little uncle

Zhou Hongyuan soon joined a large listed company in J City called Changyu.Since the development of Changyu, it has more than ten years of accumulation, and its operation is stable. Compared with Wanqing, which has just started, it is more standardized in all aspects.Changyu offered Zhou Hongyuan a lower position and annual salary than Wanqing, but correspondingly, the workload and complexity were far less than Wanqing's.

Zhou Hongyuan lived with Cheng Yu's parents. Gradually, his things filled up a small study room, which was very inconvenient. Cheng Yu had no choice but to make a compromise and let him sleep back to the old one. bedroom.

The days of two people are plain and peaceful.Zhou Hongyuan worked from nine to five, and his working hours were much more evening than Cheng Yu's, so he would send Cheng Yu to S University every morning, watch Cheng Yu leave before walking away.At first, Zhou Hongyuan drove his Maybach every day. Later, rumors gradually spread in Cheng Yu's school, and the students looked at Cheng Yu very strangely. , asked him if he had started a big company in private, otherwise how could there be a driver driving a luxury car to pick him up.Cheng Yu was very embarrassed by this, and the next day, when Zhou Hongyuan proposed to send him off again, he faltered and hawed, and it took a long time to say that Zhou Hongyuan's car was too eye-catching.Zhou Hongyuan had no choice but to change Cheng Yu's 10,000+ scooter. Only in this way, Cheng Yu was finally willing to let Zhou Hongyuan give it to him.

After Dr. Cheng Yu graduated, many teachers in the school took up his idea, one by one waiting to match him up.Cheng Yu couldn't shirk it, so he had no choice but to agree.Afterwards, he felt awkward again. After all, it's not like he didn't know Zhou Hongyuan's thoughts on him. What's more, Zhou Hongyuan is following behind him every day. Seeing him watching him really closely, how can he tell Zhou Hongyuan that he is going on a blind date? ?

On Friday, as soon as he got home, Cheng Yu began to frown.Zhou Hongyuan is such a good person, but after a while he sensed that something was wrong with Cheng Yu, deliberately put on a cute and pitiful appearance, lowered his head and asked Cheng Yu, "Uncle, do you have something to hide from me?"

Cheng Yu was worried about this matter at first, and immediately frowned after hearing Zhou Hongyuan's words, he bit his lip, and held back the untrue words, "Well, my colleague introduced a girl."

Zhou Hongyuan curled his lips and was stunned for a long time before saying, "Then, when are you going?"

Cheng Yu raised his eyes and looked at Zhou Hongyuan. Seeing that he did not object, he breathed a sigh of relief, "Let's have dinner together at noon on Saturday."

"Then I'll take it to you."

Just as Cheng Yu was about to say no, he met Zhou Hongyuan with a gloomy little expression. For a moment, he could not utter the words of refusal and swallowed them back.

On the second day, Cheng Yuben was still a little worried, for fear that Zhou Hongyuan would do something wrong and make the woman unable to get off the stage, but Zhou Hongyuan didn't even get out of the car, but parked the car in the parking space, and said to himself helplessly, " Uncle, I am waiting for you here."

Seeing his appearance, Cheng Yu felt nervous and said, "You don't have to wait for me, I can go back by myself after I finish eating."

Zhou Hongyuan refused, and only said that he would feel at ease only by waiting for him.

Cheng Yu's heart trembled, and he walked into the shopping mall with three steps.He easily found the agreed restaurant.After waiting for a while, Su Juan arrived.Su Juan, who looks 35 and six years old, learned from her introducer that she had experienced a flash marriage and divorce.

Su Juan teaches modern Chinese at the Provincial Normal University opposite to S University. She looks delicate and elegant, with a gentle and gentle voice.Cheng Yu hadn't had dinner alone with a woman for a long time, so he couldn't help being a little nervous, so he reservedly called her Teacher Su, and Su Juan also followed suit, calling Cheng Yu Teacher Cheng.

Although the dishes were delicious, Su Juan was also an excellent female companion, but Cheng Yu had Zhou Hongyuan in his heart, worried that he would be hungry in the car at one moment, and worried that he would get bored waiting at another moment, so he was restless after a meal.Su Juan was not young, she was very good at reading words and expressions, and after spying out Cheng Yu's ecstasy, she stopped making fun of herself, and suggested that she had something to go home after dinner.

Cheng Yu naturally agreed. After paying the bill, he ordered another dish to take away, and then trotted all the way back to the parking lot. As soon as he approached, he saw Zhou Hongyuan frowning looking out of the car at himself.

Cheng Yu's heart seemed to be squeezed a few times, he opened the car door, sat on the passenger seat, put the packing box in Zhou Hongyuan's hand, and said, "Are you hungry?"

Zhou Hongyuan looked down at Cheng Yu's packaged dishes, and said in a low voice, "I don't want to eat dishes that others have eaten." Both of them knew who the others were talking about.

Cheng Yu couldn't bear it, reached out and touched his head, "I know, I ordered this for you."

Only then did Zhou Hongyuan feel relieved, he gave a forced smile, and started to gobble it up.Halfway through eating, he raised his head as if suddenly remembering something, and asked Cheng Yu cautiously, "Uncle, do you like her?"

Cheng Yu bit his lip. Looking at Zhou Hongyuan's cautious and careful attitude, a subtle emotion surged in his heart. It doesn't matter whether he likes Su Juan or not. Without Su Juan, there will always be another one.But what is he doing now?While using Zhou Hongyuan as a driver and nanny this week, and at the same time going on a blind date in front of Zhou Hongyuan, what is the difference between playing with others' feelings and yourself?He clearly knows that Zhou Hongyuan likes and loves him, and lives with Zhou Hongyuan without any shame. He accepts Zhou Hongyuan's kindness to him every day, but he can't give Zhou Hongyuan what he wants.What is it that you look like yourself?

