REMIX

I stopped when I heard the sound, watching her back gradually move away from me, standing alone at the empty intersection, her long gray hair was blown up by the wind, like a layer of old snow.

She waved repeatedly and failed to stop a taxi. Instead, a flirtatious man in a convertible sports car approached her, put his arm wearing a diamond watch on the car window, and was chased away by her middle finger.

The scene was obscured by the white gas I exhaled.

I understand her persistence.

——It’s a pity that when I first met He Gu, it was his last solo performance in this life.

Too many things happened that night, reaching the maximum load that my memory can bear, and at the same time, it ended in a kind of satisfactory ending, ending a person's stubborn resistance to dreams for many years.

But we all understand that the ending should not be like this.

Even if He Gu, who is determined to be a bar owner, lives a prosperous and happy life, has the capital to settle down in this city, welcomes customers happily if he wants to do business, and closes the door and goes home and sleeps under a quilt when he is tired, he has everything.

But those sleeping instruments are still kept by him in the bar.He had clearly lost something, and he couldn't deny it.

I know that none of us are qualified to discuss the life chosen by others, just like why don’t interfere with whether the person I’m in love with is a man or a woman, and I’m not qualified to judge his abandonment, but each of us can see it—as long as We give him a hand.

If I can never hear him singing on stage again, I always feel that there is something missing when there are stories and wine.

One last time.I thought to myself, try one last time.

"Yo?"

We went back to Fei Na's studio, where there was a simple karaoke room that was only decorated with soundproofing.He Gu was already waiting there, and the bar might have closed early today.With his back to the floor-to-ceiling windows where the night was scattered, he didn't smoke or play with the keyboard. When he saw us coming back, he would chatter: "Hey, Goddess, what kind of color are you? Grandma Liu next door knows how to dye you in the dark." And it’s going backwards in history.”

"You know a ball."

Knowing his hobbies and hobbies, Fei Na unceremoniously threw her coat on some chairs scattered around the house, and rolled her eyes with a skillful roundness. "The knife is in my bag, let's just say whether it looks good or not."

"...It's still fatal to say it's not good-looking."

This woman who just shook me on the road and yelled "I don't care if I want to sing the song he wrote" is now calm as if she didn't hide a word of her heart.

"There are still 20 days to check the program. If you sing in chorus... just sing our old songs. You only need to practice a few times for the ready-made ones, so you will have more time. You still have exams for NO.19, don't you?"

Probably didn't think about how to mention that to He Gu. Fei Na flipped through my lyrics book, flipped a page back and forth between her fingers, and suddenly said, "Have you ever fought with someone? Just to give a rhythm Freestyle between two people, the one who forgets the words or is booed by the audience is the loser. The comparison is a test of improvisation, you are free to practice with me."

"it is good."

"I think the words you wrote are quite interesting..."

I took my notebook back and looked at the page I had just written, and found two or three rhymes that could be changed. "It's still the first draft, and I just got the arrangement at noon."

"Listen to me later?"

He Gu looked at Fei Na and then at me. He couldn't find his sense of existence other than his body shape at all, so he asked absentmindedly, "Then why did you call me here? To weigh the scales?"

"Sing your song, of course you will accompany it."

Fei Na snapped her fingers, "Come, "Expired Ticket"."

She shoves an old acoustic guitar into his arms and steps into the spotlight over the microphone boom.This sentence brought He Gu far more surprise than confusion, his thick black eyebrows furrowed for a moment, but he still took it, like a father who always remembers how to hold his child, and plucked the first string with hesitation .

"Who stole my moon that night

I can't catch up with her like running water can't hold the light

Every silent evening is a departing bird

This story is like a haggard garden untouched

You wait, wait until you are old, tears flood my chest

Don't get lost my girl"

I suddenly remembered a saying that I often hear, when a rapper sings, he can smash the previous rebellious world, and create a new one for you with a voice you have never heard before.

To be honest, Fei Na's voice is not very suitable for singing folk songs. Her voice lacks the irrigation of tenderness, unlike Qiao Xinxin, which contains rich emotions, and can be interpreted differently by different listeners.Her singing is not rich, even dry, but it is a kind of hoarse sentimentality, that kind of "voice with a story".

"Smash time, make it forget your appearance

Give me a ticket to tear away all the sorrow

Blame me for being too late and you stop docking for me

Your heart is far away that I can't reach

Girl, can you accompany me to feel sad after laughing

On the balcony that once belonged to you and me

The lights of the whole city can't find yours

It's going to rain, can I borrow your umbrella

Send me across the shore"

She wanted to find a feasible method - but it was the method she was least good at, trying to impress him.

"Why, I beg you," she said, "get on stage again."

"It's useless."

I stepped back to the side, seeing why I smiled and sighed. "...my silly girl."

"The time for me to waste has been wasted, it's time to do something that I should do at my age." He hung the guitar on the wall, "Maybe it's not my turn to say this, but there are countless people in this life." Yeah, get it? When you're young, let yourself go, and one day you'll feel it... It feels like it's over, and you have to go home no matter who gets in your way."

Fei Na couldn't refute, biting her lip made me want to help her, but I didn't have a more reasonable explanation.

Suddenly she moved, grabbed the back of the chair in the standing position, straddled He Gu's thigh with her long legs, and looked down at the man's frozen facial expression due to shock, her upper body was completely suppressed, a ray The long hair broke free from behind her ears, covering those charming and provocative eyes.

"'You should take care of yourself after how old you are', 'what kind of things you should do when you reach your age', where there are so many 'should', who taught you? I think you have to find so many excuses to give up, you deserve it Didn't get what I wanted. Fuck it."

She snorted, her tone was full of fierce contempt, but she looked at him with clear pleading eyes.

"For me, will it work?"

She didn't wait for He Gu's answer.

But I saw his hanging hand clenched tightly, as if he was grabbing something, and he didn't intend to let go.