little uncle

After being transferred to the ward, Cheng Yu woke up not long after, his eyes hadn't been opened yet, but his voice came out tremblingly, calling Zhou Hongyuan's name over and over again.

Zhou Hongyuan's heart seemed like a piece of fish on the chopping board, every call of Cheng Yu was a knife that he couldn't escape.He rushed forward, but he still didn't dare to touch Cheng Yu's body, instead he held Cheng Yu's hand tightly, "Uncle, Uncle, I'm here."

Cheng Yu pulled open his eyelids as if with all his strength, but his eyes were still blurred. After blinking a few times, he focused on Zhou Hongyuan's face, lingering at every expression of Zhou Hongyuan.Zhou Hongyuan's eyes turned red and he choked up, "Uncle..."

Cheng Yu forced a smile, "Don't worry, it's fine."

How can it be all right?The gallbladder is full of stones of different sizes, and the bile is almost gone. How can it be fine?Cheng Yu is always like this, no matter how hard or tired he is, he is used to carrying it alone, and he is unwilling to share the burden with Zhou Hongyuan, even if his nephew is now an adult, even if his nephew desperately wants to do more for him , Do a little more.

Cheng Yu saw Zhou Hongyuan's appearance of about to cry, and thought it was funny, so he held Zhou Hongyuan's hand, rubbed the back of his hand, and asked softly, "Does the doctor suggest removing the gallbladder?"

Zhou Hongyuan nodded, seemed to be worried about Cheng Yu's fear, but also seemed to be comforting himself, he stumbled and said, "Uncle, don't be afraid, I have asked about it. Now this operation is very mature and minimally invasive. After the operation, you will be discharged from the hospital in three to seven days. Uncle, don't be afraid, I will be right here to guard you, and will always guard you."

After hearing this, Cheng Yu's eyes lit up, and then a faint smile appeared from the corner of his mouth.The sunlight outside the window shined on Zhou Hongyuan's body through the light blue curtains. The light and shadow reflected Zhou Hongyuan's resolute cheeks. At this moment, Cheng Yu thought of a lot. He remembered that he had stayed by Zhou Hongyuan's side for countless nights. Said softly to him, "Don't be afraid, I'm right here, and I'll always be there for you."

At this moment, Cheng Yu had the real feeling that Zhou Hongyuan had really grown up, a mature, responsible man who gave people an infinite sense of security.Intermittent nausea, increasing pain, countless doubts and fears, and finally fainting in front of the teaching building in panic... At this moment, everything turned into tenderness.Cheng Yu couldn't help touching Zhou Hongyuan's hair, and said, "To tell you the truth, I was really scared at first, but now" Cheng Yu said and shook his head, "I'm not afraid at all."

What is there to be afraid of?A minimally invasive surgery that couldn't be more mature, removing the gallbladder, for him, just removed a bomb that had tortured him on and off for three years.What is there to be afraid of?Unlike the previous two hospitalizations, when he was depressed and lonely, now he had Zhou Hongyuan by his side, someone who worried about and feared him, no matter how much anxiety he had, it turned into a warm and at ease.

Zhou Hongyuan covered his eyes and squeezed out a sentence for a long time, "Uncle, you have to be good, and you have to punish me well for 50 years, no, 50 years is not enough, 60 years is needed."

Cheng Yu burst out laughing, with a gentle look on his face, he stroked Zhou Hongyuan's hair, and blinked at Zhou Hongyuan, "Why am I punishing you?"

Zhou Hongyuan turned his face away, neither dared nor deserved to see Cheng Yu's tolerant and benevolent expression.Zhou Hongyuan sniffed and said, "The surgery is scheduled for Sunday at nine o'clock in the morning."

Cheng Yu nodded.He was really not afraid, and he didn't want to worry about who performed the surgery and when.Zhou Hongyuan will arrange everything for him.A few years ago, Cheng Yu experienced the feeling of busying himself with his surgery once and never wanted to experience it again.Fortunately, Zhou Hongyuan finally returned to his side, which can be regarded as a complete success.

