'protégé student' would be so contemptuous of him... Yes, who doesn't know that he has a good apprentice?I am confused, but the eldest disciple is a leader among the contemporary disciples. He is dutiful, filial, and skilled, and he does not fall behind in all aspects of Taoism and martial arts.How could he not know, how could he not like it?

For more than 20 years, I have indulged myself, and this child has been taken care of in every possible way, and I think he is no less than a parent and child.But this... The man couldn't understand this incident at all.His slow thinking, could it be that what he said was too heavy for Zong Xun to accept?

"Master," Zong Xun hugged the man in his arms, put his chin on the top of his head, but did not press down, he looked straight ahead, and said in a low voice, "I love you Feelings have never been, what kind of apprentice's admiration for the master. My love for you is because I want to be with you, and I want to take you as my own..." Zong Xun helped the man sit up and looked into his eyes "I want to have sex with you, I want to see you lose control because of me, tremble because of me, and be intoxicated because of me." He clearly knows that a man has not thought about anything for more than 20 years, and he understands clearly without saying anything. no. "I think in your heart, there is only one me, and no one else. Just like I treat you."

"You, you! You..." The man stared at Zong Xun with wide eyes and couldn't say a word. His thin body tried to struggle out of Zong Xun's arms several times, but he was still held firmly by the waist. arms.The man panicked and asked, "Are you confused?"

Seeing that the man with few mood swings was upset because of him, Zong Xun smiled silently, and the corner of his mouth opened a tearing arc, and the words he said were even more cruel. "Now that you have let go of Master Mistress, there is no need for me to hide and back down. You are mine, and I will not allow anyone to share the slightest bit." The tone was still gentle and indifferent, but he said completely inappropriate words.

With one hand tightly around the man's waist, he put his hands around his side, and the other hand reached out to undo the man's belt.The spring sun was shining warmly on his body, but the man's heart was cold.Zong Xun clasped his waist with a little force, pressed the man to his chest, pinched the man's chin and said firmly, "I won't give in again."

The man tried his best to dodge this swearing-of-sovereignty kiss, the scent of tea was still on their lips, but the atmosphere suddenly changed.Zong Xun directly carried him back to his room.

Putting him on the bed, Zong Xun began to take off his clothes.

"Zong Xun!" The man was anxious, "You are presumptuous!"

"Presumptuous?" Zong Xun chuckled, his hands kept moving, and quickly took off the coat of the man who was so thin that only a handful of bones remained.Covering the man in his underwear, "Heh~ Then I'll show you how to behave."

"Traitor! You!" The man writhed and struggled, but it was useless to block it with his hand. He wanted to reprimand his rigid and dull thinking, but he had no words at all.I can only follow my heart and try my best to resist the wanton invasion of this "protégé student" I have seen since I was a child. "Stop!"

"Ah Cen, be good..." Zong Xun turned a deaf ear to him, and whispered the most gentle words in his ear, "I don't want to hurt you..." He took off his belt and held the man's hands, and bound the man with the wide side His hands were carefully tied with laces, fixed at the head of the bed and tied up.

Seeing that he couldn't resist, the man had no choice but to make a move with luck, but he didn't want Zong Xun to tie his hands first.Unable to break free, he had to turn sideways to avoid another attack, and the man couldn't bear it anymore and kicked Zong Xun's waist.

"Master, your heart has softened." Zong Xun sneered and held the man's ankle with one hand, loosened his strength, and folded his leg in front of his chest.Pressing his knee against the man's other leg, he bullied his body and pressed down, "If you don't control the enemy to death during a confrontation, you will lose the opportunity if you distract yourself a little bit, and you will be defeated..." Zong Xun explained gently, but his hand was wide. Probe into the man's underwear to soothe the man's desire through obscene pants.

The man was shocked, he suddenly didn't seem to understand, this apprentice has always been indifferent and quiet, why did he become like this?Not only did he have unreasonable thoughts about Master, but also... "Xun'er, you are not such a person..."

Zong Xun skillfully soothed the middle of the man, and when the desire gradually raised his head, he took off all the clothes on the man's lower body, and held his big hot hand to comfort him again. He obsessively observed the pain and comfort on the man's face. With an expression on his face, he patiently teased "A Cen..."

Ah Cen is emotional, emotional for me...

The man's almost exhausted body gradually came to life under the direct stimulation, he resisted the obsession of the body in pain, and shook his head, "You won't. You won't... You're not this kind of person, let go! Let go... ..."

