Morbid Addiction

This awkward atmosphere continued under the stalemate between the two.

Chen Yuncheng wanted to leave, but Ning Junyan refused to let go.Chen Yuncheng's clothes were all soaked. Even though the room was well heated, he still felt cold after sticking to his body with wetness. He said to Ning Junyan, "It's too cold."

Ning Junyan asked: "Is it cold to hold you?"

Chen Yuncheng said: "You let me go back and change my clothes."

Ning Junyan seemed to be hesitating, but after a while he finally let go, "Go."

Chen Yuncheng hurriedly crawled out of the bathtub, and found his other slipper on the ground, he walked outside regardless of the dripping water all over his body, went back to the room to find a change of clothes, went to the public bathroom, and took a shower with hot water.

After taking a shower and changing clothes, almost half an hour had passed before Chen Yuncheng felt that his whole body had warmed up. He looked in the mirror and saw that his cheeks were still red. I don't know if it was because of the steam from the bath or just a little bit. The alcohol is still there.

When he wanted to go back to his room, he was suddenly worried about Ning Junyan. He didn't know if Ning Junyan was asleep now, and he didn't know if Ning Junyan had put hot water on his body to take a shower just now. After all, Chen Yuncheng was drenched and cold. When sitting there, Ning Junyan was also wet and had no clothes on.

He walked gently to the door of Ning Junyan's room, this time he didn't knock on the door, but just opened the door a crack, he saw that it was already dark inside, Ning Junyan should have turned off the light and went to sleep.

Chen Yuncheng closed the door and wanted to leave, but just turned around and turned back to open the door again, he walked in at a light pace, after his eyes got used to the darkness in the room, he saw Ning Junyan lying on the bed, covering his body with the quilt wrapped himself up.

He went to the bed and squatted down, approached Ning Junyan's face, and asked softly, "Are you asleep?"

Ning Junyan just responded, "Yes."

Chen Yuncheng reached out to touch his forehead, and asked at the same time, "Did you take a hot shower by yourself afterwards?"

Ning Junyan did not answer.

Chen Yuncheng reached into the quilt anxiously to find Ning Junyan's hand, "Is it cold?" He touched Ning Junyan who was not even wearing pajamas.

Ning Junyan suddenly grabbed Chen Yuncheng's hand. Chen Yuncheng was startled, and subconsciously wanted to withdraw his hand, but Ning Junyan held it too firmly, so he failed.Ning Junyan's palm was hot, but not too hot. Ning Junyan held his hand on his chest, and his skin was also warm.

Chen Yuncheng was a little relieved, "Isn't it cold?"

Ning Junyan said: "It's cold, come up and give me a hug."

His tone was still flat, but to Chen Yuncheng's ears, it sounded like he was being coquettish. Chen Yuncheng pinched his nose with his hands and said, "You are 30 years old, and you are like this in the hospital?"

Ning Junyan said, "No, only to you."

Chen Yuncheng didn't speak, he could already see Ning Junyan's facial features clearly in the dark, he knew that the other party was looking at him with his eyes open.Not full of affection, but full of attention, as if he is the only one in the whole world worthy of his attention.

For a moment, Chen Yuncheng felt guilty for his rejection of Ning Junyan all this time, he said: "Do you really think our relationship can be maintained?"

Ning Junyan asked him back: "Why not?"

Chen Yuncheng touched Ning Junyan's eyebrows with his fingers, "We are all men."

Ning Junyan asked him, "Do you hate me?"

Chen Yuncheng shook his head, "How could I hate you?"

Ning Junyan said to him: "Come up, I'll talk to you."

Chen Yuncheng did not move.

Ning Junyan said again: "I don't know what to do. After so long, have I forced you to do anything?"

Chen Yuncheng finally got up and sat by the bed.

Ning Junyan moved to the middle of the bed, let Chen Yuncheng lie down beside him, and covered them both with the quilt.

Chen Yuncheng moved a bit, his body was a little stiff, "Why don't you even wear underwear?"

Ning Junyan said: "I don't want to wear it, this is my bed."

Chen Yuncheng also felt that his accusation was a little unreasonable, he moved to the side of the bed uncomfortably, thinking that he had just laid down on the bed, and he couldn't go back and leave immediately, so he could only say: "What do you want to say?"

Ning Junyan was lying on his side facing him, still holding his hand, "Do you like me?"

Chen Yuncheng was taken aback by his question. This question is a bit difficult to answer. Naturally, he likes it, but it is difficult for Chen Yuncheng to say what kind and to what extent he likes it.Up to now, his feelings for Ning Junyan are definitely not so much love, otherwise he would not want to keep a distance from Ning Junyan as soon as possible, but if you ask him if he has ever been tempted, and he doesn't want to lie to himself, then there must be Yes, and more than once.

