little uncle

After the Lunar New Year, before the seventh day of the lunar new year, a few good people in Zhou Hongyuan's class, led by Jiang He's mother, set up a self-study room like last year, calling on all the students to study by themselves.Although Jiang He is no longer the monitor of the class, he and his mother are still active in the front line of the class.Sometimes, Zhou Hongyuan felt that the mother and son were quite ridiculous.

Since the second year of high school, the seats in the class were changed, and Zhou Hongyuan and Jiang He no longer sat in the same seat. Maybe it was because both of them knew that they were not on the same path, or maybe it was because Jiang He, who was in the middle of the grades, felt resentment towards Zhou Hongyuan and gradually alienated him. Up to now, almost reduced to nodding acquaintances.On the contrary, Zhou Hongyuan has a very good relationship with Mei Ting now, and the two get together to talk from time to time.Or maybe it was because of this reason that Jiang He and him had a new rift, and they felt a little embarrassed when they ran into each other by chance on the road.In fact, it has only been more than a year since they talked about everything and stayed together every day, to now they completely parted ways.

Cheng Yu stayed at home alone, and when he thought that the long vacation would end soon, and he would go back to work to face Bao Donggua tomorrow, his heart would be empty.He lay down on the bed and read the magazine for a while, but couldn't read left and right, so he got up to tidy up.

Cleaning before the New Year is a tradition of Cheng Yu's family, so there is nothing to clean up now, Cheng Yu just cleaned the floor twice symbolically, then opened the door and entered Zhou Hongyuan's house.Cheng Yu usually seldom cleans Zhou Hongyuan. Firstly, he is busy with work and has no time. Secondly, he is not a person who is good at housework. What's more, Zhou Hongyuan has a bit of cleanliness and pedophilia. Nothing to sort out.Cheng Yu looked around his little nephew's room, rubbing his nose and worrying that he couldn't find anything to do. After thinking about it, he finally decided to stuff Zhou Hongyuan's three-piece bed suit into the washing machine to wash and change.

Cheng Yu sat on Zhou Hongyuan's bed, picked up the pillow, but suddenly felt an extremely uneven spot, Cheng Yu felt weird in his heart, thinking that with Zhou Hongyuan's extremely feathered personality, how could he bear the unevenness of his pillow?He undid the zipper on the pillow, reached in and touched it, but what he pulled out surprised him.

The first thing I took out was an old photo, with a frayed edge, and it looked like the kind that people often look at.Looking at the yellowed photo, Cheng Yu's heart suddenly sank.He said he was familiar with this photo, and he was familiar with it, and he said he was not familiar with it.What is familiar is that the boy standing by the Taihua Lake in high spirits is clearly himself.But this photo was so old that Cheng Yu almost couldn't recognize it for so long. That innocent, innocent, passionate person looking up at the starry sky was really himself, the self who had never adopted Zhou Hongyuan.This photo was carefully put into the album by Cheng Manhong, and Cheng Yu rarely had time to look through it, but Zhou Hongyuan didn't know when it was stuffed into his pillow.

Cheng Yu continued to touch the pillow, and then he took out his underwear, which was covered with layers of mottled.If Cheng Yu can still excuse Zhou Hongyuan after seeing Zhou Hongyuan's collection of his photos, then he is unforgivable now; , Those justifying words can no longer be logically self-consistent.

Cheng Yu seemed to be holding a rabbit in his chest, "thumping, thumping", he couldn't sit or stand, it was the first month of the month, but he was sweating profusely.

How did they get to this point?Is this a joke of fate or a punishment?

First meeting, adoption, care, upbringing, day after day, year after year, they are clearly the most ordinary days, and it is obviously the most ordinary family relationship, why did they suddenly change their taste?

No, that's not the case. This idea burst out in the flash, and then spread layer by layer along the past. The heat on Cheng Yu's body disappeared in an instant, and even his hands and feet began to feel cold. His heart pulsed towards the atrium, almost freezing him.It's not without clues, in fact, the show's feet have been exposed a long time ago, from the first time Zhou Hongyuan threw himself into his arms, from Zhou Hongyuan's deliberate show of weakness, from the difficult reconciliation between him and Wei Lai... the obvious answer , The past is vividly in sight, obviously all of this, he should have noticed it a long time ago, obviously all of this, he should have known it long ago.

Cheng Yu just felt that the room was so stuffy that he could hardly breathe.He took a few deep breaths, biting his lower lip until a rusty smell rushed into his mouth along the thin lip, until the thin oxygen was no longer enough to support him to stay here.

Cheng Yu couldn't hold on anymore, he hurriedly stuffed his underwear and photos back into Zhou Hongyuan's pillow, opened the door and went out.

He really didn't know what to do, no one could tell him, if the object of the child's puppy love was himself, if the person the child missed every night was the relative who raised him, what should he do as a parent.Should he kneel in front of him and swear to himself never to do it again?Or just tie him up and slap him a few times as a lesson?But no matter what I did, it was so embarrassing and embarrassing.Cheng Yu covered his face, he would rather never have entered this bedroom, he would rather not know about it.

Zhou Hongyuan was already his only relative in this world. Although he was raising Zhou Hongyuan, why didn't Zhou Hongyuan take care of him?They survived the poorest and most difficult days together, and moved together from a small one-bedroom house to this spacious and bright home. They once broke one dollar into two flowers, and once ate a popsicle , drank a bowl of noodles... they cuddled each other in countless thunderstorm nights, they went hand in hand in the torment of time and time again...

They have experienced so much together, so much that Cheng Yu's mind is full of images of his little nephew. They spent days and nights together, and every random glance from the river of memories is the image of each other.

