LOVE VOICE

Takikawa no longer remembered how he got home.

When he came back to his senses, he found that he was already sitting on the sofa at home, and there was no light around him.

Scenes of men crying and violating themselves kept appearing in front of them.

The so-called "I love you" is just an excuse for your own hurtful behavior.Everyone is like this.

The wife who came back late did not notice her husband's presence when she opened the door, and fumbled for the light switch at the door.

"Don't turn on the lights."

"Ah! Scared me to death!"

From the light outside the door, it could be seen that his wife was patting her chest.

"When did you come back? Why didn't you turn on the light?"

The wife asked dissatisfiedly, still put her hand on the switch.

"Please, don't turn on the light."

The wife hesitated for a moment, but put her hand down.

"Please come to me."

The wife, who was already suitable for the darkness in the house, stood at the door for a while, then walked wordlessly to Takigawa and sat down.

"I'm sorry, please let me be self-willed once today."

"...What happened? You didn't come back yesterday, but the calls were always transferred to the voice mail. Could it be that you were drunk again and didn't know where to sleep?"

For the first time since the Cold War, his wife spoke to Takikawa in a caring tone.

"Maiko...do you still remember why we got married?" In the darkness, Takigawa held his wife's hand.

"Why are you talking about this suddenly..." Thinking of the past, Maiko lowered her head shyly.

"If... it wasn't for that time when we were drunk and found out that we had sex... maybe..."

"It's all in the past, why mention it." Maiko's tone flickered.

"You know what? In high school, I had a girlfriend. It was a very, very small, sweet kid. I thought I'd end up marrying her, and we broke up before high school."

"Could it be...you yesterday..."

"Shh...I'll tell you, so please listen to me." Holding his wife's hand slightly, Takigawa continued, "It was she who proposed to break up with me. I asked her why, did she like someone else? ...In the end, the child cried miserably in front of me and asked me why I never wanted to make out with her... She tried to have further relations with me more than once, but I rejected them. In her eyes, my refusal , probably considered by her as not loving her enough."

"Why did you tell me this all of a sudden? Don't go on and say that you met her again and are going to be with her..." Maiko wanted to pull her hand out of her husband's, but she didn't have enough strength.

Takikawa shook his head: "After we broke up, I never saw her again."

Only then did Maiko calm down, but the feeling of uneasiness in her heart became more and more intense.

"Since I was a child, I have been very afraid of having physical contact with people, whether it is touching others or being touched by others... because I have been molested before."

Hearing the sound of his wife gasping for breath, Takigawa gave a wry smile silently.

"That person...is the woman I call 'Mom'."

"Husband..." Maiko couldn't believe what she heard.

"So, I'm terrified of being in contact with people, of having sex with people...that reminds me of things I'm desperately trying to forget..."

"No wonder... no wonder you didn't even want to hold hands with me when you dated me..."

"I'm sorry... after I had sex with you, I was so scared... I don't even remember how I hugged you..."

"Is it just because of that time that you proposed to me later?" Maiko asked, speaking faster.

"That's my responsibility! I have to do it!" Takigawa eagerly explained.

"Responsibility? Just responsibility?" Maiko stared at her husband's face through the darkness, "Marrying me is only your responsibility? Isn't it because we love each other?"

"I don't know what love is at all." Takikawa closed his eyes and let go of his wife's hand, "I don't even love women at all."

As if she didn't hear what her husband said clearly, Maiko asked again: "What did you say?"

"Don't you want to know where I spent the night yesterday?" Takikawa looked into his wife's eyes full of disbelief, and forced a smile, "I slept with Ono-kun."

"Are you joking, right? Husband... I have a bad attitude recently, and I apologize to you, so...don't scare me with such lies..." Maiko grabbed her husband's arm, her nails were covered with excessive force. from white.

Takigawa silently opened his wife's hand, slowly got up and stood in front of his wife, and unbuttoned his shirt one by one, exposing his naked upper body.

Even without the light, Maiko could still see hickeys all over her husband's body that she didn't make herself.

Staring at the traces of her husband's body, Maiko forgot to breathe.

"Can you still bear to be hugged by this body?" Takigawa's expression was hidden in the darkness, making it impossible to see clearly.

The wife shook her head blankly.

"So... so..." Takigawa took a deep breath to force back the welling up tears, "Let's get a divorce, Maiko."

"Divorce?" The wife's misty eyes looked so pitiful, "What are you talking about, husband, we just quarreled once, and we didn't get to the point of divorce, right? I know I forced you It's too tight, I won't be like this in the future, don't take the job I don't like, if I don't have enough money, I can go to work, divorce or something, don't talk about it..."

"Maiko..."

Takigawa's heart is full of guilt for his wife who refuses to accept reality.

"I don't want a divorce." The wife curled up on the sofa, buried her face between her knees, her shoulders trembling slightly.

"Maiko...I'm sorry, I'm really sorry...but..."

Before her husband could finish speaking, Maiko threw herself on her husband and kissed his lips.

"No, it's too dirty, I can't..." Takikawa didn't want his wife to be contaminated by another man's breath.

"It doesn't matter, this is what a wife should do... I will clean up all the filth on your body, I love you so much...so...you must not divorce me..."

His wife's attitude was unimaginably firm. Facing his wife who was crying and trying to please him, Takigawa lost the courage to push her away.