But heartbeat may not necessarily turn into love, nor is it because of one or two heartbeats that two people must come together. After all, people are not just animals manipulated by emotions, but also rational.

Chen Yuncheng didn't answer his question, Ning Junyan was not impatient, and asked another question: "Have you ever liked anyone else? Whether it's a man or a woman?"

"No," Chen Yuncheng answered very simply this time.

Ning Junyan moved closer and kissed his temples, and asked him, "If it wasn't for me, who would you be with?"

Chen Yuncheng said: "I don't know." After finishing speaking, he added, "Maybe it's an ordinary woman."

"What kind of woman?" Ning Junyan asked him.

Chen Yuncheng still said: "I don't know, I haven't thought about it carefully, just be ordinary, you don't need to be too outstanding, and you don't need to be too excellent."

"Why?" Ning Junyan's voice was very soft, with a rare soft tone.Although the breath smelled of alcohol, the order of every sentence was very clear.

Chen Yuncheng felt that he inserted his fingers one by one into his own and clasped them tightly, saying: "It's not for any reason, I just think it suits me."

"Have you ever met such a woman?" Ning Junyan asked.

Chen Yuncheng was silent, he was seriously thinking about it, in fact, he had encountered it before, and there were more than one.Someone expressed meaning to him, a vague hint, and he understood it, but did not take any further action.Obviously she is the girl he thinks is suitable for him, but he has never been tempted.

Ning Junyan seemed to know his answer, "Why are you not together, isn't it your choice?"

Chen Yuncheng could no longer answer with the words inappropriate. He felt a little embarrassed and wanted to get up and leave, but Ning Junyan put his arms around him and said to him: "Yuncheng, I am the most suitable person in the world." Your people, you can't leave me, and you can't leave me. You dare not answer my question, you know you are moved by me. "

"I didn't," Chen Yuncheng subconsciously denied.

Ning Junyan put one palm in front of his beating heart, and said firmly, "I asked it, and it said you have it."

Chen Yuncheng couldn't help laughing, "Ning Junyan, you're drunk."

Ning Junyan said: "It's okay, you will love me more and more, just like I love you, and we will be together forever."

Chen Yuncheng suddenly felt curious, he asked Ning Junyan: "If you hadn't met me, what would you do now?"

Ning Junyan said: "Just fall asleep on this bed alone, work, eat, and sleep every day, and die alone without emotion."

Chen Yuncheng was a little startled, he asked: "It must be me?"

Ning Junyan nodded, "Only you."

They haven't seen each other for 16 years, how did these 16 years come, and where did Ning Junyan's strong feelings come from? Chen Yuncheng didn't ask, and he didn't dare to ask.He is always soft-hearted. Once the other party expresses too much affection, he will feel unable to bear it. At the same time, when he feels that he cannot return the same affection, he can't help but want to run away.

There are heartbeats, debts, and many other things. When he was young, he depended on each other for life, and when he was separated, he was reluctant to part. His feelings for Ning Junyan were too complicated to be summed up by the simple word "like", and Ning Junyan And unlike those girls who showed affection to him before, for the first time, he felt that he couldn't escape.

Ning Junyan hugged him, rubbing his forehead against the side of his face, Chen Yuncheng's heart was beating violently, he reached out and groped under the quilt, and held Ning Junyan.Ning Junyan stopped suddenly, and looked at him with wide eyes in the dark.

Chen Yuncheng was too nervous, his throat was so dry, he said, "Didn't you tell me to touch it?"

Ning Junyan lowered his head and kissed him hard on the neck, breathlessly said: "Well, it likes it very much, do you feel it?"

Chen Yuncheng was really not used to talking to him like this, so he closed his mouth and eyes.When Ning Junyan's hand touched his lower abdomen, he immediately bent his legs together and said, "No." He didn't let Ning Junyan touch him.

Ning Junyan didn't force it, and said softly: "Okay."

Chen Yuncheng felt that Ning Junyan's kisses kept falling on his side face and neck, and his breathing became more and more unsteady. Even in the dark, he still felt unspeakably shy, so he raised his other arm and put it on his own. on the eyes.

He couldn't see anything, he could only hear with his ears. Ning Junyan's breathing sound was too obvious to ignore no matter what, it spread in all directions in the spacious bedroom, hit the wall and returned to his ears.

The kissing also became intense and unstructured.

It was the passionate voice of an adult man, and Chen Yuncheng suddenly heard his own breathing in it, which was also full of emotion, hot and strong.

He held his breath in fright for a moment, not wanting Ning Junyan to hear himself breathing like that.

Ning Junyan's voice was hoarse, and he called his name in his ear: "Yuncheng."

A thin layer of sweat broke out from Chen Yuncheng's body, his heartbeat became more and more violent, and he almost couldn't stand it anymore.Until the moment he felt his palms wet, he threw off the quilt and got out of bed, and left Ning Junyan's room as quickly as if he was running away.