"Of course I am not such a person!" Zong Xun was furious, and all the gentle disguise was completely torn apart at this moment, "I have never been such a person! You don't know people clearly, who is to blame? Let go? I won't let go, Never!" Zong Xun let go of A Cen's half-hearted desire, and slowly slid his fingers down, lingering in the gap behind. "Master, I just want to enter from here and occupy you."

The man looked at the apprentice he brought up in horror, while he held his earlobe in his mouth and said ambiguous love words with utmost tenderness, but at the same time he tore a scar in his heart...

Once the golden wind and jade dew meet, they will win but there are countless in the world.Zong Xun tenderly loved his 'Master' until death, as if, as if the two had always been so loving and compatible.

"Master" softly called, Zong Xun stretched out his hand to hug the man, the hot kiss was branded on the other's chest, and the scorching heat between the legs rubbed and hesitated in front of the moistened acupuncture point.

For more than 20 years, I have been restrained, all obsessions and desires, only you, only you from beginning to end.As soon as he looked up, even though he was prepared not to get a response, seeing the man's face distorted in pain due to resistance, Zong Xun's last bit of tenderness was still wiped out by the fire.I haven't been myself for more than 30 years in this life, it's all about you!In my life, only you!

"Don't even think about leaving me behind! Don't even think about it!" The fierce encroachment, the close fit again and again, just want to prove that you still exist, and just want us to have more connections.You are still mine, right?

"I'm near the end of my life, with such a fate, there is no way to recover."

"Even if I go against the sky, I will keep you!"

"Zong Xun...you are too obsessed..."

No!As long as it is you, nothing is too much. I have lived in the way you want for more than 30 years, and I will not disturb your feelings for her.But now that you are no longer disturbed by the old love, then I definitely have no reason to forbear and let go.

"Ah Cen, you never know how important you are to me..."

The night shrouded the silent courtyard, and there were only two people breathing lightly in the bedroom.

After indulging in so many times, Ah-Cen was exhausted and fell asleep on his side.Even though his body had been cleaned, he still felt unwell, or the experience during the day was too shocking to subvert his usual cognition. In short, he slept extremely restlessly.Zong Xun opened his eyes to let go, and waited until the man was asleep and would not struggle again before he hugged him into his arms, and gently patted the man's back to soothe his emotions.

"Zong Xun, you have changed, you are not such a person! Let go."

"Changed? I've always been like this! It's because you don't know people clearly..."

Has it changed?Zong Xun didn't know either.The memory of wandering on the street when he was a child is very vague, he just remembers holding his breath, and would rather starve to death than beg.But because of those warm hands, but because of this person's words, he has been gentle and appropriate since then, without stubbornness, stubbornness, or obsession.What I do by myself is his most worry-free apprentice. I learn to cook and cook, improve my skills, calm down without the impetuosity of young people, and calm down. It doesn't matter whether it is a desert or a snowfield.Wherever Master wants to go, I will follow. I will take care of my juniors so that Master will not be distracted and worried.

Zong Xun thought that at that time, he was probably afraid of being chased away.He didn't know how to grasp this little bit of tenderness, so he had to imitate it as best he could.

Later... Zong Xun's eyes were crooked with a smile, and he stopped patting and gently hugged her tightly.

Later, I finally understood.Why do I treat you differently from others, why I only want to hear your praise, why I only believe in you, why the juniors are happy to have a teacher's wife... But I don't like this gentle and harmless woman.But, but you are married.That is your happiness, you held the woman's hand with a shy smile and promised to grow old together.When I rarely see you laughing, I am in a trance, and I can't speak anymore.I can't destroy the happy curve of your mouth, that's obviously what I've been longing for all my life!Even if I didn't give it to you.

You are sad that she is gone.But I was faintly happy, it doesn't matter if you don't recognize someone, it doesn't matter if you are sad.I will be by your side, I will always be with you.All the hardships will pass, I will take good care of my little brother, he will never suffer again, I will take good care of you, you will soon forget the woman who left you.We are still together, you are still by my side, there is hope.

At least that's what I thought at the time.

Until one day, you were lying on my lap basking in the sun, you looked so peaceful and beautiful, you opened your eyes and smiled at me, "Child, who are you?"

How can you not recognize me? !How can you forget me?How can you! ! !Ah Cen...don't you want me?Did you find out?Do you also think that all the misfortunes you have suffered are due to me, an unknown person.Are you going to abandon me from now on?

Do not!

There were no tears when I was wronged when I was a child, no tears when I was warmed by you, no tears when I knew in my heart that you were going to marry her... because from the beginning to the end, I never thought that I would lose you, I never thought that you would leave.How can you leave?

