Be Dazai's mother

"Hey - Ye Zang! Where did you hide?"

Vaguely, I heard someone's voice, and the name called by the other party was someone I was unfamiliar with.

Either way, that's nothing to do with me now.I opened my eyes—and then let out a very low, suppressed cry at that moment.

So scary, so scary, so scary...

The scene of the city being burned, everyone running away crying, and countless people struggling to die in despair flashed through my mind.It was really a hell-like scene, no, even the Avici Hell described by ordinary people is far less than one or two.

In the face of the real tragedy, no matter how it is described, it cannot describe one ten-thousandth of it, and any superfluous description will appear extremely ridiculous and naive.

The fragile life was instantly devoured in the face of the disaster, and unspeakable despair and pain flooded my body in an instant, making the soul bound inside struggle and wail.

On the night when I watched Mei's family move out of Fuyuki City, and was thinking about going to enjoy cherry blossoms with Aji tomorrow, something like black mud swallowed everything in an instant.No matter how hard I struggle and run, there is no way to escape.

I thought I was dead at first, but I didn't expect that I was still alive.This made me wonder, or am I actually dead and just consciously lingering on this land?

I was trembling all over, and my calf even twitched slightly, and I couldn't even shed tears under the excessive fear.

Under the malice of the entire huge world, we all seem too weak. Under such despair, any struggle seems childish.

I gasped violently, feeling deep fear and despair for the tragedy I just faced.But when I was struggling in despair, I suddenly realized a very important question - what about Azhi?

I tried to struggle out of the fear just now, but my body was still shaking, and there was a strong desire to vomit from within.I turned around and retched, but I couldn't vomit anything, I just kept shaking.

"Are you okay?" Suddenly, a childish voice came from beside me.

"Azhi!" I raised my head in surprise and shouted, but it was not the Azhi I was familiar with, but another child with red hair.

He was wearing a simple kimono, and his golden eyes were supposed to be a bright color, but for some reason, there was a dull color in his eyes, not to mention the red hair, which was extremely eye-catching. However, this boy gives people a gloomy and treacherous feeling, and people can't help but frown, even though he is smiling at me, the smile is so awkward no matter how you look at it, it seems to be forced The smile on the clown's face.

I don't know how long he has been here. I was immersed in fear and didn't notice the existence of this boy at all.He squatted beside me and asked as if worried: "Do you need help?"

For some reason, I felt an aura very similar to Azhi from this person, which made me let go of all my guard and said, "I'm looking for my son Azhi."

The boy propped his face, looked at me with an extremely soft, mask-like smile, and said, "Well, if you don't mind, let me help you find it?"

"After all, this is my home. If I come to look for it, it should be easier to find it." As he said this, he smiled brightly as if he was very happy that he could be useful.

"Your home?" I asked blankly.It may be that he has just been soaked in black mud, and his mind is still a little unclear.

The child nodded and said, "My name is Oba Yozo, why did you show up at my house? I don't think I've seen you before. Could it be that you are a new maid?"

As Ye Zang's voice fell, I felt a slight change in my body, and the daily attire I was wearing also changed into a maid's attire.

I was a little surprised in my heart, but I couldn't express this surprise directly, so I could only say calmly, "I'm Xingzi."

Ye Zang continued to ask, "What's your surname?"

"Dazai." I said, "Sachiko Dazai."

This surname made Ye Zang look almost blank, but it only lasted for a moment, and he returned to the mask-like but vaguely sad smile just now, and Ye Zang said: "Well, it's a good name." .”

"Dazai...Sachiko." He murmured the name in his mouth.

"That means your son is called Osamu Dazai?" Ye Zang changed the subject, and said in a very understanding way: "I'll help you find out, what does he look like?"

He didn't ask me why a maid brought my son here, he just said very sweetly that he would help me find someone, and asked me what Azhi looked like.

No matter who you are, you can't help feeling Ye Zang's thoughtfulness and delicacy. Ye Zang's character of putting himself into others' shoes is enough to make people indulge in his tenderness, and can't help but confide their inner things to him.

I told Ye Zang about some of Aji's general characteristics, such as being thin and thin with many bandages wrapped around his body.