Cheng Yu lowered his eyes, entangled, distressed, and struggling. Various emotions were tangled in his heart, which could no longer be torn apart.He didn't know how he could become such a person, so selfish and cowardly.Even if Zhou Hongyuan keeps saying that he doesn't ask for anything, even if Zhou Hongyuan is happy with all the dedication and pain, there are two problems between Zhou Hongyuan not asking for anything and Cheng Yu turning a blind eye to Zhou Hongyuan's wishes.

Cheng Yu took a deep breath, looked at Zhou Hongyuan, and said slowly, "Hongyuan, or you should move out."

Zhou Hongyuan was stunned for a few seconds, his hand holding the disposable chopsticks trembled slightly, and then buried his head deeply until Cheng Yu couldn't see the expression on his face clearly, and then sucked. Sniffing and saying, "Well, Uncle, what you say is what you say."

Along the way, neither of them spoke.Cheng Yu looked at the scenery outside the window retreating a little bit, and suddenly felt his nose sore.He has just resumed his previous relationship with Zhou Hongyuan, he has just found a relative, so this is the way to push Zhou Hongyuan away?

But if they don't push it away, what can they do?Do I want to spend Zhou Hongyuan's life without getting married for the rest of my life?Or are they going to be together forever?

This thought made Cheng Yu's hair stand on end, and a strange emotion surged through his blood vessels.His skin became red and hot from this shocking thought, and it took a long time to calm down.What if you stay with Zhou Hongyuan for the rest of your life, or if you don't get married for the rest of your life?They are all poor people without a home, and they have nothing to worry about...

But can he really take this step?Did he really have the same feelings for Zhou Hongyuan?Can he really love Zhou Hongyuan one day?Cheng Yu felt his chest was tight, like a fire that was about to melt him.At this moment, he even had some self-defeating thoughts, if he could, wouldn't all problems be solved easily?

When Zhou Hongyuan returned home, he started to pack his clothes without stopping too much. Cheng Yu watched Zhou Hongyuan go in and out of the bedroom, and watched the dusty bedroom become empty again. His heart seemed to follow the bedroom. Empty, as if a part of him had been poached away.

The clothes in the closet were taken away one by one, the towels hanging on the balcony were also rolled up and stuffed into boxes, and even the toothbrushes lined up side by side in the bathroom were missing one.

Every time Zhou Hongyuan put away something, Cheng Yu's heart became a little more empty. It wasn't until Zhou Hongyuan erased all the traces of his life one by one, and it wasn't until everything returned to the original state that Cheng Yu came back to his senses. In the next second, he only felt that he had lost half of his heart.

Zhou Hongyuan stood at the entrance, put on his overcoat, carried the box he brought from Beijing, looked back deeply at Cheng Yu, then forced himself not to start, calmed down for a few seconds, and then slowly addressed Cheng Yu. Cheng Yu said, "Uncle, goodbye."

How can we say goodbye like this?

It was hard for them to get together, it was hard for them to reconcile, it was hard for them to cross a distance of [-] years and [-] kilometers, how could they see each other like this?

Cheng Yu looked at Zhou Hongyuan in disbelief. He didn't understand how Zhou Hongyuan could accept all this so easily. He didn't understand how Zhou Hongyuan, who could give up a job with an annual salary of several million and a career he had worked so hard for, could do so Accept this ending calmly and decisively, and leave without nostalgia.

How can he do this?

Cheng Yu bit his lip hard, almost bleeding without realizing it, while Zhou Hongyuan stood straight in front of the door, neither moving nor turning his head.It seems that they are waiting for a greeting, a retention, or a decent farewell.

Cheng Yu took one step forward, another step, a pair of dry and warm hands covered the back of Zhou Hongyuan's, his voice trembling, "No, don't be in such a hurry, you don't have a place to live yet—"

Zhou Hongyuan's shoulders trembled twice, and then he said quietly, "Uncle, I love you. If you want me to move away, I will never hesitate. As long as it is what you want, I am willing to satisfy it."

Cheng Yu's temples were throbbing, and there were two intertwined and tearing voices in his heart, one asking him to let go, the other forcing him to stay.He has always been an ostrich in love, if there is no strong medicine, he just wants to drag and hide, just like the countless days and nights in the past, without thinking about anything or making any decisions.Now, Zhou Hongyuan's decisiveness suddenly broke through his comfort zone and pushed him to the most difficult point to face. He had nowhere to escape or hide.

Zhou Hongyuan didn't dare to look back, he was afraid that if he turned around, he would never be willing to leave again, he was afraid that Cheng Yu's momentary hesitation and momentary intolerance would cause even greater pain in the future.

Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. He is willing to make this decision for Cheng Yu, and he is also willing to bear the pain and struggle of making these choices for Cheng Yu.

With a "click", Zhou Hongyuan opened the door. Cheng Yu wanted to grab his hand, but was in vain. Then, the straight back moved away a little bit. Finally, the thick anti-theft door brought the two of them together again. isolated.

Cheng Yu suddenly lost his strength, squatted down, and leaned softly on the door. He hugged his legs and buried his cheek deeply. What he didn't know was that Zhou Hongyuan also leaned on the door just across the door. In front of the door, I refused to leave for a long time.

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