"I only have you, only you...Master, I only have you...don't want me..." The warm liquid rolled out of the eye sockets uncontrollably.I felt happy in the last moment, but now I am in purgatory.

Ah Cen, it's all because of you.

Zong Xun hugged the skinny man in his arms, his heart was sore and painful, but his eyes were dry without a single tear, "Ah Cen, don't want me."

The days seemed to be calm again.Zong Xun is still the appropriate and gentle apprentice on the top of Huashan Mountain, serving his master attentively.A-Cen is still the master who speaks little, speaks little, thinks little, and is always in a daze.

But something always seems to be different.

Ah Cen's body is getting worse day by day, he still eats food and is often exposed to the sun.But he didn't talk to Zong Xun very much, and he was in a daze for longer and longer.Zong Xun obediently swallowed whatever was brought to him, no matter whether he was taking supplements or supplements, but his body was still withering bit by bit at a speed visible to the naked eye.Zong Xun is like the most well-behaved apprentice in the world, the best lover, gentle and considerate, he carefully takes care of Ah Cen's daily life and food, but the careful care does not show any improvement.Compared with the paleness on the top of Mount Hua that has not seen the sun all year round, Ah Cen gradually became sallow and dry, but Zong Xun was helpless.

On this day, Zong Xun fed him the elixir he got from nowhere.Ah Cen ate obediently and stared out the window in a daze.The pear blossoms have already fallen, and there is no pleasant scenery outside the window.He doesn't even want to look at himself in a daze?Zong Xun put away the bowls and chopsticks and stepped back.

Taking the elixir together with the diet as usual, Ah Cen's body got better day by day, his face gradually turned red, and his body gradually became plump.His complexion is better than when he was in Chunyang.Zong Xun also became happy, teasing people to talk from time to time.Although he still doesn't pay much attention to himself, Zong Xun also feels good seeing him gradually rejuvenate.

The two slept and ate together, Zong Xun also made love to him when he was in a good mood, but A Cen mostly turned around indifferently and ignored them.Zong Xun didn't force it, just occasionally a few times, brazenly ignored his refusal, and had a good night.Concerned about Ah Cen's body, he dared not ask for more every time, and only dared to sleep when the gentle and considerate waiter felt refreshed.

A year passed in a flash.

"Master, Lu Jiang has a letter." Zong Xun respectfully handed over the letter, seeing that the man had no intention of accepting it, he opened it by himself. "Master and senior brother Zhan Xinjia, I haven't seen you for more than a year. I feel unfilial for not being able to serve Master. Master is indifferent and doesn't care about the world. This time..." Zong Xun paused, and looked at the people sitting there. It was a gesture of listening, so I could only grit my teeth and read on, "It's Master's [-]th birthday, I wonder if we can come down to the mountain to get together. My disciple is willing to serve Master's knees to fulfill my filial piety."

Ah Cen's eyes moved, and he spoke for a while. "No need."

"Even if you don't have a birthday, wouldn't it be nice for Lu Jiang to come back to see you? If you like it, it would be very convenient for Chengfeng to come back together." Zong Xun squatted beside the man's lap, holding the letter in his hand and laying on his lap. "But good?"

A Cen's eyes slowly turned, looking at Zong Xun, "What do you want them to come back to see?"

Master-student incest?Men having sex?Zong Xun knew what the man didn't say.After clearing his expression, Zong Xun tried his best to speak in a normal tone, "Lu Jiang and Chengfeng...don't mind, they also like men." Unexpectedly, some can't say "their disciples...they..."

"What about them, what about you?" A Cen remained calm and stopped looking at Zong Xun.

Zong Xun was a little surprised, but quickly realized.He always understood his apprentice.Just how are they?They are connected, and I...

Zong Xun replied to the letter and never mentioned the matter again.

Life was going on as usual, but before his birthday came, Ah Cen was already in serious trouble.

He couldn't sit up anymore, and he fell asleep more and more.I have visited all the famous doctors, but I can only say that the time limit has come, medicine and food are useless.Zong Xun was at a loss what to do, and went on a blind date for the first time in months.He hugged Ah Cen's skinny body, and buried himself deeply again and again. He longed for resistance, for a little reaction from the other party, even if it was rejection...as long as he was no longer so unresponsive, except for the skinny The chest rose and fell slightly, and there was no trace of life in the dead silence.

