President of Zhuma PK

The gorgeous fireworks burst into bloom at the moment when the old year enters the new year, filling the sky with splendor and brilliance.

The five characters made up of countless colored light spots were overwhelmingly pressed down, hitting Song Ci's eyeballs, his brain, and his heart.

A heart jumped almost to the throat.

Song Ci looked in surprise at Li Fan who was walking towards him.

Is what Li Fan wants to express is what he thinks?Or is he being self-indulgent?The "I love you" that Li Fan said is the love of friends, the love of brothers?

Song Ci was about to speak when Li Fan pressed his index finger to his lips and made a "shh" motion.

Song Ci quietly watched him walking towards him, behind him was the dark night and the sky full of fireworks.

Li Fan took out an mp3 that was exactly the same as before from his pocket, plugged in the earphones, put the earphones into Song Ci's ears, and pressed the button to play.

Song Ci first heard two throat-clearing coughs, and then Li Fan's deep and pleasant voice.

"Song Ci, I'm Li Fan.

I also recorded such a passage in the previous mp3. I am looking forward to hearing it but afraid of you hearing it, because I don’t know how you will react after hearing that passage, so I mixed that recording In hundreds of songs.

When you told me that the mp3 was lost, I was both disappointed and thankful.

You asked me what I recorded in it, and I said I will tell you in person later.

At that time, I really planned that, and I wanted to tell you the words buried in the deepest part of my heart.

But it turns out that I am not as brave as I imagined, and I am too afraid of losing you.

I was worried that I would speak incoherently and not convey my meaning, so I still adopted this method and recorded what I wanted to say to you in the mp3.

The version you are hearing now is about my hundredth recording.

Our first encounter was not at all pleasant.

At that time, I was a rebellious middle school boy, cynical and full of hatred. I felt that I was the most miserable person in the world and wanted to destroy everything.

At that time, you were a hedgehog with thorns all over your body, erecting thorns all over your body anytime and anywhere, stabbing everyone close to you.

In my eyes at that time, you were an out-and-out aggressor, intending to take away the only things I had-a rotten alcoholic adoptive father, and a musty-smelling run-down house.

For me at that time, it was a moment of life and death. If I didn't drive you out, I would be the one who was driven out.

The methods I used seem very naive and ridiculous now, but in the process of confronting you, I gradually discovered that the two of us are too similar, and you seem to be another me in this world.Very occasionally, I start to feel sorry for you.Of course, I didn't realize this at the time.

Then, that happened.

Our lives were completely rewritten that day.

We fled together and started a new life together in a strange city. With our home, we began to let go of our prejudice and hostility towards each other, and we got closer and depended on each other.

Relying on each other—this word is really desolate and inexplicably makes people feel happy.

After that upheaval in childhood, I finally tasted happiness again.

Although life is extremely difficult, I don't feel bitter at all, because I always believe that as long as I work hard and work harder, we will surely be able to live a happy life like other people in this world.

We became fake brothers, we became friends, but closer than friends. At that time, my definition of our relationship was "relatives", "relatives" without blood.

But later, I found out that I was wrong, on the day you were hospitalized in an emergency.

I will never forget that day as long as I live.

I've never been so scared, I was shaking with fear.

I thought at the time, if you die, there is no point in living for me.

It was at that moment that I suddenly realized that I didn't regard you as a relative. When I was ignorant, you had already taken root in my heart, and I had already put you in the position of a lover. Life and death depend on each other lover.

But I dare not let you know.

You are the cloud in the sky, I am the mud on the ground, I am not qualified to have such a good you.

I hide my feelings for you in the most secret place of my heart, and I dare not let you discover any clues.

Later, we moved and slept in the same bed.

We fell asleep hugging each other, and woke up hugging each other, inseparable.

I was so happy that I went to heaven, but I also fell into hell in pain.

The desire to have you is so strong that it cannot be suppressed, but I am not qualified to have you.

After all, the paper can't contain the fire, and I showed my flaws, so I lied to you, lied to you that I like girls, and lied to you that I liked someone else.

You believe it.

You never doubted my words.

Fortunately, everything finally turned around.

Because of He Lianying, I am no longer a humble waiter in a nightclub, I have a decent job with a bright future.

You'll never know how happy I was the moment I got the contract, for nothing but because I was finally entitled to have you.

But confessing is not an easy task, because the risk to be taken is too great, and I am afraid that I will lose you.

I can only continue to endure.

However, I didn't hold back for long.

The ones who made me make up my mind to confess my love were Lang Yantao and Tong Zhuo.

The first time Lang Yantao saw you, he never forgot you. He reminded me of many people, Ye Hanjiang, An Xu, Qin Song, Ren Sikai... You are too kind and easy to be coveted. People snatch it.

And Tong Zhuo, his story inspired me, since he can pursue Lin Xun desperately, why can't I muster up the courage to confess to you?It doesn't matter if I get rejected in the end, I still have a lifetime to pursue you.

Most importantly, I think you might like me too.

You rely on my arms, you agree to my unreasonable requests without hesitation, you act like a baby to me, the way you look at me...all these make me feel that you like me a little bit.

So, I have to confess to you.