It is impossible for Cheng Yu to give up on Zhou Hongyuan. He has devoted too much effort and affection to Zhou Hongyuan. His little nephew is his biggest concern in this world and also the softest corner of his heart.But what about the future, what should they do in the future?Cheng Yu didn't know if Zhou Hongyuan was born with it, but even if Zhou Hongyuan was, he wouldn't mind, as long as Zhou Hongyuan was happy.But the person Zhou Hongyuan likes is actually himself, which is really ridiculous.He can accept that his little nephew is with a man, and he is not afraid of gossip and criticism, but he cannot accept the man he raised, and misses himself all the time.

Cheng Yu anxiously walked round and round in the living room. As he walked, it was getting dark.

When Zhou Hongyuan returned home, the light was not turned on in the living room. He felt a little weird in his heart, and turned on the light with a "snap", only to see his little uncle slumped on the sofa with his eyes open.The sudden light made Cheng Yu a little uncomfortable, he stretched out his hands to cover his eyes, as if he wanted to block the glare of the light, but also as if he just didn't want to see Zhou Hongyuan.

Zhou Hongyuan's heart trembled, an ominous premonition surged in his heart, he moved his eyes away awkwardly, not looking at Cheng Yu, just called "Uncle" and stopped talking, and went back to the room with his schoolbag.

With just one glance, Zhou Hongyuan knew that Cheng Yu must have come in; with one glance, he saw the strangeness on the pillow.He beat a drum in his heart, "Bang Dang", "Bang Dang", every beat resonated in his chest, and even his whole body was shaking here with the huge sound.He slammed the door open but unlocked it, knowing that his little uncle would never come in tonight.

He picked up his pillow, touched the back, and then hugged the pillow in his arms, whimpering in his throat.

His most secret and filthy secret, his most hopeless and most longed-for feeling, was prying into the eyes of his most beloved and most attached person on such an unremarkable evening, on such a day without notice.Pain, struggle, shame and despair, all kinds of emotions, mixed with all kinds of warmth and happiness in the past, like fire and ice in his heart, ravaged him in turn.Tears rolled down from the corners of his eyes uncontrollably, one drop after another, all of which remained in the pillow full of filth.

He is like a tortured ant on a hot pot, and a dying sparrow in an ice cave, but he can't blame anyone, he can only blame himself.

That night, none of them mentioned the matter of eating, one was lying on the sofa and the other was lying on the bed, both in pain, but neither of them said a word.

There were a few moments when Zhou Hongyuan was on the verge of collapse, and Zhou Hongyuan would rather Cheng Yu run in and use the sharpest and meanest words to him hysterically, than Cheng Yu just lying there, saying nothing, doing nothing, neither scolding, He didn't complain, just like a doll without emotion, even if it is kind and tolerant, it has an arrogance that does not eat the fireworks of the world.Sometimes, the silent judgment is the most tormenting, and the punishment that does not know when will come is the most frightening.

But Zhou Hongyuan could only reap the consequences, chewing on the shame and enduring the fear.He knows Cheng Yu, of course he knows how much Cheng Yu cares about him, but he still doesn't know where Cheng Yu's bottom line is, he doesn't know what he thinks, his badness is completely exposed to Cheng Yu Before and after, whether Cheng Yu will regard himself as a child worthy of forgiveness, whether Cheng Yu will love himself as always.

Except for the disharmonious episode that night, their life went on as usual, and Cheng Yu would even get up half an hour earlier to prepare breakfast for Zhou Hongyuan as before... There was no cold reception as imagined, and even caring was offered at any time, everything was too sweet Normal, normal is like a memory valve installed on Cheng Yu's body, as long as the valve is closed, all problems will cease to exist.But in this pale and thin world, where can such a valve be found?It's just self-deception.Too normal is an abnormality in itself.

Cheng Yu doesn't blame Zhou Hongyuan, he only blames himself for being too slow, he only blames himself for being soft-hearted again and again, and falling into self-righteous self-justification time and time again.He can't blame Zhou Hongyuan, now is the most critical juncture, the division of arts and sciences in a week, the exam in a few months, all are boulders on the road of confession, he can't ignore them, he has to retreat steadily.

Zhou Hongyuan chose science without a doubt.In an old and dreary northern city like City J, most students and parents firmly believe in the twelve-character motto of "learn mathematics, physics and chemistry well, and travel all over the world without fear".Looking at the whole class, apart from a few students who couldn't keep up with the class, there was only one Kong Dezheng who had studied the text.In fact, Zhou Hongyuan didn't even realize Kong Dezheng's departure.These days, he has been devastated by his studies and worried about his family affairs. How could he have thought of distributing it to irrelevant and transparent people?It wasn't until Zhou Hongyuan suddenly realized that Kong Dezheng was no longer there that he felt a sense of emptiness in his heart in a trance.This is the end?New and old hatred, repayment of debts, are all completely emptied at this moment.

Spring is urging the cold winter, and it has returned quietly. The willows are gradually sprouting new buds, and as far as the eye can see, it is a delicate piece of fresh green.

Zhou Hongyuan sat at the desk and let himself go, when suddenly there was a knock on the door, the voice was very soft, as if worrying disturbed his lucid dream.Since that incident, Cheng Yu never entered Zhou Hongyuan's bedroom without authorization again. He knocked on the door carefully, just like he carefully maintained the superficial harmony and balance between his uncle and nephew.

Zhou Hongyuan opened the door with a wry smile. He saw panic and conflict in his uncle's eyes. After a few seconds, he changed into a firm and stubborn look, and said to himself, "Let's talk."

Zhou Hongyuan smiled, suddenly lost the panic he had before, and replied calmly, "What are you talking about, uncle."

"your future."

The author has something to say:

Thanks for reading, ok.At least until Zhou Hongyuan went to university, the uncle and nephew would not have violent conflicts, let alone part ways 2333333