When Ah Cen woke up again, he was choked by the strong fishy smell in his mouth.He slowly opened his eyes, and saw Zong Xun standing against the light, with his head sideways bandaging his wrists, looking calm and elegant.It's not any different from before, but I can't see his expression clearly.

"Cough cough...cough! Cough cough cough..." Ah Cen coughed uncontrollably.

Only then did the silhouette against the light come over in a hurry, revealing a face that was not less glamorous but not haggard. .You slowly..."

Ah Cen held Zong Xun's left hand tightly, and coughed against him for a long time before recovering.

"Are you feeling better?" Zong Xun simply sat on the edge of the bed, hugged him in his arms and sat leaning against himself.

Ah Cen breathed slowly, and when he was calm, he said, "Why are you doing this?" His hand was still tightly grasping Zong Xun's wrist.

Zong Xun struggled for a while and let him go, but his tone was flat, like chatting, "As long as you can keep your life, it doesn't matter."

"Is that so, if you can save my life, you will do it if you want to kill someone?! Cough cough cough..." A-Cen's voice raised slightly and he began to cough violently.

Zong Xun hurriedly reassured him, and it took him a long time to reply, "No." A Cen saw that his eyes were so sad that he didn't look like a fake, "You won't eat it if you get it, and you will feel uncomfortable if you eat it. Why should I?" Dry and stiff.

Ah Cen sighed, relaxed the strength in his hand, and rubbed his thumb against the wrapped wound on Zong Xun's wrist. "All the pills these months?"

"It is recorded in ancient books that human blood can be used as medicine to revitalize the meridians, prolong qi and replenish life, especially for ascetics." Zong Xun looked at A Cen, and his tone returned to gentleness from the indifferent statement, "How do you feel now?"

Ah Cen looked at Zong Xun's wrist in a daze, and kept silent.

After a while, Zong Xun moved, "Drink some water? It's very fishy to eat directly, and now the medicinal properties have penetrated into the body, so drinking some water will be fine." He gently put A Cen on the bed rail, got up and went pour water.

"Xun'er," Ah Cen finally said, he closed his eyes and leaned back against the railing of the bed, "Let go..."

Zong Xun held the teacup tightly, and took several deep breaths before calming down. After pouring out the water, he turned around and helped the person up, "Come on, drink some water first."

"I'm tired." Ah Cen's eyes were calm and there was no emotion, and he said this sentence slowly, leaving Zong Xun no room to back down.

I'm tired, and you're tired too.Let go, let me have a good rest...

Zong Xun tremblingly fed the water in the teacup to A-Cen, and sat stiffly holding him, for a long time before he sighed and said "Okay."

In the past two days, Ah Cen's spirits have improved a bit. Zong Xun took him for a walk in the yard to bask in the sun.The two of them talked occasionally, as if they had never had any disobedience, love or hatred, and they were always the closest relatives.

That night, Ah Cen fell asleep.

Never woke up again.

Zong Xun opened his eyes sluggishly, but didn't dare to look at anything, as if the tired old man who had endured such a long time suddenly appeared at this moment.He hugged the body that was getting stiff and cold in his arms, and called the person in his arms in a low voice, his voice was hoarse and obscure, "Master...Master, Master...you don't want me anymore, do you?" He just called over and over again. Know what he's thinking.

"Xun'er made you angry, didn't you?"

"I...I will...one more chance, I will always be your favorite student...Master, Master...don't abandon me..."

"Master, I was wrong...I don't regret it."

"I only like you, I just don't want to lose you."

"No worries, no hatred... I will stay with you well...forever."

Compared to that time in the dream when I hugged A Cen with tears streaming down my face and never wanted to talk to me again, explaining and begging over and over again, now he can't say anything, can't think, can't cry.It was a kind of exhaustion and desolation overflowing from the heart, without any struggle.

Ah Cen, he is tired.Time to sleep.

Zong Xun took care of everything and looked at the person lying in the coffin, sleeping peacefully, surrounded by mud, but not stained with a trace of dirt.It seems that the pure one does not exist in the world, as if, without a trace of nostalgia, it has nothing to do with oneself.

Zong Xun was so sleepy that he lay down weakly.Some people are probably like this. Once the beliefs that have been supported for a lifetime are broken, they will no longer be able to support them.He was lying in the coffin with his arms around the cold body. The man was lying in the narrow single coffin, Zong Xun could only turn his body sideways.He just hugged him like that, and gradually fell asleep, as if he could be comforted by the tiredness of these years just by sleeping next to that person.

As if, as if he was still there, as if he had never left...

The author has something to say: The old cat series is over, let’s spread flowers~~~

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