Song Ci, forgive me for being so timid, it took me so long to tell you my feelings for you; forgive me for being so stupid, I can only let you hear what I want to say in this way; forgive me for everything I have done , if that's not what you want.

But I still want to say, I like you, no, I love you, in this world, I love you the most, no one can compare with you, not even myself, I am willing to do anything for you, even if burnt It doesn't matter if it becomes a handful of ashes.

If you don't love me now, it doesn't matter, don't tell me, don't abandon me, let me stay by your side, one day, I will make you fall in love with me.

If you love me too, come and hug me and give me a kiss.

Song Ci, I love you. "

The sound in the earphones stopped.

At some point, Song Ci was already in tears.

He took off his headphones and heard the sound of the wind, the sound of fireworks, the sound of love.

Tears blurred his eyes, making him unable to see Li Fan's face clearly.

Raising his hand to wipe away his tears, Li Fan's face became clear, he was smiling, full of anticipation and anxiety.

Song Ci took a step forward, stretched out his hand to climb Li Fan's neck, closed his eyes, raised his head and kissed him.

When the lips touched each other, warm water dripped on Song Ci's face.

Those were Li Fan's tears.

They embraced silently and kissed each other tenderly.

Tears slipped into his mouth, bitter and astringent, just like Song Ci's mood at the moment.

It should be the happiest and sweetest moment, but my heart seems to be soaked in sea water, bitter, drifting, unable to dock.

Maybe it's because the journey is too difficult, maybe it's because too much time is wasted to hesitate, maybe it's because all this is illusory like a dream that never wants to wake up...

After the lingering kiss, Li Fan raised his hand to wipe away the remaining tears on Song Ci's face, and said in a hoarse voice, "Is this really not a dream?"

Song Ci held his hand and put it on his heart, and said with a smile: "If this is a dream, it will be the most beautiful dream I have ever had in my life."

Li Fan looked at him with wet eyes, and asked cautiously: "So, you love me too, right?"

"You are so stupid, but I am even more stupid than you." Song Ci said, "Of course I love you, and I have fallen in love with you since a long time ago."

Li Fan asked, "Since when did you fall in love with me?"

Song Ci said: "On the second morning of our escape, I woke up on the bumpy train. I leaned on your shoulders, and the golden sun shone on us. I straightened up and looked at you who were still sleeping soundly. In an instant, you broke into my heart without warning. But I didn't notice it at that time. After we lived together, I fell in love with you bit by bit. Looking back, I was surprised that I was in I fell in love with you so early."

Li Fan's heart was so sad that he stretched out his arms to hug him, sighed, and said, "You are right, we are so stupid to waste so much time for nothing."

"It's not too late now." Song Ci wrapped his arms around his waist, leaned his head on his shoulder, and said, "Thank you for being so brave and taking this step."

Li Fan said, "Thank you for happen to like me too."

Song Ci suddenly came out of his arms, looked at him and said seriously: "I really disagree with what you said just now."

Li Fan asked, "Which sentence?"

Song Ci said: "I am not a cloud, and you are not mud, we are exactly the same person, and there is no one in this world who is more qualified to have me than you."

Li Fan smiled and said, "I was wrong, you can punish me."

Song Ci hugged him again and said, "I won't punish you, I don't want to."

Li Fan pressed a light kiss on the side of his neck and said, "I love you."

Song Ci said, "I love you too."

The two hugged each other for a long time on the rooftop before going downstairs holding hands.

When I got home, I took off my coat and went to bed, lay face to face, just quietly looked at each other without saying anything, but the corners of my mouth couldn't stop rising, and my heartbeat was unreasonably fast.

"Go to sleep." Li Fan said, "It will be dawn in five hours, so don't stay in bed on the first day of the new year."

Song Ci smiled and said "OK", but kept his eyes open, looking at him with a smile.

Li Fan leaned over to kiss his eyes, "Good night."

Song Ci then leaned over to kiss his lips, "Good night."

When he retreated, Li Fan followed, took his lips in his mouth and licked him gently, extremely lingering.

Song Ci was moved by his kiss, hugging his waist and clinging to his arms, feeling Li Fan's heartbeat and body temperature.

Passion-desire fermented in the interdependence of lips and tongue, Song Ci felt something hard on his lower abdomen, panicked, reached out his hand to Li Fan's chest, and turned his head to avoid his kiss.

Li Fan backed away a little, looked at him suspiciously, and asked hoarsely, "What's wrong?"

Song Ci adjusted his disordered breathing, gasped slightly and said, "I'm not ready...to do that."

Li Fan was stunned for a moment before he realized what Song Ci meant by "that matter". He smiled slightly, reached out to caress his hot face, and said softly, "Before you went to college, we wouldn't do that." thing."

Song Ci hesitated and said, "But you will work very hard."

Li Fan said, "It's okay, I can bear it."

Song Ci buried his face in his arms, "I'm sorry."

"Fool, it's not because of you, it's because I don't want to do it, I want to wait for you to grow up." Li Fan hugged him and patted his back lightly, "Hey, go to sleep."

Song Ci was silent for a moment, and said, "Li Fan, I love you."

Li Fan kissed his hair and said, "I love you too."