"Also, Azhi has a feeling that he is very similar to you." I raised my mouth unconsciously, and said, "If the two of you meet, you must be able to recognize him as Azhi at the first sight. "

"Like me...?" The smile on Ye Zang's face seemed to froze for a moment. He opened his mouth and struggled a few times like a dying goldfish. There was a vague fear like foam in his eyes. Then that fear disappeared completely, leaving only a kind of dullness in his eyes.

Seeing his appearance, I couldn't help thinking of Azhi again, and couldn't help asking worriedly: "Sorry, did I say something wrong?"

Ye Zang came back to his senses, kept waving his hands at me, and said with a smile: "Oh, if that's the case, I'm really interested. Could it be that I have a twin brother?"

He smiled like this, the expression on his face seemed to be engraved on it.

Now I even forgot my own fear, I just stretched out my hand worriedly and shouted: "Ye Zang?"

"Huh?" Ye Zang looked at me suspiciously.

"..." After all, he is just a strange child, no matter how similar he is to Azhi, I can clearly understand that Ye Zang is not Azhi.

Thinking of this, I withdrew my hand, looked at him with a calm expression and said, "You don't seem to be feeling well."

Ye Zang touched his face, smiled dryly, and said, "Oh, I had a strange dream last night. I dreamed that there was a toilet in front of me! I couldn't help but urinate so badly." I don’t think I woke up in the middle of the night and found that I peed my pants. I was afraid that the nanny would find out and make fun of me, so I secretly ran to wash it by myself. After washing for a long time, the smell dissipated. Under such torture, of course I Didn't sleep well."

As if suddenly realizing that he had said something embarrassing, Ye Zang immediately covered his mouth in embarrassment, and said, "I'll only tell Sachiko, but don't tell others."

"Hmm." I replied vaguely, and said with some helplessness: "You can do a good job of washing the quilt by yourself instead of throwing it to others."

"...haha." Ye Zang touched the back of his head, showing a bright smile.

"You and Azhi are really similar in some places." I lowered my eyes, looked at Ye Zang softly, and said, "Don't force yourself too much, okay?"

Ye Zang looked at my face blankly, scratched his cheeks, and laughed a few times, but the voice he spoke to me revealed a vague uneasiness.

"Well, I know."

"Speaking of it." Ye Zang's eyeballs rolled, he changed the subject again, and said, "Miss Sachiko loves her child very much." As he said this, he obviously looked a little older than Aji, But it seems that there is an adult soul in that body.

"Yeah." I lowered my eyes and said, "Even if it is clear that the child's nature is not in the range that I can accept before, I still can't let him go."

From the moment I grabbed that hand, I didn't have any reason to back down.

But even so, the weight of life is still so heavy, making me choose to turn a blind eye as if I was afraid of that weight, pretending that I don’t know Azhi’s nature, he is still my good boy, and let Azhi stand in front of me Suppress your own nature.

I clearly know that this is wrong, but I am afraid of the future where the lives of other innocent people must be trampled under my feet for Aji.

With hesitation, apprehension and uneasiness in my heart, I thought about clarifying this matter with Aji when I watched the cherry blossoms with him, but I was selfishly praying that tomorrow would come later.

Maybe it was retribution. Aji and I were swallowed up by something terrible before we could watch the cherry blossoms together tomorrow.

...No, it would be too disrespectful to the others who lost their lives in that disaster if you think so.Such a thought seems too arrogant, and it also makes the struggle of those who died look ridiculous.

The more I thought about it, the heavier my heart became, and finally I just raised my head and said with a sad expression: "No matter what, I love that child and want to be his mother will never change."

Ye Zang looked at me quietly, and after a while he smiled and said, "That's great, you are a good mother."

"...Hmm." I don't know if it's my illusion, I always feel like I noticed an indescribable negative emotion in Ye Zang just now.

"Hello—Yezang!" Someone called again from outside.Ye Zang raised his head to look at the source of the sound, smiled innocently like an ordinary child, and said, "Someone is looking for me, I have to go out, and I will help Xingzi find out where your son is after I go out." of."

Saying so, Ye Zang ran outside.