On Sunday, at nine o'clock in the morning, Cheng Yu entered the operating room, while Zhou Hongyuan stood numbly outside the operating room, and the seconds seemed like years.

Half an hour later, the anesthesiologist brought a form, and Zhou Hongyuan signed his name in a panic. The door was closed again. Zhou Hongyuan felt as if he had walked through hell for a whole time. He begged all the gods who could name him. Buddha, regardless of Buddhism, Taoism, Christianity, Eastern gods and Western gods, as long as Cheng Yu can be safe and sound, he believes in them all.

Even if it's just a minor operation, even if Zhou Hongyuan has grabbed doctors and nurses several times in the past few days to ask carefully, even if he has called all the doctors he knows, in Beijing, New York, and Washington, even if he calls thousands of times Check the website, even if reason tells him that this is just a minimally invasive operation.But fear is like a demon, standing beside Zhou Hongyuan, growing and expanding every second, devouring all his rationality and dragging away his soul.

In these three days, Zhou Hongyuan forgot who he was, let alone who he should be.He finally let go of those burdens and slept in a crowded ward, even sharing a room with three patients and two family members. His hair was messed up and his beard was growing in a mess. He didn't feel like going home to take a shower, let alone change. Clothes, shirts were crumpled around the body, trousers were full of creases.

Zhou Hongyuan didn't look in the mirror for a few days, and Zhou Hongyuan took a quick glance at himself at the glass beside the operating room, and then he realized that he had turned into this desolate and haggard look.At this moment, he suddenly remembered a sentence he had read many years ago, no matter who you are, as long as you stand outside the operating room, you will be the same.

The same anxiety, the same struggle, the same abjection, the same humbleness.

An hour later, the door of the operating room opened slowly, and the doctor walked towards Zhou Hongyuan with a tray. Zhou Hongyuan walked forward, his legs gave way, and he almost fell to the ground. He stabilized his mind, and only listened to the doctor, "Here, this is the original specimen." As he said, he turned the tray to Zhou Hongyuan to dry. Zhou Hongyuan just glanced at it, and felt terrified. The fear was like a pot of traditional Chinese medicine sprinkled on Zhou Hongyuan's heart, and it drilled out along the blood vessels one by one. Zhou Hongyuan shuddered from the pain.With a trembling voice, Zhou Hongyuan asked, "Doctor, is Cheng Yu okay?"

The doctor seemed a little impatient, "Okay, I can get out of bed almost at night, if there is no problem, I will be discharged in three days. The bed is tight."

Zhou Hongyuan nodded repeatedly. He still had a lot of questions to ask, but he didn't know where to start. He opened and closed his mouth several times, but finally chose to remain silent.

"Do you still want to see the stones?"

Zhou Hongyuan was startled and nodded.

The doctor raised the knife and pierced the gallbladder neatly. Thick, sticky pus and stones flowed half a plate along the knife edge.

Zhou Hongyuan frowned, subconsciously took a few steps back.

"There's so much pus, no wonder it hurts so much." The doctor shook his head again and again, and finally added, "It's time for an operation."

Zhou Hongyuan's face turned pale with fright, and he couldn't even speak. He collected himself, picked up the largest stone from the tray, wiped it with a paper towel, and held it tightly in the palm of his hand.

"You are right, I will pay more attention in the future."

Zhou Hongyuan leaned against the wall and sat on the ground almost limply.He was wrong, he was not careful enough, he was not hard enough, he did not give Cheng Yu enough faith to make Cheng Yu trust him and rely on him, all along, he was wrong.

Zhou Hongyuan tightly held the stone in his hand. It was a part taken out of Cheng Yu's body. It was a slap, a lesson, and an indelible disaster in his life.

It's all his fault.

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