The laughter of children could be heard faintly outside.

"Ye Zang, why do you come out when I call you? We are playing hide and seek."

"Huh? I thought it was over, so I called me. Didn't expect it to be over? Wow!"

"Hahahaha Ye Zang, you are such an idiot! Alright! You were the first to be caught, this time you come to be a ghost."

"Okay, okay, let me be the ghost this time."

Ye Zang's laughter came from far away, like a curse sound, it made me feel deeply uneasy.

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Ye Zang said that he couldn't find Azhi, and I searched this family's house for a long time but couldn't find that familiar figure.This made me start to wonder if I was the only one who survived?

...No, definitely not, Aji must still be alive.

I thought for sure.

But before that, I have to figure out why I am here.

Relying on the time I spent at the Tsushima family, I quickly integrated into the big family. No one here seemed to have doubted my existence, and they all naturally recognized me as the new maid, Sachiko.Before I could even say anything, they approached me intimately and asked, Sachiko, where did you go just now?

This kind of weird thing made me start to wonder if I accidentally broke into some illusion again.

Anyway, the only thing that worries me is Aji, I have to find him quickly.

If this place is really an illusion or something similar, then the core of this place——I looked at Ye Zang, who was surrounded by everyone, and he was gesticulating things to everyone with a smile on his face. His jokes were amused, he held his stomach and laughed, some of them laughed exaggeratedly and even shed tears.

I, who was sweeping the floor with a broom, couldn't help but stop, and looked in the direction where they were.Maybe because he noticed the sight from behind, Ye Zang turned his head to see me, smiled happily and said, "Really, why are you laughing at me?"

I was silent, for some reason I felt that among the laughing crowd, only Ye Zang, who kept gesticulating in funny poses, seemed to be crying.

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At the same time, on the other side, Osamu Dazai woke up from a coma.When he woke up, he didn't open his eyes immediately, Dazai Osamu's breathing didn't even change, it still looked calm.

What happened in the end?

There was a stabbing pain in the head, Dazai Osamu endured the pain as if nothing had happened, and continued to organize his thoughts.

That night, he suddenly felt that something was wrong, but thinking about the promise he had made with Sachiko, he finally suppressed this uneasiness in his heart.

Waiting for tomorrow, as long as tomorrow comes, and watching the cherry blossoms with Sachiko...he is ready to leave Sachiko's side.

This is not something incomprehensible, Osamu Dazai thought so, he and Sachiko are not the same people after all.If you don't want to continue destroying Sachiko's happiness, then stay away from her.

...that's how it should have been.

But that night, indescribable malice eroded the entire Fuyuki City, turning this originally peaceful place into a purgatory on earth, with burning everywhere, large areas of buildings collapsed, and the cries of children mixed with people's cries for help. Break through everyone's inner defenses.

At that time, Sachiko hugged him tightly and wanted to escape, but unfortunately they were all swallowed up by the black mud pouring in the next second.

Back to the present, although he has not yet opened his eyes, Osamu Dazai still analyzed that the place where he is now is neither Fuyuki City nor a hospital.At the same time, there seemed to be a few people standing beside him.

"That means this kid is the Dazai of the parallel world?" An unfamiliar voice with a Kansai accent.

"It's unbelievable, the Dazai in the parallel world looks nothing like the Dazai in our world." Another strange voice said.

"I'm really curious what we are like in the parallel world, aren't you? Ango." The man with a Kansai accent said so.

"No matter which world Odasaku is in, he must love curry." The man named Ango laughed.

"Hahahaha, I don't know if there is a lupin bar in that world?" Oda Saku also laughed along with him.

After laughing for a while, the two suddenly fell silent, and said to someone in the room: "Secretary, let the two of us go into "No Longer in the World"."

The woman who was called the secretary said: "Oda-sensei, Ango-sensei, I can understand your feelings, Dazai-sensei, please--"

Before the secretary continued to say anything, she suddenly uttered an unbelievable voice: "Wait?! Why is someone already in "Disqualification in the World"?"

A certain intuition made Osamu Dazai open his eyes. He looked at the three people in front of him and asked, "Where is this place?"

Most importantly—where did Sachiko go?